Beijing city in autumn is a little cool, the wind blows on the face like frosted paper is rubbing, I hold the hairy crab standing downstairs Zhao Ye's house looks particularly funny, I look up at the room, the room is lit, but my heart is cowardly, standing downstairs looking at the watch, the heart said within five minutes, the number of people who walk in front of me is an odd number, I will go up, even number...... Let's come back another day after reading the yellow calendar!

Five minutes later, twenty-two people passed, and I felt as if I had miscounted.

Another five minutes passed, thirty-one people passed, and I didn't think I was counting correctly.

Five minutes later, twelve people passed, and I thought I'd better count them again!

After another five minutes, five people passed, I put the hairy crabs on the ground, I squatted next to the hairy crabs and watched them crawl and roll in the box, foaming at the mouth with white foam, trying to break the straw rope on my body, waving my pincers from time to time, trying to show my infinite strength, but to no avail.

I think God must be teasing me, or will God think I'm teasing him?

I stood up again and walked from the east end of the road to the west end of the road, and then walked back to the downstairs of Zhao Ye's house from the west end of the road, and an hour had passed since I came to this community, and I decided to ask again, this time no matter what the result was, it was all from it. I took out a steel hammer from my wallet that I had bought a few days ago and asked for me - a dollar that I hadn't had time to spend, and I prayed silently in my heart that if this dollar fell on my hand, I would go up, and if it fell on my hand, I would leave! After I thought about it, I tossed the coin high, then reached for it, pinched it in my hand, and my heart "thumped", and I carefully removed the hand holding the coin a slit, but I did not see a flower on it.

A big number lay in the palm of my hand, like a mockery.

I pinched the coin and picked up the hairy crab on the ground, turned my head and walked towards the door of the community, and after two steps I stopped, asking myself if I should throw it again, maybe this time God was joking with me? I wanted to throw it again, but I didn't put it into practice, because there is a saying that if you toss a coin to help yourself make a decision, and when the result comes out and you decide to throw it again, you should know that you really have a decision in your heart.

I gritted my teeth, took a deep breath, and smiled at myself, I tried to calm myself down in this way, and then lowered my head and walked towards Zhao Ye's room, climbed up from the first floor, panting and holding the hairy crab, and smashed the door three times, in the process of waiting for the door to open, I felt like 10,000 years had passed, time was silent, I lived like I saw it, until the door "squeaked" opened, I felt relieved.

Inside the door, a girl with long hair poked her head out to look at me, and she asked me, "Who are you looking for?" ”

I glanced at the girl, thinking that I had knocked on the wrong door, took a step back and glanced at the house number, and found that it was right, this is Zhao Ye's family, and there is a woman in his family? The voice of Zhao Ye that I was familiar with came from inside the door, and he was asking, "Jingjing, who?" ”

Quietly?

I just want to be quiet!

As soon as my hand was released, the hairy crabs fell and I threw them to the ground, the white foam box fell to the side, and several hairy crabs looked at me with sympathy. I turned my head and turned around and "pedaled" downstairs, while walking, I thought that the woman's premonition was really right, Zhao Ye didn't contact me for so many days, I really found the woman I liked, and at the beginning I was just to make do, and now that true love has come, he has found the love of his life, I should quit, I should be fulfilled, this is a correct attitude towards the male god.

But...... What is he doing this?

My heart was overflowing with grievances, tears came out of my eyes, and I was squatting on the ground holding my knees and crying, if you didn't like me, why didn't you just tell me? Does he need to be so wronged to fulfill a person's crush? It makes me feel that I am small and humble at this moment.

What am I?

What the hell am I?

Will he know that the person who came today is me, will he know that today I know the truth? I have 10,000 question marks in my heart, and even at that moment I was still thinking about whether he would feel guilty for the rest of his life if I was hit by a car at this time, and would he never know that I was hit and killed, because he didn't care at all!

My mind was very chaotic, and countless thoughts rushed to me in an instant, and I even began to think about how I would pretend to be calm in the face of Miss Liao and Jin Shao when I went back, and the two of them would definitely look at me with the same expressions as Zhuge Liang that they had known for a long time, and then they might rush to Zhao Ye's company with a kitchen knife to hug me.

I squatted downstairs in Zhao Ye's house and thought about a lot of things, and after thinking for more than five minutes, there was a "clang" footsteps in the corridor, and the light at the door of the building suddenly turned on because of this footsteps, and a low and hoarse voice came from above my head, and someone said, "I knew it was you!" ”

I tilted my head, squinted my eyes, and saw clearly that the person who came was Zhao Ye through the slit left for my pupils, what his expression and appearance were very blurry in my eyes, I took a deep breath and snot, stood up and looked at him aggrievedly choked, but still forced to calm down and said to him, "I understand." ”

Zhao Ye asked me, "What do you understand?" ”

I wiped a handful of tears and said to Zhao Ye, "I'm fine, don't worry, I'll be fine soon, I'll go home first." After I finished speaking, I turned around and was about to leave, Zhao Ye grabbed my arm from behind me, dragged me to him and asked me, "Can you tell me what you understand first?" ”

I pointed upstairs and asked Zhao Ye, "Do you like that girl?" ”

Zhao Ye asked me, "Where are you?" ”

I said, "I know that you didn't particularly like me from the beginning when you were with me, or you thought I liked you, and you could take advantage of it, and I didn't have to pay much, and I was crazy to dig out my heart and lungs with you!" You think my person is not outrageous, and if you live with me, you will be able to deal with it for a while, make do with it, and you can deal with it in the second half of your life, so you chose me! But after you chose me, you met the girl you really loved, you will be with her, you don't want me anymore......" I was very aggrieved when I said the last four words, muttering and roaring, I squatted down in front of Zhao Ye and continued to cry just now, crying heart-rending sadness, and I couldn't care about forcing my composure in front of him anymore.

Zhao Ye asked me, "Where are you not outrageous?" ”

I yelled at Zhao Ye, "It's all like this, can you not bury me?" ”

Zhao Ye patted me on the back and squatted down to accompany me, "I'll ask you something." ”

I sniffled and looked up at him, "You say!" ”

Zhao Ye asked me, "When you were a child, your family and my family still lived next door, do you remember?" ”

I said, "Remember! ”

Zhao Ye asked, "Then when my cousin came to my house, you played crazy with her, and at night your parents asked you to go home, and you took my arm, hugged my thighs and cried and shouted that you would not go home and live in my house." Do you remember this? ”

I thought about it, stopped crying and asked Zhao Ye, "What about this part?" ”

Zhao Ye said, "At that time, the two of you were not in love, you twisted your face, you couldn't even remember people, did you?" ”

I was stunned by what Zhao Ye said, and after thinking for a long time, I didn't understand where Zhao Ye's words were, and finally I suddenly patted my head, pointed upstairs and asked Zhao Ye, "That's Zhao Jing!" ”

Zhao Ye nodded, squatted on the ground and looked at me, wiping away the tears on his face for me, "Then what do you want to be?" ”

I shook my head vigorously, "No." ”

"No......" Zhao Ye nodded, "If you don't have this, what's the matter, you have to rush to the kitchen to find a kitchen knife and cut me down before committing suicide, right?" He lifted me up from the ground, and my body was like a boneless mollusk, clinging to his body, and he put his arms around me, patted me on the head, and whispered in my ear, "Why did you say I was with you?" ”

I blushed and shook my head, "What did I just say?" ”

Zhao Ye pushed me away and looked into my eyes, "Just now you said that I relied on you to like me, because you are quite reliable, so I am going to be with you, you said so, right?" ”

I shook my head in one final denial.

Zhao Ye nodded, "Not only are you indiscriminately inserting trumped-up charges on me now, but your memory is not very good!" Which of us is chasing whom? Do you know how I felt when I sat at Yoshinoya and watched you eat your beef rice bowl with peace of mind after I confessed to you? After a long time, you introduced me to my girlfriend from the beginning, and led me to unreliable relatives with your various friends, all of which you planned in advance? ”

I bit my lip, stifled a laugh, and shook my head vigorously.

Zhao Ye's lips touched his lips gently, and he leaned me against the door with his body, he put one hand on my waist, lowered his head and asked me gently, his lips were warm and soft, and I hugged his neck as if there was only one Zhao Ye left in the world. The tip of his tongue touched my lips, and my breathing became uneven. Suddenly there was a sound of slamming the door behind him, and an old lady said to us in a thick Beijing accent, "Young people have a little merit, and if you don't have money to open a house, you can choose a place where no one is there, what does it mean to block other people's doors?" ”

My whole body was like someone was holding my spinal cord, and a tendon was pumped from the cerebellum to the bottom of my foot, and I couldn't stand still. Zhao Ye's expression, which has always been quite urban, also showed a hint of embarrassment at this moment, pulled me away from the door, and said vigorously to the old lady who came out of it, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, we didn't mean to." ”

The old lady looked Zhao Ye up and down, pursed her lips, and muttered, "Delay!" After speaking, I twisted and walked in the direction of the square dance in their community, and I hid behind Zhao Ye until the old lady walked out of the distance, and then I breathed a long sigh of relief.

Zhao Ye turned his head and asked me, "Go up?" ”