Me: "Thank you, there may be fewer opportunities to see each other in the future, you have to take care of yourself and have more confidence in yourself." ”

Xie Liuying frowned: "I'm sorry, what did you say?" Have more confidence in yourself? You say me? ”

This is a sentence that sounds nonsensical at first glance, after all, a girl like Xie Liuying is good-looking, not bad at studying, plays games well, has high double quotients, is assertive, and can be sultry. To say that such a person is not confident is simply the biggest joke in the world.

I lowered my head: "I don't want to hide it from you, when I first learned that you and I were in the same university, I had ...... Belch...... There are some plans. However, now that you have decided to play professionally, these plans are not important, and it doesn't hurt to tell you. ”

Xie Liuying said curiously: "What does your plan have to do with my lack of confidence?" ”

Me: "I have ...... Well...... Don't think I'm a kinky stalker, I have a little notebook dedicated to your profile, including your favorite lipstick number, nail polish brand, objects that have expressed interest, the size of shoes and clothes, your favorite accompaniment track when singing, the cycle of your relatives, and so on. ”

Xie Liuying didn't speak, there seemed to be some surprise in her eyes, probably because she didn't expect that I, the so-called "straight man", would actually care about lipstick and nail polish brands.

Actually, I'm not stupid, I'm just lazy. I only spend my time and energy on the people I think are worth it.

Me: "Not being confident is one of the speculations I made about you in my notebook. ”

Xie Liuying: "Let's talk about it." ”

I've never seen this look before, it seems to be a kind of concentration, but it's not the same as the concentration when playing games. The woman was too complex, and the expression on her face was so rich that I couldn't read anything.

Me: "During the summer vacation, I used to order takeout for you. ”

Xie Liuying: "Well, when I came to relatives. ”

Me: "So I knew your address, and then I went to check the community where you lived, and found that it was a demolition and resettlement house in Y City, which was built five years ago and completed three years ago. ”

Xie Liuying looked at me, and for the first time there was a hint of panic in her expression.

Me: "Then the area that was demolished before should be where you used to live." It seems to have been the most chaotic area of City Y, infested with gamblers, gangsters, and addicts. According to the school districts of the city, the elementary and junior high schools that belong to them are all well-known 'hooligan schools' in the city. ”

Xie Liuying: "So what." ”

I knew that my words had offended her, but I didn't know why I couldn't control my mouth at this time, and some thoughts were held in my heart for too long, and I didn't vomit unpleasantly.

Me: "Your computer isn't cheap, but it seems to be cost-effective." You take every step carefully and look as good as possible with as little money as possible. When a person comes to C City for a tour, encounters an accident and does not have enough money to spend, his first reaction is to ask for help from a netizen who has only one side, rather than asking for help from his relatives and friends. It's the age of the internet, and transferring money is a no-brainer for anyone. ”

Xie Liuying said coldly: "This is the purpose of your research on my lipstick number and nail polish brand?" Want to see how much they're worth? ”

Me: "According to the information that can be found, the government should have given a large subsidy for the demolition that year, and judging from your computer and the situation of watching the game offline, at least your family should not be bad for money." ”

Xie Liuying: "What exactly do you want to say?" ”

Me: "I don't know, I can't explain these mysteries about you, the only thing I know is that since I was a child, although my family was not rich and wealthy, my parents have always tried their best to provide me with the best environment, whether it is to study or live. I can't imagine that if I had grown up in that kind of environment, studied in that kind of school, and had to take the college entrance examination in J Province, which is a hellish level of difficulty, I would still be able to be admitted to my current university. But you did it, and I admire you. ”

Xie Liuying: "Then why do you say that I have low self-esteem?" ”

Me: "You are generous in your dealings with people, and you are not stage frightened in many scenes, but I have known you for so long, and I have not heard you mention your family and friends, nor have I seen them in your circle of friends, and it seems that you are eager to draw a line with them." I know you're tough, but a lot of the time it's a bit like you're in a hurry to prove yourself. However, the most insecure thing that made me feel that you were not confident was at the welcome party that day. ”

Xie Liuying: "What happened that day?" As you can see, a lot of people from other houses come to listen to me sing. ”

Me: "But at that time, the host said that you were tired, go down and rest for a while and come back, but I felt that you might be a little scared, you were not afraid that you didn't sing well enough, but that you were afraid of being remembered." Then, they're going to look up your information, look up your past. ”

Xie Liuying: "Like you?" ”

The warm red sunset shone on the lake, and although it was autumn, you could still see green on the causeway in the distance, but the temperature in the air seemed to have dropped to freezing.

Me: "I'm sorry, I just wanted to know more about you......"

"If you have anything else to say, you want to talk about it together." The first time I saw her with tears in her eyes, I knew I was to blame for it.

Me: "I'll always be on your side." ”

Xie Liuying: "Under this tower, you just want to tell me that I am a snake spirit, and you don't mind me as a snake spirit, do you?" ”

Me: "If you're really a snake spirit, I just want to know who is the monk who will suppress you, I'll go and shoot him to death first." ”

Xie Liuying: "You just want to know my past?" ”

It's strange that I've never liked to force people to do things they don't want to do, and although I'm curious about a lot of things, I won't pursue them if it involves other people's privacy. But Xie Liuying's past, I really, really want to know. I've only known her for three months, and I want to know what happened to her dozens of times before.

I nodded.

Xie Liuying: "Okay, then what do you exchange for?" ”

I was speechless for a while, how could I have anything of value to exchange?

I asked, "My past? ”

Xie Liuying: "Who rarely knows your past, just think about it, it must be easier than a blank piece of paper." ”

I thought about it for a long time, and I didn't know what else I could give her.

I tried again, "What about ...... My future? ”

Xie Liuying's face turned red: "Hmph, you want to be beautiful." ”

Having said that, she continued: "Chen Liao, the most fragile part of my memory that I am going to talk about below, are you willing to keep it secret?" ”

Me: "These secrets will follow me until the day I die." ”