It was the Spring Festival of the sixteen-year-old, and a group of friends from my father's rural hometown gathered in the family to gamble in the living room.

It's no wonder that I've seen it for a long time, every year during the Spring Festival, my father will get together with a group of gambling friends, but this time it's just in his own home, close the door and play the computer in the room, and suddenly there was a noise from the living room.

"Don't move! Get down! I didn't think much about the sudden explosion, just thought that someone was making trouble because he lost the money, but the noise became more and more intense, and he opened the door impatiently and walked out of the room, only to see a group of strangers standing in his living room and scanning back and forth, and his father's group of gamblers were squatting on the ground with their heads down.

"Why?" Here, there has always been a misunderstanding, because since he was a child, he has witnessed his parents' gambling addiction, and the sixteen-year-old Li has no awareness of the criminal nature of gathering people to gamble, and he is only very irritated by the sudden arrival of a group of uninvited guests at home that affects his appearance.

"Yo, is the lad literate?" A ruffian-looking young man in plainclothes took out a piece of paper and let out a sneer from his nostrils and unfolded it in front of Li, who saw the top three big characters - search warrant.

In this way, they were kicked out of the door and watched a group of plainclothes people climb over the walls and cabinets of their own home, and then left behind the mess and pressed their parents and a group of their friends to leave.

Because his father's medical police station did not dare to leave him behind, he was quickly released on medical parole, and his mother was released on bail a few days later and released from the detention center.

Probably realizing that he would never come back after leaving his mother this time, he was alone in the kitchen holding a kitchen knife and waving it unconsciously, and in this final separation, his parents did not choose to break up peacefully, and they were still arguing in the yard.

"Enough of you! It's noisy, isn't it? The emotions that had been suppressed for more than ten years seemed to accumulate and exploded at this moment, and they rushed out with a kitchen knife and roared hysterically at their parents who were still arguing.

I was good at hiding my inner emotions since I was a child, and finally couldn't help but explode, and my parents fell silent because they had never seen such a moment.

"I curse your family to be ruined." In the end, I left this sentence for my father, and my mother left.

Looking at himself who returned to the kitchen and sat down, he lit a cigarette again with a blank face.

"What is this, you will have to suffer in the future." It seems to be ridiculed, it seems to be hated.

Dropped out of school, worked part-time, became an apprentice, and re-watched his own growth history after following his projection like watching a movie, and on the first day of entering the computer city as an apprentice, he met him first, and his only friend until his death.

"I won't make you feel too sad about the world." Like the encounter of anime characters, it is impossible to imagine why a person who meets for the first time would say such a thing to himself, maybe he found some clues in his own face?

In short, they became friends, and under his influence, the divorce that he never liked to communicate with people became a chatter with strangers, met the girl he loved, and his father also started to take on projects again to make money to support the family, and everything seemed to be developing in a good direction......

Soon, because he didn't pay attention to diet and didn't take medicine and injections on time, his father's health became worse and worse, and he couldn't work anymore, because he lost tens of millions of family property in the early years of bad gambling, and was fined a lot of money because of gambling.

The gambling money is supported by the courtyard rented out by the other half, and he often reaches out to Li, who has a salary of more than 1,000 yuan a month.

"It's okay, as long as you're happy." At that time, I was innocent and thought like this.

"Let's talk." In the bedroom, the father threw a cigarette at him, and I don't know when the father liked to talk to himself about the scenery when he was in the limelight, probably because he could only find his own son to be the audience.

"There are two people I hate the most in my life, one is your grandmother and the other is your mother." Unusually, this time my father didn't talk about those eventful years, "When I took over your grandfather's stall and made a lot of money in this business, the social security was not good at that time, I was afraid that someone would be jealous and I would say that the money was left to me by your grandfather, and as a result, your uncle came to break up the family." ”

"I said to your grandmother, 'You say, how much money did the old man leave for me, tell me the number, and I will take it out and divide it.'" As a result, your grandmother said that she didn't know, and I knew that it was over, and now I will take 100 million out, and your uncle still thinks that I have hidden 200 million. ”

"Your uncle is a top student, full score in chemistry in the college entrance examination, he looks down on me like a mud leg, he wants to run his own factory, I said I can't do it, he thinks I don't know how to talk nonsense, and the factory lost 200,000 yuan a week. I bought the house of your uncle and second uncle, and I took the check to the scene and slapped it on the table, 'You can fill it out yourself!' 'I didn't embarrass them, air conditioning, refrigerator, TV, these are all one set of three families and one person at my expense, don't look at your second uncle who later became an official, I raised him before, I didn't disgrace them, and I don't owe them! My father patted his chest with pride.

"Later, your second uncle had an accident, and I spent 200,000 yuan in a lawsuit, and after you came out, your second mother told your second uncle that I didn't pay a dime, and let her figure it out by herself! Your second uncle has been angry with me for a long time about this, and finally I have no choice but to tell him, you go and ask my relatives at home if I have paid for it, can I still hide this kind of thing? ”

"Our family belongs to a traditional family, and the eldest brother is the father, so I don't dare not listen to what your uncle and second uncle say. Back then, I wanted to buy land, but your second uncle didn't buy it, and I didn't give it if I wanted to buy a few taxi operating licenses at home. ”

"If grandpa didn't give you an inheritance, how would she know if you didn't talk to grandma in advance, if you really quietly left an inheritance for you, and even the eldest son of the uncle didn't know, how could grandma know?" looked at himself who bowed his head and said nothing and his father who looked like a hero in the twilight of his life, and at that time, Li simply believed his father's words, "If you say anything more about the second uncle, you won't do it?" Either you don't have the confidence to get opinion support, or you lack the assertiveness to say that you want to get some sense of accomplishment in front of my son? ”

"Besides, your mother, at that time, there was a big project of 800,000 yuan in the unit, and 800,000 yuan at that time was worth more than 8 million now." No one heard the words, and the father continued to speak to his seventeen-year-old self. "The leader said that you are not married, and you don't have a girlfriend, what should you do if you run away with the money? At that time, doing engineering was not like now, where people were paid first and then worked. ”

"Then the leader introduced me to your mother, and I drank too much that night, and I was inexplicably ...... Later, I got married with you, so I don't have any emotional foundation with your mother, I'm a patriarchal person, if you were a girl, I would have gotten rid of your mother a long time ago. ”

"I'm used to spending money, your mother could spend 200,000 a month at that time, I wondered how she spent it, as soon as I asked her, she said that you don't love me or something, and at that time, I happened to meet your uncle's factory to lose money, I thought that the money was bad for you, I wouldn't be bad myself? I started gambling, thinking that I would be able to make money again anyway, but I didn't expect my body to be like this......"

"Later, you also know that your mother has to run away from home once a year, in fact, it has been like this since you were just four months old, and I feel ashamed to talk about it, I divorced your mother eight times, and each time she has a man outside, and they are all my friends." Speaking of this, his father's eyes were a little moist, "Friends and wives can't be bullied, what kind of friends do you say these people are?" But you were too young at that time, and I was afraid that it would not be good for you to find a woman to come back, so I endured letting your mother come back again and again. ”

There was some silence, but in any case, this father was indeed for himself.

"When I was a child, I had a bad heart, and the doctor said I wouldn't live to be eighteen years old, and I met a fortune teller who gave me three words of criticism."

"One: If you don't have two or two Wenqu stars behind you, you won't live to be eighteen years old. Your uncle and uncle were both admitted to college, and they can be regarded as Wenqu stars, and then my health got better. ”

"Two: If these two Wenqu stars are rising step by step, you are the dragon and phoenix among people, if one of them is unlucky, you must also be unlucky, and you will have to overcome an elder when you are thirty-nine years old. Your uncle was a teacher in the university, and your second uncle later became an official, and I have indeed always been very beautiful. By the time I was thirty-nine years old, your grandparents had already passed away, and I thought who else I could overcome, but your second uncle was rectified that year, and then my body became like this. ”

"Three: You won't be able to get into college for the rest of your life. Your grandfather is also a feudal thinker, your uncle and uncle have gone out to college, he wants me to stay and give birth to grandchildren to inherit the lineage and not let me go to the college entrance examination, otherwise I won't be able to get into college? Later, when your uncle's son was born, your grandfather didn't care about me, but I didn't have the heart to take the exam at that time. ”

"So don't worry about my body, your uncle and uncle are still alive, I definitely won't die!" Wiping the corners of his eyes, his father stood up and opened the door and walked out, leaving a man sitting at the head of the bed silent.

Li admitted that his father's words greatly affected him at that time, and during that time, Li had some cynicism and the psychology of seeing who was a bastard.

In this way, his father still lives a bad gambling life, and he went to his friend's company in a neighboring city to become a small clerk under the recommendation of his second uncle, and the salary is still not high, but it includes food and housing, of course, there is no money left, because basically his father took it to gamble.

Until he was 20 years old, the six-year time limit set by the doctor at the time was reached......