I was born as a human being, but what am I a human being?

"Jiahe, get up, otherwise you'll be late for school. ”

"Okay, Mom, I'll be right out. ”

It was a hot day on August 21, and I went to the living room table naked for breakfast.

"Why haven't you put on your clothes yet, don't you just want to go to school like this? Dad joked.

"No, it's hot. If I go to school like this, the pretty girls in the school will go crazy. ”

Dad smiled and said, "Our son is so humorous." However, you should focus on your studies now, and you should not think about your children's private affairs. ”

"Don't worry, Dad," I said to him with a thumbs up, "I will be diligent and enterprising, and I will be admitted to a prestigious university to bring glory to you." ”

Sitting on the bus, I smiled at the driver and passengers on the bus. Stepping off the bus and coming to the school gate, I greeted Gao Jiali without waiting for her to greet me: "LadyGao, good morning!"

Gao Jiali, who was wearing a loose white dress, noticed me and shouted to me: "Yi Jiahe, you can also read some Chinese or history class in the morning, and don't always read English. ”

"Yes, I see!" I saluted her. Seemingly embarrassed, Gao Jiali waved me into the school.

At the end of the morning self-study, the school radio sounded the punishment broadcast of the fight between Li Teng and Zhao Bohao.

"I thought Li Teng would be punished with a demerit. He Guangzheng said.

"I thought Li Teng would be dropped out of school. Han Yue said.

"I said that the two of you sing and harmonize, what a good relationship. ”

The two of them turned to look at me in unison, and said in unison, "Where did we get along?"

Mathematics is followed by self-study classes, and after self-study classes is meal time. I came to the cafeteria alone, and I saw Xie Changge sitting at the table eating alone from a distance. Without teasing, I came to Xie Changge's side and sat side by side with him.

"Xie Changge, do you want to try sweet and sour pork ribs?" I used my chopsticks to point to my favorite on the plate.

Xie Changge was silent.

I grabbed a piece of sweet and sour pork ribs, took a bite, and asked him, "Why didn't you say 'go away' today?"

Xie Changge was still silent.

"If you don't say it, you won't say it. ”

When I was only halfway eaten, Xie Changge picked up the plate and stood up. I looked up at him, and he was looking down at me. There was no emotion in his eyes, but he said to me, "You are more fake and disgusting now than you were before." ”

Xie Changge left. I adjusted my mentality and picked up a piece of sweet and sour pork ribs and stuffed it into my mouth. The sweet and sour pork ribs are sweet and sour, and the tears that flow into the mouth are salty.

went around to the classroom and met Zhou Hui on the way, which was actually fate.

"Yi Jiahe, good afternoon. She greeted me.

I lifted the plastic bag in my hand and handed it to her, replying, "Good afternoon." ”

Zhou Hui took the plastic bag in my hand, which contained the snacks I specially prepared for her.

"Snacks in the commissary," Zhou Hui turned and glanced in the direction of the commissary, and then said to me, "You don't go to the commissary and come back here...... Is it to wait for me?"

I nodded.

"It's a lot of work...... Yi Jiahe, thank you. Zhou Hui smiled, and the dimples appeared.

"Then I'll go back. I waved goodbye to Zhou Hui.

"Yi Jiahe," looking back, Zhou Hui stared at me and asked, "Do you have anything sad?"

"No," I replied to Zhou Hui with a warm smile like the sun hanging in the sky, "I'm fine, what's so sad?"

"That's right......"

"That's it. Zhou Hui, you're going to the girls' dormitory. If nothing else, I'll go back to the classroom. ”

After walking a few steps, I felt someone following me. I stopped, saw Zhou Hui passing me in front of me, smiled and said to me, "Since you bought me lunch, then I don't need to go to the cafeteria." I don't have much to do in my dorm room at noon, so I'll go back to the classroom. ”

"Then, you go to the classroom, and I'll walk in the little flower bed. ”

"Well, it's nice to walk in the small flower bed, you can relax, I'll go too. ”

This week, Hui is determined to be the mud on my clothes. If I had known that, I wouldn't have gone to the commissary to buy snacks for her.

Sitting on the edge of the small flower bed, I watched Zhou Hui feast. She put the plastic bag under her mouth probably because she was afraid that the crumbs would fall on the ground and it would be difficult to clean it up - if it were me, I would have done the same. If you look closely, Zhou Hui's child's mouth looks small and exquisite, but she can bite a big bite of bread. Of course, in other words, I was able to bite into a bigger bite of bread, but as an adolescent girl, Zhou Hui is simply a heroine among women.

"Niu ......" couldn't help but sigh.

"Well, do you want one too?" Zhou Hui took out another loaf of bread from the plastic bag.

"No, thank you. ”

"Thank you, you bought it. Why are you buying so much, it's a waste. Zhou Hui pulled a large plastic bag and poked her head in.

"There is no reason. ”

Zhou Hui raised her head, puffed out her mouth and squinted her eyes and said to me, "It's a shame to waste." ”

"Hehe......"

"Is it funny?" Zhou Hui questioned me.

I hurriedly explained, "No, no, no, it's just that I think you're pretty cute." "When I said that, I regretted it a little, for fear that Zhou Hui would misunderstand me.

"Yes, people often say that about me. It seems that I am really cute. ”

"Zhou Hui, you are so thick-skinned. Is it okay for a girl to be so thick-skinned?" I didn't say that.

Zhou Hui puffed out her mouth again and squinted her eyes and said to me: "With this expression, Yi Jia and you shouldn't be laughing at me for being thick-skinned, right?"

Stunned, I was speechless.

"Just kidding. ”

It scares the hell out of me, kid. Unexpectedly, it seems that Zhou Hui, who looks like a savage princess, is like a savage princess in her bones. Such a woman is quite suitable for me, but Zhou Hui is not yet an adult - no, I am so ashamed, how can I think of such a thing.

"Yi Jiahe, bastard, you. "I lost my voice.

"Why are you scolding yourself?"

"No, I remembered a recent incident...... "It's miserable - fortunately I didn't blurt it out."

"Could this matter be related to the drastic change in your personality?"

"Where has my personality changed drastically?" said this sentence with a smile so as not to make Zhou Hui think that I was an irritable person.

Zhou Hui threw the bread wrapper into the plastic bag and said, "You used to talk to me, but you wouldn't buy food for me." In the past, you always pretended to be happy, but you never told others about the sadness in your heart. You were the hypocrite of the past, you were the melancholy of the past, and you were the ...... of the past"

"Stop, stop, okay, okay, I know," I clapped my hands and interrupted Zhou Hui and said, "If you keep talking, uncle, I'm going to collapse." ”

"Why do you call yourself uncle?" was inadvertently hit by Zhou Hui.

"Because ......"

"Because of what?" Zhou Hui clenched.

I felt my cheeks heat up, and I guess my face looked like a monkey's butt to others.

"Old-looking, old-looking, twenty-eight years old, but being treated as middle-aged by the little kids......" I said in a mosquito voice.

"Are you twenty-eight years old?" Zhou Hui shouted.

"No, don't call it, it's not twenty-eight, it's like twenty-eight. ”

Seeing that I was anxious, Zhou Hui smiled from ear to ear. Little baby, is it so interesting to bully an uncle?

"Click, I'm really used to being called an uncle, and even I agree that I am an uncle. ”

"I see," Zhou Hui covered her stomach and smiled, "It turns out that you were called an uncle, and then you called yourself 'uncle' unconsciously, hahahaha......"

It was a rare mortal smile in my memory. As innocent as a child's smile, Zhou Hui in front of me has become a mortal I envy at this moment.

We are all mortals who came into this world once upon a time and left this world soon after. We have two different faces, one called truth and one called hypocrisy. Overwhelmed by the weight of reality, I put on a mask called hypocrisy, longing for a meaningless time before darkness consumes the world.

"Zhou Hui, have you ever loved someone?"

"Well," the girl replied to me, widening her eyes, "I did." Still in love. Zhou Hui was probably referring to her biological parents.

"What is love?"

Zhou Hui tilted her head slightly, pursed her lips, and then sat upright and replied to me: "Love is as bright as the sun, sweet as nectar—that's what the book says." Actually, I can't answer that question. I do love others, but I can't put into words what I love. ”

"So," I asked Zhou Hui, "if there is a man who is willing to give his life for you, do you think he loves you?"

Zhou Hui lowered her head and pondered.

"Let me change the question: if there is a person who is willing to give his life for you, what kind of person would you think of him in your eyes?"

"Brave and fearless?"

I shook my head and said, "That's not what I meant. I mean, would you consider him your friend?"

Zhou Hui lowered her head and pondered for a moment, then raised her head and replied to me: "If there is someone who is willing to give his life for you, I think this is no longer the level of friends, but the level of family." By the way, is the person you are talking about a man or a woman?" Zhou Hui's eyes shone sharply, making it impossible for me to lie to her.

"Male. ”

"The man who is willing to give his life for you is the man who sees you as a sibling. With such people by your side, you should treat them well. ”

I couldn't help laughing and said, "What are you doing to treat others, it's not my daughter-in-law......"

Before I finished speaking, I sensed Zhou Hui's angry gaze. Looking up, Zhou Hui had a straight face, really angry.

"It doesn't matter if it's a man or a woman, the important thing is that it's a man who is willing to give his life for you. If there is a man who is willing to give his life for me, I must not marry him. ”

"Oh, that man must not be me. ”

Zhou Hui smiled slightly and said, "Of course it can't be you." ”

Someone passed by in the small flower bed. I didn't know the person who came, but he kept looking at us as he passed by, which made me feel uncomfortable.

"Zhou Hui, let's go back to the classroom. ”

"You go back first. I remembered that I had something to do and wanted to go back to my dorm. After speaking, Zhou Hui handed me the plastic bag, smiled and waved to me to leave.

Open the plastic bag and look down at the contents, except for a loaf of bread and a bag of snacks, the rest of the contents are packaging shells with no contents.

"I thought that adolescent boys would eat more, but I didn't expect adolescent girls to eat more. Fortunately, I bought a lot of snacks with a ruthless heart, otherwise she would be called a stingy ghost by her. "I turned my eyes to the glass window of the classroom in the third class of science, and there were many students inside. With my back to the third class of science, I walked in the direction of my classroom.

The weather was hot, and even if there was an electric fan, the people in the class still held their textbooks and fanned them from time to time.

Zhou Hui returned to the classroom with Chen Shu. She didn't look at me when she came back, but I kept staring at her. Looking at Zhou Hui, I remembered the conversation between us at noon - I wanted to confide in her. I wanted to tell her everything and ask for her advice. Did I unconsciously think of Zhou Hui as my sister? Thinking about it, the two of them do have similarities, such as cute dimples that appear when they laugh.

The bell rang during the lunch break, and everyone went to the table for a morning break. I didn't sleep because I was worried about the nightmare coming back. It is true that I am a timid person who cannot bear to commit heinous sins in time loops one time after another, but what worries me even more is what the invisible hand has added to my dreams: first it was my dream, then it was a dream mixed with Chen Yaofei's dream. I have witnessed Chen Yaofei die in front of my eyes, and I have felt the light of his life pass away in my arms. I'll never go through this again. It was hell—no, that pain and helplessness, it was a combination of eighteen layers of hell, and I was a reincarnated ghast that had gone through all the punishments.

"Yi Jiahe, wake up, Yi Jiahe ......" is He Guangzheng.

Standing up and stretching, I yawned. Strange, I didn't have a nightmare today? Isn't it the last day, the gods gave up playing with me, haha.

"Guangzheng, thank you for waking me up. With that, Gao Jiali stepped into the classroom. Judging by the situation in the morning, the mistakes I made in the previous time loop did not carry over to this time, this last day.

"What about the first few times?" "Looking back on my memory, I was bored thinking about it, and I didn't want to think about it.

When the history class was over, I wanted to let Gao Jiali leave the class just like that. However, when Gao Jiali stepped off the podium, I ran to her side and asked her to participate in today's evening self-study.

"Today?"

"Uh-huh. ”

"Yes, yes. Have you been in contact with your parents?"

"Well, I'll contact them, don't worry, teacher. What's more, you and my parents both have their own phone numbers, and if I leave school on my own, they will definitely contact you. ”

I suddenly wanted to try to change the reason and negotiate with Gao Jiali, what the consequences would be. Forget it, there are ways to succeed definitely, so why bother looking for the near and the far.

In the last two classes of the day, I tried my best to listen carefully. Ten minutes is not a problem, twenty minutes can hold on, half an hour is okay, and after forty-five minutes I have been defeated.

"I want to spend the day in peace, not in boredom. God, just thunder and kill me. ”

Dinner time. Pull Xiao Hui, He Guangzheng, Qian Jianwen and Wang Qiang, and I will take them to the cafeteria. Actually, I want to call a few more boys: Xiang Tongguang had to go to the commissary with Yu Zhifu to forage for food, Ma Binbin had already made an appointment with Lou Guohua to go to dinner together and took the first step, and the boys in the front row, Wu Qianjian, Feng Huan, Liu Yu, and Bai Shaoming said that they would go back to the bedroom to take care of things first. This group of children didn't even give me a chance to have a treat.

At Qian Jianwen's suggestion, we gathered the dinner plates together, and it looked like we were holding a small party. Even if the happy time is short, these precious memories will always be in my heart.

"Yi Jiahe, why don't you speak?" Wang Qiang asked me.

"If you are happy, I will be happy. ”

"What," He Guangzheng said, "you have to laugh and laugh together, and you have to cry and cry together." Aren't we friends, aren't we, Xiao Hui?"

Xiao Hui smiled awkwardly and nodded.

What will happen tomorrow? Perhaps, I will be swallowed up by darkness and lose all consciousness. Perhaps, I will lose my life and never return. Perhaps, I will return to my own world and continue to live without accomplishing anything. Maybe, maybe...... Was everything in front of me a dream created by a god? This dream was so real that it was unforgettable. Well, it's all fake, I know. But even if these are non-existent, I like to see them as a part of my life.

"Let's go to the dormitory together?" asked me for dinner.

I shook my head and replied, "Something, I have to go somewhere." ”

I was content to have a meal with my former classmates. Next, I have one more wish.

On the playground, Chen Yaofei was playing football alone. Combined with my previous memories, I immediately thought that Chen Yaofei did not eat dinner in the evening of that day.

The ball flew and landed at my feet. I picked up the ball and watched Chen Yaofei run over.

"Yi Jiahe, have you had dinner?" asked Chen Yaofei, who was sweating profusely.

"I've eaten it. What about you?"

"I eat ...... too"

I reached out to interrupt him, put my arm on his shoulder and said, "Come, go to the commissary and buy something to eat." Time has. Grab a bite to eat and take a break, we still have ten minutes to play. ”

"But, it's too late to return to the classroom, right?" asked me with a frown. I understood what he meant.

"Then let's stop playing. You should accompany my uncle...... Stay with me for a while. ”

Chen Yaofei did not refuse me. After returning the football, we headed to the commissary. Since Chen Yaofei didn't bring his campus card, I bought snacks for him. Sitting in the small flower bed between the teaching buildings, I leaned on Chen Yaofei to feel his body temperature, for fear that once I left him, when I pressed close to his body again, I felt not warmth but cold.

"Thank you so much today, Yi Jiahe. Chen Yaofei smiled stupidly.

"I'm sorry......" Looking into his eyes, I couldn't help but apologize.

"Huh?"

"Nothing. Chen Yaofei, do you have unfulfilled dreams?"

Chen Yaofei raised his head to look at the sky, and after a long "um", he replied to me: "Dreams are goals? I want to be a footballer, I want to be a ......"

"You can make your dreams come true. I rested my head on his shoulder.

Chen Yaofei didn't refuse me, and said to me: "Thank you for your good words." ”

"Hey, Yi Jiahe, what are you doing with that boy?" Wang Qiang's voice was. He and Qian Jianwen were preparing to return to the classroom.

"Good evening!" Chen Yaofei greeted them.

"Evening, good evening......" the two responded with a wry smile.

Before the evening self-study class, Wang Qiang asked me about what had just happened: "That person is your best friend?"

"I wish he were my friend. ”

Strange question. I turned my head to look at Wang Qiang and Qian Jianwen, both of whom leaned to one side, showing with their eyes and actions how shocked they were.

"Aren't you two?"

"Me and him," Wang Qiang looked back and asked Qian Jianwen, "are we?"

Qian Jianwen looked at Wang Qiang, Wang Qiang looked at Qian Jianwen, lasted for three seconds, and the two said in unison: "How is it possible." ”

"Of course not. Qian Jianwen poked his head out and added.

Today's evening self-study is the same as before. It was surrounded by an invigorating night breeze blowing from the window, and a cool breeze brought by the constant rotation of the electric fan on top. The fluorescent lamps flickered at a speed that was imperceptible to the naked eye. Those fluorescent lamps that crackle and make a sound should not be completely broken in a short time. A few small bugs flew in and hovered around the fluorescent lamp. I looked up and saw that the bug was bored, so I looked down at my former classmates. In terms of time, I went back to the last two weeks, and the truth is that the days I went through add up to almost a month.

"Alas......"

"Uncle, hehe......" He Guangzheng lowered his head and smiled at me secretly.

I was originally an uncle, a twenty-eight-year-old adult.

"It's good to be young, alas ......"

At the end of the evening self-study, the students in the class quickly evacuated the classroom. I was the last to leave the classroom, and the task of closing the doors and windows was left to me. Before that, Gao Jiali came to take a look and asked me why I didn't go home. I replied to close the doors and windows and go back immediately, my father was already waiting for me at the school gate. Gao Jiali listened to my answer and didn't say anything, and left.

With the classroom doors and windows closed, I leaned on the handrail of the hallway and looked at the school building opposite. The lights in the final classroom are turned off, and it's time for the students to walk quickly. For me, it makes no difference whether to go or to stay.

"Too lazy to go. "I sat down and waited for the time to pass.

There was a sound of footsteps in his ears, and it was Xie Changge who came in a hurry.

"Don't look at it, I closed it, make sure that as long as there is no hole, not a single mouse can enter. "I looked at the time on my phone, and it had been twenty minutes since the evening self-study was over. "It's so late, even if I hadn't closed it, the classroom would have been closed a long time ago. ”

After answering Xie Changge, I dialed my father's mobile phone number: "Hey, Dad, I have something to do to get out of school later." I know I know, soon, I'll be out soon. ”

"Why are you lying?" I hung up the phone, and Xie Changge suddenly asked me.

"It makes no difference whether you lie or not. After today, it will all be over. ”

Xie Changge didn't speak, nor did he turn to leave, just stood still and stared at me.

"What's wrong, little red guy?"

"The feeling has changed. ”

"Well, of course, my true nature is exposed. Raising his hands and paws, I thought Xie Changge would be bored and leave.

"I don't hate ......"

"Huh?"

Xie Changge turned his back to me and said, "Today I saw you with a boy. ”

"Yes. He's a good boy. ”

Xie Changge was silent for a moment and said, "I have a regret and longing to go back to the past to make up for it. But there are no gods in the world......"

"There are gods, I've seen them. I interjected, "It's there to go back to the past." However, don't listen to the gods and go back to the past, or you'll ......"

"If," Xie Changge turned to me and said, "If I could go back in time and make amends for the sins I committed, even if the gods wanted to pay for my life, I would resolutely agree." After Xie Changge finished speaking, he walked away. His steps are firm and powerful, and every step reflects his determination.

"Silly boy, what must be done at the cost of your own life? If so, it must be for another life. ”

Stand up and set the time. Run, regardless of everything.

"We must catch up!" became my belief.

Leaving the school building, crossing the pathway, running across the avenue, to the staircase on the first floor of the boys' dormitory, climb the stairs. One didn't pay attention, and I tripped and fell at the staircase on the second floor.

"Are you alright?" the administrator asked me.

Standing up in severe pain, I ran forward with all my heart, ignoring my skinned knees and my skinned palms.

Chen Yaofei and Ma Chao appeared from the door of the dormitory. Without any warning, Chen Yaofei pressed Ma Chao's head and pushed him back hard.

"What are you kidding?"

"Why?" took me back to the past several times to save Chen Yaofei, but he kept interfering to stop me.

"God, why are you playing with me!" is so close at hand, but wants to keep us apart forever?

"God, answer me!" Too late, too late!

Seeing Ma Chao fall backwards, there was nothing I could do. Abomination, abomination, abhorrence. Resentment, resentment, resentment. But—

"I must save him, not for me or him, but for us!"

This is what you owe me, traveler!

"God, I command you, stop time!"

The weight coming from front of me caused me to crash backwards. There was a sharp pain in the back of my head, and I slid limply down the edge of the wall, unable to move or speak.

In front of me, Ma Chao, who had left me, looked at me in astonishment, and then ran away. I turned my gaze to Chen Yaofei, who knelt on the ground with his hands down, his eyes full of apologies.

"Why......"

Unable to speak, but his arms seem to be able to move. I struggled to raise my left hand and motioned for Chen Yaofei to lean over. Chen Yao, who understood it, flew over and wanted to hug my body and lift me up.

"Don't ......" I can speak.

Chen Yaofei put down his hands and knelt on the ground to look up at me. His tears flowed from his clear eyes and fell on me.

"Rescue, ambulance, call an ambulance!" the security guard who arrived immediately shouted to another security guard.

There was a commotion in the dormitory, and the boys whispered among themselves...... It's not about me.

"Yi Jiahe, why?" Chen Yaofei wiped his tears and cried like a child.

I raised my left hand and stroked his cheek and replied, "Of course, fool...... It hurts...... Of course, for the sake of our future......" it hurts. It hurts so much, even if I faint at any moment, it's not surprising.

"But, but I don't deserve your ......"

"Nothing...... Is it worth ......?" became confused, I'm afraid my time is running out.

I tried my best to raise my hands and hug Chen Yaofei over. Following my movements, Chen Yaofei pressed to my shoulder.

"Yaofei...... We can't afford to lose hope...... I ......, "Damn, give me a little more time." "I, I'll always be with you...... Stick together in good times and bad. Because, because ...... I ...... "Because I love you so much, like a father who loves a child who does not belong to him but calls himself a father."

"You're my family. ”

Tell you that his body is soft and warm, like a newborn baby. Well, is it my delusion? Forget it, whatever. You say, did I save him like this? I wonder if I even got him out of the time loop. Heck, I wouldn't have the luxury of asking for a life, after all, there is only one life, and there is no chance to come back. Besides, I'm already satisfied. To save a person is to be redeemed himself. I have to thank Xie Changge, if it weren't for that guy, I might not have made up my final decision. Don't think I'm scared of death, although I'm a little scared. However, when you do your best for a loved one, you will feel that as long as your life can save him, it doesn't matter. Haha, I'm considered a suicide? Everyone says that people who die by suicide will go to hell, and I don't know how many hells I will go to? Why don't you answer me? Is it because you are a god and I am a human being? Don't think so. If God can't have contact with people, why do you come to me for a night talk and take me back in time...... How much time has passed since you still didn't want to communicate with me, and just left me in the infinite darkness? Hehe, to be honest, I really regret it. I don't regret saving Chen Yaofei with my life. What else would I regret besides this? Ah, of course it was-

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