Gong Hai took a deep puff of cigarette and exhaled a thick puff of smoke, and his face was immediately shrouded in smoke and clouds, and he couldn't see clearly.

A faint voice came from the smoke: "I am a neighbor and an alumnus of your mother, she is two grades higher than me, and I have been silently following her footsteps from high school to college." However, your mother was the school flower at that time, and she was the goddess in the hearts of all the boys in the school, and the number of people chasing her was uncountable. I was short and small, inconspicuous in the crowd, and I didn't have the courage to confess to her. ”

Liu Chuanfeng sat down silently, and in his impression, his mother had never told him about her relationship with Gong Hai.

Gong Hai took another puff of cigarette and said faintly: "After graduation, I squeezed into the radio station where Wang Juan worked with all my might, and with hard work and a little talent, I mixed up a little bit in just one year, and at that time I thought that I finally had the conditions and capital to confess to Wang Juan."

But when I stood in front of Wang Juan with flowers in my hand, I saw a tall and handsome man beside her. ”

Liu Chuanfeng looked at Gong Hai, who was smoking with his head down, and thought to himself that the "tall and handsome" man he was talking about should be his father.

Gong Hai sighed, and said in a trembling voice: "When I saw Wang Juan holding that man's hand, my heart was broken. I knew I wouldn't have a chance in my life, and I'd never seen her look at a man like that. ”

Speaking of this, Gong Hai looked at the ground in a daze, as if immersed in the sadness of the past. It wasn't until the burned cigarette burned his fingers that he shook it lightly and came back to his senses.

Big B handed him another cigarette, Gong Hai took a hard puff, and continued:

"The moment I saw that scene, all my life dreams were shattered, and the next day I submitted a letter of resignation to the radio station, no matter how much the leadership tried to keep me and how my family tried to dissuade me, I still resolutely became an unemployed young man.

After lying at home for more than a month, I heard the news of Wang Juan's marriage, the night they got married, I stole two bottles of liquor from home, ran to the moat alone, and cried while drinking. “

Speaking of this, Gong Hai lowered his head in pain.

Although Big B knew that since Gong Hai was still sitting here properly, it meant that he didn't die that day, he still asked with concern, "What happened later?" ”

"Later? Then I met a girl by the river. ”

Gong Hai said with a wry smile: "It's also a mistake, that girl happened to be a dusty woman, because she was kicked out after the family knew that she was selling herself outside." That night, she also wanted to die. ”

Big B gasped, two frustrated young men and women, with wine and stories, it seemed that this night must be unusual.

Gong Hai looked ahead with a confused look: "That night, the two of us sat there, drinking wine one by one, and each of us told our hearts. ”

"I told her about my love for Wang Juan, and about the pain I felt after falling out of love. She told me about the sadness of her life. Later, we made an appointment, and after drinking these two bottles of wine, we threw ourselves into the river together. “

Big B saw that Gong Hai stopped again when he said this, and couldn't help but ask curiously: "Why did that girl commit suicide?" ”

Gong Hai was silent for a few seconds and said: "She said that she had no money at home, in order to provide for her younger brothers and sisters to study, in order to treat her elderly parents, she came out to work at the age of 18, but she still couldn't make ends meet. ”

Gong Hai said and took a deep puff of cigarette and continued: "She originally wanted to do it for two years, provide her younger siblings for college, save another sum of money, wash her hands, and go back to the countryside to find an honest man to marry, but once when she was picking up a guest, she met a distant relative. ”

Big B was stunned for a moment, and said in surprise: ", is there such a coincidence?" This relative must have persuaded her not to do it, right? ”

Gong Hai sneered lightly: "After that relative played with her, he also blackmailed her for a thousand yuan to seal her mouth." But when this bastard was drinking with others, he still confided in him, and as a result, the news spread ten, ten, hundreds, and within a few days, the news reached the ears of his parents.

When she heard that her daughter was "selling" in the city, her mother fainted on the spot.

Her father ran to the city in a fit of rage, found her place of work, and beat her up! ”

Later, when she returned to the house, she knelt at the door and begged for forgiveness from her family, but her father beat her again, threatening to cut ties with her and never allow her to set foot in the house.

Everyone looked at her with contempt, even her younger siblings, who she usually took care of, had a look of disgust when they looked at her.

The only one who is reluctant to give up on her is her mother. But in that macho family, she had no place at all. Not even qualified to say a word of intercession. ”

Gong Hai took another puff of his cigarette and said slowly:

Later, she dragged her scarred body, which was beaten by her father, and walked on the road in the village, and the villagers behind her pointed at her, and at that moment, she felt so tired and humiliated to live.