To be honest, I didn't understand what the doctor said, and I didn't understand what the obstacle was.

But I know, it's definitely not a good thing.

I took a deep breath and exclaimed, "This is ...... What do you mean? ”

The doctor explained to me: "PTSD is actually a mental disorder. The onset of the disease is a mental disorder that occurs in an individual that is delayed and persists after you have witnessed or experienced one or more actual deaths involving yourself or others, or have been threatened with death, or have been seriously injured, or have a threat to their physical integrity. ”

I nodded thoughtfully.

I did experience it.

The deaths of Gu Sisi and Fang Yiqing did cause a lot of trauma to my spirit.

"At first, it was just emotional excess, but later, in your memories or dreams, there will be frequent and repeated images of that time, involuntarily appearing the hurt you have suffered, and your emotions will be strongly substituted into it, as if you are constantly and repeatedly touching the scene. Gradually, you will lose the distinction between reality and memory, and your mind will begin to get confused, and it will feel like everything is going to happen again. ”

The doctor's words made me shudder, doesn't this mean that my mind will start to destabilize and become a neurotic?

"That'...... Then I'm ...... now," I struggled to speak.

"You're now in the initial precautionary phase, and you're starting to shy away from what you've been through, or ...... Someone who has hurt you in the past. Your aggressive behavior, or suicidal behavior, because you are overprepared, is a sign that you are coping with those painful events. The psychiatrist said.

I became more and more panicked when he said, "So what should I do now?" I don't want to...... I don't want to become a psychopath! ”

The doctor's hand was raised, signaling me not to be too nervous, "I will prescribe you a little medicine similar to sedatives, you take it every day, keep your mood happy, try not to be alone, but to have someone by your side." Because silence makes you think about what you have experienced. Also, try to stay away from those who have hurt you, their appearance will remind you of those painful pasts. You can still receive treatment, but if you are really mentally stimulated, you may choose to forget something...... Of course, that's not what you want to see, right? ”

My teeth trembled, and it took me a long time before I nodded, "I see......"

"Are you married?" I was stunned when the doctor asked this, but he didn't seem to recognize my identity.

Without waiting for me to answer, he continued: "If you get married, let your husband accompany you more." If you don't get married, you stay with your family. ”

"Got it, so I'm ...... When will it be good? I mean, I can stabilize my emotions. I said.

"I can't say for sure, if I recover quickly, it may be about half a year. If you accept the stimulation in the middle of the way, no one can say that it is not good. "The psychiatrist ripped off the list and handed it to me.

I took it, looked at the doctor's special handwriting that I couldn't understand at all, said thank you, turned around and left the ward, and went to get the medicine.

As I took the medicine, I wandered into space, staring at the list in my hand.

Although I couldn't understand what medicine he was prescribing, the four words of mental illness on it still deeply pierced my heart.

I let out a long sigh, but don't think about it again after a while.

After taking the medicine, I put it in my bag and called Fu Ruyan.

After calling four or five, he answered, and there was still the sound of flipping through the paper on the other end, and soon, it was estimated that it was very busy.

"Xiao Chu, what's wrong?" Fu Ruyan asked me anxiously.

I wanted to tell him that I had a mental problem, but I thought about it, but I still didn't say it, and the words seemed to be blocked in my throat, and I couldn't open that mouth.

"Nothing...... It is...... I want to be discharged from the hospital, and I'm going through the discharge procedures. I smiled lightly, "Aren't you busy?" ”

Fu Ruyan paused, and his tone was mixed with a bit of reproach: "Why do you go through the formalities alone?" You stay in the ward, I'll go over after work. ”

"It's okay, I'm also bored there, and the smell of disinfectant water also makes me uncomfortable." I persisted.

Fu Ruyan took a step back, "Then I'll let Xiao Liang pick you up, I really can't leave here." ”

"It's okay, it's okay." I hurriedly said: "It's okay to let him come, you work hard, I'll wait for you to come back." ”

"Hmm."

Assistant Liang came soon, and he looked at me with a look of distress in his eyes.

On the way back, we didn't say a word.

When I got home, I put myself on the sofa, and Aunt Zhang heard that I was back and hurriedly came over.

It is estimated that Fu Ruyan said hello in advance, and she didn't mention the child, but just chatted with me casually and cared about me.

"I'm much better, Aunt Zhang, I want some soup in the evening." I say.

"Okay, is it okay to stew lotus root with pork ribs?" She asked.

"Of course, but I'll have to trouble you." I say.

"No trouble, no trouble." Aunt Zhang waved her hand again and again, "Then I'll go buy pork ribs now, stew for a long time, the soup is also beautiful, and it is also light, it will not make you feel greasy." ”

"Hmm."

Looking at her departing figure, I couldn't help asking, "By the way, how is Wu Hao?" ”

Aunt Zhang's eyebrows twisted slightly, "You don't care about this matter." ”

With that, she left.

I sensed that something was wrong, and when she was gone, I went to the small warehouse to take a look, only to find that the small warehouse was empty!

What's going on?

Why is Wu Hao gone?

Did he die or run?

It's okay if he dies, but if he runs away, how can I torture him and avenge Gu Sisi!

The name Gu Sisi only came to mind, and the image of her being pushed off the roof came to my mind.

The intensity of the emotion became very clear at this moment, and I clearly felt the anger burning all over my chest.

It's too obvious.

It's really too obvious......

I didn't notice it before, but now I realize that I'm really different from before......

No wonder, no wonder Fu Ruyan said at that time that he would take me to see a psychiatrist.

It's just that my reason was washed away at that time, and I didn't think deeply at all.

In fact...... I've been mentally ill for a long time.

I curled the corners of my lips bitterly, I was such a failure.

The child was not saved, and the spirit became like this.

The matter of Josie and the child is the *** of this matter, and it is she who has made me like this.

I won't let her go, absolutely not!

Aunt Zhang soon came back after buying vegetables, she was stunned when she saw me standing at the door of the small warehouse, and hurriedly walked over: "Madam, it's cold outside, your body is not well, don't blow the cold wind." ”