When he was a child, his family was very wealthy, and this two-story villa was built by his father, who was an architect, when he was four years old.

"The 200,000 yuan in the nineties was sent out, why didn't I find out that my family was so rich when I was a child?" Taking a deep breath to stabilize his emotions, he walked through the door as if he were walking through space.

The picture in front of "Grandma's ......" is very clearly remembered in Li's mind, and Li's eyes can't help but be a little moist. He was four years old, his grumpy father was wrestling with his mother, and his grandmother, who had a rotting foot and amputated his right leg below the knee, was shielding himself in a corner with suppressed fear and sobbing quietly.

The cause of the incident has been forgotten, he only remembers that it was because of what he did that caused his father to beat him, and then it evolved into the way he is now.

The tall grandfather clock was overturned by his father in anger, and shards of broken glass fell all over the living room.

"Come on, you quarrel with me, don't you just want to quarrel with me when you beat him!" The relationship between my grandmother and my father is very bad, and I have the impression that as long as my father beats my grandmother, she will say this, "Look at what I am angry with my grandson, I will go back to the countryside and not hinder your eyes!" ”

After saying this, the next time I saw my grandmother was at the funeral three years later, but the peaceful grandmother in the crystal coffin would no longer be on a small four-legged bench common in the countryside, and moved to the refrigerator with difficulty to secretly take out two popsicles, and told herself with a smile while sharing, "Don't tell your mother." ”

"Your grandmother was kicked out by your Lao Tzu to stay in her hometown for three years, and you didn't go to see her once when you went back to gamble for money during the New Year, and your uncle and second uncle never asked, so I quietly went to see her once, at that time no one took care of her to help her get injections, her eyes were no longer visible, I asked her if she wanted to come back, she said yes, but you didn't want to." This is what her mother told herself when she came to see Li, who lived alone outside the home as an adult, and in Li's memory, all the elders said this - she refused to come back, diabetes could not eat anything, and she did not want to live herself.

The figures in the living room gradually disappeared, and the sound of crackling mahjong collisions began to be heard in the next room.

"Bar...... Ready! "I have been in elementary school, I heard the sound from inside the door after returning from school with my schoolbag, and walked back to my room in silence and closed the door, cooked a pack of instant noodles for dinner, hastily solved it, and vaguely heard the chaotic sound of the gambling table dispersing the crowd in the middle of the night, and my parents were still sleeping in the morning, and I made some breakfast and went to school alone, such a life began after my grandmother left and went to kindergarten, gambling day and night, either at home or outside all night, I was used to it.

"When you were a child, you could put five cents on your body and not spend it for a month." When I grew up, Li was often teased by my mother, and Li's answer made my mother fall silent for a while, "When I was a child, I didn't know that my family had money, and I often saw you lose money and quarrel, so I knew that money was a good thing, so I was reluctant to use it, and I always thought that if I left enough money for you, you wouldn't quarrel." ”

didn't wait for the separation, the scene changed again - a familiar man was hugging his mother in the living room and was seen by the probe, it was a friend of his father, who didn't understand the relationship between men and women at that time, and was scolded by his mother and didn't think much about it.

I don't know how long I was silent, I finally moved in the already empty living room, walked to a door and pushed it open, my parents were not at home, and the ten-year-old was nervously opening my mother's wardrobe after returning from school, looking at the empty wardrobe and still young, his face was full of loss that could not be hidden.

Since the beginning of the memory, every year the mother will leave after a big quarrel with the father, and come back after half a year or more than a year, so every time the parents quarrel and leave, they will look through the mother's wardrobe after returning from school, if the wardrobe has clothes, they can put down their minds and go back to their room to do their homework, if it is empty, it means that the mother has run away from home again.

This life lasted until he was in junior high school, and at the age of fourteen, his second uncle was imprisoned by Shuanggui, which seemed to be accompanied by a curse, and soon after, a kidney failure and diabetes outbreak inherited from his grandmother appeared in his father, who had always been in good health, and he suddenly collapsed in an all-night gambling game.

"If you don't take good care of it, you'll have a maximum of six years." The director of the most authoritative nephrology hospital in China personally went to his father and said, "Normal people have already died in your condition, and it is thanks to your good physical fitness before." ”

From this time on, no matter how his father was, his mother stopped quarreling with him, and his life tended to be stable. But with the advent of adolescence comes rebellion.

From not writing homework to skipping class and fighting, smoking and falling in love, squatting at the school gate every day to squat at the school gate and swaying back and forth if anyone dares to look at me twice and I will beat you up, from the top seed to the problem student It took less than half a year.

"If I had studied hard, I would not be a doctor and a lawyer now, would I?" looked at himself walking on the road with a cigarette in his mouth and a group of gangsters outside the school, and laughed bitterly.

I have eaten a lot of fights, I have also changed schools, and my mother, who has always protected her, also has a face of hatred that iron is not steel, and I was in the rebellious period at the time, and I had only one simple and stubborn thought in my mind, "I won't read!" ”

In the end, the parents gave up in despair.,Let yourself mess around.,Fortunately, I met the first part of my life that I was obsessed with by the death note.,Although it didn't change the rebellious mentality.,But it also made it easy to get away from embarking on the road of chasing the fan and no longer obsessed with the gangsters.,When I first came into contact with the Hokage on TV, I was only in the fourth grade.,It's fifteen years old when I really started to watch the Hokage.。

The scene continues to change, and I can't express my feelings from looking at myself in different periods from the perspective of a third person, three points of self-pity, three points of grievance, three points of happiness, and one point of crying and laughing.

"That's almost there." Standing in front of himself who gave up at the age of sixteen and was admitted to a technical school, looking at the face that was no longer unruly after absorbing a large number of dramas for the world and the life philosophy of a large number of anime characters, I thought of the event that really broke up this family.

In between, the mother, who had already separated from her father, had a new object of affection, and she was not afraid to meet him with a separation.

To be honest, Li's heart was very complicated at that time, he wanted to lift the table and leave several times, but he saw that holding hands with the strange man and smiling like the mother of an eighteen-year-old pregnant girl, it was a smile she had never shown by her father's side.