7.

To sum up?

Teacher Yuwen set the topic for our club activities today.

Although it is indeed worth remembering to be the first so-called "patient", why does it feel a little pitiful? Regarding the convening of this summary, no matter how you think about it, it is idle and has nothing to do.

That's why our club activities are very strange, and there is nothing to do inexplicably.

There are very few people who come to consult, and this is the only one that is really serious.

But in a way, it's great that our psychological club is so idle. If you really don't need this counseling room, you should be happy.

Even if we don't have our place, isn't the existence of this society self-defeating?

In a sense, that's it.

But this idea is still naïve.

Psychological disorders, mental illnesses, these are all very common things, or that blue melancholy melancholy warrior.

But it's nice to have such an unattainable goal.

"I don't know what's going on now, and there's no news, so I just fell down and disappeared."

Teacher Yuwen, who dragged his cheeks and complained a little alone, sat there chasing dramas.

"The student list is finished?"

"No, it's just in time."

"Don't touch the fish, is this also a teacher?"

I can't stand this kind of fishing, people, it's animals that need to move forward.

Is it okay to just salted fish? Will you feel happy?

Like, it will?

"It's okay, it's okay, isn't it?"

yes, yes, isn't that good? Life is only 30,000 days, and it is a day to be able to touch a day.

Cool.

Phew, I can't afford to lose this man!

But when I saw the teacher's expression of "I can afford to lose this person", I secretly told myself in my heart that I must not become such an adult.

"I'm coming."

Li Xinmu, who pushed the door in, brushed the hair on his ears back, and gently rubbed his shoes on the door blanket.

"Hmm."

I just said a simple "um", so simple, monosyllabic, almost hummed, squeezed out of the lungs, vocal cords vibrating, nasal resonance.

It's not earth-shattering, it's not domineering, it's just normal, and there is no momentum.

It's even a little bit of a slump.

Sometimes I am delusional and delusional about many things. What if I were a bucket? What if I was Tulip ○ Jue? What would it look like if I had a ○ soul?

What would it look like if I had the power of the mind? What will be sex if I awaken? What kind of animal would it be if I got the box?

But in fact, I also know that when human beings make fantasies, they are venting to reality.

Maybe I didn't want to have anything different, but I wanted to get rid of me who was not different.

Even though I knew it, I couldn't do anything, and I didn't make any changes.

Maybe it doesn't make sense, it's like saying I'm going to fill you up in front of the sea, and I'm going to dig you through at the foot of a mountain.

Isn't that interesting?

"Where are you going?"

"I'm going to help my brother go to the Light Literature Society, but he's a being blocked."

"Huh?"

After the school bell rang, I turned around and was about to invite Li Xinmu to the activity room together.

But the mood on her face made me feel a little indescribable.

Maybe changing the world and changing myself didn't mean much to me before, like the dead leaves falling from the window at that time, but I don't know since when.

It's like a star on a summer night, even if you think you can't see it, you want people to look up twice, and then when you look up, you can see the light shine. Pushing aside the existence of this layer of mist, he is now standing in front of me, less than two meters away.

It's the most comfortable distance between people when it's a little closer, said the group of self-proclaimed anthropologists.

But I still choose to believe that the meaning of this distance may be true or false, but what does it matter?

I looked at this distance, as if there was an invisible wall between me and Li Xinmu, but I could really feel its existence. It's probably one step, just one step, you can go to the world inside, you can go to Li Xinmu's world, it's just such a boundary.

Even if maybe I can't break through.

But when I know it, when I want to make the leap, these experts may really be useful.

At the very least, it made me feel some shameless happiness.

It's such a little happiness, I'm about to drown in it.

And what I want is to be happy, just a little.

My intellect reminds itself that one thing is enough, and that's fine, but even my sanity is deceiving me.

I don't want a little bit, not such self-deceptive satisfaction, even if it is more than I expected, but I still want to be greedy, greedy a lot, greedy to be monopolistic.

Maybe it was the moment of school, maybe it was the day of the first outdoor activity, or maybe it was a moment yesterday.

I've never had such a desire to change myself, well, desire.

It's not an idea, it's not a goal, it's not a determination.

It's desire, a strong desire, I want my change, I crave my effort.

"What's wrong?"

That's right, that's it, what I want, every day of hello, every day of conversation, every day of activity.

But not enough.

"Nothing, to summarize?"

I may have smiled handsomely, but the smile I practiced in the mirror at home is now greeted with a lovely laugh.

"Goo hahaha, what is that, that, haha."

"Hey, what's up?"

Timely complaining is also very important, although there are relatively few psychological books that teach people to fall in love.

"yes, yes, you can't see it, hahaha."

"Okay, okay, come and write something and laugh again~"

"Okay, poof."

“···”

After a moment of immersion, the simple report was complete.

"By the way, ordinary psychologists don't fight with patients."

"The average psychiatrist doesn't put himself in danger either!"

"I'm not your average psychiatrist, huh."

"What are you humming, hey, I'm worried about you?"

"I want you to care!"

At this point my throat thumped, like an erased cassette, and there was no sound.

Indeed, if I say that, I really don't need to worry, in fact, my worries are completely self-inflicted, right, and then such self-inflicted sentimentality is openly admitted.

It's obvious that I'm stupid, and I have to frame myself.

But if I was left to watch there, it was hard for me to admit it. Let me admit that I can sit idly by, I don't believe it myself.

I didn't even know how I took such a step, I didn't even know how I bumped into each other.

All I knew was that I did it, I didn't just look like that, I didn't do nothing.

What happens even if you are hated, and what if you don't need to be said so.

I just know that if I don't do it, I won't even admit myself, I'm stupid, I'm boring, I'm self-inflicted.

I just want to get closer to you.

That's it!

"It looked like it was raining that day."

The blurry sky seemed to be raindropping, looking up at the sky and lying on the air cushion, my face was wet with the raindrops drop by drop.

But the little black dot on the rooftop, I know it's your face, looking at me.

I try to make eye contact with you, but even if I try to squint my eyes to the minimum, I can't see your eyes.

I knew it was there, but I just couldn't see it.

And so you watched until I was carried away, and I didn't want to blink on the stretcher, even if I could have looked at you for a little longer, just a few more blinks.

Even if my eyes drip into the rain, I know that the dust inside is harmful to my eyes and astringent.

But I still want to take a few more looks, it's simple, straightforward and clear.

"Well, it's pretty cold on the rooftop."

"Then you're not coming down?"

"I'm afraid you'll fall to your death."

“···”

Ahem, what a fool I'm in!

No, no, no, warm up your brain first and do math problems.

1+1=？

(9) Ah, what else could it be?

Sure enough, I'm a genius.

"Actually, it's nothing, or I'll treat you to dinner, just take it as a reward."

"When?"

Goo, how could you let go of this kind of opportunity, if you can go further like this, hey!

"Tsk, it's Sunday."

There is a club activity on Saturday, so in fact, I already knew in advance that it was Sunday, but under Li Xinmu's cute appearance that was a little angry, I still couldn't help but want to take a few more looks at such cuteness.

"Okay, the invitation of the little rich woman, I must go."

"Huh?"

I glanced at the broom in the corner of the wall, and how did I feel that there was a force attached to it?

"Don't, Bai Fumei, Bai Fumei."

"Even if you say that, I won't be happy."

What is this?

Is it tsundere?

But I still like this feeling, no. How do you feel about Li Xinmu now, how pleasing to the eye.

Wait, I almost forgot about business.

"Why are you so little at the end of your summary, hey!"

"Because I can't write it, hey!"

"Why am I so long, hey!"

"It would be nice if you were shorter, hey!"

"It's obviously your short problem, hey!"

"I think it's been a long time, hey!"

"Do you think it's very long, hey!"

"I think that's enough, hey!"

"I don't think it's enough, hey!"

"What do you think is enough, hey!"

"You're going to have to be as long as I am, hey!"

"I don't want to be as long as you, hey!"

Wait, how do you feel weird the more you talk, hey!

No, I'm not anything, hey!

No, no, hey!