Let's start a single chapter here and talk to you.

All of the above is what happened to me, and there is no fiction in it, and of course there are many things that I have not written down due to space limitations.

From the time I dropped out at 16 to the time I was 21, I only had two computers and a washing machine in my home, which I bought.

And the water heater at home is broken with a pipe, the maintenance fee is 100 yuan, and it has not been repaired for four years, the reason is still that - I won't play a little mahjong for 100 yuan?

And the changes in my heart are also very ups and downs, from the beginning I just want to cure my father, I want the two of us to work together to pay off the foreign debt, how to say that we still have a villa of more than 600 square meters, right, life will be better. Later, I just wanted him to die, and for the first year I had nightmares about stabbing him to death with a knife almost every night after I left home, and I really don't lie to you.

It's exciting to see the line "It's not me that's wrong, it's the world" in the comics, but if there really is such a person living around you, you know how terrible this kind of person is.

My father once said to me that there was something I was proud of him, and I never complained about a single sentence, "Why don't you leave me some money?" "In this case, I really don't have such thoughts, because I think it's all your own hard work, and I can't care if you're not.

So when I left my heart, I didn't care about that house, I thought, I don't want your things, I just don't want to see you anymore.

"What money have you spent on me" This is my father's original words, I can give without returning, but you can't act as if nothing happened, I can't tolerate my mind, my pay being trampled on like this, and being spit on, so I choose to leave the sidelines.

But I want that house now, very, extremely, madly, because of my wife.

Although it is called my wife, but in fact, we are only boyfriend and girlfriend now, she is the girl I loved deeply at the time, although she left me at that time, but last year we reconnected by chance.

The only thing I have received in these years in the field is a text message for the Spring Festival, I always thought it was sent to me by the friend who said to me, "I won't make you feel that the world is sad", because I don't like notes, usually I memorize the number of important people, but because I haven't been back to contact for a long time, I forgot.

So when I wanted to find my friend, I dialed this number that sent me a message of blessing - it was her.

In fact, I have been in a state of walking dead all these years, I don't know what to live for, "living for myself" is easy to say, but it is really too difficult to do, because people are social animals, they need to get what others need, no one needs me, until my girlfriend comes back to me, she told me that she chose to separate because of my family relationship, and now she is willing to face it with me.

So I regained the courage to live, and someone needed me.

However, the reality is a thick wall, and when I go to her house to meet her parents, I have no money, no house or car...... was severely humiliated, it was really a severe humiliation.

My girlfriend is really beautiful, and her family conditions are at least well-off, and her parents naturally look down on me as a fatherless, motherless, and nothing-owning dick.

And because of my decadence over the years, I didn't have a dime left from my already low salary, because what I was thinking at the time was very simple, don't you just want me to get married and have a grandson for you to pass on the lineage? I don't think so, even if I think about it now, even if I have a son in the future, I will let him have my girlfriend's surname.

But there are two problems in front of me, one is that my son is not dead, and the other is that the name of the real estate certificate is my second uncle.

In the 90s, my father gambled and lost tens of millions of family properties, which was really not a joke, and later sold seven houses in a row to support his life and as gambling funds, this house was not sold because he wanted to keep it to me, but because he couldn't sell it! Because he and my mother divorced for the first time at that time, he was afraid that my mother would divide the family property, so he wrote the name of the real estate certificate as my second uncle.

Since I can't get a house, I want to change to a job with a higher salary, but I can't do it.

The company lent me 10,000 yuan to treat my father when I was in the most difficult time, and I haven't mentioned this money until now, plus the company has been in a bad situation recently, only one of my employees is left, and the boss was hospitalized for physical reasons and underwent surgery, and the company collapsed when I left, and I couldn't leave.

But I need money very much, to be honest, my girlfriend's development prospects are very good now, I once felt a little inferior and felt unworthy of her, I can be said to be a waste except for inheriting my mother's good looks.

So I moved the idea of writing something, and I didn't dare to expect to make a lot of money by writing fire, and I was very satisfied if I could make a little money. I also know that it is not easy to make money, so I said that students from ordinary families do not need to use the money earned by their parents to reward me, and if I can put it on the shelf, I will be grateful for a little subscription.

Let's talk about my other family members, my uncle has never mentioned the division of the family since he lost money when he ran the factory, and the 200,000 yuan of that year was really nothing to my family, and the loss was a loss, but my father held a grudge for a lifetime.

My second uncle actually called him a fat father, because when I was a child, I had a period of time in his house, and he was very fat at that time, at that time, our local public security chief, his wife could not have children, so he wanted to take me back as an adopted son, because my second uncle is also patriarchal and not willing to do so, otherwise I am now also a second generation of officials, is not ~

For my eldest uncle and second uncle, in fact, my heart is guilty and ashamed.

Because my father's burden was all on them when I left, my uncle is still a relatively rational person, he will be restrained and will not let himself be dragged down, while my second uncle is the opposite of my uncle, as you can imagine......

I went back last year on an errand and rubbed shoulders with my father, who is still gambling! I also chatted with my second uncle for a few words, I really can't imagine that he was so high-spirited back then, and the person who scolded Fang Xuan became wrinkled and gray, and he was only in his fifties.

My hatred for my father is not only because of myself, but also because he has brought terrible damage to other people's families, because my father and my second uncle and second aunt have been in a cold war for a long time, and I have always felt deeply guilty and uneasy because of my father's second aunt who has always loved me at the dinner table, but I dare not say sorry, because it is really shameless.

What scared me the most was that I heard that my second uncle was now doing a pyramid scheme because of his heavy financial burden, and he didn't refute it after I tried to do it, I was afraid that my father would put my second uncle in some bad situation.

I said you don't have to be like this, he doesn't want to live so hard for him, does it make sense? Do you know how he cursed you viciously behind his back when you paid for him like this?

And my second uncle doesn't seem to care, he thinks that my father's temperament is because he was used to it by his brothers because he was not in good health when he was a child, and he is a brother anyway.

I said that I don't even care about my own son, so why should you?

He just smiled and didn't speak, probably because I don't have a brother so I don't understand this feeling.

"Don't worry, I won't let our generation be a stumbling block to your generation." This was the last thing the second uncle said to me.

"But the reality is that no good family would marry a girl to someone who has such a father." I responded like this, and the second uncle fell silent.

What else can I do, I can only say in the end, "Don't hurt yourself because of him, let it go when it's time to let go." ”

"Don't worry, if the doctor says he's really not working, I know what to do." The second uncle misunderstood what I meant, and I hope he won't force himself like this anymore.

Not long ago, I said that my mother ran away from home because she had a conflict with the man she had brought me to meet.

My mother had a very hard life after leaving home, living in a damp basement for a year, but she often gave me some financial aid for my father to gamble with all his property, not much, one or two hundred yuan each time, but I know that at that time she often did not have enough to eat, because of the incident of gathering a crowd to gamble and was arrested, my mother helped my father borrow a total of 100,000 yuan in fines, all of which my mother repaid.

Fortunately, their lives got better, but I didn't want to bother her, she left her father several times, but because I came back, I spent the best of her years like this, and I couldn't disturb her current peaceful life.

At that time, my mother had a criminal record and could not take out a mortgage loan to buy a house, and the man did not know why he had not gone through the divorce procedures, so the property was listed in the name of the man's son.

The man's son is also considered to be profitable, and the salary of more than 10,000 yuan a month in our small city can be regarded as the upper layer of the pyramid, but I don't know why he took out a loan of hundreds of thousands outside, and my mother was afraid that he would secretly sell the house to pay off the debt, so she asked for the transfer of the property to her own name, but the man was unwilling, because he was afraid that the house would fall into my hands after my mother left in the future.

"Don't worry, after what happened to your Lao Tzu, I won't let myself suffer again." My mother took all the family's savings and told me this on the phone with a crying voice.

But fortunately, he finally agreed to put my mother's name on the title deed, and the man is actually a very nice person, and I really hope that they can live together.

The above, this is my life for more than 20 years, like a tragic world, I hope that the second half can live as Forrest Gump, God has played me for half my life, and will compensate me in the second half of my life, right?

My biggest dream now is to have a small home of my own, drive a bad but not bad car, and pick up my wife and possibly my daughter to work and school every day, and I am drunk when I think of that picture~

Okay, the miserable time is over, and I will return to the main story later, I guess everyone doesn't want to hear it after saying so many whining words, but it's really cool to say what I haven't dared to say in my heart for so many years~ Anyway, no one here knows who I am, right?