I took a taxi and went home, but I stayed in my room and didn't come out.

My mom didn't dare to come in rashly, knocked on the door several times, and finally it was time to go to bed and had to come in.

"Sleeping?" My mom asked softly.

I rolled over and looked straight at her.

My mother patted her chest lightly as if she had done something wrong, "You kid, you want to scare me to death, right?" ”

"Mom......" I called out to her in a low voice.

"It's because of Fu Ruyan's matter, right?" My mom sat next to me.

I nodded.

"Mom also heard the conversation you had with that Xiao Liang today. Although some I don't understand, what I can understand is that there is nothing between Fu Ruyan and Josie, right? My mom asked sharply.

"Yes."

My mom let out a long sigh and took my hand, invisibly giving me motivation, "So what do you think?" ”

I shook my head sluggishly, "I don't know, I really don't." I feel ...... now Everything is so mysterious, as if it's not real. ”

Throughout the day, I received so many messages that my brain was in a state of confusion and unable to function properly.

My mother pondered for a moment, "Then let me ask you, do you still have feelings for Fu Ruyu's kid?" ”

"I ......" came to his lips, but he couldn't say it.

My mom saw it, and she continued, "Yes, right?" ”

I hummed, "Yes, and I still love him." But I think...... The gap between me and him is no longer something that can be solved by a few misunderstandings. ”

I put my hands on my chest and felt my heart pounding.

"You have a knot in your heart, and you can't get along with yourself in your heart." My mom pointed out the truth, "Actually, it's very simple, it's not that difficult. There is nothing between Fu Ruyan and Qiao Qian, and you still love each other, and it is natural for you to remarry. ”

"I ...... I don't really want to remarry......" I murmured.

"Why?" My mother's eyebrows furrowed, "Just because he didn't tell you the truth?" ”

"So to speak." I said bitterly, "Maybe...... After everyone knows the truth, they will think that I don't know what to do, after all, Fu Ruyan is also thinking about me and doesn't want me to get involved. But I don't think like them, I'm his wife...... But my wife would only run away, and would only hide behind him with her neck bent and be a turtle with a shrunken head, pushing him out and letting him deal with so many things that were so much anxious. I ...... in my heart I really can't accept it. I don't think I'm like his wife, I'm like his daughter. Isn't it true that husbands and wives support each other in the first place? Why did he push me out and let me live a comfortable life with peace of mind, while he suffered and sinned there......"

My mom laughed out loud when she heard me.

"What are you laughing at?" I glared at her disapprovingly.

"Silly boy, let's talk about it, you blame him for hiding it from you. You blame, you didn't suffer with him! My mother said the word bitterness very seriously, "It's not so much that you don't forgive him, it's that you don't forgive yourself." You feel that you are also at fault for this matter, you did not bear it with him, you can't get over it in your heart, you feel guilty, right? ”

My eyes widened in surprise, and my pupils shrank suddenly.

Be.

That's what I thought.

After listening to all the words that Fu Ruyan said, I felt that I was a woman who had escaped from the battle, and I was not worthy to be his wife, because I did not share the joys and sorrows with him.

Isn't that a clear statement? Husband and wife were originally birds of the same forest, and they flew separately when disaster came.

But deep down I don't want to! I'd rather bear it with Fu Ruyan, and I don't want him to push me away!

I can't forgive Fu Ruyan for hiding it from me, and I can't forgive me for not being by Fu Ruyan's side.

My mom patted my hand, "If you think so, you're too sharp." Yes, that's right, husband and wife should bear all the suffering and enjoy all the happiness together. But Fu Ruyan didn't do anything wrong, as your husband, he must have thought at the first time when something happened, how can I not let my wife suffer this crime with me, right? ”

I didn't give a response.

My mom didn't feel embarrassed and continued: "His intentions are good, and there is nothing wrong with him. And there's nothing wrong with you, because he deliberately hides from you, and you can't know the truth even if you want to know the truth. ”

"Mom." I said in a low voice, "I understand what you say, but I ......."

"Don't rush." My mom interrupted me, "Calm yourself down, you'll figure it out sooner or later." This is not something that can be figured out at once in a day or two, but don't forget, Fu Ruyan can do this, which is enough to show how deep his feelings are for you. ”

"Hmm...... I know. ”

My mom smiled softly at me, "Okay, don't talk about this, are you hungry?" Mom will give you a bowl of noodles to eat. ”

"I want to eat egg noodles with tomatoes." I say.

"Okay, I'll do it for you." My mom walked out after that.

The moment the door closed, tears flowed down the corners of his eyes.

I wiped away my tears and slowly closed my eyes.

After eating the tomato egg noodles, my mom went to sleep.

I couldn't sleep, so I just snuggled up on the couch and watched TV.

Rather than watching TV, I was watching a pantomime, and I didn't tune in to my voice, just staring at the people moving around on the TV.

It wasn't until the sky outside the window was dark that I fell asleep.

When I woke up, it was already noon.

I slowly got up from the couch, my mom was already cooking lunch, and my mother-in-law was following her to help her.

After I cleaned up, the meal was already on the table.

"It's time to eat." My mom looked at me and said, "What time did you go to bed last night?" ”

"I don't know, it's four or five." I sat listlessly on the stool.

My mother's hand landed on my head, "Your face is so bad, are you sick?" ”

I shook my head a few times, but I didn't feel heavy, so I replied, "No, maybe I just didn't rest." ”

"Well, I'll catch up on my sleep after eating." My mother happily picked up my bowl and served me rice, "I made a few meat dishes today, as well as the sweet and sour pork ribs you like to eat, try it, it's different from Fu Ruyan's kid?" ”

I looked at the meat dishes on the table and felt that there were indeed a lot, including braised pork, sweet and sour pork ribs, and sweet and sour tenderloin, just one vegetarian dish, and a soup.

My mom put a piece of braised pork in a bowl for me, "I've been stewing this for a long time, and it must be better than your favorite pork ribs." ”

I looked at the meat, and my stomach churned, and I felt greasy and uncomfortable.

But my mother was urging me so much, and seeing that she was looking forward to my comments so much, I could only put it in my mouth.

After a few chews, I hurriedly swallowed it, but I didn't expect the meat to roll around in my throat, so I stood up suddenly, and rushed into the bathroom without caring about the injury on my foot, and vomited in front of the pool.