Looking at the broken phone screen, I sat motionless on the edge of the bed as if I had lost my soul. There was a constant shouting and knocking at the door, and finally I got up and went to open it. The moment the door opened, Dad kicked me in and knocked me to the ground. Instead of showing my affection as a father, my father grabbed me by the corner of my clothes and dragged me into the living room, followed by his scolding. Mom watched from the sidelines. She was angry, but she was obviously a little more rational than her father. Seeing that I didn't refute sitting on the floor with my head bowed and silent, my mother thought I was seriously reflecting, so she persuaded my father to stop blaming me. Just like when I was a child, my parents always played a bad guy and a good guy, and then comforted me after I cried and confessed my mistakes - I didn't cry, I didn't admit my mistakes, and I didn't feel much about my father's scolding. Because I have tasted too much scolding, my heart seems to have become a hard rock, and I am afraid that I no longer know what love is.

Even if it's such a stormy experience, there will be an end to it. After eating my mother's breakfast, I resolutely took the bus to school. Under my father's angry words, "Let him go and come back by himself, I will never drive again", I left the house.

Ignoring Gao Jiali's call, I went straight to the classroom and waited for the morning self-study. The bell rang and I sat in my seat indifferent.

"Yi Jiahe, go up and read it. He Guangzheng said.

"Even if you're in a bad mood, you can't help but read it. Wang Qiang said.

The people in the classroom whispered louder and louder. A few people glanced at me, trying to figure out why I didn't come up to the podium to read it. The reason is simple -

I stood up and walked to the podium, slapped the English book, and announced, "Master, I won't do it, you have to read it yourself." ”

There was a moment of silence, followed by sneers and whispers below.

"Yi Jiahe, early self-study is your responsibility as a member of the study committee, you ......"

"Shut up!" I shouted at Xu Yan. As I shouted loudly, the classroom was mostly less sound.

Xu Yan's face was ugly, and she said to me, "You have something wrong......

"Who do you think you are, and what qualifications do you have to talk to me?"

"Heh, then you have ......"

"Sixteen or seventeen-year-old little ghost head thinks he is the king?" I told you," I walked over to Xu Yan's table and mocked her, "In my eyes, you are not even as good as a pig and dog that has been eaten and ordered by others!"

Xu Yan, whose momentum was suppressed by me, fell silent. Pretending to be pitiful, Xu Yan won the sympathy of many people in the class. Many people cast reproachful glances at me, including Chen Shu.

"Yi Jiahe, what are you doing?" Gao Jiali, who appeared on the edge of the classroom door, looked at me with an indifferent expression.

"Teach the children. Why, do you want to come along?" I looked at her with the same cold expression.

Gao Jiali sneered and walked over to taunt me: "It's very draggy." You want to be an instructor?"

I ignored Gao Jiali's words and turned to my seat. I knew Gao Jiali wouldn't just let me go back, but I wasn't interested in what she would do.

"Yi Jiahe, you stop for me!" Gao Jiali reached out and grabbed my shoulder, and I turned to get rid of it. "Yi Jiahe, you have eaten the bear's heart and leopard gall ......"

"The twitter is annoying. You're not much older than me, so who are you to talk to me?"

Gao Jiali was angry and ordered me: "Blatantly contradict the teacher, go, call your parents!"

"Whenever you have something, go to the student's parents, won't you solve the conflict with the student by yourself? ”

"What are you talking about!" Gao Jiali grabbed my arm and shouted to me, "Go, follow me to the office!"

I got rid of Gao Jiali's hand again and said to her, "Good men don't fight women." With that, I returned to my seat. Gao Jiali didn't hold me this time.

Looking at me sitting in the seat, Gao Jiali, who was standing at the door of the classroom, said to me: "Okay, you wait, I will call your parents here, and you can explain to them yourself! Xie Changge, you come to read!"

Waving goodbye to Gao Jiali who left the classroom, I stared at Xie Changge who walked up to the podium, feeling a sense of joy in my heart.

"Little Red Guy, you have been punished. "How boring it is to blurt out words out loud without any emotion.

Xie Changge glanced at me and opened the book to read.

At the end of the morning self-study, He Guangzheng turned around and asked me secretly: "Yi Jiahe, you have eaten the artillery battle, why are you so angry?"

He Guangzheng lent me a handheld game console, and although it didn't work in the end, he helped me out. He Guang in my memory is the sinner who ignores me, and I don't remember the villain and don't care about him.

"I just think Gao Jiali is too useless. Even a woman can't be sarcastic at every turn, not to mention that the object is still her own student. As for Xu Yan, it's just that she's not happy. ”

"If you get on the bar with Teacher Gao like this, it will be very miserable in the future. ”

I "hummed" and replied to Wang Qiang: "Haven't you also been on a par with her?"

At the end of the morning self-study, the bell stopped, and the confused Wang Qiang and his classmates turned their attention to the noise in the corridor.

"It was Li Teng and Zhao Bohao who were fighting. You don't have to go out, maybe they're done. ”

Despite what I said, Wang Qiang and Qian Jianwen went out to check, and Xiao Hui followed. On a whim, I walked to the corridor and happened to meet Gao Jiali.

"Yi Jiahe, you ......"

"It's not helpful to say more. It was Li Teng and Zhao Bohao from Class 12 who were fighting," I pointed to the rear and said to Gao Jiali, "Zhao Bohao was beaten by Li Teng and his nose bleeds. Why don't you go and have a look?"

Gao Jiali was silent, and after I said to me, "I have called your parents to the school, you can explain to them what happened just now" and squeezed into the crowd of students. Thinking that Gao Jiali was really cautious, I followed her and pushed aside the crowd to the scene. Li Teng, who was sitting on the ground, ignored Gao Jiali's question, and lowered his head to look at the ground. Gao Jiali looked up and asked the onlookers, just in time to meet my eyes. I pointed in the direction of the toilet. Gao Jiali snorted lightly and said, "It's scattered, you all go back to the classroom" and walked towards the toilet after dismissing the onlookers.

"Isn't it just a bottle?" I looked down at Li Teng.

Li Teng raised his head, glared at me fiercely, and said to me, "What do you know?"

"It's a rare treasure, hehe. ”

Li Teng bowed his head and was silent, the resentment in his eyes faded, and he turned to sadness. From this point of view, the cup broken by Zhao Bohao may really be something that Li Teng cherishes.

Back in the classroom, Wang Qiang, He Guangzheng and Xiao Hui were waiting for me to reveal the secret. I didn't answer their questions and waited for the arrival of the fat-bellied Zhu Yue. Zhu Yue didn't know that I had a quarrel with Gao Jiali, and he didn't mention the fight in Class 12, so he began to explain the boring test papers after sending the two excerpts from the mock test papers of the previous year's college entrance examination with answers. Since Zhu Yue rarely took turns to answer questions, and he didn't win me this time, I listened to him as a student.

At the end of politics class, I took out my flute and played it despite the gaze of my classmates. If there's one thing I can't forget in my memory, it's probably this flute piece, and it's something that baffles me. When did I compose this flute piece? I always feel that my memory of the composition of this flute piece is skewed, as if I have done something but I can't be sure that I have done it, but every time I am ready to do it, it seems like I have done it. Because of this, I still have a rejection of playing this flute piece called "Death". But now I'm not going to care about that.

Under the clamor of the students, I finished playing "Death". When I finished playing and closed my eyes, I realized that the cubs were noticeably louder before I played the flute than after I did—it seemed that when I played the flute, their noise gradually decreased. When I opened my eyes, there were several students staring at me.

"What are you doing, I've never seen a flute, what's there to see?" I said angrily to He Guangzheng in front of me. This is also said to the little cubs in the class who watched me play.

"Do you know how to play the flute?" asked He Guangzheng.

"You have to have some skills when you go out and mingle, even though no one cares about playing the flute. It's just a loved one who is disliked. I replied to He Guangzheng.

Wang Qiang laughed and said, "No, you blow very well." The sound of the flute is beautiful, who would not love playing the flute?"

Yes, it's not the hobby of playing the flute that people dislike, it's me who plays the flute. The so-called differential treatment, if you change to a person from a musical family to play, people will think that people are good at playing the flute well, but I can't do it. In the eyes of people, especially my parents, playing the flute is a waste of time and a nuisance, and it is a must in the community. In my opinion, the main reason is that I can't make money playing the flute – I can't make money playing the flute, after all, I have neither musical nor musical talent, so who would be interested in performing on stage?

Perhaps because of her early self-study, Gao Jiali appeared at the door of the classroom after the class bell rang. Putting down the information, Gao Jiali came to my side and said to me: "Yi Jiahe, your parents have something to do, they can't come in the morning, they may not come until the afternoon." ”

I don't understand why Gao Jiali told me about this.

"It doesn't matter, you can do whatever you like. ”

When Gao Jiali heard this, she tightened her face and said, "Yi Jiahe, let me tell you, if you talk to me with this attitude again......"

"They're all adults, so why threaten me with such words?"

"What?"

I stood up, smiled at Gao Jiali, put my arms around her waist and said to her, "You and I are both adults, so you don't have to tell me this kind of deception to children." ”

Gao Jiali got rid of my arm and stepped back and scolded at me: "Yi Jiahe, do you know what you are doing!"

I frowned and thought for a second, then replied, "Insulting you?"

"You, how can you even say such a thing?" Gao Jiali's expression when she was angry was quite cute. Although I suddenly wanted to tease her, given that she had been my teacher, I couldn't do such a perverse thing.

However, I couldn't help but tease her, so I said to her, "I won't insult you." You're a woman who hasn't even touched a man, why should I......"

There was a loud "snap", and the left side of my face hurt hotly. Covering her left cheek, I looked at Gao Jiali, who had just regained her senses, and took two steps back to look at the strange stares cast by her students around her.

"Slap your own students, you really did it, Gao Jiali. ”

My words were like flamethrowers, forcing Gao Jiali to the podium step by step. In a panic, Gao Jiali sorted out her materials, shouted "continue self-study" to the students under the podium, and then walked out of the classroom quickly without even looking at me.

I put down my hand and sat back in my seat. The pain is not relieved, but it is not very strong for me.

"Wow, it's all red. Yi Jiahe, are you dying?" said Wang Qiang on the right hand side gloatingly.

I didn't answer Wang Qiang.

"Yi Jiahe, does it hurt?" He Guangzheng turned to me and asked, his grinning expression reflecting his psychology similar to that of Wang Qiang.

There were whispers in the class, and many students even turned to look at me and covered their mouths and sneered while talking to their tablemates.

"Funny, funny!" I slammed the table and stood up yelling at the class.

The voices in the class suddenly digressed.

"Xu Yan, is it funny?" I named Xu Yan, and Xu Yan turned around and glared at me without saying a word.

"Pan Yilian, is it funny?" I named Pan Yilian, and Pan Yilian bowed her head silently and wrote.

"Cheng Jingjing and Lou Guohua, the little couple is very happy. I ask you, is this funny?"

"Yes," Lou Guohua stood up and turned to me with a contemptuous gaze, "super funny." ”

I walked over to Lou Guohua's table, looked down at him with a more contemptuous gaze than his, and repeated, "Is it funny?"

"What, do you want to fight?" Lou Guohua sneered, turned his head to Cheng Jingjing and said, "What happened just now is super funny." Do you say yes, Cheng ......"

Without waiting for Lou Guohua to finish speaking, I pressed him to the seat and pressed his head to Yu Jingjing's desk, making him unable to move.

"Yi Jiahe, let go of me!"

I ignored Lou Guohua's words and pressed his head hard. He struggled and tugged at the corner of my garment with his right hand.

"You two are crazy!" Yu Jingjing said angrily, "Yi Jiahe, let him go quickly." ”

I listened to Yu Jingjing's words and let go of Lou Guohua. As I thought, the angry Lou Guohua pounced on me as soon as I let go of him, and pressed me to Yu Jingjing's desk like I did. It's easy to get rid of Lou Guohua, but if I make such a move, it will inevitably cripple him.

"What are you two doing!" said a man's voice at the door of the classroom.

As Lou Guohua let go, I stood up straight and saw that the man in front of me was the dean of teaching.

"Teacher, it was Yi Jiahe who hit me first!" Lou Guohua said angrily.

I have the right to remain silent.

"I saw you were beating him!"

"It was he who beat me, and the classmates in the class saw it!" Lou Guohua became anxious.

The Dean of Students looked around the class. I looked around with him, and no one nodded or signaled. The students bowed their heads in silence or looked away.

"Yi Jiahe, you guy......" Lou Guohua said and was about to do it again, but was pulled by the teaching director.

"Stop! You go to your homeroom teacher's office for me, I want to talk to your homeroom teacher!"

If the teaching director dragged Lou Guohua to Gao Jiali's office, I would not be able to hide the fact that I was slapped by Gao Jiali. Gao Jiali hit me, and I didn't feel anything other than pain. What I said was a little too much, and it was reasonable to receive a slap from Gao Jiali. If the dean of education knew about this, Gao Jiali would have been criticized at least and punished by the school leaders. Of course, it is also possible that the teacher will secretly deal with the problem of hitting the student by the school if the parents do not make a fuss about it - my parents are naturally in line with this situation.

"Teacher, teacher, forget about this matter. "I called the teaching director who was pulling Lou Guohua.

"What," the dean turned to me, "your classmate hit you, and you're just left it at that?"

In fact, I did it first, but I can't say, especially in this delicate atmosphere.

"Classmate, I don't want him to be disciplined. "The adult's move is to add fuel to the vinegar, and it doesn't matter what distorts the facts.

"But he violated school discipline and can't just leave it at that. ”

"You will punish him, and you will punish me. He was wrong to hit me, and it was not right for him to hit me. If I hadn't followed him into a conflict with him, he wouldn't have hit me, and you wouldn't have punished him. ”

The dean of education and Lou Guohua looked at me blankly, probably wondering if I, the student, had made a mistake.

"Okay," the dean said to Lou Guohua, "you will have to abide by school discipline in the future." Next time, I will definitely take you to your homeroom teacher's office and let you explain to your homeroom teacher yourself. ”

I quickly pulled back Lou Guohua, who was about to refute, and thanked the dean: "Thank you, dean, you are really an adult." ”

The Dean smiled and nodded, stayed in the classroom for a few seconds and left. I secretly thought, this person is really a typical adult, and when he heard some flattery, he smiled and ignored the unreasonable thing that I was standing next to Lou Guohua.

"Are you sick?" Lou Guohua said angrily.

I said "no thanks" to him and returned to my seat. Lou Guohua did not follow, and also sat in the seat. There was a moment of silence in the classroom. A few minutes later, the students whispered among themselves. Since Gao Jiali did not come, the voices in the classroom were intermittent, and the students' conversation did not end until mealtime. This time, the students' voices were not too loud. During this time, I sat in my seat reading with a straight face, and no one came to ask me questions.

At noon, my parents came to school. In Gao Jiali's office, my parents stood awkwardly. As soon as he saw me enter the office, my dad waved me over. He smiled, but I knew he was pretending. My mom was smiling, too, but her disguise wasn't as good as my dad's, so I could tell she was a little anxious.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Gao. This child is usually very well-behaved......" said Mom.

Gao Jiali sat behind her desk and saw me standing next to my parents, tilted her eyes away from me, and said to my parents, "Yes, Yi Jiahe is very good at school." ”

"I'm really sorry, Mr. Gao. It was we who failed to manage him and let him commit such a mistake. Dad said.

"Schooling is important, and so is homeschooling. ”

Listening to the conversation between Gao Jiali and my parents, I felt bored, so I yawned.

"What are you doing in front of the teacher!" the exposed father whispered to me with a fierce face. Immediately, he returned to a smiling expression and said to Gao Jiali, "Teacher Gao, just forgive him." We're going to teach him a good lesson, and we won't let this kid make another mistake. ”

"Okay, good......" Gao Jiali is running out of words.

I stared at Gao Jiali. Gao Jiali, who noticed my gaze, panicked and said to my parents: "Yi Jiahe's parents, as Yi Jiahe's teacher, I have the duty to educate him. I promise you that I will keep a good guard at school and will not let him break discipline again. ”

I was going to invite my parents to the cafeteria for lunch, but my parents left school for something. Before leaving, they didn't say a word to me. I'll definitely get criticized when I go home in the evening. After so many years of being criticized, I don't feel anything anymore.

"Gao Jiali, what did you say on the phone?"

Gao Jiali was silent. I stood at her desk and waited for her to reply to me. After a full minute, Gao Jiali said slowly: "What happened just now ......"

"Oh, forgive me. ”

Gao Jiali looked up at me, as if to ask why I forgave her.

"I also have bad points, I'm sorry. But," I said to Gao Jiali with a sigh, "you too, a person who is dozens of years old, will still be angry with that kind of talk." ”

"I have my troubles. After saying that, Gao Jiali stood up and looked at me as if she regretted saying this, and asked me, "Have you eaten lunch?"

"I'll figure it out on my own. ”

I turned around, and Gao Jiali stopped me: "That thing ......"

"If you do it, you have to think that it will be known by others. But there are so many pairs of eyes in the class, and you can't escape. I'm not going to talk nonsense, after all, I don't like gossip in the first place. If you have any trouble, come to me and I'll explain it to you. ”

"Yi Jiahe," Gao Jiali asked me as I walked out of the door, "You, don't you hold a grudge against the teacher?"

"As a member of society, I understand the suffering of adults. I turned my head and added to Gao Jiali, who looked dumbfounded, "Why should the poor be embarrassed by the poor man. ”

The paper on the calendar book was torn off one by one, and the unpardonable sin was committed again and again. This is Chen Yaofei's dream, and it is also my dream. Indifferent gaze, indifferent words. Remembering what Chen Yaofei said, I felt that I was in a painful struggle, but I was still desperate after struggling. Darkness engulfs, time loops, scenes repeat. "Please, let me go. "Weeping, no one has mercy. "Please, set me free. "Suicide, no one cares. "Kill me...... "Kill whom?" "Kill me." "Who, who the hell is -

In the dark world, he shed red blood and tears. I fixed my eyes and saw that the person in front of me was ......

"Me?"

I woke up from a dream and felt vomiting. I fell to my knees and tried to vomit the contents of my stomach to make myself feel better, but I couldn't vomit at all. By the way, I didn't have lunch at noon. Leaning my back against the wall outside the classroom, I gasped for breath as I listened to the old woman inside scolding the students in the class.

I remembered that because I was dissatisfied with Chen Meifen's order, I was kicked out of the classroom by her.

"You can't even do this question, what's in your head?"

Chen Meifen's voice was very loud, which made me feel disgusted. Although I can't get angry, I happened to have a nightmare that made me extremely angry, and I should have taken out this anger on this aggressive old woman.

Kick open the classroom door and the attention of the whole class is focused on me.

"What, you're in a bad mood when you were asked to go outside to the punishment station?"

"Ah, I was tired from standing, so I sat down on the floor and fell asleep. Eleven years from now, if you let students stand because of a trivial matter, you will have to be scolded to death by your parents. ”

"What did you say?" Chen Meifen raised her eyebrows and made a unique arrogant appearance of a teacher.

I ignored her and asked Yu Zhifu, who was accused by her: "Commander, how many questions did she ask you to answer?"

Yu Zhifu looked at Chen Meifen and then at me, and then whispered: "Teacher Chen asked us to do the fifth question of the multiple-choice question in the mock test paper of last year's Yixiang college entrance examination. ”

"Pick A. ”

Chen Meifen snorted coldly and said to me, "Answer for your classmates?" Okay, you will answer the next questions. If you get it wrong, you'll ......"

“ACDBABBDABCDDDD。 ”

"Oh, it's wrong......"

Before Chen Meifen's voice fell, I interrupted her to explain: "The last question is not C. I've seen the same topic in the tutorial book, but Chen Meifen, you said it wrong. Isn't that right, Xie Changge?"

Xie Changge, who was sitting in his seat, looked at me, and then nodded. Chen Meifen will come to the classroom to explain this question the next day, but that's a later story.

"Are you a teacher or am I a teacher?" Chen Meifen's expression distorted.

"You're a teacher, but I don't mind if you give way to me, after all, the teacher's salary is quite high. When I was out of work, my parents heard that a child in the village had become a primary school teacher, and they kept urging me to take the teaching exam, saying how high the teacher's salary was. Oh, I don't know how it is now, but teaching will be a very lucrative profession in the future. ”

"You ......" Chen Meifen was so angry that she couldn't speak.

I "made up for it" for her: "Teacher Chen, I didn't say you, you are really bad." Do you remember Mr. Cai, who came to the geography class on Wednesday, and his teaching style was very popular with the students in the class? Look at you again, except for scolding students is scolding students, there are no other tricks, it's really boring. ”

"You, you go with me to your homeroom teacher's office......"

"I've talked to Gao Jiali a long time ago, and it's not interesting to talk again. Go yourself, and tell her about your insults to the students. ”

After I finished speaking, Chen Meifen slammed the textbook on the ground and left the classroom in a rage.

"Yi Jiahe, you're a little over......" Zhou Hui was a good man.

"You're not in a position to speak of me," I said to the rest of the class, "and you who have turned my back on me are not in a position to accuse me." ”

"Betrayal, when did we turn our backs on you?" asked Wang Qiang, who gloated over Chen Meifen's departure, to me.

I ignored Wang Qiang's questioning and came to the podium to look down on everyone. The confused expression, the worried look in his eyes, these were all illusions created by the gods in order to allow me to complete the so-called rescue mission he had assigned to me.

"To tell you the truth, even if I didn't have your help for me, I would have been alive and well all these years. As for what you have done to me, I will never forget it for the rest of my life. Your indifference, your ruthlessness, your laughter, these memories of you treating me as a transparent person when I was most lonely and helpless, I will never forget it in my life!"

The sound of thumping echoed through the classroom. I raised my hands, as if pricked by countless needles, and looked down at the podium. Because of my retake, the glass on the podium shifted, and the chalk in the chalk box popped out onto the desks of the students in the front row. Looking at the chaotic podium, my anger dissipated at once, and I was a little more embarrassed. The bell rang in time to relieve me. I immediately returned to my seat.

Because Mrs. Chen left her textbook in the classroom, Xie Changge, the representative of the geography class, returned the textbook.

The language class was very uneventful. I was very unhappy, and as soon as the bell rang for the end of the second Chinese class, I picked up my schoolbag and left the classroom first.

"I'm home......"

When I opened the door, before I could finish speaking, the old man appeared, grabbed me by the corner of my clothes, and dragged me into the house.

"Get down on your knees!" he said to me.

"You let go of me," I got rid of him, "why did you make me kneel?"

"I'm your father!" the old man blushed, which meant that he was really in a very angry state.

I glanced at the old woman next to me, who was standing silently behind the old man.

"Forget it, you've been saying this for years. I went back to my room. ”

"Stop!" my father grabbed me and pressed me to the ground. I turned to resist, and I fell to the ground due to the unsteady center of gravity.

"Get that stick out!"

"No," the old woman said embarrassedly......

I know that the old man who has gone crazy will dare to do anything. He rushed into the storage room and pulled out a stick, shouting at me, "Kneel!"

My dad rarely hit me, and even when I did something very wrong as a child, he would send me to a stand. The old man who threatens to beat me now is the old man I know, but not the father I admire.

I snatched the stick from his hand and broke it. The texture of this stick is not hard, and it is not difficult to break. Thinking that the old man had nothing to do about it, he didn't expect that as soon as I threw away the stick and looked up, he gave me a slap. The dissatisfaction and sadness buried deep in my heart gushed out with this slap. As before, I didn't cry, I swallowed the tears and resentment into my stomach.

"You stare at me, you stare at me!" said the old man, grabbing the corner of my coat and making it clear that he wanted to hit me on the buttocks as he had done when he was a child.

Now I am not the same as I was when I was a child, and the irrepressible emotions were out of control: "Yi Yunfei, are you enough!" I pushed the old man away and glared at him.

"It's not big or small, dare to contradict me. Little bunny, it's good that I didn't give birth to you in the first place!"

The old mother persuaded her to fight in the back, but what she did was trivial and had no effect at all.

"Yi Yunfei, over the years, I have allowed you to blame and abuse, but you have never thought about my feelings, mocking me again and again, and getting worse!"

"I'm your dad, I'm older than you, why should I understand your feelings?" said the same thing my twenty-eight-year-old dad used to say. In the past, whenever I calmly tried to communicate with him and ask him to understand me, he would say this too.

Without further ado, I went back to my room and packed up the basics, put on a coat and walked to the hallway.

"Hey, where are you going? I ask you, where are you going?"

I ignored him and opened the door.

"You come back for me!" Yi Yunfei grabbed me and wanted to pull me back into the house, but I threw me away.

"You let go of me, I don't have to worry about my business anymore!"

"Okay, you go, don't come back!" He said the same words a few times, each time with a hint of joke, but not this time.

Overwhelmed by anger and sadness, I slammed the door shutting in an attempt to vent on the door.

"Get out, don't come back if you leave!" This sentence is an eviction order, a real eviction order.

Over the years, whenever I had a conflict with my parents, I would say, "I don't want to live with you," and then my parents would say, "We're happiest not living with you." You'd better move out now." But there was never a time when I actually ran away from home, and not once did my parents urge me to leave home. I don't want to leave because home is a warm haven for me, and the outside is full of hypocrisy, deception and lies – home is not only my warm haven, but also my last refuge. I avoided the worldly culture of money worship and longed to find my place at home. In the near future, the culture of money worship will quietly prevail, and it will be in this atmosphere from the bottom to the top. Occasionally thinking about it, maybe it's because I don't want to follow the trend, which makes me so embarrassed - it's because I'm incompetent, so incompetent that I can't even follow the trend.

Sitting on the bus to the city of Anju City, I felt a peaceful time that belonged to me. This bus was the last bus, and I was the only one on the bus. In order to catch this bus, I ran on the road to the bus stop in Yixiang District that could reach the city bus of Anju City. Today, the construction of the subway is not complete, and the route from Yixiang District to the urban area of Anzhou City has just been opened. I don't have enough money to waste in taxis, and it's cheaper to take the bus.

"Young man, are you still out playing so late?" asked the bus driver when I arrived at the terminal.

Ignoring his question, I walked down the steps.

"Be safe when traveling at night. "I came from the bus as I left the bus with these heartwarming words. It's just that I can't accept such words now.

At the age of 28, I have been to the city of Anju countless times, but for me at the age of 17, there are only a handful of memories left in the city of Anju.

The city is as bustling and fascinating as I can remember. The streets are full of lights, the fragrant food stalls, and the amusement halls with a strong atmosphere, where people are laughing and having fun together. The night is beautiful, the heart is tired, and the joy around me has nothing to do with me.

When I came back to my senses, I had come to a bridge. Leaning against the railing, looking at the dark water below—the river is wide, it must be deep—will I survive if I accidentally fall? I can't swim, but a miracle will happen. For example, the traveler with whom I had a relationship will come to my rescue......

"Try it. "Holding on to the railing, I stepped one leg over.

The evening breeze warms people. By the way, tomorrow is going to be a hot day. I'm not going to tell those people in Class 10 and catch them off guard.

"Haha......" laughed out loud, tears overflowing. I didn't wipe it dry, and I let the tears flow.

The wind at night, so warm. My body, so cold. It's strange that the wind blew on my cheeks that night, and my skin told me that it was warm to the touch, but why did my heart tell me how cold and bitter the wind was?

"Tilt your body and it's over. What gods, what time loops, what rescue missions, it's over. Chen Yaofei ...... "My heart trembled, and I suddenly had nostalgia for the world. This emotion, which I had not had just now, was now pressed on my shoulder like a boulder, so that I could not move, or even tilt my body.

Climbing down from the railing, I sat on the ground and wept silently.

Friday, August 21. In the eyes of passers-by, I must have looked very unusual in my coat. This coat has been my quilt, and it is a favor to me, and I cannot lose it.

Waking up in the underground passage, glad that I had not been looted or disturbed, I went to the street and bought a bun to eat. I left home in a hurry, I didn't have much cash with me, and my phone was broken by me the previous day, so I didn't have the communication tools to contact Xiao Hui to ask him how he was doing at school. As for my parents, I just hope they never find me – maybe they won't come to me at all. Considering that they would be asking around for news of me, I planned to stay in the city of Anju until the afternoon before returning to Yixiang District.

It is often said that time is like flowing water, and it is gone forever. During these few hours, I did things that I had never done in my life: playing with claw machines, trying my hand at arcade machines, trying barbecues, riding roller coasters...... The damn roller coaster scared me to heart attack - I certainly wouldn't have a heart attack because of this body, but if I had the body I had at twenty-eight, I would have vomited from the fright.

After buying the necessary things, I only had change in my pocket for the bus ride. Although it was a dream, at least I had a happy time—and I don't know if it was a happy time or not. However, happiness and sorrow will pass eventually.

It was dusk when I returned to the Yixiang area. The school has not changed much, and the school gate is still a pick-up and drop-off home. The world will not stop turning for a Yijia, and the school will not fight for a Yijiahe.

Looking at the familiar landscape, I turned and walked away. There is a park not far from the school with the Chaoyang River flowing through it. I went to the small pavilion in the park and looked at the sparkling water but could not imagine a wonderful legend. I didn't feel joy, I didn't feel sadness, I just quietly looked at the glittering water.

One hour, two hours...... I glanced down at the small watch I had bought at a bargain price from a stall, and the time on it was nine o'clock in the evening.

"Almost......" I said to myself, and I got up and hurried to school.

When I arrived at the school gate, there were already many parents waiting for their children. As soon as the school bell rang, parents were in an uproar. At the same time, as if echoing each other from afar, there was also a commotion in the school. It's probably the other way around, it's just like that to me.

"Heh, I'm thinking about such a boring thing. "I should be thinking about what's going to happen next.

The school gate opened, and several parents stood on the inside of the school gate. There were students coming in the school building one after another, and there were quite a few of them. I glanced at the security guard in the communication room, and he started to look at the things on the table after opening the school gate, and he didn't keep an eye on the school gate all the time. It's a good time for me to blend in. So, I passed by the students who came over and walked to the third class of science.

Originally, I had assumed that I could meet Chen Yaofei here, but when I arrived at the third class of science, their classroom had already turned off the lights and closed the door. In this way, I can only go to the boys' dormitory to find Chen Yaofei. Hopefully, when I go to the boys' dormitory, there is no one I know who will hinder me because I missed school for a day today.

Cautiously moving forward, I arrived at the boys' dormitory. Because I saw Gao Jiali walking out of the teaching building halfway, I deliberately avoided her and hid for a while. As I stepped up the stairs to the second floor of the boys' dormitory, I glanced at the time. Fortunately, although it is not as good as last time, there is still plenty of time now.

205The door to the bedroom was ajar. I pushed the door open, and the people inside looked at me in unison.

"Yi, Yi Jiahe, how do you ......"

I walked into the dormitory and grabbed Chen Yaofei, who had already taken off his clothes and was about to take off his school uniform pants, and pulled him all the way to the back of the gymnasium.

"You, what are you pulling me here?" Chen Yaofei, who was shirtless, rubbed his arm and smiled stupidly.

I took off my clothes and took out the fruit knife from my pocket.

"You, what are you doing?" Chen Yaofei took a few steps back.

I threw the fruit knife on the ground, took a deep breath, and then exhaled, and replied to him: "Chen Yaofei, kill me." ”

"Why?" Chen Yaofei was frightened.

"The reason why the time loop exists is that you killed Ma Chao. I can understand that Ma Chao bullied you in disguise and made you feel dissatisfied, but it is precisely because you resent Ma Chao for killing him and committing a heinous crime that you will suffer in this alternative time loop and pull me in. I've thought about it, if the person you killed wasn't Ma Chao but me, maybe we would get out of this damn reincarnation. ”

"What are you talking about......"

I interrupted Chen Yaofei and said to him, "You don't remember what happened after before you committed a sin, but I do. You want me to help you, and to be honest, I can't. The gods have asked me to save you, and I can't even redeem myself, let alone help others out of suffering. I am twenty-eight years old. My life is like a dream, I can't remember the past, and the scattered fragments of memories are blurry, so I simply forget everything and live in the present. However, everything around me did not allow me to live in my own way. Can you feel that pain?"

Chen Yaofei stared at me and was silent.

"You don't know it," I continued with a sneer, "and I'll tell you the truth, I was happy for a while after I found out you were stuck in a time loop. As the one who once ignored me, you can finally taste the pain of my ice hell. Somehow, however, the happier I was, the more sad I felt. My sorrow is not only for you, but also for me, and for the poor who are suffering in this world, even those who have long since died or are buried in the earth or reduced to ashes. I was so sad and in pain, I couldn't help myself. ”

I pointed to the fruit knife on the ground and said to Chen Yaofei: "Don't you dislike me, why don't you erase me from this world." ”

Chen Yaofei shook his head.

"Heh," tears overflowed in my eyes, and I looked at Chen Yaofei, who was also shedding tears for some reason, and said, "This is my own volition, you don't have to care - you have never cared about my life or death." Even if I am no longer in this world, you will not be surprised, and you will even forget the existence of such a person in the passage of time. Come, kill me, stab me in the heart, stab me hard. "I patted my chest.

Chen Yaofei didn't say a word, just shook his head again and again.

I picked up the fruit knife, grabbed Chen Yaofei's hand and put it on Chen Yaofei's palm, and shouted to Chen Yaofei: "One of the two of us must die today, either you kill me, or I kill you!"

Handing Chen Yaofei the fruit knife, I stepped back and stretched out my arms to straighten my body, closed my eyes and yelled at Chen Yaofei: "Come on, come like a man!"

Straighten up because I want to die open, close my eyes because I don't want to...... I don't want to look at Chen Yaofei's face. What was his expression when he raised the fruit knife? hideous, smiling, or cowering? Would he cry for me? No, or I would have died laughing.

The sobbing sound of Chen Yaofei in my ears suddenly stopped, and I thought that Chen Yaofei had regained his memory. One second passes, two seconds passes...... I didn't feel the sharp pain of the blade inserting into my flesh. What was he doing? Wouldn't he be waiting for me to be scared before stabbing me with the blade? I have to say, he worked. Closing your eyes can obscure things, but you can't tamper with the facts. Not only that, but because I didn't cover my ears and just closed my eyes, the sound in the darkness seemed to be amplified, and the fear gradually hit me.

Chen Yaofei, do it quickly, kill me......

"Woo......" was a strange sound, followed by the sound of metal falling to the ground.

I opened my eyes, momentarily dazed. I saw Chen Yaofei smile and look at me with his hands down. His hands were covered with blood, and the source of the blood was a stab wound to his abdomen. He didn't cover his wounds and let the blood flow. Finally, he collapsed unsteadily.

The moment he leaned forward, I subconsciously stepped in front of him to catch him and tightly covered his stab wounds. Let him lie down on top of me, and I held him with mixed feelings.

"Yi Jiahe, listen...... This time......" Chen Yaofei, whose face turned pale, said with difficulty.

"Don't say it, stop it! Stop the bleeding, stop the bleeding!"

Chen Yaofei grabbed my right hand with his blood-stained left hand, gasped for breath and said, "I...... Didn't attack Ma Chao...... So, as long as I'm dead...... You, you can definitely be saved...... You ......"

"Please, don't say it......" I couldn't stop crying.

"Yi Jiahe...... Don't be sad, me, I can finally save you...... I can also be relieved......"

The clenched left hand was released, and Chen Yaofei closed his eyes.

"Wake up, Chen Yaofei, wake up quickly!" I cried, commanded, thinking with all the experience of my life, "CPR...... No, no, no, stop the bleeding first...... Stop, stop!" "Sitting on the ground, I pressed the stab with both hands. Like an unstoppable spring flowing from a hole, blood keeps flowing from between my fingers.

In desperation, I pressed my arms to Chen Yaofei's neck and listened to the sound of his heart beating with my whole body.

"Why, why......" I cried and cried as I put down my hand to test the carotid artery in my neck.

Hugging tightly to this body, which would soon cool down, I could do nothing but cry out loud, and I didn't want to do anything.

Chen Yaofei's sacrifice did not change our fate, and the boundless darkness engulfed the world and approached us.

Hugging Chen Yaofei tightly, I stopped crying. My heart was full of resentment: I hated God, I hated people, I hated the whole world, and I hated myself even more for being powerless.

August 21, after that day, I know we will never have the chance to do it all over again.

"Man will conquer heaven, but it is a lie. I closed my eyes, pressed my face against Chen Yaofei's cheek, and fell into darkness with him. Take a hundred plating and read the latest chapter of "Don't Forget the Blessing and Misfortune of the Past Book House" for free for the first time.