Sitting on the bed piled with dirty clothes, looking out the window at the neon lights of high-rise buildings, listening to the occasional roaring sports car engine, and then looking at the bedroom where he lives with a monthly rent of less than 10 square meters and nearly 1,000 yuan without a separate bathroom, his heart is full of self-mockery.

Every time before the early hours of the morning, when everything is quiet, I will understand the pain of life and the unwillingness of my heart beating. Once upon a time, I was also brilliant, that punch went down thousands of world coins, that foot went down tens of thousands of world coins, when every step was calculated in money, I never thought of what it looks like now.

If it weren't for that incident five years ago, maybe I would have lived a beautiful life, and I would have hated it for thousands of years, and when I turned back, I would have been a person and a person, and I was silent, and my people's hearts were already confused. Perhaps this is also the selling point promoted by "Heroes and Dauntless": people should fight for themselves, everyone is a hero in their hearts, and heroes should be fearless.

As long as there is a point of depravity, then you can only live in a world of drunkenness forever, alcohol can numb yourself, but when you wake up, you will only double the pain.

For Meng Haoran, maybe the three years in prison are the most real three years, there is no so-called deceit, because everyone can't take care of themselves; There is no so-called hypocrisy, because everyone is sympathetic, whether intentional or unintentional, and only regret is left; There is also no such thing as exploitation of oppression, because no one wants you to be bad.

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Unconsciously, in the full of memories, the East has been slightly white, this is also the time when Meng Haoran gets up every day, more precisely, for five years, every night, the first half of the night is spent in the smell of perfume, wine, manic music, and the graceful posture of women, and the second half of the night is spent in emptiness, loneliness, cold water, and endless memories. Only the glimmer of the morning and the wind on the shore of Weiyang Lake can calm the heart, and only the bowl of unchanged soybean milk and an unchanged fritter in the early morning can be regarded as real life.

Looking at those who take an early walk and practice Tai Chi, Xi'an at this moment is the thousand-year-old capital and the holy land of the world that everyone yearns for.

"Xiao Meng, there are not many young men like you now. My grandson sleeps until nine or ten o'clock every day, and he doesn't listen to anything! ”

When he was drinking soy milk, an old man who had finished playing the Tai Chi sword sat on the opposite side, ordering the same, a bowl of soy milk and a fried dough stick.

Meng Haoran looked up at Uncle Jiang, who had been with him for five years, smiled slightly, drank the soy milk in the bowl, and said: "Grandpa Jiang, that's because your grandson is happy, you don't have to worry about anything, you will all arrange it with him, and I, a foreigner, have to rely on myself for everything, so I can only be a little more demanding of myself!" If I had a grandfather like you, I would have slept later than your grandson, because there are many things I don't have to worry about, I don't have to worry about the house, I don't have to worry about the car, I don't have to worry about the ticket, and even the girlfriend doesn't have to worry about it! ”

"Xiao Meng, life is varied, now you are not a form, what we give him all is not necessarily a good thing, you have experienced everything, it is not necessarily a bad thing, at least you understand what is true, what is false, and he doesn't know at all! Don't just see the smile on the other person's lips, but also see the tears in the hearts of others! Remember the old man's words, in the future you will be grateful for everything you have experienced now, deacon, we have experienced it, and we don't want the child to go through it again! ”

"Thank you, Grandpa Jiang, in the past five years, you are also the only person who is willing to talk to me for so long, as long as the others know that I have been in prison, they will not talk about it, and you are one of the few friends I have!"

"Because I used to be like you! Well, forget it. It's time for my grandson to buy KFC, and I won't be able to buy it if I'm late. I really don't know why today's children always like this kind of foreign food, how can there be soy milk fritters and chaotic buns delicious! ”

"Grandpa Jiang, this is a trend!"

"Strange tide!"

Old Man Jiang shook his head and left, leaving Meng Haoran who was envious of someone to accompany and take care of, but how far away all this was for him now, but he used to be able to touch it with his hand.

Along the shore of Weiyang Lake, walking home, office workers began to haunt the streets, the cars, engineering vehicles, and battery cars on the Civic Avenue began to become congested, the traffic police began to perform their duties, and the insurance companies began to dispatch, and the most striking thing was that the huge advertising screen on the top floor of the Central Building actually began to play the advertisement of "Heroes and Dauntless", exquisite animation, gorgeous fights, sword energy and magic intertwined in the same time and space, arrows were resisted by huge shields, the power of healing fell from the sky, and the dead began to resurrect, With the wave of the wand, the fish in the water, the wolf on the ground, and the bird in the air appear instantly. A black shadow flashed, and the splatters of blood stained the corner of the formation red.

The opulent palaces, the majestic city walls, the shops lining the streets, and the shouts of the hawkers are endless; Boundless grasslands, dense forests, clear springs, muddy swamps。。。。。。 The picture changes between different scenes, and finally freezes on the four big characters of "Heroes and Fearless", and below the four big characters is a row of small characters: at 12 noon on December 16, the kick-off will start at the same time, the world's eight major banks will guarantee the funds, and the governments of 16 countries will jointly promise, and the world will be divided into 32 regions.

It was ten o'clock in the community, and I bought a box of instant noodles, a box of mineral water, and a box of mustard in the attached supermarket and rushed home. I rummaged through all my pockets and found six hundred oceans, plus three hundred on the mobile phone bank card, a total of nine hundred, and the rent required 1,200 yuan, according to the landlord's stinginess, it is impossible to miss a word, if the landlord knows the words on the wall in the room, the rent will definitely have to be increased.

Looking at Meng Haoran's embarrassed smile, Xiao Lori covered her mouth and grinned, "I said that Meng Da Poet wouldn't be unable to come up with money, right?" Why don't you write me a poem, and if I'm satisfied, I can tell my mommy to let you pay it a month later, do you think that's okay? Meng Haoran is a great poet! ”

"Oh hey, I said auntie, can you stop teasing me and write poems for you, it's been two years, others don't know you Miss Lu, don't you know, my name is just a false appearance, don't say write poems, I don't even know the format of poems, how can I write them for you?" Meng Haoran is helpless and depressed, writing poetry is impossible for him, although his name is Meng Haoran, but he doesn't know anything about ancient poetry; It is even more impossible to pay money, because there is no money at all, and the only way is to default, give full play to the spirit of the old lai, delay a day is a day, and delay a week is even more enjoyable.

Meng Haoran licked his face and said embarrassedly: "This, Miss Lu, can you be accommodating for a few days, and after a few days, the rent will be guaranteed, what do you think?" ”

Miss Lu pretended to be angry, then chuckled again, and said: "Since Poet Meng said so, how can I be unreasonable, but it's only a few days, otherwise my mommy will be angry, if my mommy is angry, then there is nothing I can do!" If there is nothing else to do, I'll go back first! ---Oh, by the way, does the great poet play games? ”

"Don't play!" Meng Haoran said bluntly.

"Alright! If you can play the game, you can come to me, and I will cover you when the time comes! Miss Lu sang a little song and jumped away.

"This little girl is getting more and more interesting! However, this figure is really drooling, this face is really unforgettable, compared to those vulgar fans in the bar, the people who scratch their heads and pose are much fresher and refined. Between muttering to himself, Meng Haoran opened his door to welcome the unknown world that belongs to him, and from today onwards, he will also start a new life, a kind of serious life that is completely different from the previous one in Meng Haoran's opinion, and in the eyes of others, it is not as good as working in a bar.