Willful because of happiness, carried away because of happiness (5)

(This story is purely fictional and has nothing to do with any real people, groups, events, etc.)

(Any action that appears in this story is prohibited from imitation, and this story is not responsible for any consequences caused by unauthorized imitation.) Be safe and do not imitate. ）

[Because of the desire, we become crazy, because of the desire, we leave behind the reason that we should have as a human being. 】

So just like that, I happily ran out of Shimizu's company with the figure that symbolized the warmth of this home, and ran in the direction of home.

"(1) あなた (dear), what's the matter with that crazy girl who is disheveled and laughing with blood? Do you want to help her fight the demon spirit and call the police?"

"(2) This is big news, hurry up and take pictures."

"(3) Look, look, that girl's cosplay skills are amazing."

"(4) That girl seems to have a mental problem, it's better not to get close to her, anyway, call the demon spirit and call the police first."

(5) "Mom, Mom, what is that big sister doing?" "Don't look, don't point, close your eyes, don't look at her, be careful that she comes and hits you." 」

"(6) Shoot, shoot, shoot, take a picture of your sister, and hurry up and call the police to the demon spirit."

"(7) Takahashi-kun, is that girl okay? Do you want to help her fight the demon spirit and call the police?"

"(8) Is this filming? Who is this actor? The acting is really amazing, what's her name? I don't know if I can ask for a signed photo of her."

"(9) Wow, I found a wild cosplay loli, it's amazing. Let's not talk about it, let's take a picture first."

"(10) Shoot, shoot, shoot, shoot your sister, hurry up and call the police, you are addicted to the second dimension and stupid, right? ……。」

At this time, I don't know if the expression on my face is crying or laughing, and I don't know what the pedestrians on the road say about me, I only know that my heart is very happy at this time, and I really want to go home quickly to see Mei Zuhe and then throw myself into his arms and cry and cry out all the grievances of the past ten days, yes, all cry.

Mei Zuhe, wait for me, I'm almost home, wait for me, you must wait for me, this time I won't let you run away from me again, this time I must cry in your arms, this time I will definitely hold you very tightly, even if I break your bones, I won't let go, because this is what you owe me, you took away my smile for more than ten days, and took away my happiness for more than ten days, so this is a punishment for you, I will not let you run away from me again.

However, when I got home, the bell rang at four o'clock in the afternoon, but Mei Zu He didn't come back, he, didn't come back, Mei Zhu He died, died in the world of GalGame, and I don't know when the figure that represents the warmth of this home slipped from my hand to the ground.

"ねえ (na),Mei Zuhe,Didn't you say that as long as I get the figure back, you'll come back alive? Now I've got the figure back, but why haven't you come back? Do you really hate me already?"

"You know what? It is precisely because I have you in my heart that I can smile again, it is because I have you in my heart that I want to live with a smile again, it is because I have you in my heart that I can no longer be lonely again, I'm sorry, it's my fault, it's me who made you lose your life, I'm sorry."

"That's right! You killed him! People like you deserve to die! You have to know that you're just a monster! A lowly man-made monster! Your presence will only make those around you miserable! It's just going to make the people around you die! You'll never get the happiness you want! Because you're just a youkai! An artificial monster! A lowly man-made monster that isn't even a half-demon!"

"People like you shouldn't have been born into this world! You deserve to be abandoned by this world while you live! You should be excluded from this world! You should be hated by the world! Because you're just a lowly man-made monster! A lowly man-made monster that isn't even a half-demon! People like you deserve to die! Now, immediately, right now, you should die!"

"I know I'm just a lowly man-made monster, and I know that I deserve to be outcast, ostracized, and resented by this world."

"I also know that I shouldn't live in this world, and I know that I should die, but before I die, can you please help me save Mezuha?"

"Save him? Amusing! Do you know who I am? I'm just another personality of yours! You cause your own trouble, you have to bear the consequences, don't bother me! Being your other personality makes me feel disgusting, you know! Yes! Do you know? Speak, you know what! Let me help you? Can you help me first! I'm sick to see you, so can you die sooner! Yes! Speak! Can you die soon?"

"I know, I'm sorry, I've been causing you trouble, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, goodbye ~ my important people, goodbye ~ this world, goodbye ~ Mei Zu He."

"Hell ~ Advent Chapter: Daoshan Hell ~ Advent."

The countless blades of the Sword Mountain Hell passed through my body one after another, and I was extremely painful, but my heart felt very full and relieved at this time.

If this can stop the pain in the heart, then it may be a kind of happiness to die like this.

"ねえ (na), my other personality, so are you a little satisfied?"

However, looking at me lying in a pool of blood like this, she became even angrier as a different personality.

"Satisfied? Shut up, you piece of shit! Do you think this level is enough! Do you think this level will make you forget about that man! It is because you have Him in your heart that you have to suffer this now! It's because you have him in your heart that I will be implicated with you! So at the price, I'm going to dig out your heart and wipe out all of his existence!"

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

My heart had been gouged out by another personality, lying quietly in a pool of blood, staring hollowly at the floor and the crimson blood in front of me.

"Is that pile of minced meat my heart? (I)"

"Well, yes, but did you see that? Your heart has been shattered, and it was shattered by the knives of the hell of Knife Mountain? Or was it broken by the man? I guess it was broken by that man. It is because you have Him in your heart that you miss Him, and the result of this longing makes you who you are now."

"Thank you, will you leave this world with me at the end of this life? (I)"

"Well, of course, because I'm you, and you~ are me. (smiling)"

"I'm really sorry I had to trouble you before I died, but then again, did you just laugh? You're so beautiful when you smile."

"Actually, it's not like I can't laugh, I just can't laugh. For more than 100 billion years, you have been repressed with pain and loneliness in your heart, and as time goes by, the pain in your heart has not only not dissipated, but has become heavier and more depressing. How can I laugh when I look at you who are becoming more and more desperate day by day? It's not so much that I can't laugh, it's that you can't laugh, because I'm just another personality of yours, and my emotions change with your emotions, but the direction of our emotions is different, but the only thing that is the same is smiling."

"I'm sorry I've been worrying you, but you're also hungry for happiness, right? Actually, I also longed for happiness, but ah, I didn't get it, just like Mei Zuhe, although I got him, I lost him because I got carried away."

"I don't want to get carried away, but whenever I'm happy, I will unconsciously become willful, and I also know that I shouldn't be willful, but I just can't control myself, because the backlog of pain is too heavy, so every time I laugh, I will unconsciously suddenly lose control and become willful, speaking of which, this is also Mei Zuhe's wrong, no matter how willful I am, he won't blame me, no matter how unreasonable I am, he won't hate me, His over-indulgence may be one of the reasons why I am getting more and more carried away, right? Then again, it's so warm in his arms, and I really miss that feeling."

"Shhhh Phew. (She of another personality)"

"(╬◣д◢) What do you mean by that? (I)"

"What? Do you have an opinion? Didn't you hear clearly? If you don't hear clearly, I'll do it again: Boom, boom, I did it again so that you can hear it clearly, how about I do it again three times? Why don't you get down on your knees and thank me for sending you two more times?"

"(╬◣д◢) You ......."

"Ahhh

"(╬◣д◢) Show your sister's affection! I didn't like him at all! He and I have always been close friends! Friend! Friend! Friend! Do you know the relationship between best friends? Dear friend!"

"O(≧▽≦) O I know, I understand, a close friend who likes each other but no one dares to say that they like each other, right? I know, I know, I know, both people choose to cover up their true feelings with their best friends because they are afraid of losing each other, right? Isn't that so?"

"(╬◣д◢) Isn't it your sister's this! I've said I didn't like him, no, never, and if I say anything more, be careful that I'll kill you."

"O(≧▽≦)Oいやだ(Hate it), I'm kind enough to help you say your heart, you don't thank me but want to kill me, you're really cold-blooded."

"(╬◣д◢), die! Die, you!"

"Hahahahahaha...... Don't worry about these details, we're all about to leave this world, and if we don't laugh now, we won't be able to laugh again. (She of another personality)"

Looking at her smiling again, I calmed down and smiled gradually.

"Well, yes, we're leaving this world soon, but can I ask you a question before we die?"

"Huh? What's the problem?"

"Are you ~ happy?"

After hearing my question, she was stunned as a different personality, she didn't expect me to ask her this question, so she was stunned for a moment and then smiled and slowly closed her eyes.

"Well, of course, actually, I'm very happy, and it's a blessing to be able to leave this world with a smile, isn't it?"

"Yes, then I wish us a little more happiness in the next life. (I)"

"'Goodbye, this world.'" 」

We come to this world with a cry, in this world we experience happiness, experience pain and have our own seven emotions and six desires, but we are not smart enough to learn to control our seven emotions and six desires, so we are confused by our seven emotions and six desires.

Confused, we gradually learn to be willful, selfish, greedy, jealous, arrogant, ......, and then we are controlled by these emotions and get lost, we forget that we came to this world crying, forgetting that life is not easy to come by, and we should live with a smile.

But then again, if I hadn't gotten carried away in front of Mei Zuhe, I wouldn't be like this now, right? He wanted to grab the figure because he wanted to make the house warm, and yet I did that to him, Idona, you're stupid.

A figure that represents the warmth of this home.,It seems that you didn't bring happiness to this family.,It's really stupid for me to pin the happiness of the whole family on a figure.,How can a figure bring happiness to this family? Well? Happiness? Happiness?

Wait a minute! Wait a minute! A figure that represents the warmth of this home? A figure that represents the warmth of this home? This homely figurine? A warm figure? Figure, figure ......, hahahahahaha...... Idonna, you're stupid, you're so stupid.

Thank you, on behalf of this warm home figure, thank you, I will not be confused anymore, I already know where my happiness is.

"Hey, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I can't die right now, and of course, you can't just die like that, because ah, we're not losing our happiness! Because happiness has always been around us, but we haven't found it, so whether it's me or you, we don't want to die like this, we still have so much happiness and die like this, isn't it a pity? So,"

"So please give up the idea of dying with a smile and live happily with me!!!!

"Let's live happily together!!!!!!!!!!

"Let's enjoy the happiness that belongs only to us!!!!!!!!!

Nightmare Enchantment !!!!!!!!!

"Open !!"

"Alright, then we won't be able to die for a while, this barrier will be enough for us to last six hours."

"It seems that you finally found out, since this is the case, then I can leave with peace of mind, the ontological me, you really don't let me worry! Well, by the way, before leaving, I want to tell you one thing, I hope you can live happily in the future life, maybe you will encounter fear and pain in life, you can be sad at that time, you can cry, but you can't despair, once you despair, my world will collapse, if my world collapses, you should be very clear, right? Then, "

"Farewell to my true body, I hope you don't despair anymore, the next time you despair, I will definitely come out and kill your important people and ruin the world again."

"I wish you can be happy, you can be happy, I wish ~ we don't meet again. (smiling) (another personality)"

"Can I trouble you with one thing before you leave? I don't want to lose myself anymore, so please take all my expressions and voices away, and just leave me with a smile and a hoarse voice. (I)"

"I see, then I will take all your expressions and voices and destroy them, because I don't need these superfluous expressions and voices, then, from now on, the only expression you have is a smile, and the only voice you have is hoarse."

"The main me! I'm so happy to be able to say goodbye to you with a smile! I wish you happiness!"

"We must live happily!"

"And live happily with my share!"

After that, she disappeared as a different personality, and I don't know when she will come back, and I don't want to see her again, because when I see her again, there is a good chance that the world will be destroyed again.

Thank you, Qing Shui, thank you, Mei Zuhe, thank you, me with another personality, thank you, I~ will not be confused anymore!

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

"I'm back, Ito-sama. (Clear water)"

「おかえ…… Cough...... おかえりなさい，しみず…… cough ......, (Huan...... Cough...... Welcome home, Shimizu), your ability to regenerate quickly is really ...... Cough...... It's amazing, it didn't ...... so quickly Are you alright?"

However, before I finished speaking, Qing Shui had already been stunned by me lying in a pool of blood.

"I...... Ito-sama, what's going on? What the hell is going on? Why are you hurt like this?"

"No...... Cough...... It doesn't matter Qing Shui, but it's ...... You're okay, right? It still hurts...... Does it hurt?"

"Don't talk anymore! You're hurt like this, and instead of worrying about yourself, you're worried about what I'm doing! You hold on first, and I'll take you to Kujou-sama Kotomi right now."

"Thank you so much for always giving you ...... Cough...... I'm sorry for your trouble, really...... I'm really sorry. (I)"

Then Shimizu ran to Kujo Kotomi's hospital with me in his arms, who was seriously injured.

ねえ (Na),Qing Shui,Is this in your arms? It's so warm in your arms, is this the warmth of home? Is this the happiness of home? ありがとう,本当にありがとう,しみず (Thank you, thank you very much, Shimizu), I won't be confused anymore.

I don't know how long I've been in a coma, I just know that it's afternoon when I wake up.

"Ito-sama, are you awake? Do you feel uncomfortable with anything? Would you like me to ask Kujo-sama to come and check it out for you?"

"It's okay, don't worry about me, Kotomi she's busy, I don't want to trouble her anymore."

When I thought that I had beaten Qing Shui so hard, but he still cared about me as usual, it made me feel very sorry for him in my heart, so I asked him:

"Hurt~ Does it still hurt?"

"Your voice...... Why did you become so hoarse! (Clear water)"

"My voice? Isn't my voice hoarse all the time? Don't care about my voice, just say that your wound still hurts?"

"That's not what I meant! I want to say why is your voice even hoarser than it used to be? I know! This must be Kujo's ghost, you wait a minute, I'll go find her now."

"Wait...... Cough...... Wait a minute, clear water...... Ahem......."

"You're okay, Ito-sama!"

"I...... Cough...... I'm fine, I just have a really sore throat when I want to speak loudly. And also...... Cough...... Don't go to Kotomi, this matter has nothing to do with her, and I am very happy that she is willing to save me, so I don't want to take revenge. And then there's my voice, it's not that Kotomi is like this, it's that I have abandoned my voice."

When he heard that I had abandoned the voice, Qing Shui was obviously a little overwhelmed.

"You were the one who threw away the voice??? Why are you doing that?"

"Qing Shui, can you come over first? I want to see how your injuries are."

"But Ito-sama ......."

"It's okay, my throat is sore and my body is very bad, so I don't want to talk out loud or say it a second time, so if you don't want to embarrass me, come over and have a bit."

"Okay, I see."

Although Qing Shui has the ability to regenerate quickly, there are still scars left in many places, looking at these scars, I still can't believe that I was beaten, and it is these scars that make me deeply feel that I owe Qing Shui too much, so driven by this emotion, I unconsciously touched his scars.

"Does it still hurt? I'm sorry I hurt you like this."

"It's okay, I'm fine, you don't have to worry about me Ito-sama, as long as you can take care of yourself."

"Qing Shui, I want to tell you something, Mei Zuhe, he is dead, he was killed by me."

"The young man, he ......."

"He's dead, he's been killed by my growing swelling and getting carried away, his death makes me scared, scared, I'm afraid I'll kill you the same one day, so I abandon my voice, I abandon my expression, I abandon my heart, I don't know if there's any point in doing this, I just don't want to lose anyone anymore, I ~ don't want to lose anyone anymore."

"Qing Shui, you are my only relative, I don't want to lose you again."

However, at this moment, Kujo Kotomi's voice suddenly came from outside the door, and it startled both me and Shimizu.

"おじゃまします (Excuse me), I'm coming in, Nana, Shiro's Suke."

"あら (Ahhh)! Nana, Egret no Suke, what are you two doing? Is this some new adult game?"

Kotomi Kujo, who is the director of this hospital, is 179 cm tall and looks like a young and beautiful woman around 26 years old, and of course she is not human.

Whether it's billions of years ago or now, every time I see her shameless figure, I get angry, especially the pair of sinful i size おっぱい (boobs).

"Oh? Is it? This is just a reunion of the master and the servant The master stroked the wound on the servant's face and said a few sad words, this kind of thing has become an adult game in your eyes? Has all the IQ in your brain been transferred to your Isenny?"

"Nana de, Nana de, what does Izuni mean?"

"(▼ヘ▼#) I'm sorry, I don't want to explain."

At this moment, Shimizu seemed to have discovered something, so he leaned into Kotomi's ear and seemed to whisper something.

"Kujo-sama, Kujo-sama, if I'm not mistaken, what Ito-sama said should mean おっぱい (chest), I also have some understanding of Chinese, and the word Izuni should be Chinese×× the pinyin of these two words can be read backwards."

After knowing the meaning of the word Izeni, Kotomi smiled, yes, she smiled, she smiled very kindly, very kindly, very .......

"You're really naughty, Nana, you're pretty cute, but I didn't expect you to be able to say such a nasty word, but I didn't seem to hear it clearly just now, can I trouble you to say it again?"

"Izuni Youkai! A strange-breasted woman with a mutated body!"

"あらあら (ahhhhhh Could it be that ~ Is it because your Iseni is too small and your heart is unbalanced?"

Staring~~~(▼ヘ▼#)

"Don't look at me like that, no matter how much you stare at me, your Izuni won't get bigger, your Izuni has always been just a washboard, Nana, give up, your Izuni is hopeless."

"Rub ...... Washboard only? Are you kidding? The adult version of me is F, it's F, F, F, F, not a washboard."

"Is it only F? Sorry, mine is i. Looks like you're still far away. Also, there's no way you can go back to the adult version, so keep the washboard on it!"

Looking at the proud Kotomi, I felt the urge to kill her.

"Say I'm a washboard? You're not afraid that you'll fall to your death when you walk?"

"Don't be angry, Nana, even if it's a washboard, someone will like it, don't worry too much about the fact that you're a washboard."

"Did you just say the washboard twice?"

"Well, don't be angry, I'm actually here to tell you something. Nana, congratulations, you're ready to be discharged from the hospital now."

"Oh, yes? That's great. Qing Shui, let's go, I don't want to see this weird-breasted girl."

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

After completing the discharge procedures, Kotomi sent me and Shimizu to the gate of the hospital.

"Kotomi, thank you so much, then I'm home, Shimizu, let's go."

"'Kujo-sama, thank you very much, please forgive Ito-sama for her rudeness, in fact, Ito-sama she doesn't hate you in her heart, she has always been grateful to you in her heart, but she is just embarrassed to say it, so please forgive her, please.'" 」

"'Hahaha...... It doesn't matter to Lunosuke, I've known her for so long, she's always had that temper, although she doesn't forgive people in her mouth, but she is kinder than anyone else in her heart, and it's because of her that she has us now. And she's so cute, I can't bear to hate her.'" 」

"'I see, thank you very much, then I'll take Ito-sama back, take care." 」

"'Wait, pay more attention to Nana when you go back, if this happens again, I can't guarantee that I will be able to save her next time.'" 」

"'Although I can use medicine to slowly help her get back her expression and voice, but I can't do anything about the heart for the time being, after all, there is no heart of her age in this world, and if she rashly uses a heart that is not the same era, it will only cause her body to be mutually exclusive. So I'm sorry, that's all I have to do here." 」

"'Also, she was so badly injured this time, even if I have the highest medical skills, there will probably be sequelae, if you find something wrong with her, contact me immediately.'" 」

""Well, I see, thank you very much Kujo-sama, then take care, I'll take Ito-sama back." 」

"'Well, Bye—Bye.'" 」

When I turned around, I saw that Qing Shui didn't follow, but was still chatting with the weird-breasted girl, so I walked directly to Qing Shui and kicked him.

"What are you doing stupidly? Why can't you pay it back? How long are you going to talk to this weird-breasted girl?"

"I'm really sorry Ito-sama, I've just finished talking with Kujo-sama, so let's go home."

"Well, let's go home, Shimizu."

"Nana, Segon no Suke, goodbye, stay safe on the road, I'll visit your house when I have time."

"(╬◣д◢) Visit your sister! Don't come, you weird-breasted girl!"

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

"Qing Shui, how long have I been in a coma during my time in the hospital?"

"Back to Ito-sama, you've been in a coma for six days."

"Six days, that's a long time, thank you for taking care of me, thank you very much!"

(End)

Next Episode Preview: Good morning, I'm "Kotomi Kujo", and today I'm coming to visit Nana and Shironosuke.

"Nana, Shironosuke, I'm here to visit you, hurry up and open the door, if you don't open the door, I'll slam the door."

"Is this here to visit or to rob?"

"Gee, don't open the door, do you? Then don't blame me, Dancing Moon."

"You weird-breasted girl! You idiot! What the hell are you doing? My door is expensive, you know?"

"Oh, yes? You can't blame me for that, who told you not to open the door?"

Next Episode: Blocking the Heart Just Because I Don't Want to Be Hurt Anymore and Don't Want to Be Afraid Anymore (1)