It's a very painful thing to like a person who knows that there can't have any ending, I once told my apprentice Mao Mao that this game is not fun in itself, just because of friends, because of the feelings between people, so I have been reluctant to go, before he left, I wrote a line on the message board of my home, which was a true portrayal of my mood at the time.

He later replied to me with a paragraph

"The one who goes first is the one who loves the most, and it takes a lot of courage to leave with all the infamy on his back and smiling", I didn't know what he meant, and I didn't dare to ask him, because he always said that he was busy, and I didn't want him to think that I was bothering him.

And now my former friend is gone, scattered, I don't know what I'm still holding onto, after he left, I basically rarely do the task anymore, as soon as I go online, I hang up endlessly in Yi City, and then turn off the computer before going to bed.

He said that he would go online occasionally, so I was reluctant to go, I don't want to go one day when he goes online and there is no one online, I know what it feels like to be gray in the friends list after going online, I want him to know that I have been waiting for him, he broke his promise, he has not been online again, four months..... We haven't deleted QQ from each other, but we've never been in touch.

I wanted to ask him why he didn't come, I wanted to ask him why he didn't speak, but I was afraid, afraid that he would know what was on my mind if he asked too much, and even more afraid that he would think I was ridiculous.

Just when I decided to give up, he went online. After four months, he left in June, and he came back in October.

"I'm back" was the first thing he said to me, I didn't know what to say to him, I had a lot of words in my heart, I wanted to know what he had been doing for the past four months, but I knew he would come back to me busy with work, so I didn't say anything,

"That's it", yes, it seems that the most he says in our conversation is that he is busy. So, so be it.

After he came back this time, we went fishing together every day as before, sophomores, and hung up. Once I couldn't help but ask him why he never came.

"I uninstalled the game after I left that day" was the answer he gave me. I can't use any adjective to describe how I felt at the time,

"Then why did you download it again this time? Why is it coming back? This time he was silent and did not answer me.