6.

"My story was strange from the beginning.

For unknown reasons, since I was a child, I was afraid of crowds and the existence of people other than my 'relatives'.

It seems to have been there since I first recognized people, and the fear of strangers made me cry when I approached or was touched.

When I was a little bit older, it was time for me to go to kindergarten. Even though I cried loudly at home, when I was actually carried to the kindergarten to see the teacher.

I seemed to be brave enough to stop crying, but I remember vividly that my tears were choked back by my fear.

The snot started to flow downward, and we say the snot crossed the river.

The days in kindergarten are always the same, doing the same things at the same time. The only difference may be that the next episode is played on the TV you watch every day.

I found out afterwards that it was a disc.

At that time, I wanted to have a monster capsule like Severn, I didn't want to become Ultraman, I just wanted to have a 'Pigumon'.

Because I'm afraid of Ultraman, I'm afraid of those huge things, and only the size of Pigumon is normal, isn't it? ”

#选自学生会报告: A conversation about X

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"Ah, don't move!"

Li Xinmu took his index finger and gently poked my arm in a plaster cast. During the fall at that time, I was padded underneath, and it was my left hand that received the impact.

"Eh, it's not what I imagined."

Although I don't know what Li Xinmu imagined it to be, I was a little strange why I was surprised, was it because I hadn't seen it?

It sounds like this, but it's unlikely, right?

"So, don't touch it, it doesn't hurt, but it still feels itchy."

But having said that, this cast on my arm really doesn't make it easy for me to move.

But Li Xinmu was still holding her fingers and touching them, it seemed that she really hadn't seen it.

"By the way, why are you going to talk to him?"

"Ah, what did you say?"

"I said, why are you trying to stimulate him, isn't it good to be on it like this?"

"It's all said, his emotions, want to eat."

Although there are no words that I can't hear or can't understand, the combination still makes me wonder, so what does it mean to want to eat?

But looking at Li Xinmu's slightly lowered eyelids, I didn't continue to ask.

"Isn't it white?"

I shook my left hand, and the white plaster bobbed stiffly up and down, looking a little funny. And this clumsy boy was trying his best to talk to the girl in the sunlight that shone through the cracks in the curtains in the classroom.

Pull closer, closer.

"Yes, it's very beautiful, but it's monotonous."

"Get a pencil, please!"

"Hmph, that's not up to you!"

"Well, when I didn't say, why do you carry colored brushes with you!"

Watching Li Xinmu draw with a pen on my left hand, I felt a sense of peace of mind.

Under the slight smoke of the sun, there is a nice smell.

The black ponytail is dyed with golden light, and the translucent curtains mingle with the sunlight that sneaks in through the cracks, intertwined light and dark, like a room darkened by the curtains after a lazy sleep.

"What was drawn?"

I seemed to have lost track of time under the long stare, but Li Xinmu's ponytail flicked and made my nose itch.

"I don't know."

After Li Xinmu raised his head, I finally saw the pattern on my left hand.

It's better to say it's not so much a pattern than a doodle.

The color blocks are distinct, and the combination is messy.

Why did you draw such a thing?

"Is it pretty?"

I didn't know how to answer, but I tried it anyway.

"Eat?"

"It's okay, I know I'm not very good at drawing."

As if he was answering my words, Li Xinmu replied with something else, and then got up from his seat.

"Oh, no, it's a great imagination."

"No, I'm still not going to be angry about this kind of thing."

It was a smiling face.

I was too embarrassed to continue, so I had to follow.

"What to eat, or shall I have a treat?"

"Well, I'm going to eat the most expensive!"

"Don't."

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The day after I fell upstairs I got the amitriptyline I wanted, the antidepressant.

There are basically no side effects, and it is suitable for blind eating.

But it's better not to eat blindly, no matter what kind of medicine you don't take blindly!

It was also my day of plaster casting.

"What have you done, young man?"

My arm was identified as a fractured bone by the doctor in front of me on x-rays.

"Well, what should I do, don't have surgery."

"Ah, there's no big problem with this, just fix the plaster and pay attention to maintenance."

"Yes, yes?"

"Yes, I'm a doctor, you have to believe me~"

I feel weird like this, forget it, it's just plaster, it should be acceptable.

"Yo, Lu Yu."

After I came out with a cast, I saw someone I didn't want to see.

"Senior Gu, is there anything going on?"

"It's nothing, come and see you."

His smile is genuine, sunny. But it seems to me that there is something hidden.

"There's nothing wrong with this, I guess I'll be able to take it down in a few days."

"Well, that's okay, by the way, it's more difficult for the school to deal with this matter, and it is estimated that there is nothing formal about what to praise, so it's better not to publicize this kind of thing."

I quite understand this, some more serious things should not be publicized, and I don't think I will get any awards for righteousness and courage here.

But let me get a small disc with a cheap piece of paper, and at most some money or something.

Well, the last one is still okay, and the others are really not of much interest.

"Oh, it's okay, but what's in private?"

"Psychological Counseling Room, Star Club Selection."

Gu Jun, who was a little taller than me, stuck to my ear, said this like this, and then left directly behind me.

"Senior Gu?"

When I was stunned, Gu Jun had already walked out of my sight.

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"Is this really delicious?"

"Well, it's delicious."

For the 5 yuan lollipop, I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.

Why don't you eat 5 jiao?

(I read it again, and although I felt that it was twisted, I changed the "block" and "hair" respectively.) ）

That's a 9-fold difference.

"Then I'll take one too."

Despite this thought, I would be considered an idiot if I took ten lollipops at this time.

I don't know what else to do but eat the same $5 lollipop.

"Delicious, right?"

Even if you ask me so, I can only answer that it is the taste of sugar, and it is impossible to eat any other sour, salty, bitter and spicy taste.

It's better to say that it's not as flavorful as a cheap version.

At this time, even if I was told not to be greedy, I still felt that I would praise it with a clear conscience.

I can't seem to do it.

"Well, it must be delicious, right?"

Li Xinmu took my right hand and shook it.

"Ah, yes, it's really different. It's delicious, this one. ”

Not to mention, 5 yuan lollipop, great!

Who created this sugar, thanks, genius.

I would also like to thank sugar cane, which is what gives birth to sugar.

I would also like to thank the sugar factory, without the sugar factory, there would be no sugar like this.

I would also like to thank the marketers, without whom this candy would not have come to me.

I would also like to thank the transport, if this link is missing, everything will be fruitless.

Finally, I would like to thank you...

"Hmm, why are you pinching me?"

"Why are you standing still and not leaving?"

Hmm, puff and hoo, cute!

"Ah, nothing, all of a sudden I had a feeling of 'what all the lollipops I ate before.'"

"Right? I haven't eaten any of the cheap ones, but it's delicious. ”

"Wait?"

"Huh?"

What does it mean if you haven't eaten it?

"Little rich woman."

"Ahem, Lu Yu!"

My right hand was pinched again.

"Okay, okay, right?"

"Not really!"

"Well, what about the landlord?"

"It's a complete criminal class, okay."

"Then let me think, what shall I say?"

"Huh?"

"Sure enough, it's more appropriate to be a little rich woman."

"Huh!"

"Don't, whatever you want with your right hand, don't hit me!"

"Hmph, now it's my victory."

In the short road to the psychological counseling room, I have been attacked by Li Xinmu I don't know how many times.

"By the way, what is your brother's name, I haven't asked, and I haven't been told."

"Oh, his name is Li Renxian, what's wrong?"

I had just arrived at my destination and was about to put my bag down, but the sudden stiffness caused my bag to fall to the ground.

"Little rich woman."

"Huh?"

"The rich second generation, the rich second generation is okay!"

"Let's die."

Li Xinmu picked up the broom in the corner, directly twisted the pole, turned it into a sword, and slashed at me.

"Pick up the blade empty-handed!"

Wait, my left hand doesn't seem to be able to make this gesture yet.

"Die!"

Li Xinmu held the "sword" in both hands and slashed directly at me.

"Don't, don't, it's wrong, it's wrong, Li Xinmu is the cutest, okay."

I didn't wait for my head to come into contact with the pain of the iron hollow pole, but I felt the itching of my hair with the "sword" qi disturbing.

"Even if you say so."

Keeping his hands in the air, Li Xinmu, who lost his reaction, finally gave me a response.

Although, I don't know what it means.

After holding this action for a long time, Li Xinmu began to be a little unable to hold on, his arms trembled a little, but he still didn't put his hands down.

"It's okay."

I was a little worried, and stretched out my hand to shake it in front of Li Xinmu's eyes.

"Hmm!"

With an exclamation, like a frightened cat, he jumped to the side.

"Huh?"

"Since you have said so, then Miss Ben will forgive you."

What's going on, this feeling.

Some couldn't breathe.

My chest is a little tight, what the hell is going on?

It's like eating a 50 yuan lollipop.

What's going on?

Even if I kept questioning myself, I couldn't get an answer.

Or no other answer.

I wanted to tell myself that there was a reason for all this.

But I can't.

I'm warning myself that this is definitely not what I thought it was.

But what would it look like?

Isn't that what I thought it would be?

"Actually."

"Ah, what?"

"Actually, I, I."

"Eh, what?"

"I, I, I."

At this moment, something seemed to be wrong with my language function, and I couldn't make the sound I wanted to make anyway.

But is it because you don't want to say it, or can't you say it?

I don't know how to help myself anymore.

"I'd like to eat another lollipop!"

My heart seemed to be crying, how, how at this time.

"Huh? Huh? Huh!? ”

I, I'm such a coward!