Another page: "July 1, 1997 Today is the day of Hong Kong's return to the embrace of the motherland, I am running abroad for the competition again, the night here is too quiet, Xiao Lin, I think of you again." It's a time of little togetherness and a lot of separation, and I'm plagued by injuries. Hearing your encouragement and concern on the phone, my injuries seem to be healed by half. It's good to have you in my life, but I have so much guilt in my heart! ”

Turn a few more pages: "October 14, 1998, today is the day of the birth of the child, I have asked the team for leave to come back to see you and our child, but the plane was delayed, I actually did not catch the birth of the child. I really shouldn't be, although my parents didn't blame me, but I couldn't forgive myself, fortunately, my mother and son were safe. My son's name is Li Xin, just like I told you at the beginning, a name that our family likes. Wife, you have worked hard, I am a father! ”

"On August 27, 1999, Xiao Lin called today to say that Xin'er called 'Mom' for the first time, although it was a little late, but it still surprised me."

"On January 1, 2000, I was in Beijing listening to the bells of the new century, and you were in Shanghai. I did the math, I went home three times last year, with an average of 3 days each time, and I only had less than 10 days of company a year. As a husband, I was a failure. I've also been debating over and over again whether I should end my career and go back to you. I think it's time to make a decision today! ”

"On January 20, 2000, today I officially submitted an application for retirement from the team, starting from the age of 11 to enter the junior sports school, 19 years of basketball career has come to an end, how fascinating this field is, it carries too many memories and hopes, today I finally want to say goodbye, to be honest, I was really reluctant, I cried the moment I came out of the stadium. This is my whole youth. But I can finally stay with Xiao Lin and Xiao Xin all the time, this is not another kind of perfect happiness! ”

"On February 12, 2000, just after the Spring Festival holiday, the general manager of a Shanghai Puwei Basketball Club called me and said that he wanted me to be the assistant coach of the team, with a salary of 180,000 yuan a year. Working in Shanghai, I don't have to be separated from my wife and children, I think it's good, I can consider agreeing. ”

"On November 25, 2000, the head coach of the Puwei basketball team was fired today because the team suffered five consecutive defeats at the beginning of the season, and the team nominated me as the head coach, and the assistant coach contract was invalidated with immediate effect, and the head coach contract was re-signed with an annual salary of 500,000 yuan. This is good news, try to save money for Xiaoxin's milk powder. ”

"On January 24, 2001, Xin'er walked alone from the bedroom to the door today and walked back again. Holding a small basketball and holding a copy of the NBA pictorial to see it fascinating, he will definitely be an excellent basketball player in the future! I'm convinced! ”

"On March 23, 2001, today is a happy day, the Guardie basketball team has successfully qualified for the first division team with a record of 30 wins and 8 losses, and it is really exciting to see us in the CBA next year. At the same time, Xiao Xin put his first ball since birth on the toy basketball hoop, and he smiled so brightly after the goal, my son must be a superstar in the future. ”

"On April 16, 2001, the situation changed again today, and the general manager of the Shanghai Sharks came to me and said that he admired my coaching ability and coaching philosophy after seeing my outstanding achievements at Puwei Club, and hoped that I could be the head coach of the Shanghai Sharks Youth Team. But I still have a contract with Puwei FC and they said they talked to them and paid me a penalty so that I could coach with peace of mind. The annual salary is 850,000 a year. ”

"On April 28, 2001, the general manager of the Shanghai Sharks was too sincere, and I agreed with their idea. So he decided to be the head coach of the Sharks youth team. ”

"Today, 13 July 2001, is an exciting day. When Samaranch spoke out about Beijing, I, like many Chinese people, burst into tears, and our country was really rich and strong. And I can finally hold your hand and watch the Olympics on our own soil. ”

"On October 21, 2002, today is another day to celebrate, the Shanghai Sharks Youth Team won the National Under-19 Youth Basketball Championship. I think I'm enjoying the position as head coach, he's bringing my understanding of basketball over the years to life, and if that's the philosophy, it's the biggest recognition of what I'm doing. I hope to continue to work hard in the coming year. ”

"On September 27, 2003, my eldest brother Li Xiaoyun told me that he actually had a son in Taiwan, and his mother recently brought his son to Hangzhou to look for relatives. This came as a surprise to him. It turned out that 8 years ago, when his club went to Taiwan to exchange games, he fell in love with a female fan at first sight, and within a few days of a short stay in Taiwan, they fell in love and couldn't extricate themselves. At that time, there was no mobile phone, and after returning to China, there was no contact information, and I was involved in the rush of the game, and I didn't think much about it. It wasn't until later that he went to Taiwan once to look for her, but came back with nothing. And today, a few years later, relying on the social network of the Internet, the female fan of the year actually found the eldest brother, and at this time the brother is already married, by the way, the female fan's name is Li Yizhi, all of them are from the old Li family, and the child is of course surnamed Li, called Li Renhao. I don't know how he should deal with this, but since it is his own flesh and blood, he should admit it. You can't let your child be left without a father. And Xiao Xin has an extra cousin. ”

On October 1, 2003, the eldest brother and Li Yizhi recognized each other, and the child also found his father. But he hasn't explained the matter to his wife, he called me to discuss, I think I should be honest about this matter directly, after all, it was all in the past, and my sister-in-law should be able to understand. What's more, father and son both recognize each other. It's a day of great joy for all. ”

"On May 15, 2006, the Chinese Basketball Association actually called me today and said that they wanted me to be the head coach of the Chinese national youth team under the age of 19, and I was really flattered. If this is the case, I will leave home again and go to Beijing, and the days with Xiaolin and Xiaoxin will be greatly reduced. But the annual salary of 1.2 million a year is also very attractive. Prices in Shanghai are so expensive, I just bought a new house this year and spent a lot of money, after all, there are too many places to use money in the future. ”

"On May 20, 2006, the Chinese Basketball Association promised to provide me with a three-bedroom and two-hall residence in Beijing for free, so that I could reunite with my wife and children to live, which relieved my worries.

"On May 21, 2006, Xiao Lin agreed to go to Beijing to live together and support my career, after all, I am still young. I'm so glad that I don't have to be separated from them to realize the value of my career. ”

"On June 29, 2007, Xiao Lin had a non-stop cough for several nights, and every day it got worse and made me feel uneasy. I'll take you to the hospital tomorrow for a check-up. ”

"On June 30, 2007, the sudden bad news almost broke me. Tuberculosis is in the advanced stage! There are only a few years of stable life, and it brings such a nightmare! is so kind and virtuous as you, how can God be willing to inflict such a disease on you. The child is still so young, looking at your painful expression, I really wish I was the one who got this disease! I hurt you, I shouldn't have brought you to Beijing, it aggravated your respiratory disease, it will lead to such a result, it's really frustrating. ”

"On July 2, 2007, the attending doctor told me that the risk of surgical treatment has a 40% chance of success, and if it is not successful, it may aggravate the patient's condition and lead to a more dangerous situation. Conservative therapy, controlled with drugs, but I am afraid it is not a long-term solution, and the cost is staggering, it can only be said that one more day of control is a day. I was deeply entangled. ”

"On July 3, 2007, after a night of much thought, I decided to use medication for control, I can't take this risk, the risk of losing you. One more day of life, one more hope, and perhaps the near future will usher in the dawn. ”

"On July 10, 2007, I submitted my resignation to the Basketball Association, but it was rejected by the Basketball Association on the grounds that the World Youth Championship was about to be held, and if I resigned at this time, then the previous more than a year of hard work would be in vain, and they would not have a suitable replacement for me. Second, the two-year contract only started in the second year, and I was going to have to pay a huge amount of liquidated damages when I resigned. I think I can only send Xiao Lin back to Shanghai for the time being, and I will live a life of separation from mother and son, which is really terrible. ”

"On October 8, 2007, three months of medication cost more than I could have imagined. The income of our generation of players is not very high, how can it compare with the current professional players. In addition, buying a house, buying a car, and lending it to my brother, the baby is still young, and there is little savings left, and the next situation is not optimistic. ”

"On October 20, 2007, the leaders of the Basketball Association knew about my family's situation, advanced half a year's salary, and solved the urgent need, but Xiao Lin's condition is still not optimistic, and I am really on pins and needles when I see that the World Youth Championships will start next month."

"On November 18, 2007, the children of the national youth team were very competitive, all the way through, and worked hard to reach the semi-finals. This is the best result ever, and Xiao Xin will be so good in the future, it will definitely be like this. This can be regarded as the greatest comfort to me these days, and then the leader will give me a few days off, and I can go back to Shanghai to see Xiao Lin and Xiao Xin, I miss you so much. ”

"On November 20, 2007, when I returned home today, Xiao Xin didn't recognize me and refused to call me dad. I feel very sad, my parents are busy taking care of Xiao Lin, Xiao Xin is left out in the cold, he is not yet 10 years old, he is often left alone at home, I think he is a little autistic. It's all my fault, how can I make you happy again, or take you to the playground to play? Xiaolin's illness has improved, she can get up to eat and take medicine normally, and she can chat with her parents. Don't write it, it's time for me to take Xiao Xin to see his mother. ”