Once a person has recovered from tension, he or she will become very tired.

In addition, it was late at night, and as soon as I got in the car, I felt that my body was weak.

Fu Ruyan saw that I was not very comfortable, and said softly: "Sleep, I'll call you when it's time." ”

I shook my head slightly, "No. ”

However, the woman's words were inaccurate, as if I kept saying no, and was still drowsy, until the car passed over a big rock, and I woke up.

Strange, why hasn't it been so long?

I looked out the window in confusion and found that the roadside was empty, with only a few sparse street lamps holding their posts.

"Where are you taking me?" I asked anxiously.

"My home." Fu Ruyan said calmly.

"You! What are you doing, you! Put me down! "I was in a hurry to open the door, but I couldn't open it.

Fu Ruyan's eyebrows twisted slightly, "Don't do such a dangerous thing." ”

It was only then that I realized that I had just tried to open the door while the car was moving......

"Then you send me home." I said anxiously.

"It's coming soon." Fu Ruyan said.

"Fu Ruyan, are you interesting?" I always felt that if I went back with him, something irreparable would happen again, "I really don't understand you, why do you always have to do things that make me misunderstood?" If you don't want to divorce me and still like me, why should you have an ambiguous relationship with Josie? If you don't like me anymore and want to reconcile with Josie, why do anything else that makes me misunderstood? ”

Fu Ruyan fell into deep thought, and by the moonlight, I could clearly see the solemnity and complexity on his face.

"I naturally have my reasons." Fu Ruyan said for a long time.

I sneered, "If there is a reason, I have to be played like a fool by you?" I'm going to be your pet who comes and goes? What do you think of me, Fu Ruyu? Have you ever considered my feelings? Can you please stop being so selfish?! ”

I got my thoughts out there, whether he was angry or not.

"You say you have your reasons and your purposes, so are you going to hide it from me? I used to be your wife, but you didn't tell me anything. You control the whole game, playing everyone with applause like a god. But why...... I'm also your pawn? Why? I said word by word: "I can understand you, I can rely on you, according to you, but this does not mean that we are all divorced, I will stand on your side without hesitation." I'm not that stupid! ”

Fu Ruyan took a deep breath: "You calm down, I know, you have a lot of questions to ask me." But...... There are some words that I ......"

Before he could finish speaking, the car stopped.

In the doorway, where the headlights were shining, stood a beautiful woman.

My face changed, and I sneered: "That's your reason? ”

Josie came from the door, hurrying, with a coat in hand, obviously waiting for him for a long time.

"Xiao Chu, I don't know why she's here, I ......"

I didn't listen to Fu Ruyan's words and got out of the car directly.

Josie's face changed slightly when she saw me.

Fu Ruyan also came down, and his tone was displeased: "Why are you here?" ”

Qiao Qian stepped forward, looking like a good wife and mother, and put her coat on Fu Ruyan's body, "I've been waiting for you for a long time, why did you come back......

After speaking, she also glanced at me, "Miss He, it's a big night, don't be at home to rest...... What are you doing here? ”

I looked at her posture, and it was clear that she was a hostess.

This Fu Ruyan even broke with me for some reason.

Reason!

My lungs are going to explode!

It's a shame that I was so worried about him just now, afraid that he would be hit by a car and afraid that he would get into a car accident, but behind people's backs, that little life has a good life.

Lo and behold, Josie could be waiting for him at his door in the middle of the night with his coat in hand.

What does that mean?

How could I be so stupid, I really think Fu Ruyan has any troubles.

What could he be up to?

In this northern city, he covers the sky with one hand, and everyone is not his opponent.

"If Miss He doesn't dislike it, let's go into the house and sit down." After Josie finished speaking, she turned slightly sideways and gave way to me, this move was like a little daughter-in-law waiting for her husband to come home, and she also believed in her husband very much, and invited me in very generously.

I don't even know how I got that smile, "No, I still have something to do, so I'm not going to be a guest." ”

After I finished speaking, I glanced at Fu Ruyan, he didn't say anything, his thin lips collapsed tightly.

I don't know what he thinks, but I don't want to guess either.

I feel like I'm just a joke.

Fu Ruyan brought me back, I'm afraid he just wanted me to know that he already had Josie.

"Borrow the car, thanks." After I finished speaking, I got into the car as if I was running away.

The car keys didn't pull out, so I drove away.

I didn't even have the courage to look in the car mirror.

I drove a long way until I left the place and slammed on the brakes.

Tears poured out of the nest in an instant, without warning, and instantly wet my face.

I went from sobbing at the beginning to crying later, so broken and helpless.

"He Chu...... Why are you so stupid...... So stupid...... I still believe Fu Ruyan's words...... You're a big fool in the middle of the word...... He has done that to you, hurt you like that, why do you still believe him...... Why ......" I muttered lowly, punch after punch on the steering wheel, my hands swollen.

But as if I didn't think it was enough, I rushed out of the car and punched the dusty wall, and the pain went straight to my heart.

It wasn't until the back of my hand was bleeding that I stopped, looking at the dirty, bloody wound, a little distracted.

When I got in the car again, I suddenly realized what I had done.

I'm ......

Is it self-abuse?

I don't want my emotions to be swayed by Fu Ruyan and Josie, but sometimes, I really can't control it......

I didn't go home, I went to the hospital, bandaged the wound first, and found the only psychiatrist on duty.

"You have now developed masochistic tendencies...... All you need to do is stabilize your emotions so that you don't get out of control, otherwise...... Chances are, at the end of the day, you have absolutely no idea what you're doing. ”

I hummed expressionlessly, "But I can't control it, I hope you can prescribe me some medicine...... For example, this is the one that calms my mind down right away. ”

The psychiatrist was a little embarrassed: "You still have to pay more attention to this on weekdays, and it is not a good thing to rely too much on drugs...... However, just in case, I'll open you a bottle first. ”

When I got the medicine bottle in my hand, my heart trembled, "Thank you......"