"I love you so much that I even wanted to tell you the truth more than once, but for various reasons I couldn't say it. But loving you doesn't mean I'm going to pull you along and bear some of the pain you shouldn't have to bear. So I thought, even if you hate me and blame me for this, it's all my fault, and I myself kept you in the dark. ”

Listening to Fu Ruyan's words, I couldn't come back to my senses for a long time.

He explained very carefully and told me all the pros and cons.

It turned out that the reason he didn't tell me was because of this......

"Xiao Chu, I'm sorry." Fu Ruyan apologized to me very sincerely, "In less than a week, this matter will be over." I know there's nothing I can do to make amends for the damage I have done to you, but I'm going to do my best...... Do your best to make you forgive me and accept me again. ”

"Don't talk about it." I interrupted him, a little flustered, not even knowing where to put my gaze.

I don't know how to deal with this sudden truth.

That's right, there is nothing between Fu Ruyan and Qiao Qian, innocent, I am indeed very happy.

But happy is happy, and I also fell into deep thought in this matter.

There is still a gap between me and Fu Ruyan, which has become deeper and deeper with the passage of time.

Yes, I can forgive him this time, but next time...... What about next time?

It's not that I'm messing around and being unreasonable, but every time I'm concealed, I really can't make the right approach and choice.

Fu Ruyan and I think completely differently, Fu Ruyan feels that he loves me, so he should protect me, so he will not tell me the truth of the matter.

But I think we are really in trouble, and he should tell me who he is going to deal with.

I would rather bear it with him, and I don't want to watch him bear so much infamy alone and bear it silently, and finally I will enjoy this beautiful victory again.

I can't do it, I really can't do it.

Since I am his wife, then I should do what a wife should bear and do.

"I know you may not be able to accept it for a while, I understand, so I don't force it......" Fu Ruyan's voice was obviously low, and the corners of his lips outlined a bitter arc and a smile, which looked so far-fetched and distressing.

I didn't speak, I kept my head down.

Fu Ruyan got up, went out the door, and left.

The room was quiet, and there was no movement.

I sat for a long time before I got up and limped to the window, looking through the window to look out into the back garden.

The flowers in the garden are gone, and there is no life.

The furnishings in the room are exactly the same as before, and nothing has changed, as if my marriage with Fu Ruyan was still yesterday.

It wasn't until Aunt Zhang asked me to go down to eat that I came back to my senses.

At the dinner table, Fu Ruyu was nowhere to be seen.

I asked Aunt Zhang where Fu Ruyan went, and she said that Fu Ruyan answered the phone and left, and took some documents with her, probably because there was something going on in the company.

She told me not to worry, eat first, and she would call Fu Ruyan later.

I looked at the table full of dishes, all of which I loved, and I smiled and said, "You remember my preferences." ”

"Remember, of course remember, as long as I still serve my wife and young master for a day, I won't forget."

"You can also sit down and eat with me, I can't finish so many dishes, don't waste it." I said softly.

Aunt Zhang nodded and went to the kitchen to add a pair of dishes and chopsticks.

Aunt Zhang took the chopsticks to give me cloth vegetables, and the plate in front of me was full of dishes.

"Madam, don't you know how the young master lived for a period of time after you left......

"How's it going?" I ate inexplicably slower.

Aunt Zhang let out a long sigh, "When you first divorced the young master, the young master seemed to be a different person, and his temper was very short-tempered. At that time, the garden needed to be taken care of, and I was busy alone, so I really didn't have that much energy, so I applied if I could hire more maids, and the young master said that I should arrange it myself, and there was no need to ask him about such a trivial matter. So, I got seven or eight servants. But I didn't expect it...... was picked on by the young master. This is not good, that is not good, if the weeds in the garden are not pruned well, the dog will be scolded by the young master, and if there is a little bit on the ground that is not cleaned, it will also be scolded by the young master. There were also some young girls I invited at that time, and they were all scolded and cried by the young master...... One by one, they were all scolded by the young master and ran away. ”

I tightened the chopsticks in my hand.

"But before, the young master was not like this, the young master is a person, cold on the outside and hot on the inside, you know it. Some people don't treat servants as human beings, but the young master is different, and the young master has always respected me very much. It's just that the divorce between you and the young master has had too much impact on him. He began to drink heavily day by day, sometimes at home, sometimes outside, and he was so drunk that he smelled of tobacco and alcohol all over his body...... Even the wine cabinet at the head of the house was mostly emptied. ”

The more Aunt Zhang spoke, the more sad she became, her eyes flashed with tears, "You know that the wine in the wine cabinet at home is actually used for display, it is an ornament, and the young master almost does not drink it." ”

"Every time the young master gets drunk, he falls asleep on the sofa. I couldn't lift him, all I could do was put a blanket over him while he slept. But...... The young master's mouth is shouting, but it is your name. He said...... Xiao Chu, I was wrong, I was sorry for you......"

The tip of my nose instantly sore, and my eyes were blurred with tears.

I took the chopsticks and poked the rice in the bowl again and again.

Aunt Zhang's words were already filled with crying: "I have never seen the young master so sad, one night, he was drunk and cried like a child on the sofa. All his dignity and pride are gone, gone......"

It was as if my heart was grabbed and pulled down by a big hand, and then thrown to the ground and trampled on it several times, making it difficult to breathe in pain.

"Madam, the young master really loves you, he can't live without you......" Aunt Zhang looked at me with tears in her eyes.

A few tears appeared on the table, and I wiped them from my face at a loss, not knowing how to answer.

"Madam, just forgive the young master, the young master can't lose you, he really can't lose you......" Aunt Zhang said in a low voice.

"It's between me and him." I said in a dry voice, "Thank you for telling me this...... The dish was delicious, and when I was full, I left first. ”

I left Fu Ruyan's house as if I was fleeing.