Sometimes you see a sentence in a book, but you can't understand the person who wrote it. But you see tears streaming down your eyes, and the next second you want to die or live. Life is not easy, and everyone bears a heavy burden of responsibility. We don't cry easily, but at some point, because of a word, or because of an event, or because of an object, you have been immersed in the memory for a long time.

Have you sliced the person who hurt you so hard off the tip of your heart?

Twenty years have come and gone, and the people around me have come and gone. From hugging and crying at the junior high school graduation ceremony to now eating casual meals and worrying about having no money in your pocket, I gradually found that feelings become irrelevant as I get older. I thought it was the law, and the material and social environment kept us in day-to-day indifference.

Love is the most unreliable thing.

But I met a silly girl. A silly girl who is desperate for love.

When we were in high school, we were in the same class. The silly girl is silly and has a slightly plump body. The thick black long straight tied into a handful of twist flowers tied to the back of the head and flung around. The silly girl looked at the mathematics, physics and chemistry textbooks as if she was reading a book from heaven, writing homework and crying for her father. After school, he dragged me to eat pancakes with two intestines, which is called to replenish brain cells.

At that time, our chemistry teacher was a vicious old woman, more than extinction. Chase my ass all over the playground every day, and go to the office to write chemical equations silently.

I'm indignant, she likes me?

Under her coercion and seduction, I never passed chemistry.

I'm annoyed with Mendeleev here, and the stupid girl is standing in the corridor with a stool. The reason is that water electrolysis is written as Newton's law.

The chemist was steaming hot above his head, with a thick northern Shaanxi accent:

"Are you pigs?! Pigs aren't as stupid as you, you're just eating and messing around, what a....."

Freemasonry. Everyone is a victim of chemistry, and they make do with the pancake fruit. Master, add two more eggs, don't chop green onions, thank you.

In a short period of time, the two of them were as good as the toilet team.

In 2018, the exterminator passed away. He died of a heart attack on the square podium, and he was out of breath at that time, holding half a piece of chalk in his hand, and his fingertips were full of chalk ash.

She received the title of honorary teacher, and when she was buried, she was beautiful and smoked three sticks of incense.

I didn't go to the funeral. Mrs. Exterminator told the other teachers that I was the most individual student she had ever taught. She was smiling when she said this.

Why do people always wait until they are lost forever to feel pity? How valuable is it to understand? to grow?

The silly girl learns to pull a cart like an old ox, humming and pulling for three years without any results. In the end, I went to a high school.

But the silly girl writes a good article. Compared to me, I think I can make her a little bit second.

The silly girl has a boyfriend from her sophomore year of high school to the present. Long-distance relationship, the man works in Anhui, the silly girl chats with her boyfriend every day with her mobile phone, and the flesh on her face shakes with a smile.

The silly girl has never been in love, and she thinks her boyfriend is the center of the world. The boy is very good at talking, and the sweet words and the occasional little romance fascinate the silly girl. The routine of coaxing people is very deep, and the lust is even hot and cold. The silly girl often called me at one or two o'clock in the morning, crying about whether men would like the new and hate the old, and always felt that he didn't love her as much as before. I had sleepy eyes open, and I talked too much and didn't have water to drink, and my eyes were glazed with thirst.

She asked me suddenly. "Utako, does he still love me?"

Silly girl, don't you know if he loves you or not?

Or are you just pretending not to know?

Usually the result is that I grind my mouth all night, and the next day the other party coaxes the silly girl to come back to life.

Tut-tut, what a clever means. I want to vomit three liters of blood first.

It's so noisy that I go abroad. Before leaving, I told her a thousand times: "You must go to school hard, no matter where you get in the exam, you must stick to it, because knowledge can be learned anywhere, that can change your fate, don't abandon your studies because of a man, and insist on writing articles, haven't you already published several articles, come on...."

She hugged me and said, "Mmmm

As a result, this fool dropped out of college before a year to find her boyfriend, and the two worked together in a factory.

, then you were a big head! I shouldn't have believed you, you old man, so bad.

The silly girl and the man live together, do laundry, cook, wash dishes, sweep the floor and mop the floor, and go to the market every day with a vegetable basket to bargain. A nineteen-year-old girl lived to be forty years old.

The man sat cross-legged on the sofa after eating the rice bowl and began to fight the glory of the king.

The silly girl is busy with work, cooking, washing clothes and dishes, and has no time to dress herself up, no time to write articles. The few salaries that were paid were also spent entirely on the boys.

The silly girl has no friends either. Because she didn't have time to make friends.

The silly girl gave him all the firsts.

Zhang Jiajia said, to all girls, don't say yes easily. He may hurt you after a long time. Since then, the roads have become muddy, the sun has become scorching, and the night has become lonely. When I smiled again, it was eight years later.

The silly girl cried and called me and said that he didn't love himself as much as he used to. But the thoughts in my hometown are solidified, and I have already formed a matchmaker's words, and I can't change it easily, otherwise I will lose my parents' face.

So what are you going to do? Is it so muddy that you live with a man who doesn't love you enough for the rest of your life?

Silly girl Pear Blossom with rain: "But what should I do, I can't lose him, I'm desperate....."

When people are cornered, grabbing anything is like a lifesaver. They are always used to making excuses for themselves, and they are always used to watching the world coldly. Because the reality is so bitter that people don't have the courage to live and never think about departing from the established trajectory of life.

Why do you have to wait until you have lost everything before beating your chest and regretting it? Why do you have to wait until everything is too late to undo it, so that you can feel the pain and helplessness of not being able to match your ambition?

Do you think this is the story of a silly girl who finally musters up the courage to break away from this miserable life and lives a truly beautiful self?

Sorry, that's not the case.

The silly girl was still toiling in the deafening factory floor, still dragging the floor to cook and wash the man's laundry, because she didn't have the courage to leave.

A nineteen-year-old girl with calluses on her hands and burns.

A nineteen-year-old girl lived to be forty years old.

I think this is the true face of life, cloaked in a luxurious cloak and stuffed with filth.

There is more than one such silly girl, and there will never be more than one.

Promise me not to say yes easily.