Jonathan Baldwin stood in place, unable to believe his eyes, and his irritable and chaotic thoughts fell into a state of stagnation for a while, so that Lu Ke waved his hand to say hello, he couldn't react, he could only nod in a daze, trying to say something, but he couldn't find any accurate words, just stupidly froze in place.

"You...... I...... Uh......" Jonathan stammered, but the fragmented words didn't express his thoughts at all, or rather, he had no ideas to speak of.

Lu Ke pieced together an outline from the few words, and said with a smile, "Sorry, I didn't say hello in advance." I've made a special trip to see Ryan, and if it's not convenient, I'll come back next time, hoping it doesn't disturb his rest and rehabilitation. ”

"No, no, no, no......" Jonathan waved his hand again and again, and the surging emotions surged up, and after denying it again and again, he did not explain or respond, without warning, his voice choked, and his slightly sour nose cut off all the words behind him, and he stood stunned like this, trying his best to calm down his mixed emotions.

Once the Jonathan who was covered in thorns, the Jonathan who did not hesitate to go toe-to-toe with diehard fans, the Jonathan who used to speak ill of the landing, the Jonathan who refused to compromise an inch in a very tough way, and the Jonathan who was as hot as a stone in a pit......

At this moment, there is a silent helplessness, no tears, no crying, no sadness, just dazed and flustered, but the feeling of powerlessness from the bottom of the heart is vividly outlined.

Even without any words, Lu Ke could imagine that Ryan's state would definitely not be too good, and it might even be worse than he imagined. Involuntarily, Lu Ke was also sad.

The long, narrow corridor suddenly fell silent, and the deathly silence was slowly spreading, as if you could feel the Grim Reaper spreading its wings, and little by little dark shadows came over, slowly devouring the bright life; The strong frustration of birth, old age, sickness and death makes every ordinary person deeply feel their own insignificance and humility.

"Smack."

A crunch sound broke the shackles of tranquility, and Jonathan came back to his senses - the notebook and pencil he had just held in his hand unconsciously released their strength, and finally the pencil fell to the ground, and then it made a sound.

Before Jonathan had time to bend down, Lu Ke had already bent down to pick up the pencil and handed it over, he slowly took the pencil, gently twirled it around his fingertips, and a weak smile appeared at the corner of his mouth.

"It's for Ryan's rehabilitation. Doctors recommend that it is best for him to be able to practice writing every day. You know, for him, writing, talking, walking, swallowing, these natural actions have become extremely difficult, and the most basic and simple habit of life is the content of his rehabilitation. He just needs to breathe, breath is enough. Just breathe. ”

As he spoke, his smile rose, but it was extremely bitter, and the powerlessness revealed behind the simple words was like a swamp, making people slowly sink into it and unable to extricate themselves.

The so-called amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, commonly known as "ALS", is currently the most cruel disease in the world, and there is no one.

The patient will gradually lose control of his muscles, and the motor nerves will eventually atrophy completely, which is no different from paralysis, and even affects basic body functions such as eating, breathing, and speaking.

However, since this condition does not affect the sensory nerves, the patient's intelligence, memory, and five senses are not damaged in any way, in other words, the patient can only watch himself lose control little by little, step by step, and die, all the senses are extremely clear and real, but there is nothing he can do.

The whole process is slow and long, and the pain gradually adds up, making every day into torment, cruel and terrible.

In general, patients only survive for two to five years after the onset of the disease. So far, there is still no effective treatment, and it is extremely difficult to delay the disease.

As Jonathan said, even writing and talking, breathing and swallowing, sitting and walking, such actions as ordinary people are accustomed to are part of the rehabilitation of ALS. How ironic, and how ridiculous; Hidden behind it is the pain and suffering that ordinary people can't imagine.

Jonathan's words paused, he bit his head hard, looked towards Lu Ke, and showed an ugly smile again, "I'm sorry...... I mean, thank you, thank you, Ryan would be happy if he knew you came to visit him...... Sorry, I haven't been to the home stadium lately...... Ryan wanted to go, he always wanted to be able to go in person, but the doctor said...... The doctor said...... Thank you, really thank you. ”

Utterly incoherent, Jonathan's whole brain was like a mess of mush, unable to sort out his thoughts, turning upside down, repeating words he didn't understand, and in the end, he just kept repeating "thank you", his eyes flashing with excitement and joy, but there was a burst of bitterness in the depths.

That panic was so real, even Lu Ke's mood couldn't help but sink slowly. A sense of foreboding crept in.

"I know, I know. Although you didn't show up at the Candlestick Stadium, you were always the biggest motivation for the team to keep fighting and keep going, and you always walked with us through every game, otherwise how could we have won these games? Right? Nine is nine, and we're always in this together. Lu Ke showed a big smile and said firmly.

The corners of Jonathan's mouth couldn't help but rise, and he nodded again and again, "Yes, yes." Go/his//'s Seahawk, go/his//'s cardinal, now they know again, who is the boss in the Western District of the League of Nations, right? As he spoke, a smile bloomed.

But the brighter the smile, the more bitter the words, the thick sadness always lingered, but Jonathan still did not stop, but stared at Lu Ke intently, saying word by word, more and more excited, more and more excited, it seemed that the whole world was brightened, and the sharp contrast between extreme optimism and extreme pessimism was revealed in the slightly trembling voice.

"This is our year, right? Bambi? This year is the year we're back at the top, right? We've waited so long and it's finally here, right? It's going to be ours this year, we're going to surprise the whole league, we're the 49ers who will never give up easily, and no one can underestimate us, right? ”

Looking at Jonathan in front of him, Lu Ke just felt a faint tightness in his chest, and the bitterness slowly spread on the tip of his tongue.

"Yes." Lu Ke suppressed the bitterness in his heart, nodded heavily and said, "I think so too." ”

Jonathan laughed heartily, "I knew that. Ryan knows that too. Ryan is going to be happy, no, he's going to be crazy, he's going to even stand up and dance. Haha, he's a terrible dancer, and he can't bear to look at that scene. ”

Obviously he was laughing happily, but the pain in his words was tormenting and rolling, and there were some crystal tears faintly flashing in his sight, and he couldn't help laughing wantonly, hiding his embarrassment. Jonathan's thin and weak back seemed to bend a little, almost unable to bear the weight of life.

"I'll look forward to it." Lu Ke smiled hard and said happily.

The usual sharp teeth have become clumsy at this moment, and the power of words seems so pale and light at this moment, even insignificant. No words can bring joy or comfort. Lu Ke's eyes couldn't help but dim slightly, bitter and unbearable.

After a slight pause, Lu Ke turned his head to look at the ward, and asked with great difficulty, "Ryan...... What the hell is going on now? ”

Jonathan also turned his head and quietly looked at Ryan's back in the ward, his thin body was unbearable.

But Jonathan still tried to show that he was strong and calm, "I don't know, to be exact, the doctors don't know. The doctor said that the condition suddenly deteriorated. Not the skill of the limbs, but the ability to swallow and speak, the whole respiratory system was attacked so much that breathing began to become difficult, and they had no way to stop it, and they had to be hospitalized because ......"

After a slight pause, the sound froze again, and Jonathan thought that things would get easier with the passage of time, that he would slowly start to get used to it, that he would slowly start to get used to it. But now he realizes that he doesn't.

"Because he could not breathe at any time, or even choke on his own saliva, and then he ...... Just ......" after all, the words that followed could not be continued, and were cut off again, because Jonathan had no way to imagine the possibility of the future, even if the doctor had already explained it, and he had already investigated it himself, but he did not dare to imagine it, lest a little imagination might turn the fantasy into reality.

"After the first week of the regular season, the rate of deterioration accelerated, and he had to stay in the hospital to be monitored and treated at any time to avoid any possible surprises, and now it is less than five weeks, which is even more serious than the accumulation of the last two years." Jonathan looked at Ryan's back in a daze, so dazed, dazed that he couldn't find a place to stay.

He used to think that if he ignored the development of things, his condition would not continue to worsen, like a fairy tale. So, last season, he worked hard to hide news and news from the San Francisco 49ers so that Ryan could recuperate with peace of mind.

He used to think that if he pretended that everything was normal, his condition would slowly get better, just like in a Hollywood movie. So, when the San Francisco 49ers finally recovered, they enjoyed that good time to the fullest.

But the reality is cruel and cold, unreasonably defeating all the disguises, debunking their trick of covering their ears and stealing the bell, and putting all the facts in front of them in a bloody and bloody manner, without giving any room and space for reaction, and the world has begun to fall apart.