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Julie arrived a little early. Because she was so anxious that she couldn't sit still for a minute. The doorman asked her name and nodded and invited her in.

Walking in the quiet courtyard of the Zhou Mansion, she couldn't help but wonder, how could Nian Qing move here?

Jack emerged from its kennel, his dark eyes fixed on Julie. She was a little nervous, and subconsciously grabbed the bag containing many secrets of Leng Shifan.

After all, she has been with Leng Shifan for three years. Sometimes he was inevitably unguarded against her. Perhaps even Leng Shifan himself had forgotten that Julie had a spare key to the piano room. And she is Leng Shifan's rightful girlfriend. So when Julie took advantage of Leng Shifan to go out, she entered the building with strict security, and opened the door of the piano room and walked in. Everything went exceptionally well.

When she pushed the wall open, her nervous heart was about to jump out of her chest. When she stood inside and saw all kinds of newspapers, magazines and certain photos plastered on the four walls, she felt that her whole world had collapsed.

Among the news pictures and photos cut and pasted, there are Shen Yi, Nian Qing, and Zhou Zijin. And all the pictures related to Zhou Zijin, his face was drawn with a big cross with a red pen, venting Leng Shifan's terrifying hatred.

If this is already terrifying. Then the photos in the black box in the corner are even more terrifying.

There are pictures of my young sister making out in bed with a thin boy, a thick pile, and the picture is very clear. There was also an envelope, and there was only one photo in it, but it was a photo of the man named Zhou Zijin lying on the ground lying on the wall, and blood gushing out of his wrist.

Julie was horrified. For this man she has loved for three years, she really can't imagine that all these things are in his secret space.

She immediately stuffed all the photos into her bag along with the negatives and left in a hurry.

Now, Julie just wants her sister to tell her what the hell is going on. This man named Zhou Zijin, as well as Shen Yi, and her, why did Leng Shifan collect so many terrible photos related to them?

Thinking of this, Julie's footsteps were even more hurried.

Jack thought the woman was strange and yelled unkindly.

"Jack, shut up." Zhou Zijin, who was sitting in the living room, received a notice from the doorman and greeted him, "You are Julie?" Nianqing's sister? Hello, I'm Zhou Zijin. ”

The face that had been floating in Julie's mind suddenly appeared in front of her, which was equivalent to meeting a ghost in broad daylight. She grabbed her neckline in horror and screamed.

Zhou Zijin saw that she was about to faint when he saw her staggering, so he hurriedly took a few steps to catch Julie's crumbling body: "Are you okay?" "It seems that something very terrible has happened to her. But she was still normal just now, why was she suddenly so abnormal when she saw herself?

It's really bad, but Auntie and Nian Qing are not at home at this time.

He helped Julie into the guest room and poured her a cup of hot tea. Then sit quietly next to Julie and accompany her.

This is Nian Qing's sister. Zhou Zijin felt that it was his responsibility to help Nianqing take care of his sister.

"What do you think? Is it better? ”

Julie glared at Zhou Zijin, and her consciousness regained little by little: "Are you Zhou Zijin?" ”

"Yes."

"Do you recognize Leng Shifan?"

Zhou Zijin nodded: "Of course." He was a college classmate of mine, and we were both members of the Philharmonic Society. I heard that he has achieved no small success in the field of cello. But why did you ask about this all of a sudden? ”

"Please open my bag." Julie pointed to the leather bag that Zhou Zijin had placed on the table.

Zhou thought it was strange, but did it anyway. He opened his purse and pulled out the envelope. Then look up at Julie.

"Yes. These, you open it and take a look. ”

Zhou Zijin never thought that he would see these disgusting photos again in his lifetime! His face turned rapidly pale, and his breathing was heavy and rapid. "Where did you get that?" He yelled.

"There's also an envelope, please open it too."

That envelope was thin and only had one photo. He pulled it out slightly, took a look at it, and then hugged his head, and wailed under his mouth like a wounded beast.

The person who cut off his wrist even perverted the photo of that time. Could it be that after so many years, the murderer is still appreciating this horrific image all the time?

Zhou Zijin raised his head, his eyes red from congestion stared at Julie, and he squeezed out of his throat word by word and asked, "Who is this?" Is it his? Well? Cold...... Generation...... Sanskrit? ”

Julie nodded, "Can you tell me everything you know?" ”

Zhou Zijin stuffed all the photo negatives into Julie's purse: "Let's go, let's find a quieter place to talk." ”

"But my sister hasn't come back yet......"

He grabbed Julie and was extremely fierce: "Just to avoid her!" Your sister doesn't know anything. I'm never going to let her know! ”

Julie's day-long fright made her unresponsive to all the intimidation: "Good. ”

Nian Qing hurried back from the dry cleaners. When I passed by the guard's room, I asked, "Is there a girl named Julie who is coming to me?" ”

The doorman looked up and said seriously, "No." ”

Nian Qing exhaled, slowed down and slowly walked towards the Zhou Mansion.

The doorman watched her walk into Zhou's house, bowed his head and said to himself: "Mr. Zhou is just strange, people obviously came, and I had to say that I didn't come." He thought about it, the one named Julie was so pretty. Mr. Zhou must have taken her out for a tryst at first sight, so he couldn't let the young girl know. Well, it must be.

Zhou's house was empty. Zhou Zijin and his Q7 are gone.

Nian Qing felt strange, he didn't say that he was going out today, why did he go out suddenly, and he didn't leave a note.

Jack was unusually enthusiastic when he saw her. Nian Qing only felt that it was getting more and more tired and crooked, but he couldn't understand what it was saying in its humming dog language.

After a while, there was a knock at the door. Nian Qing thought Julie was here and came out to see. But I saw my aunt with a black chicken in her left hand and a string of crucian carp in her right hand, swaying and walking leisurely.

"Nianqing, today Auntie taught you to make crucian carp soup."

"Oh."

"Hey, Mr. Zhou is out?"

"Hmm. It seems that the two of us will have dinner at home in the evening. "At this point, Julie is not here yet. I'm afraid it won't come.

After dinner, Zhou Zijin did not show up. Nian Qing was a little anxious and called Shen Yi to ask.

Before Nian Qing finished speaking, Shen Yi was anxious: "How do I know where he is?" Zhou Zijin is a patient, you don't ask where he goes? Nianqing, how do you take care of it? Even if you don't love him anymore, for the sake of your former college classmates, you won't be able to. ”

Nian Qing was furious: "Shen Yi." If you don't know how to speak, don't say it! After yelling, he hung up the phone, full of depression.

This night, she slept on the sofa in the living room, waiting for Zhou Zijin. As soon as it was midnight, the TV station would play Korean dramas that couldn't be longer and couldn't be dragged out any longer. It's really boring to watch, so I changed the table. Oh, it's "Dragon Babu". The night was getting darker, and the silence was getting quieter, and she couldn't hold it anymore and fell asleep.

When Zhou Zijin returned, it was already two o'clock in the morning. He was extremely tired and fragile, but when he saw the thin young man curled up in the sofa, he had to straighten his back and arm himself strongly.

"Nianqing, Nianqing?" He shook her, trying to wake her up and put her back to her room.

Nian Qing snorted a few times, and suddenly stretched out his hands in a daze: "Hug." ”

Zhou Zijin was stunned for a moment, and then picked her up.

Nian Qing hugged him, and a hot breath sprayed into his neck: "You have lost a lot of weight." ”

Being held by others is still so picky. Zhou Zijin looked at her helplessly, feeling that all the decisions he made today were correct. As long as the woman in his arms is happy and carefree, he can carry as many secrets as he wants.

Her dream is not finished yet: "Today I learned to use black chicken as an introduction to stew crucian carp soup with my aunt, it is super delicious." Shall I stew it for you later? ”

A word "good" is about to rush out of Zhou Zijin's throat. But I heard her call softly and charmingly: "Say it quickly." Sudo. ”

Nian Qing had a strange dream. In the dream, she came to the martial arts world of "Dragon Babu". Su Xinghe asked her to break the chess game. She said she couldn't break it. Duan Yu ran to her and shouted: Sister, sister, you can do it, you have to believe in yourself. She had to bite the bullet and casually lay a son. Then the chess game was inexplicably broken, and then Su Xinghe laughed and raised his foot to kick her into the cave.

In the cave, Xiaoyaozi has long white hair and an extremely handsome face. But he was frozen in a huge block of ice, like a sleeping prince. Suddenly, Xiaoyaozi in the ice opened her eyes and looked at her quietly. It's like complaining about her, why did you come. He suddenly emerged from the ice and kissed her on the mouth. His lips were cold at first, then fiery again. In this way, Xiaoyaozi passed on the skills of a multi-jiazi to her mouth-to-mouth.

But Xiaoyaozi aged instantly and was about to die. He lay in a pool of melted ice and smiled happily at her. Say, this is good, this is good, this is good......

I don't know how many times I said it, until I died.

Then Duan Yu suddenly came out, took her hand and said, Yu Yan, let's go.

Nian Qing woke up suddenly. staring at the ceiling, thinking about how he became Wang Yuyan. But that Xiaoyaozi is really pitiful, just giving all his skills to others, but he is old and dies.

She felt that her right hand was numb, and when she turned her head, she saw that Zhou Zijin and Yi were sleeping next to her, and her hand was tightly held by him.

Nothing happened last night, did it?

Nian Qing broke out in a cold sweat and touched his body with his left hand. It's okay, it's okay, I'm wearing loungewear.

When she was thinking about how to pull out her right hand without waking Zhou Zijin, the mobile phone she put next to her pillow buzzed. Frightened, she hurriedly answered and whispered, "Hey, which one?" ”

"Miss Nian?"

"I am."

"Oh, this is the First People's Hospital. Is Miss Julie your family member? ”

"yes, what's wrong."

"She was hospitalized this morning with a miscarriage. I saw your name and phone number written on the relatives column, so I called. ”

"What?" Nian Qing couldn't take care of it anymore, and sat up.

Zhou Zijin was woken up now. He originally planned not to sleep all night, so he wanted to look at Nian Qing, but he finally fell asleep.

"What's wrong?" He squinted slightly, trying to adjust to the light pouring into the room.

In the bright light, Nian Qing panicked looking for clothes, changing clothes, brushing her teeth, and washing her face: "The hospital called and said that Julie had a miscarriage and was hospitalized." ”

Zhou Zijin was stunned and asked, "When will it be?" ”

"It seems like morning. How so? Yesterday she said that she came to me, as if she was in a hurry and urgent, maybe she was pregnant and didn't know what to do. How can you say that if something happens, something will happen. ”

"Packed up? I'll send you there. ”

"No, you can sleep a little longer. I'll take a taxi. ”

"I said I'll send you!"

"Oh." Nian Qing immediately booed and honestly followed Zhou Zijin downstairs.

Looking through the glass window, Julie on the hospital bed looks like a lifeless but flawless Barbie doll. She was already fair-skinned, and at this time, she could even see the endings of blood vessels under her skin clearly.

She was still unconscious. There were two policemen sitting at the door of the ward. Seeing Nian Qing coming, they first made a brief introduction.

"That's right. A neighbor heard a fight coming from Julie's house. We rushed to the scene after receiving a report and found your sister unconscious. In addition, there was another person at the scene who was seriously injured. ”

Nian Qing was not surprised: "Is it Leng Shifan?" ”

"Hmm." The female officer nodded, "His left wrist was severely wounded. The operation is still underway. We would like to ask for your cooperation in calming your sister's emotions. On this basis, you can appropriately guide her to recall what happened in the early hours of the morning. ”

Nian Qing suddenly felt disgusted in his heart. The person is still unconscious, and he is in a hurry to start an investigation at this time?

"Miss Nian?" Seeing that Nian Qing was silent, the female police officer asked.

"Oh. Well, I see. Nian Qing nodded, and turned to Zhou Zijin and said, "You can help me see if there are any procedures that need to be completed in the hospital." I'm going to go with Julie first. ”

"Okay."

Although Zhou Zijin agreed, he didn't go anywhere, just sat on the bench in the hospital corridor. Last night, he should have put Julie in the hotel. He listened to Julie's words and sent her home to get her visa and pack her luggage.

He obviously sent her into the house. Obviously everything is safe. Julie said she would lock the door and call him if anything happened. They also made an appointment that Zhou Zijin would pick her up the next day and take her to the airport. She said that no matter what Leng Shifan did, the child was innocent, so she wanted to go back to the United States to give birth to the child.

How many hours has it been? The child was gone, and Leng Shifan's hand was cut. Like him, the nerves in his left hand were broken. This means that Leng Shifan will never think about touching the cello again in the future.

Zhou Zijin looked blankly at the people who came and went to see a doctor, and thought: Could it be that there is really a cycle of cause and effect in the dark, and good and evil are rewarded?

He didn't want Nian Qing to know all this dirt and conspiracy. So I can only choose to let Leng Shifan get away with it. Who knows, he is willing to let Leng Shifan go, but God is unwilling to let him go.

The female police officer was overwhelmed. When Julie woke up, her mood was as usual. She asked Nianqing: "The child is gone?" ”

Nian Qing said "yes".

Julie blinked: "It's gone...... It's good. ”

The last thing Nian Qing would do in his life was to comfort people. So she just asked, "Are you hungry or not, what do you want to eat?" ”

She thought for a moment and said, "When I was very young, my mother made me a jajangmyeon. You know, in the United States, authentic Peking fried noodles are hard to eat. Later, my mother's work became more and more busy, and she ordered takeout pizza and pasta, and she never made it for me again. ”

"Okay, I'll make you authentic old Beijing fried noodles!"

"Sister, thank you."

Nian Qing took her cold hand and whispered, "We are sisters, so we don't need to be so polite." ”

Julie smiled: "It seems that it is at this moment that I feel that we are really sisters." ”

Nian Qing grabbed her hair, nodded and said, "Me too." ”

The sisters have similar eyebrows, identical noses, and two dimples when they laugh. One classical and the other modern, the picture is beautiful.

When Nian Qing pushed the door in with the hot fried noodles, the police were taking notes.

The female police officer looked up at her, as if she smelled the aroma of fried sauce, and said to Julie, "Well, the police will do further verification of what you said." Thank you for your cooperation. We're gone, without disturbing you to enjoy your meal. ”

"Thank you."

As soon as the police left, Julie stretched out her hands to Nian Qing: "Give it to me, give it to me." It smells so good. Sister, did you make this yourself? ”

"Hmm." Nian Qing nodded and said, "It was done under the guidance of Auntie." For the first time in my life. There are the most tender meat fillings, the most watery shredded carrots, shredded cucumbers, and even the cloves of garlic that can't be more fragrant. ”

"Oh my God." Opening the food box, Julie took a deep breath and felt extremely happy. She eats slowly because she wants to taste it well.

After eating, they chatted casually for a while. When she didn't have anything to say, Julie suddenly asked her, "Sister, how is Shifan?" ”

"What do you care about that bastard?"

Julie was stunned, and soon suddenly realized: "Do you think the child is because he doesn't have it?" ”

Nian Qing's eyes widened: "Isn't it?" ”

She lowered her head: "No. It was I myself who accidentally fell. Julie's mind went back to that terrible morning two days ago—

Zhou Zijin did send Julie home. But what they didn't expect was that Leng Shifan had been waiting inside for a long time. He just hid. After Zhou Zijin left, he walked out with a knife, and his smile made Julie shiver.

"You entered the piano room?" Leng Shifan sat on the sofa and played with the knife in his hand.

Julie wanted to escape, but her legs couldn't move anyway: "Yes, I have seen all your secrets." The photos of my sister and Su Duo, Zhou Zijin's hands, everything was done by you. ”

Leng Shifan didn't care about her accusations, but told the story leisurely: "Julie. Do you know how Mozart died? They said that the chief musician of the court at that time was jealous of Mozart's talent, so he asked him to write a requiem in C minor under a pseudonym. As a result, the piece dragged Mozart's weakened body down, causing him to die prematurely. Hiss-" he took a breath suddenly, as if trying to calm himself down, "everyone said that Mozart was pitiful, and no one seemed to have sympathized with the court musician. I'm just different from others. I sympathize with him! No, I should say that I identify with him. For I, like him, am a wretched creature who can only survive under the light of genius. God is so unfair. If he refuses to give me extraordinary talent, why does he give me a heart to pursue extraordinary talent? If he couldn't let me have the talent of Zhou Zijin, why did he make me fall madly in love with the cello? ”

"You cut off his left hand for this?"

"Yes, that's it." Leng Shifan shook the cold knife in his hand and said, "Ten years ago, I used this knife to cut the nerve of Zhou Zijin's left hand. For ten years, I have been quietly wiping it every day. I am grateful to it for worshipping it, it gave me the courage to continue playing the cello. ”

"Leng Shifan, you're sick, you're sick!" Julie felt a churn in her abdomen, nausea to the extreme, and ran to the bathroom and vomited violently.

When she calmed down, Leng Shifan asked her, "Do you know why I strongly oppose you giving birth to the child?" ”

Julie said coldly, "Because you're a bastard with no humanity at all." ”

Leng Shifan sneered, shook his head and said, "It seems that you never understood me. I don't want you to have a baby, it's not that I don't like you and I don't want you to have a child for me. In fact, I had already made up my mind that I would never have children in my life. Because," he paused, a hint of ferocity flashing in his eyes, "my genes are poisonous, and I can't let this poisonous gene continue." I'm going to cut it off with me completely! Now, you get the idea? ”

The sky was just dawning. The room was dimly lit, and Julie had a vague feeling that something was wrong. She looked towards the sofa where Leng Shifan was sitting, and was surprised to find a blood-red mark on the white sofa winding straight down.

"Shifan, Shifan. What are you doing? What did you do to yourself? She rushed over. Sure enough, he cut off his left hand while she was in the bathroom. Leng Shifan exerted extremely hard force, and the white bones at the wound were clearly visible.

Julie was so frightened that she hurried to find a medical kit to bandage him.

Leng Shifan didn't want her to do this, the two of them pushed me, and Julie accidentally fell to the ground. Child, that's how it was lost.

Julie just said that there was a dispute between them, Leng Shifan cut her wrists in anger, and her miscarriage was caused by her own accident, and did not tell Nian Qing the details.

She promised Zhou Zijin to help him bury this secret forever. Those photos and negatives, they burned and destroyed them together. So, in the face of the police, she also said the same thing. Regarding how to answer the police's interrogation, she had already communicated with Leng Shifan before being picked up by an ambulance.

Julie endured the severe pain and warned him: "Leng Shifan." If you really have a little conscience, please cooperate with me. Don't let my sister know about such a bloody and dirty past! ”

Leng Shifan's face turned pale and pale, and he nodded in agreement.

After listening to Julie's story, Nian Qing was still angry.

"He knows that you have children, why is he still pushing and shoving with you. Well, what did he do by cutting off his wrists? Julie, I really don't think he's normal. You should leave him! ”

"Sister, I really don't know what to do. You made me think about it. ”

"I know how to do this kind of thing on my toes. Listen to me and leave him. ”

"Don't talk about me." Julie tried to change the subject, "Sister, I'm actually quite envious of you." ”

"Envy me?"

"yes. Zhou Zijin's kindness to you is really difficult to describe in words. How happy a woman should be to have such a good man in her life, and he is so good. ”

"Is he good to me? That's because you didn't see how deeply he hurt me. To this day, there are many things I still don't want to talk about. ”

"Zhou Zijin will hurt you?" Julie shook her head, "No, I don't believe it. ”

Nian Qing was too lazy to explain. She thinks that emotional matters are really only known best by the parties concerned. Others will never know if the shoes fit on their feet.

When Julie was discharged from the hospital, she went to see Leng Shifan.

"I'm going back to the United States."

Leng Shifan seemed to have lost interest in everything: "Oh. ”

"Remember my farm?"

"Yes."

Julie looked out the window at the blue sky and thought of her home: "I'll be waiting for you there." ”

Leng Shifan was shocked, staring at Julie.

"It won't be too long, though." Julie smiled and held out three fingers, "Three months at most." If you can come, let's start over. ”

With that, she turned to leave.

A tear flowed from Leng Shifan's cold eye sockets, which was warm.

Julie is right in one sentence: the women in their family are unusually paranoid about feelings.

When Julie left, Nian Qing and Zhou Zijin went to the airport to see her off.

She asked Nian Qing again: "When can I go to the United States to see her?" ”

"Actually, it doesn't matter if I go to see her or not. Please tell her that I don't resent her, and I don't hate her. Just didn't have the idea of watching her get on a plane and fly across the Pacific Ocean. Maybe there will be one later, but maybe. ”

Julie looked at Zhou Zijin beside Nian Qing, and said, "You have to cherish such a good man as Zhou Zijin, if you live up to it, it is really intolerable." ”

Nian Qing laughed and looked at her: "You have really become a chicken woman." You don't have to worry about your sister's affairs. You can go with confidence. ”

Julie pulled Zhou Zijin aside, her face full of anxiety: "Are you sure you won't tell her anything?" This could be your last chance to keep her. ”

Zhou Zijin was stunned and turned his head to look at Nian Qing.

Somehow, she found a super cute little friend who was trying to trick the child into kissing her. She was very happy, the smile on her face couldn't be more pure, and her eyes were clear and shining, without the slightest heavy impurity. That's good, that's good, that's good......

He made up his mind, nodded and said, "Yes, I'm sure." ”

Walking out of the airport, Zhou Zijin called Nian Qing and took out all the clothes and supplies she had placed in Zhou's house during this time from the trunk of Q7.

These items that can prove that Nian Qing lives by his side are all packed by him in a suitcase.

"Here you go."

"What?" Nian Qing didn't quite understand.

"You're stupid. I'm all right, and it's time for you to go home. ”

"Oh. But you can send me back to the city, right? It's not convenient to take a bus here. ”

"Sending you?" Zhou Zijin looked at her greedily, shook his head and said, "If you take my car, I will only take you back to my house." ”

Nian Qing looked stunned: "Then forget it." I'm leaving. ”

"Nianqing." He called her.

"Hey." She stood and turned to look at him.

"Goodbye."

"Goodbye. Well, I'm really gone. ”

Zhou Zijin waved his hand: "Let's go." ”

"Hmm." Nian Qing turned around and walked forward slowly.

"Nianqing." He called her again.

Nian Qing quickly turned around and blinked: "Huh? ”

"If that kid Su Duo dares to bully you, I'll beat him up until he can't even recognize his grandparents!"

"Okay." Nian Qing nodded vigorously, the shiny liquid in his eyes was about to fall, and he hurriedly turned around to prevent him from seeing it. She turned her back to him and reached out and waved vigorously.

"Goodbye, Zijin."

"Goodbye, Qingqing."

Zhou Zijin nodded and said, "That's it." Very good......"

The girl he loved lowered her head, dragged her suitcase, and walked out of his sight so slowly. His eyes were blurred, and heaven and earth merged, and from then on there was nothingness.

Nian Qing hadn't been home in months.

She hurried upstairs, wondering if the lazy cat had starved to death and had become a mummy, weathered and withered.

Who knows as soon as you get in. The lights are bright, the tables are bright, and the aroma of cheese wafts through the air. Her cat nested on the sofa and stretched out her soft pink tongue to comb her hair, and when she saw Nianqing coming back, she just lazily raised her tail and swept it a few times to welcome.

She stood in the living room dragging her luggage, staring blankly at the familiar figure who was busy in the kitchen.

Can't believe it. She couldn't believe it.

The person who thought she was going to go to heaven and earth to find her, but she was waiting for her at home.

Su Duo poked his head out of the kitchen and waved a spatula at her: "Sister, what are you doing in a daze?" Quickly change into pajamas, wash your hands and face. Dinner was ready right away. ”

"Oh." She wakes up from a dream and slips into her bedroom to change into cotton pajamas emblazoned with the Hello Katte motif. When I came out, I saw that the table was already full of food.

Outside the window, the first snow of the winter fell.

And in her life, there is only spring blossoming from now on.