There are only twenty cigarettes in a pack, and they will always be smoked, and when the last spark of the twentieth cigarette fell to the ground with the cigarette butt, I froze, Wu Lili was gone, and only the cigarette butts were scattered on the ground.

My mind was a mess and I started cursing at the goddamn traffic in Ice City. In fact, there have always been many hidden dangers in the traffic problems of Bingji City, especially for children. Wu Lili and I have met on the spot once, and I have heard no less than 10 similar accidents in which other children died in car accidents, but they have never attracted the attention of the relevant departments. If the measures are taken properly, even if the adults are careless, it can be completely avoided.

The time that happened to me at the beginning, I was reborn from the fire because of a blessing in disguise, so I am still a little lucky, but at the moment I am extremely hateful, because Wu Lili is dead. A kind and straightforward girl with no scheming was taken away by death like this.

I sat in front of Wu Lili's grave in this way, until the sun went down and the night fell, and the last line of red glow on the horizon was also swallowed up by the night, and several ominous birds, which symbolized death, crows, fluttered on the tombstones in the cemetery, singing mourning in a high-pitched and ugly voice, which made my heart even heavier.

It was already dark, the night was very dark, there was no light in the cemetery, there was no one living in the vicinity, it was so dark and silent that no one would come to worship at such a time. Countless dead people were buried under a cemetery in Nuoda, the breeze blew, the surrounding Anling trees made a rustling sound, and the shadows in the dense branches and leaves moved, which seemed a little weird, but I was not afraid, I just sat motionless with my knees crossed, I didn't know what I was thinking, it seemed that there was only a blank left in my head. Except for the heartbeat, I found myself like a dead man at this time. Even if someone passes by here, they won't find that I, the real person, am actually a living person.

Suddenly, there was a sound of footsteps, though very soft, but it was extremely harsh in this silent cemetery, and I was taken aback, and when I came back to my senses, the footsteps were getting closer and closer, coming towards me.

A dark night soon appeared in front of me, a ghost? She didn't notice my existence at all, and reached out to touch Wu Lili's tombstone.

I Huo Di stood up and said in a deep voice: "Who! ”

The black shadow was obviously startled, and was stunned for a moment before saying, "Is it Chen Lin?" ”

"Zhang Wen?" I sighed: "It's so late, you shouldn't come to this kind of place alone, it's too dangerous." ”

"I can't see Lili at home, I feel so uncomfortable, I can't help but come to see her......" Zhang Wen's voice became smaller and smaller, her shoulders twitched, and she suddenly threw herself into my arms and cried: "Lili, Lili, woo......"

I can understand the pain of losing my best friend, I didn't speak anymore, hugged her tightly, Zhang Wen couldn't cry, and I was just silent.

On May 16, 2005, a sad day, the night was especially dark, with no stars and no moon......

According to Zhang Wen, Wu Lili's grandfather immediately fainted after learning of his granddaughter's death, and after waking up, he began to become a little crazy and babbling nonsense. Zhang Wen and Wu Lili are neighbors, and they know each other very well, which is relatively reliable news, but as for where they went, no one knows.

This is the last thing I can hear about Wu Lili.

For the past two years, Wu Lili has been sitting in the seat in front of me, and although her table mate has changed one after another, her seat in front of me still can't be shaken. The first time the seat was adjusted in the class, it was she who "threatened" me to use the class leader's privilege to deal with the seating arrangement in this way. Later, every time I arranged the seating, I didn't need her to say a few words to the head teacher, and the head teacher would naturally not be satisfied with my little request for me, a genius student in his eyes.

But now the girl who had been sitting in front of me was suddenly gone, and the place where I raised my eyes became empty, and my heart seemed to be empty with it. When she was alive, she would always look back at me for no reason, or when I called her Pepper, she would hit the book on my desk with her arm and keep me busy for a while.

And I faintly discovered something even more terrible: I seemed to have more than brotherly affection for this "brother" of the opposite sex, her smile, gentle and even rude, not like a girl's movements and demeanor did not blur in my heart with her death, but on the contrary, it became clearer. I had a vague feeling that something about her had crossed the line of "brother".

I don't know if I'm amorous or abusive, and I don't have anything to say about the relationship between me and Sisi, but at the same time, there seems to be some entangled relationship between me and Zhang Wen, Li Xiao, and even the mysterious girl Murong Qian who met in Jiannan. Now, even Wu Lili, this girl I have always regarded as a brother.

But I have to admit that feeling, because it was a person who was no longer in this world, and I didn't have to deceive myself anymore.

Wu Lili's departure also took away a lot of our laughter, when I saw Sisi for the first time when I came back from the exam, her eyes were red and swollen from crying, Sisi is a girl with heavy feelings, and she has deep feelings for Wu Lili, who cares for her like a sister.

Needless to say, because Wu Lili and she grew up together since childhood, they are like sisters, and you can imagine how big the impact of this accident hit her.

Li Xiao and Shan Ruo were also uncomfortable, and during that time, Li Xiao rarely became very well-behaved, and it was because of this.

And Zhang Ke and I have been at the same table in high school for more than two years, and Wu Lili is also an old friend, after the incident, he and I occasionally talk and laugh in class, but once the topic of Wu Lili is accidentally involved, we will immediately be silent, the mood will drop to freezing, and then the atmosphere becomes very embarrassing.

Every weekend after that, I would sit in front of Wu Lili's grave rain or shine, and sometimes I would talk to myself about the pleasant and unpleasant things that had happened during the week, and I always felt that Wu Lili could hear me, even though it was obviously just a form of self-comfort that I was seeking psychologically. Of course, sometimes I will run into Zhang Wen, Li Xiao, Zhang Ke, Shan Ruo and others. But I deliberately avoided Sisi, because the way she cried, which had always been happy, easily broke my heart.

When I came home from the cemetery in the western suburbs again, I was attracted by a sad melody wafting from the video store, it was a love song called "Love and Reincarnation", I was not very interested in music, especially this kind of pop song, but I felt that the melody and content of this song were very suitable for my mood at this time.