"Okay, relax, try to relax, look at the pendulum dangling in front of you, focus on it, let go of your whole body, and don't think about anything. ”

"Yes, it's like a state of sleep, you feel a little sleepy, you want to get a good night's sleep, you ...... in your sleep"

Xia Xin leaned back on the sofa quietly, only seeing the pendulum swinging back and forth in front of him, and his brain became more and more confused.

The hypnotist's voice seemed to be close to his ears, and it seemed to come from the distant sky, confused, and gradually inaudible.

And with the hypnotist's words, he also slowly immersed himself in the ocean of deep memories, picking up the fragments of the past memories little by little.

That was a long, long time ago.

That was when Xia Xin was still very young.

He had a younger sister.

7,8-year-old Xia Xin, every day happily pull his 2,3-year-old sister to play, feed his sister something to eat, the two sit together in the living room to play with building blocks, play with toy cars, the two eat together, eat a mouth full of oil, and then babble words that only children understand.

It was a very happy time.

Because, he is not lonely, he is not lonely, someone has to play with him.

He would run around with his sister in his arms, jumping and jumping, stuffing something delicious into her little mouth, and he felt happy......

……

……

Then, another fragment of memory awoke.

After one day, my sister became weak.

His face became more and more pale, and his body became weaker and weaker.

And the faces of the parents are getting more and more ugly.

At that time, the beautiful and gentle mother in my memory, although she was smiling on the surface, always faced herself and her sister with the most beautiful smile, as if she wanted to infect the two of them with a smile.

However, Xiao Xia Xin can always find that her mother is hiding quietly and secretly crying.

The sad crying face of his mother, Xia Xin will never forget.

Finally, my sister collapsed and was hospitalized, so weak that she couldn't even speak.

Xia Xin went to visit his sick sister every day, as long as he was out of school, as long as he was free, he would go to visit his sister, tell her stories to her sister, tell her interesting things in school, who fought with whom, who kissed whom, who was stupid, and would not answer such simple questions, who she liked, and who she felt was particularly good-looking.

And Xia Ye is always lying so quietly, blinking her dark and clear eyes, quietly looking at Xia Xin's face, occasionally showing a shallow smile, her mouth is always hung with an oxygen mask, and she even struggles to speak.

Little Xia Xin carried a small schoolbag, every day, no matter the wind, rain, thunder, lightning, he would come to visit his sister, sing to his sister, tell stories to his sister, and tell his sister something interesting.

Because, if you are alone in the hospital, it will be boring.

I could vaguely hear the soft muttering of the nurse behind the door, "Here we go again." ”

"This little boy is really rain or shine, and he doesn't forget to come over to see his sister every day."

"Alas, it's a shame to be so cute......"

Then, one day, my sister was finally discharged from the hospital.

It's obviously a very happy thing, it's obviously a happy day, but whether it's a nurse, a doctor, or a mom or dad, they all show a sad and sad expression.

On the contrary, Xiao Xiaxin happily held his sister's hand, and the smile on the corner of his mouth never stopped.

Because my sister has finally been discharged from the hospital, I can play with my sister again.

It's just that the mother's expression became more and more sad.

Then, a few days later, my sister disappeared again.

Father and mother took Xiao Xia Xin to the cemetery, stood in front of the grave, and did not speak for a long time.

The cold rain hit Xia Xin's pink little face, making him feel a little chilly, and then looking at the expressions of his father and mother, it seemed to be covered with a layer of haze, just like this gray sky, which couldn't really be seen.

The sun was shrouded in dark clouds, and the sky was dark.

Xia Xin just looked at the tombstone with a blank face.

He didn't understand what was going on.

Then, when it came time to eat at home, there were only 3 people left.

Xia Xin blinked her innocent eyes and asked, "Mom, what about my sister, isn't my sister back, why doesn't she come out to eat?" ”

Xia Xuexian looked at Xia Xin's innocent and clear eyes, and felt a pain in her heart, as if her whole heart was broken, but she laughed with a sad expression and said, "My sister is asleep." ”

She hopes that she can pass on her smile to her son, so that he will always be innocent and happy.

Then Xia Xin thought about it, put down the chopsticks, and said with a smile, "Then I'll wait for her, and when she wakes up, I'll eat with her, so that she won't be lonely anymore." ”

Xia Xuexian's eyes trembled, she couldn't help it anymore this time, she covered her face and turned around, her shoulders shrugged slightly, and her tears of sadness couldn't stop flowing down.

"Mom, what's wrong with you?"

Xia Xin didn't understand why his mother cried so well.

"I, it's okay, I'm fine, I'm choking on eating."

Xia Xuexian choked up and replied.

Xia Xin didn't think much about it, and replied in a milky voice, "Ah, Mom, you are so stupid, of course you have to eat slowly." ”

"Yes, Mom...... Too stupid...... Finish. ”

At the end, Xia Xuexian couldn't cry.

Xia Xin just sat on the stool, swaying his little feet, looking at the door of his sister's room, he wanted to wait for his sister to wake up and eat happily together, he had a lot of things to tell his sister.

I thought that my sister would be very happy when she heard it.

He also has a secret place, so he won't tell anyone about it, he only takes his sister over to play.

It's a secret space that only belongs to the two of them, and only he and his sister can go.

A meal passed in silence!

Xia Xuexian only ate two bites, and she couldn't eat anymore.

Xia Jianxing didn't speak from beginning to end, and there was no expression on his handsome face, and he was eating by himself.

After eating, he went into the study by himself.

Didn't say anything.

It wasn't until he came out of the study an hour later that he found that Xia Xin was still sitting at the dining table, sitting there patiently, looking left and right, supporting the stool with both hands, swaying his legs gently, occasionally looking at the room of the summer night, waiting for the summer night to come out.

Xia Jianxing's expression was painful at first, and he closed his eyes, but immediately raised his eyebrows, walked over quickly, straightened his face, and stared at Xia Xindao with a stern gaze, "Eat!" ”

Xia Xin was a little afraid of his father's stern gaze, shrunk his head, and said in a weak voice, "It's getting dark, my sister should be waking up soon, I want to wait for her to eat together." ”

Although he was also hungry, he wanted to eat with his sister.

Xia Jianxing said irrefutably, "I told you to eat, you don't have to wait for her." ”

"I ......" Xia Xin was interrupted by Xia Jianxing before he could finish speaking.

Xia Jianxing made a majestic appearance, slapped the table angrily, made a loud "pop" sound, and said sternly, "Eat!" ”

It was an absolute, ruthless appearance that did not allow Xia Xin to argue.

Xia Xin was really a little scared, so he could only silently pick up the bowl and eat.

He felt that his sister had slept for a long time, it was dark, why hadn't he gotten up to eat, and he had a lot to say to her......

……

……

Then another fragment of memory appeared.

As soon as Xia Xin came back from school, he wanted to see Xia Ye, but the door couldn't be opened.

He ran to the kitchen, pulled his mother's clothes and asked.

"Mom, Mom, why is the door locked in the room every night, I can't get in."

Xia Xuexian tried her best to reply calmly, "Night and night, she fell asleep, and she didn't want anyone to disturb him, Xiaoxin, play by yourself, don't disturb my sister's sleep." ”

"Yes."

Xia Xin nodded obediently.

When Xia Xuexian came out of the kitchen, she found that Xia Xin was sitting at the door of the room on a summer night, playing with building blocks and riding a small train, playing with trains and planes for a while.

"Why, sit on the floor and play, go back to your room."

"In this way, when you wake up every night, you can play with me, woo - the train flew over and pulled, yes, yes, this is the fragrant pearl I bought for Ye Ye, many colors, and fragrant, Mom, do you look good."

"Good...... Pretty. ”

Xia Xuexian's vision was blurred, but she didn't see what Xia Xin took out clearly at all, nodded and said, "Xiao...... Xiaoxin, don't sit there all the time, come over and help mom set the dishes and chopsticks. ”

"Okay."

Xia Xin quickly ran over to help.

However, "Xiaoxin, why do you put 4 bowls?" ”

"Why? Because it's not four people," Xia Xin counted with his fingers, "Dad, Mom, me, and my sister are four people." ”

“…… Yes," Xia Xuexian suddenly felt blood dripping from her heart, but she smiled softly on her face, "It's four people, but my sister is asleep, don't disturb her, let her sleep well, it's enough to put 3 of them, and when she wakes up, you can help her serve dinner." ”

"Okay, I'll do it, I'll serve the meal, I will, I can help serve the meal every night, and I'll feed her, I've done it."

Xia Xin nodded happily.

"Yes, Xiaoxin...... The most well-behaved. ”

The sad smile froze on the mother's face......