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VOL.11

Since he was discharged from the hospital ten years ago, Zhou Zijin has refused to be hospitalized. If you have a headache or fever, you should consult your family doctor for outpatient treatment.

When I woke up this time, I found myself lying in a hospital bed, and I was so disgusted that I immediately wanted to jump out of bed and leave this hateful place. The first time he was hospitalized, it was because he lost the ability to play the cello. The second time he was hospitalized, it was because he lost his love, and he had too good reason to hate the hospital.

Unfortunately, his hands and feet were weak, and he was not as strong as the spirit he wanted to escape. He riveted his strength, but he only rolled over slightly.

turned over, but saw Nian Qing lying on the side of the hospital bed asleep, her hands clasped tightly with herself.

Zhou Zijin's troubled heart calmed down in an instant. He no longer tried to jump out of bed and escape from the hospital, for fear of waking up Nian Qing in his sleep.

But Nianqing is still awake. She raised her head suddenly, looked at Zhou Zijin, and it took a while for her consciousness to become clear: "Finally woke up?" God, do you know how long you've been asleep? It's scary. ”

"For a long time?" He shook his head, "I don't feel it at all. ”

Nian Qing asked softly, "That's because you're sick." Surely you're hungry after sleeping for so long, what do you want to eat? ”

Zhou Zijin quipped: "Do you want to do it for me?" I don't dare to eat it. ”

Nian Qing lowered his head: "No, I didn't do it." She didn't finish the rest of the sentence. In fact, she wanted Su Duo to do it. This guy has been avoiding her since Zhou Zijin was hospitalized. Even when he went to the hospital to see Zhou Zijin, his eyes were dodging and refused to look at her. Nian Qing was angry and anxious, but he couldn't. just wait for Zhou Zijin to get better and then settle accounts with him.

"Oh. Then you're going out to order takeout. Zhou Zijin shook his head and said, "Stupid, just call my house and ask my aunt to bring food." She knows everything I like to eat. ”

"yes, I didn't think about it."

Nian Qing laughed, and Zhou Zijin couldn't help laughing. Nothing seems to have happened between them.

"Nianqing."

"Huh?"

"It's boring."

"Well, I'll tell you a story."

"I don't want to hear it."

"And what do you want to do?"

"Let's talk. You can talk about anything. ”

"Okay."

"Well, tell me what zodiac sign you are."

"Capricorn."

"Do you know what zodiac sign I am?"

"Of course. You are a sullen Virgo. ”

"You know?"

"Che, when I was in college, I was the president of your support club! Even your measurements know, don't talk about this. ”

Zhou Zijin was embarrassed: "Nianqing, in fact, you have had a crush on me for a long time." ”

"yes, yes. From the first time I heard you play the violin. ”

"Why don't you ever tell me?"

"Active?" Nian Qing said exaggeratedly, "Zhou Zijin, don't you know how hateful you were when you were in school? You don't even read the love letters that girls give you, and throw them all away. The girls you confess to are seen by you as boring and devoid of substance. You're just callous. ”

"Am I like that?"

"Of course. I saw it with my own eyes. ”

"So you don't dare to take the initiative to tell me that you like me?"

"Hmm."

Zhou Zijin fully realized what it means to lift a stone and shoot himself in the foot. If he had been gentler and less ruthless at that time, maybe Nian Qing would have mustered up the courage to confess to him, maybe they wouldn't have become what they are today.

Why was it that in the past, they were obviously attracted to each other, but they never chatted happily as they do today?

"I've done anything hateful, you can tell me all."

"There are so many hateful things that I can't even remember."

"I want to hear it. Please, think about it. ”

"Hmm." Nian Qing shook his head for a while, nodded and said, "When I was in school, I was very thin, less than ninety pounds. Your piano is almost heavier than mine. I'm sorry to let you be your sidekick and help you carry the piano. I feel miserable when I think about it. ”

"What else?"

"Of course." Nian Qing's face suddenly turned red, "Well, that morning, you were obviously in my room, knowing that I woke up just because I was too shy to open my eyes, but you actually walked away like that." Nothing was left. Then, for many days there was no news. When I hear from you again, you won't be able to play the violin anymore. ”

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have just walked away that morning. ”

"Later, you dropped out of school and ignored me again. I've been to your house to look for you, but your doorman always says I'm not on your list of visitors. ”

"I'm stupid."

"Not really. After graduating, I joined your company, and I hope you will think of me and look for every opportunity to appear in front of you. ”

"Actually, I never forgot you."

"Anyway, you're a big ass."

"I should say I'm a big idiot."

Nian Qing smiled hard and raised his hand to wipe away the tears in his eyes: "Yes, you are a big fool." Do you regret it now? ”

"I regret it so much. I wonder if there is a chance of recovery? ”

"......" Nian Qing was stunned and speechless.

It happened that at this time, Shen Yi pushed the door in, resolving the embarrassment of being speechless.

Nian Qing stood up, excused himself to get the medicine and walked out.

Walking out of the ward, she took out her mobile phone to call Su Duo.

Nian Qing felt so tired and tired, so hard and hard, she wanted to listen to Su Duo's voice, even a few words could support her to accompany Zhou Zijin through this pain.

But his phone was still turned off.

She thought about it for a moment and dialed home again. Still no one answered.

Perhaps, he has moved out.

Nian Qing was very disappointed.

When Shen Yi left, he asked Nian Qing: "Tomorrow Zhou Zijin will be discharged from the hospital, can you go to his house to take care of him for a while." The company gives you three times your salary. ”

Nian Qing knew that Shen Yi was very dissatisfied with her, and deliberately used money to block her: "I don't need you to say it, I will also take care of him." Until he fully recovered. ”

"Really?" Shen Yi still refused to let her feel better, "By the way, don't go to Su Duo during this time." He went back to the band and continued his tour. ”

"How is that possible?" Nian Qing couldn't believe it.

Yesterday, Su Duo also went to the hospital to see Zhou Zijin. He stayed here for a while, looking at his unconscious brother-in-law from afar. There was no mention of leaving Beijing to continue the tour.

Shen Yi glanced at her coldly and left expressionlessly. It seems that she is just a dirty mess on the floor, and it is boring to look at it more.

On the day Zhou Zijin was discharged from the hospital, the rain stopped intermittently for a week. The sky is blue, and it's a good day in autumn.

Originally, everything was quiet and smooth. Shen Yi helped to complete the discharge procedures, and the group took the elevator to the parking lot to prepare to go home. Who knows where the leaked news, a group of reporters chased and intercepted them in the parking lot.

What they are most concerned about is whether the news of Zhou Zijin's dissolution of the marriage contract is true. Regardless of Zhou Zijin's body still being weak, the flash light crackled and shone violently. Shen Yi was completely furious and smashed the camera of one of the reporters. It's cool to say, "You can contact my secretary and buy you a new one." ”

The entertainers were in an uproar. One can imagine how tomorrow's newspapers will attack Zhou Zijin and Shen Yi's record companies.

After getting in the car, looking at the reporters who were dumped, Zhou Zijin said to Shen Yi: "You have a very bad temper recently. There was no need to do that just now. ”

Shen Yi didn't speak. In recent times, he has been disappointed in everyone and everything. If even Zijin and Xiao Qingqing's relationship will change, there is really nothing in this world that can last forever.

Maybe it's because there's a word in the name. He has always been a man of love and righteousness. When Zhou Zijin had an accident, he felt that he had an unshirkable responsibility as a teacher. After all, he had proposed the celebration. So he quit his stable job at college without even thinking about it and worked hard to start a record company. In order to give Zhou Zijin a guaranteed creative environment and support him to continue on the road of music.

Zhou Zijin suffered a series of heavy blows, shrunk into his shell, and refused to face his feelings. He saw it in his eyes and was anxious in his heart. In fact, even if Nian Qing was not so dead-eyed, he would pull her to work in his company. Ten years on, the relationship between these two men has not progressed at all. He calculated Su Duo again, and wanted to use Su Duo to stimulate Zhou Zijin. Where do you know that feelings can't be calculated? Xiao Qingqing really fell in love with that kid.

I knew it earlier...... Alas, let's not mention it.

Autumn in Zhou's house is beautiful.

The old locust trees in the yard are slightly yellow, and the cornflowers in the garden are in full bloom. When Jack saw his master, he jumped up and down with excitement. It still remembered Nianqing, and ran to her feet and rolled, revealing its pink belly and begging her to scratch it.

Nian Qing squatted down and thought while scratching: The last time I played with it was with Su Duo. It was early summer, and they bathed Jack in the yard, and the bubbles were flying.

"The weather is nice today and the sun is good." She said to Jack, "Shall I give you a bath and play with bubbles later?" ”

Jack understood, hahaha gasped.

Auntie made Zhou Zijin's favorite pork ribs. It's fragrant. Since falling ill, Zhou's appetite has not been very good. Nian Qing served him half a bowl of rice, a small plate of green vegetables and half a bowl of pork ribs, plus a hot lotus root and soybean soup. Once you are ready, carefully send it upstairs.

"Have you eaten?" Zhou Zijin asked her.

Nian Qing shook his head.

Zhou Zijin called his aunt with an internal line and asked her to send another copy. "It's boring to eat alone, you accompany me."

Zhou Zijin has always been an existence similar to a god in Nian Qing's mind.

Now, he sat on the bed, like a grumpy child, and she ate with him, which was really irresistible.

"Okay." Nian Qing suddenly had an idea, if he accompanied Zhou Zijin to eat like this every day, would his mood get better, and if he was in a good mood, would his body get better soon. When his mood and body are better, can she settle down and go to Su Duo to settle the accounts between them? Thinking of this, she took a big mouthful of rice into her mouth, and said while chewing: "I will accompany you at every meal in the future, but there is one condition." ”

Zhou Zijin originally had no appetite, but seeing her eating and drinking, she actually had some appetite: "What conditions, you say." ”

"You can't eat less than I do."

Zhou Zijin thought about it and agreed: "Okay." ”

Nian Qing smiled brightly: "Then you have to eat quickly." I've already taken several more bites than you. ”

The two of them are in their sixties together, and they are all rushing to eat like children. In the end, it developed into snatching each other's food. It seems that this rice will only be fragrant if someone grabs it.

At night, the sound of a guitar faintly came from Nian Qing's room.

Zhou Zijin felt strange and walked along the terrace to the outside of Nian Qing's room. The floor-to-ceiling windows were tightly closed, but the curtains were open. He saw Nian Qing holding a guitar and learning little by little at the DVD instructional film. Maybe she really doesn't have enough talent, but she is very serious.

She wore her hair loose and sat cross-legged on the carpet. The lights in the room were all off, except for one floor lamp. The soft orange light hit her, folding an extremely seductive warmth.

Zhou Zijin looked at her with fascination, and couldn't help but lie on the floor-to-ceiling window to see more clearly. Her long eyelashes, small dimples, and a happy smile at the corners of her mouth...... I can't get enough of it anyway.

As a result, he accidentally made a noise and interrupted Nian Qing, who was practicing. She put down her guitar, nervously ran over to open the floor-to-ceiling window, and asked nervously, "Is it too loud to make you noisy?" Or maybe I'm playing too badly? ”

Zhou Zijin didn't speak. It's not that he doesn't want to say it, but he can't say it. It's like the delicate puppet that his mother gave him when he was a child and kept turning and dancing as soon as he opened it, suddenly jumped out of his own and stood in front of him vividly. He didn't dare to breathe, for fear that he would blow the girl in front of him away in one breath, how could he speak?

He was silent, and Nian Qing couldn't help but blame himself: "I'm sorry, I forgot that you are recuperating in meditation, what you need most is quiet." I, I'm not practicing here anymore, I'll go to my aunt's. It's the furthest from your room and won't be noisy......"

Without waiting for her to finish explaining, Zhou Zijin slammed her into his arms. Nian Qing was so frightened that the whole person froze, and he didn't dare to move his hands and feet.

Embraced her in his arms, smelling the faint fragrance of her body that couldn't tell what it looked like. Zhou Zijin felt very sad and mournful. She is so beautiful that she has waited for herself for ten years. But he lost her. This kind of mourning made him depressed to the point of no return.

"Zhou Zijin."

"Call me Zijin."

Nian Qing nodded: "Zijin, let me go, okay?" You, you're hugging too tightly, it's a little painful. ”

Zhou Zijin was a little relieved, but still refused to let go: "Nianqing, have you ever thought about learning cello from me before?" ”

Nian Qing was silent in his arms for a moment, and replied honestly: "I have thought about it." Very much. ”

"Why didn't you say that?"

"Maybe I'm too concerned about you. So I'm afraid of making a fool of myself in front of you, and I'm afraid that I'm too stupid to disappoint you. "That's right. The first person we fall in love with in our lives, we are always worried that we are not good enough in front of him (her), so we are cautious, so we are timid, so we end up missing out.

Zhou Zijin listened to her answer and let out a long sigh. Finally, he let go of his arm and turned around and walked back to his room.

After a serious illness, he became even thinner. At this time, the bright moon in early autumn turned his shadow into a lonely marionette, so lonely that it was unbearable to look up.

Nian Qing stood there for a while, closed the floor-to-ceiling window and walked back to the carpet. She plucked the G string, thinking to herself, how is Su Duo now? I thought again, when will I be able to walk the streets hand in hand with Su Duo, eat breakfast, and listen to the uncles and aunts in the park singing Peking Opera at their throats?

Why didn't he reach out to himself? Is it retreating, afraid?

"Nope." Nianqing's head shook like a rattle. Su Duo would never leave her behind.

Su Duo is not Zhou Zijin, he will not make the same mistake as Zhou Zijin to regret it in this life.

Under Nianqing's care, Zhou Zijin got better day by day. He is recovering his former glory.

Nian Qing is very well-behaved, very well-behaved. Every morning after getting up, I do morning exercises, and then accompany Zhou Zijin to breakfast. After breakfast, she would find him some newspapers and books to read, or listen to classical music quietly with him. In the morning, if the sun is shining, Nianqing will accompany Jack in the yard to play frisbee, or go to the nearby alley to buy hot freshly baked snacks. At noon, she would go to help her aunt cook, and over time, Nianqing's cooking level improved greatly, and occasionally showed her hand to Zhou Zijin. It was nap time in the afternoon, and at about three o'clock she would come and call Zhou Zijin to get up and let him play badminton with her. They sit together after dinner and watch TV, and lately they've been hooked on variety shows because they can laugh out loud without any scruples.

Zhou Zijin likes Nian Qing's appearance of curled up in the sofa the most. She wears light loungewear, but she always wears cartoon cotton socks on her feet. When she was amused by the host of the variety show, she habitually swung her feet around, which was very funny.

I wish time had stopped. She spends all the time sitting on his couch eating snacks and laughing. He just watched from afar, and it was enough.

But Zhou Zijin knew that Nian Qing's guitar was getting better and better, and soon she would be able to play a complete song. When she can play a song, it should be when she leaves.

Thinking of this, he was upset for a while. I got up and went to the study on the second floor, opened the drawer, found the hidden cigarettes, and smoked them one by one.

What to do? What other excuse did he have to keep her?

Julie is pregnant.

When the doctor told her, she couldn't believe it. Leng Shifan has always insisted on taking necessary contraceptive measures. Under such strict guards, how could she get pregnant?

However, a positive pregnancy test is a fact.

She walked out of the hospital, and her mood suddenly relaxed. Since there is an accident, let's accept this little life happily. She had a child of someone she loved, which was a beautiful thing, wasn't it?

Leng Shifan obviously doesn't think so. The biggest argument that broke out between him and her since they were together.

"Knock him out."

“Why？” Julie couldn't believe her ears, "I know you've never wanted to get married and don't want children. OK, that's not a problem. We don't get married. But this kid already exists, and you want me to beat him, sorry I can't. ”

Leng Shifan grabbed Julie's wrist, he was extremely forceful, and his fingers strangled cyan bruises on Julie's fair wrist: "I can't ask for it." Otherwise, you and I won't have to meet again! ”

"You mean a breakup?" Julie's hair was messed up and stuck to her cheeks, "Leng Shifan, you broke up with me for this?" ”

"And that's not all. I will also ask a lawyer in the United States to sue you. ”

Julie was completely blindsided: "Sue? ”

"Yes. I am the biological father of this child, and I have the right to vote against whether or not to give birth to him. So, if you insist on giving birth to this child, we'll see you in court! ”

"Leng Shifan, you're crazy."

"I'm not crazy. It's you who are crazy. What's in it for you to stick with this baby? Go back and calm down and think about it. Is it worth it to affect the relationship between me and you for the sake of an unborn child? After saying this, Leng Shifan pushed open a movable wall of the piano room and walked in, and the wall immediately closed as if it had never been opened.

This is Leng Shifan's weird habit. Whether in the United States or China, his piano room has such a secret room. No one but himself could walk in. Including Julie, who lived with him for three years.

When she first found out, Julie thought it was funny, like Ali Baba and the sesame of the Forty Thieves.

But now, she began to feel that Leng Shifan was mysterious and weird, like Bluebeard, who always killed his wife and threw them into the secret room.

The words that Nian Qing said suddenly got into her mind: "Julie, do you know Leng Shifan?" Do you know what kind of person he really is? ”

In fact, Julie has never liked Nianqing very much. I feel that she is always full of resentment and self-pity. felt that she always blamed her common mother for her emotional misfortune. I feel that Nian Qing must be very jealous of himself. Because Julie received her mother's complete love.

So she has always regarded Nianqing's words that day as irrational venting. When I think about it for the first time today, I shudder. Sister, she seems to know something she doesn't know.

It's a good day, Nian Qing took out Jack's special bathtub and brushed it clean and poured it full of hot water.

"Please, my Captain Jack." She pointed to the basin and said to Jack.

Jack screamed, and then jumped into the water, splashing Nian Qing on the face. Nianqing enjoyed bathing Jack. She took a dog-specific brush and brushed Jack's hair. As he wiped his ears, Jack squinted and looked like he was enjoying it.

Nian Qing looked at its pirate eyes, and the guy in her heart who always deliberately didn't think about it immediately jumped out, as if he was squatting beside her and helping her brush Jack's bristles together. "Sister, that's not right, you should brush it like this."

"Whoever says it's wrong, that's it." She retorted.

After a while, she smiled into the air: "How are you doing?" Am I in a hurry? Don't worry, your uncle's health is getting better and better. When I become proficient with the first song of my life, I will go to you. When the time comes, don't be awkward and hide and refuse to see me. Did You Know? ”

Jack tilted his head to look at Nianqing, unable to understand who she was smiling at and talking to.

"These days, I learned some cooking techniques with my aunt. I'll make it for you when we're together. You used to cook for me, I'm so embarrassed. I'm a few years older than you, so I should take care of you. You just say what you want to eat, and everything is satisfying you.

"Su Duo, don't hide. I know you're thinking about me all the time. Me too. ”

After saying so much, the illusory man only laughed, but refused to speak. Nian Qing was anxious, and reached out to grab it, only to find that it was a hallucination that he had imagined in his mind.

So his hand fell, and he looked down at the bubbles in the bathtub in a daze.

On an early autumn afternoon, the sun sets quickly. The water in the tub was cold, and Jack stood in it shivering from the cold. It couldn't figure out what was wrong with Nianqing, why it didn't care about it. In the end, the little guy couldn't stand it anymore and jumped out of the basin with bubbles all over his body. first shook off the water droplets, then rolled all over the ground trying to wipe the wet hair, lying on the grass and screaming aggrievedly.

Zhou Zijin took a big towel and wrapped Jack up and threw it on the carpet in the living room.

He leaned down and patted Nian Qing on the shoulder.

Nian Qing was startled and raised his head. There were tears on his face that he didn't have time to wipe away.

Zhou Zijin couldn't say anything helpless, and couldn't tell the sorrow. Just now, he heard Nian Qing's sick self-talk. If she is imprisoned like this, maybe the sick person will become a young man.

Do you just let her go? He was really unwilling.

At this time, Nian Qing's mobile phone suddenly vibrate. She hurriedly dried her hands and answered the phone.

"Hello?"

"Sister."

Nian Qing was stunned, she didn't expect Julie to call her at all, let alone that she would call her by her sister.

"What's wrong?" Nian Qing asked subconsciously. Her instinct told herself that Julie must have encountered something intractable. called her because in the land of China, Nian Qing is her only relative.

"Can I see you?"

"See me?" Nian Qing turned his head and glanced at Zhou Zijin, and whispered, "I'm not at home now." I'm afraid it's not very convenient. ”

"Sister." Julie's voice looked panicked, "I, I've found something. It's cold, I don't know what to do. You're going to help me. ”

"Good. In a moment, I'll send you the address. You'd better be there before five o'clock. ”

"Hmm."

Hanging up the phone, Nian Qing said to Zhou Zijin: "Well, my sister will come later." She was in a hurry and would leave soon. ”

Zhou Zijin thought it was Chen Xingxing: "Oh, it's happy, let her come, you can come as long as you want." ”

Nian Qing shook his head: "It's not my cousin, it's my own sister." ”

"Huh?"

"That's ......" Nian Qing explained Julie's identity to Zhou Zijin in detail.

"Since it's your own sister, it's even more important to entertain and entertain well. What does she like to eat? I told my aunt to do it. ”

"No, no, no." Nian Qing waved her hand, "Don't bother, she will leave soon when she asks me to say something." After speaking, she slapped her forehead suddenly, "Ah, I only remembered when you mentioned Auntie." She told me to go to the dry cleaners in the afternoon to pick up my clothes, and I forgot about it. ”

Nian Qing rushed into the room in a hurry, picked up his coat and rushed out in a hurry.

Zhou Zijin frowned, very dissatisfied: "Your sister is coming, what are you going out to do here?" ”

"I'm very fast, very fast. I already promised my aunt that I would pick it up yesterday, but I forgot about it. I can't forget what I said today. The dry cleaners are close and I'll be back soon. ”