From south to north, from east to west, I went to the places I thought of, and I went to the places I didn't think of unconsciously, and I thought that this kind of wandering could make me forget some things to a certain extent, but I was wrong. Keyue felt more and more that she had lost the core of her life, life was like an orbit of nothingness, life had lost gravity and the gravitational pull of the earth on it, and the whole person existed in her name, but the whole person did not belong to her at all. She thought: love someone, afraid that he will not know, afraid that he will not feel it, and will suffer because of it; He loves someone, he knows it, but he is silent about it, he acts indifferent, and suffers because of it; Love someone, he happens to love you, but you can't come together, and you suffer because of it; Loving someone, you could have come together, but you didn't, or for some reason you couldn't come together, and you suffered because of it; Love someone, come together, only to find that you have nothing but thin love, and you suffer from it; If you love someone, you have warmed and enriched each other with love, but one day you will find that things are wrong and wrong, and you will suffer because of them; Love, its head is crowned with sweet happiness and longing, its feet are unspeakable sadness and pain, we crawl at its feet, all people are trying to climb to the top of its head, as a result, some people only have the opportunity to crawl, some people climb a little and then slide down, the fall is a little painful, but it is not too bad, some people climbed very high, accidentally fell down, became seriously injured, some healed, some became disabled, some people finally climbed to the top of the head, but some people were afraid of heights, and they had suspension, and they fell, Barely adapting, tormented, only a few lucky ones, feeling good, and seeing the world,——。 She thought: I have been in love for a while, but love seems to have ended in an unknown way before it has fully begun, as if, two people, originally thought that each other was happy on the river, but when they turned around, they found each other standing on both sides of the river, terrible, sad, pitiful, unable to swim to each other's shore, but the only real thing, we looked at each other, looked at each other's true love, time passed, we are still looking at each other, if the person is gone, but the shore is still there, if the shore is not there, that kind of look is still there——。 She thought: I thought that I could disappear everything when I turned around, but it turned out that the person on the other side of the river was hidden in my heart—

Keyue convinced herself, but she couldn't convince her heart, and her heart understood: There is a kind of loneliness that makes me love you; There is a loneliness that makes me miss you; There is a kind of torture that cannot be separated from you; There is a heartbreak that keeps us from being together; There is a hidden worry that you will no longer remember me; There is a fear that we can't go back to the old days when we could be together; There is a kind of happiness that I can die quietly in your arms——。 She found that she thought so much about Mingwen, even if she only glanced at his back from a distance, silently and quietly, or secretly listened to his voice or breathing in a dark corner, then she would feel that it was the greatest happiness in the world, and she would also shed tears of excitement for it, silently, not letting him find out, because she loved him too much, and was reluctant to let him worry about her, reluctant to let him bear for her, and reluctant to let him suffer for it.

She controls herself, but there are things, the more she controls it, the more it rebounds, and eventually makes you lose heart. She went to the payphone, with a lot of thoughts, one number at a time, hopes, contradictions, expectations, and loss,...... Her heart walked through every number, through hardships, through the pain of love.

"Hey! Hello, I'm Yang Mingwen. Keyue held her breath and listened to the familiar voice.

"Hey! Hello. The other said again. Ke Yue listened quietly, she prayed that he would not hang up, she hoped that he could feel that it was her, and that he could understand that she had mustered up a lot of courage to fight.

Silent! ——

"How are you?" When Ke Yue heard the other party ask, her tears broke through the fence and rolled down. She took a deep breath, blinked, looked into the distance, and silently put down the microphone,——

The phone is dumb, the heart is blind, and the whole world needs a deep breath. Mingwen looked at himself in the mirror, examined, completely stranger to each other, no one knew anyone, and he was so far away from himself. He smiled at himself, even he felt that the smile was twisted, he closed his eyes, put his phone in his pocket, and said to himself: Go, go ahead! He left the bathroom and came to the banquet hall, where Xia Hui looked at him all the way until he sat down beside her. The banquet had already begun, but the table did not move until after Ming Wen came.

After attending the banquet, the two of them walked to Zifeng.

"Why didn't you just go sit in a private room? People have asked people to invite you a few times, and you don't give people too much face! The guy is also a mayor, although he is a deputy, but he is better than you, the deputy mayor! ”

"Freedom on the outside." Mingwen looked at Xia Hui, and he said, "You have to get drunk when you go in, how can Zifeng go?" ”

"The director of the main TV station is also in there? You have always been centered on your own will. Xia Hui pouted.

"I've been worrying about that? But we have to wait until the big project of the square is over! ”

"Wait! For a lifetime? I knew you couldn't be trusted. Xia Hui was very dissatisfied.

"Marry me unreliable?" Mingwen glanced at it and found that Xia Hui's face was pale, so he said to her with a smile: "What are you angry about?" Little girl, I promise you that I will definitely do it for you before this year, and break a case for you. However, you have to promise that no one else will be allowed to interfere in this matter, do you know what I am saying? It's a critical juncture, and I'm not going to allow this project to have the slightest flaw in my hands, do you understand?! ”

Xia Hui ignored Mingwen, and the two of them walked silently for a long time, but she and he kept holding hands. Turn left and right, and then cross a long street and finally reach Zifeng. Xia Hui shook off Mingwen's hand and said, "Look at you, you are the head of the broken district, and then look at the people." With you, either walking, taking a taxi, or borrowing your friend's car. ”

"I'm going to walk with you now, it's called romance, it's an elegant thing. Those who take a special car, you see how many of them have this feeling. Mingwen said and took Xia Hui's hand again.

"Other people's special cars are broken, and your special car, I think, can only be left vacant and broken. You don't call it romantic, you call it waste! Maybe it was at Zifeng's door, although Xia Hui's tone was rushing, it still made people feel a hint of interesting softness.

Zifeng was home alone, and although he was expected to come to Mingwen, he still seemed very happy. Like a seed, it knows that spring will come, and if spring is coming, it still can't hide its joy at the opening of a door.

"Zifeng, why don't you go to today's wedding banquet?" Xia Hui asked as soon as she sat on the sofa when she entered the door. Mingwen glanced at Xia Hui, stopped talking, and took out a cigarette and gave it to Zifeng. Zifeng nodded, took a puff, smiled lightly, and said, "My father went." ”

"I seem to have seen Secretary Lu, who is sitting in the private room. I thought it would be big, but when I went, I found that it was no different from ordinary people. ”

"Marriage is a matter of two people, and if two people love each other, that is the biggest pomp!" Mingwen deliberately wanted to change the subject.

"I've heard there's a cat in there, isn't it, Mingwen?" She wanted Mingwen to express some of her opinion on the issue, but she found that Mingwen did not want to say anything about it at all. She continued: "I heard from people outside that many big bosses have invested heavily in sponsorship behind them; Now this scene is just for outsiders to see. ”

"Zifeng, we've been sitting for a long time, and you don't make a good cup of tea? What about Zhi Yan? If she's there, she won't let us talk on saliva. The next time I come, I will definitely say hello to you first, and I will only come if there is a hostess at home, otherwise I will not talk. Ming Wenle said heavily.

Zifeng made tea, and everyone stopped talking about today's wedding banquet. Ming Wen wanted to comfort Zifeng, but because of Xia Hui's presence, he avoided the topic and didn't talk about it.

When Zhi Yan came back, the sky was dark, and this depth lost its taste as soon as it was rendered by the lights. She found that Zifeng's complexion was good today, at least brighter than before. When Zifeng saw Zhi Yan coming back, he smiled all over his face and said, "Let's go out for a walk, and have dinner by the way, if you're not tired?" ”

"Of course! We haven't been out to eat for a long time, you know, I'm almost your nanny now, and you should liberate me, and of course you should treat me to my greatness. As she spoke, she walked up to Zifeng excitedly, hugged him with both hands, looked at him affectionately with her eyes and said, "Say it first!" Zifeng gently held her face with his hand, and found that her face was so delicate, like a primeval forest showing an endless but meaningful beauty, and he was comfortably ironing his wrinkled heart. He kissed her forehead, and then took her into his arms, many words in life at this moment to say or not to say is no longer important, the important thing is that we really love each other, love very deeply, two hearts will always stand together with each other, through all the scenery, hold your hand and I will not let go for a lifetime, that day together to that irresistible end.

The two of them held hands and walked slowly down the street, letting the pedestrians on the street come and go, he and she had their own unique happiness in this bustling world.

"Mingwen and Xia Huilai sat down for a while today, but it's a pity that you're not here."

"Mingwen seems to be very busy, but he still thinks about you, and he likes to come and talk to you during this time." Zhi Yan said, holding his hand tighter.

"Mingwen looks very happy, but as a brother, I understand that he is the one who pretends to be the most troubled among our brothers."

"Why didn't he get together with Ke Yue?! If it's me, I don't care what the world thinks, I just want to be with the people I love, I can't be together in life, I think, no one can stop death, then I'd rather die together than be together. Zhi Yan stopped, the two faced each other, Zhi Yan shook Zifeng's other hand with her other hand, the two hands were interlocked, Zifeng looked at her quietly like a child. She said, "Let's get married, Zifeng." Her eyes were calm and turbulent with irrepressible excitement, and those eyes were like a pool of deep water, and the clear spirit contained the sweetness of anticipation. Zifeng took her in his arms, like a long hunt, but he returned empty, full of helpless exhaustion, but at this moment, he suddenly received a great reward from God, everything he had was made up for unprecedentedly, he sniffed her hair, like a warrior returning triumphantly and received the highest respect. The street people who hurried in different directions glanced at him and her with incomprehensible eyes, and no one would understand how beautiful he and her love was!

Early the next morning, Zifeng and Zhi Yan went to get a marriage certificate. At noon, Zhi Yan and Zifeng went to his house. Zifeng's parents expressed surprise at their sudden marriage, and the surprise was full of surprises. They didn't expect Zhi Yan to marry their Zifeng at this moment, and it would be reasonable if she broke up with him.

"Zhi Yan, have you bought a ring?"

Hearing his mother say this, Zifeng suddenly felt guilty. Zhi Yan said: "We bought it, but I didn't like it, so I didn't wear it." Zifeng glanced at Zhi Yan and was speechless, and Zhi Yan smiled at him lovingly.

"This, our parents haven't met properly, will they feel too sudden." Zifeng's father said that he looked at Zifeng with his eyes, and there was both love for his son and a little reproach for his son, blaming him for not being able to put himself in her shoes from Zhi Yan's point of view.

"No, Dad, Mom, don't worry, my parents are quite open. They also said that it is my blessing to be able to marry Zifeng in this life! ”

When the second elder heard Zhi Yan change her name to call them parents, she couldn't help but be overjoyed in her heart, and when she heard that her parents were very open, the happiness in her heart suddenly stirred. Zifeng's father's voice trembled faintly, and he said, "Your mother and I must hold a decent wedding for you." ”

"Zifeng and I have thought about it, and in two days, we will sit down with a few friends and have a meal."

"So how can it be done, marriage is the most important thing in a woman's life." Mother said.

"It's fashionable to be simple now, isn't it, Zifeng?" She looked at Zifeng with a look of help. Zifeng looked back at him, bitter but happy in his heart, he didn't know what to say, he just felt that she was so good, so good that he couldn't love enough in his life.

"Let them be! As long as they are happy, as long as they are happy, they can do anything, it is a loss to Zhiyan, a good girl. Father said.

"Yes." She smiled mischievously at Zifeng and said to him, "Did you hear that, so I have to be in charge in the future!" You have to accommodate me in everything, or I'll go back here and sue my parents for your black condition. ”

The two stayed at Zifeng's parents' house for half a day, and left when it was almost dark in the afternoon, so they canceled their plans to go to Zhiyan's parents' house. Zifeng pulled Zhi Yan to buy three golds, but Zhi Yan didn't want to go, but he still pulled him to run. In the gold shop, Zhi Yan must make her own decisions, and as a result, Sanjin was bought very ordinary and cheap. She put on the three golds, happy like a child, and taught Zifeng to appreciate it, and the clerk inadvertently showed an incomprehensible expression.

The next day, the two went to Zhiyan's parents' house in the afternoon. As soon as her father opened the door, he saw that it was the two of them, and he indifferently returned to the sofa and sat down. Zhi Yan took Zifeng's arm and walked into the house.

"Mom, Dad." Zifeng screamed. The two old men were electrocuted by this name, and their pupils instantly dilated a thousand times. For the reaction of the second elder, Zifeng was mentally prepared, but he was still a little afraid. Just halfway here just now, Zhi Yan had already told him about the process of her return home the day before yesterday. Zhi Yan's parents strongly oppose them being together, at least not for now.

"We got our marriage license yesterday, so he's your standard son-in-law now."

When my father heard this, the hand holding the teacup suddenly stiffened in the air, and suddenly slammed it on the coffee table, and the water splashed out like a flower, and the cup also shattered.

"Dad!" Zhi Yan screamed, she didn't expect her father to be like this.

My father didn't listen to her, he got up and walked to the door and opened it, and when he went out, he opened the door with a bang!

"I'm sorry!" Zifeng stood up and bowed to her mother, standing there awkwardly, towards a wolf in Mobei who had lost his companion and lost the direction to go. Zhi Yan stood up and held his hand tightly, and said to him, "No need to say I'm sorry, you didn't feel sorry for anyone!" Then she turned to her mother and said, "Mother, we were happy to tell you that we have received a marriage certificate, and we want to find a day when our family and friends will sit together, and we hope that you will bless us, but now, all this is not needed. In fact, you know that we are already living together, even if we don't get a license, we are actually husband and wife. She took Zifeng's hand and left without hesitation. The mother stood there froze for a moment, watching them leave, tears rolling down her face for no apparent reason.

Zifeng was appointed deputy director of the Datong County Public Security Bureau, which many people did not expect, including himself. The day before taking office, I hosted a dinner for my friends in the name of getting married. Zhi Yan's parents also came to the scene, which was the result of Zifeng's parents' visit, and of course it was not unrelated to the encouragement of Zhi Yan's mother. Zhi Yan and Zifeng were very surprised by the arrival of the second elder, and they were also very grateful, with the full happiness of being loved, especially Zhi Yan, shallow tears were wet in her eyes, and she just endured it and didn't let it flow. Wen Duo and Xiao Xiao also rushed back from the provincial capital, Mingwen brought Xia Hui, and Cang Liao also brought Liu Xin - it's a pity that the faint emotional rift on the faces of the two is irreparable, Rende brought Yang Liu, Shan Xiaohui also came, but unfortunately Ke Yue was missing, and there were a few friends of Zhi Yan. Barely sat at a few tables, there was no smell of wedding, just like a dinner with friends. This is a simple wedding that can't be simpler, but Mingwen thinks that this is the most luxurious wedding in the world.

After Zifeng took office, he realized that he was actually just an ornament. Although the days tend to be dull and even boring, he does something as good as he can, even if it is something dispensable, he has to make his own wonderful. He doesn't be able to return to Xingcheng every week, sometimes he has something to do with him in the week, and Zhiyan often can't meet him because of surgery.

One day, there was a knock on the door. Zifeng opened the door, and he was stunned, looking at each other, excited, happy, surprised, ,—— full of mixed feelings, he hugged the other party fiercely, strangled tightly, like being sent to Mars alone and suddenly meeting earthlings three hundred years later, we can hardly hide our ecstasy.

"What's coming? Don't go to work? ”

"Come on! But I haven't seen you for a long time, and I'm afraid that you will be abducted by the little girl, so I came to reconnoitre. ”

"Are you still satisfied with the result?"

"It should be said that I am basically satisfied!"

The next morning, Zifeng said he went to work. Zhi Yan said, don't worry, we're all the way, and I'll go to work too! Zifeng said distressedly: "What? I have to rush back to Xingcheng! "Don't go back to Xingcheng." "Then which class are you in?" "From today onwards, I will work at Datong County Hospital." When Zifeng heard this, he couldn't believe his ears.

"I seconded myself on my own initiative, can't I?"

"The conditions here are so hard, can you do it?!"

"If you can't do it, you have to do it, besides, you know that there are a lot of people chasing me, and I'm afraid that my position is not strong enough."

"You're such a stupid girl!" Zifeng held her hand, his heart was so steady, all the gains and losses in life no longer mattered. He finally felt at home, the person he loved,—— that was the best home.

He and her held hands and walked in Datong County in the morning, everything was so beautiful.