I'm fed up with myself like this.

I hate myself like this.

Sometimes I wish I could die once and be reborn.

In this way, those feelings of inferiority and cowardice can be completely lost.

Hung up Fang Yiqing's phone, I cleaned up and went to the company.

At this time, it was already four o'clock in the afternoon.

I didn't rush to find Fu Ruyan, but drank juice in the café downstairs of his company.

What Fang Yiqing said is certainly reasonable, but I also have to be considerate and considerate of Fu Ruyan, I can't doubt him, right?

Besides, Song Qian and I are friends, and she has helped me so many times, is it too much for me to do this?

Just as I was hesitating, I saw two familiar figures coming out of the company.

I rubbed my eyes vigorously and looked over in disbelief to see that I really didn't have any eyes.

Song Qian......

Why did Song Qian appear here?!

She actually stood beside Fu Ruyan, the two of them chatted happily, and Fu Ruyan, who had always been cold-faced, actually showed a shallow smile, which was extremely wrong with the past.

There was a bang in my head, as if something had exploded.

The thoughts I had been thinking about were instantly extinguished.

I stood up in a panic, picked up my glass and walked into the corner, trying to escape this reality.

Probably because reality didn't want me to escape, Fu Ruyan and Song Qian walked in from the door and walked towards me.

I was sitting, and the backs of the chairs in this café were designed to be very high, so they didn't see me.

"Drink something?" This is Fu Ruyan's voice.

Song smiled lightly, "Orange juice is good." ”

After ordering something to drink, Fu Ruyan said unhurriedly: "I didn't expect you to take the initiative to come to me." ”

The word initiative stung me deeply.

Song Qian smiled and said, "If I don't look for you again, won't you have to drink the northwest wind?" ”

"The northwest wind is not enough, and the soil still has something to eat." When Fu Ruyan chatted with her, she didn't have that feeling of being superior, but made fun.

This makes me feel that this person is not Fu Ruyan.

"It's all this time, and you still like to joke so much." Song Qian's words were full of helplessness, but more of them seemed to have favor, as if he had long been used to it, "If you eat soil, what do you let He Chu do?" ”

"She can still eat bowls of instant noodles." Fu Ruyan said.

Song Qian was really helpless, "Hey, what are you doing?" You're starting to tell bad jokes now, aren't you? ”

Fu Ruyan chuckled, "No, okay, let's get down to business, what's the matter with you coming to me?" ”

"I came to you, what do you not know?" Song Qian put a check in front of him and stared at him with soft eyes, "This is the funds, enough for you to support for a while." ”

Fu Ruyan picked it up, and his clear eyes swept over it, "Nine figures, Song Qian, you moved your house here, right?" ”

Nine figures?!

I counted on my fingers, scared to the air.

Song Qian pulled the broken hair of his sideburns behind his ears, and said unhurriedly, "Together, our family is lined with nine figures?" Don't worry, my company will not be affected, this money can be regarded as my small treasury, take it and use it. ”

"Since you have your private property, I can't bear it anymore, otherwise I really can't repay this kindness." Fu Ruyan said, pushing the check back.

Song Qian raised his eyebrows, "It's all this time, are you still telling me this?" When will I ask you to repay your kindness? ”

Fu Ruyan was silent.

Song Qian said half-jokingly: "I didn't let you promise each other." ”

At first glance, this is full of ambiguity.

I don't know what others think, but I feel that this is Song Qian hinting at Fu Ruyan.

"Stop making a fuss." Fu Ruyan said.

"No trouble." Song Qian said unhurriedly: "I just want to say that if the person you chose was me, you wouldn't have ended up like this today, wouldn't you?" ”

Listening to Song Qian's words, I slowly clenched my fists.

"You know, she can't help you with anything." Song Qian said again.

Yes, she's telling the truth.

But at this moment I hated it for coming out of her mouth.

Fang Yiqing is right, Song Qian really has this thought.

I was foolish enough to think that she could really afford to put it down.

But now what she said was not accusing me? Not taunting me? Isn't it implying that Fu Ruyan and I are divorcing?

I feel like I'm like a fried cat at this moment, no matter whether Song Qian's words mean anything else or not, I will distort and twist it.

Fu Ruyan sighed lightly, "I know." ”

At that moment, there was a buzzing in my ears, as if I couldn't hear anything.

They seemed to say something later, but I didn't listen to a word, and my mind was full of that I knew.

Fu Ruyan, are you also blaming me for not being able to help him with anything?

I want to help him, but I can't do anything about it......

Powerless......

Tears flowed from my eyes, and I stood up without the slightest patience.

I wanted to ask them why they were doing this, but I couldn't say a word.

Because I know that what they say is true.

They just tore open my scar, sprinkled it with a layer of salt, and put it back on again.

Song Qian saw me, with a hint of panic in his eyes, "He Chu." ”

I looked at her, full of disgust, and I heard my voice clearly: "Song Qian, I really didn't expect you to be such a person." ”

Song Qian was slightly stunned, "What?" ”

"If you want to be together, you can be together!" I shouted loudly, completely oblivious to the eyes of the people around me.

I'm definitely embarrassed right now, like a shrew.

I obviously saw the displeasure on Fu Ruyan's face, and I walked away, wiping the tears from my face.

"He Chu, what are you making trouble!" Fu Ruyan stepped forward and grabbed my wrist.

I shook it off, I didn't know where I got that much strength, "Leave me alone!" ”

Fu Ruyan said patiently: "What did you hear?" ”

"Are you afraid I'll hear you?" I looked at him with tears in my eyes, "In your heart, I'm a piece of waste, right?" ”

Fu Ruyu twisted his eyebrows, "What are you talking about?" When did I think you were a piece of shit? ”

"Fu Ruyan......" I choked up, "what can I do...... I can't help you with anything, it's Song Qian who can help you, you go to her, you go to her......"

"Are you alright?" Fu Ruyan wanted to say something, but I didn't give him this chance, and strode outside.

I heard Fu Ruyan and Song Qian calling me, but I didn't want to look back.

I walked out of the café, reached out and stopped the car and left.

But halfway through the drive, I regretted it again, and I looked back hard.

But behind, where is the Fu Ruyan who is in hot pursuit......