Chapter 184. Self-deception
- Don't delve into it, just look at the information (in the name of the state) superficially.
- But if you don't think about it deeply, this thing ...... It's just a reason.
- So what's the reason? The most straightforward description is......
- The most straightforward description......
I asked myself, the depression in my heart had completely disappeared, and the irritability had begun to dissipate. The gradual weakening of my thinking ability led to a break point in my thinking, so I had to repeat my previous thoughts to ensure that my thoughts were not interrupted by 'emptiness'.
- The reason for Qiaolu's betrayal. It's also the reason why she wants to get rid of herself.
- That's right...... The reason for betrayal, betrayal.
The moment I thought about it, I immediately felt that I had found the right direction, and I felt a little closer to that thing.
The reason why 'in the name of the state' draws one's mind closer to that thing is not because that thing is behind this reason.
It's that thing, which is in the same information area, or close to, the reason in.
- So, what is this 'reason for betrayal'? What is the most straightforward description? What is the most immediate piece of relevant information?
— was the reason for her betrayal of herself; It was the reason she told herself after she was captured by herself; It's the reason why I can't forgive her. Moreover, her betrayal was premeditated.
My answer came out almost the moment I asked the question.
And when my mind spread to the last sentence, 'premeditated', I immediately seemed to grasp that vague thing, and my mind began to think actively:
- and the premeditation was divided into several stages. From deceiving oneself to form an alliance at the beginning, to the delivery later, being violated, then being caught, then burned, and finally a blessing in disguise and awakening......
I thought about it, and I remembered it.
These memories that I don't know how many times I have seen them crossed my mind in an instant.
Suddenly, I noticed a strange feeling, feeling that the vague thing was in this memory. And I feel that if I can slow down, I will be able to see 'that thing' clearly.
- Obviously, when I recalled it before, I didn't feel anything unusual. Why do you suddenly feel it now?
I asked myself, but didn't bother with the question because I felt it was hindering my thinking.
I frowned slightly and squinted, and continued to think. At this moment, my brain has completely emptied, and all emotions seem to have dissipated. The ability to think can also be down soon.
- It seems to ...... In memory, what is very important...... Ignored by myself...... and something that is ignored by yourself.
I searched as hard as I could, trying to slow down the flashing memories that flashed by at high speed.
But it was completely useless, like the brain chose to escape on its own, and I couldn't slow down that memory at all.
I already knew what I wanted to know, and it was hidden in this memory, but I just couldn't slow it down.
- Damn, why can't you slow down, what did you ignore!
I said with my head tilted and distraught.
But when the voice (thoughts) landed, this annoyance dissipated instantly, and his brain became completely empty.
All the thoughts just now, like a broken glass tree, instantly dissolved into darkness. The feeling of emptiness took over my brain.
'Ahem' Suddenly, a **cough appeared in my mind, this kind of voice that went straight to my heart, so that I immediately understood that it was the personality. Only her voice can achieve a sense of realism comparable to reading.
"Let me tell you...... Ahem!" Before she finished speaking, Li Zhi seemed to spit out blood, but she didn't care, and after wiping the blood from the corners of her mouth, she continued, "...... What exactly are you ignoring. What you ignore is your hatred of Qiaolu. And that thing is the killing intent you had towards Qiaolu at that time."
"Huh?" I was taken aback, a little incredulous at this answer. Because if this is true, then wasn't he blackening himself just now?
"Ahem, ahem!" Riffin coughed a few more times, "So, don't remember anymore. Do you want to blacken?! Really, I almost got killed by you. I can't die (whispering)"
"I'm sorry, but why didn't you (tell me sooner so I don't want to) ......"
I said apologetically in my heart, but before I could finish speaking, the inner personality grabbed it: "Early? Do you know how many negative emotions you just generated? I can't even get my hands free."
The personality spoke quickly, with obvious irritation and accusation in his tone.
But soon, Li Zhi adjusted his tone and continued calmly, "...... Forget it, anyway, don't remember anymore, let the past pass."
"I see, so, that, thank you." I thanked.
"Ugh...... It's all said, thank yourself for being disgusting......" said in annoyance.
Forehead......
I smiled wryly. Even though I knew it would be this answer, I felt I needed to say thank you.
"Also, if you really can't let go of the matter of Qiaolu, then take revenge. Whether it's to treat others the way they are, or to turn her into your RBQ, I won't mind, as long as you don't blacken, you can do whatever you want." Li Zhi said in an arrogant tone, nonchalantly. But just after saying that, she suddenly laughed and said, "Of course, I know you can't do it. So, you still treat her as an NPC and a stranger. It should be a revenge offset."
"Hehe" I smiled helplessly, "yes, maybe that's the only way......" Originally, I wanted to reject Li's suggestion, but I didn't expect her to deny it herself.
"Alright, let's go back, don't stay here anymore. You've blackened so many times today that I'm almost exhausted. So, I beg you, go back and go to sleep." Li Zhi said in a fast and tired tone.
Hearing the seemingly complaining words of the Li personality, I agreed apologetically: "Indeed, the number of blackening times today is really a lot......
She didn't say anything back, and I got up and flew back to Coswall.
【D3】
The camera turned to the inner world of 99.
White vines glowing with a faint blue light stood tall in the black void.
Huge white flowers, at the joints of the vines, are in full bloom.
The Rim is now in the center of the flowers on the third layer. She was leaning against a white screen with a tired face, staring vacantly at the huge bubbles rising around her.
As if she had experienced a vicious battle, she sighed, "Ah...... Finally prevaricated (hidden)."
"I'm so tired...... said that, the single ponytail Lori slid down and lay flat on the glowing white ground. The lower edge of the shirt slipped down to the top, revealing the thin waist.