On February 27, 2008, Xiao Lin's condition began to deteriorate, coughing very badly every night, with a high fever and began to talk nonsense. My heart is like a knife, I am ruthless about my own incompetence, and I am helpless at this time. Heartache can be clearly felt palpitations. God, let me suffer this on her behalf, why should she, a weak woman, let him suffer such a punishment. Oh, my God~! Have mercy on her and get her well soon. ”

"On March 2, 2008, Xiao Xin had no one to take care of her at home today, so she ran out alone and fought with other children. When my parents complained to me, I was annoyed, but I never felt that annoyed. I was emotional and slapped Xiao Xin, but he didn't cry, but glared at me viciously, and kept staring at me for more than ten seconds. Then he went back to his room alone and locked the door tightly. When I knocked on the door, he wouldn't open it, and he wouldn't come out to eat, and I knew he hated me in his heart. I was at fault, I really shouldn't have hit the child. I couldn't just call my mom until she came and put him to sleep before I could go to the hospital. Xiao Lin still coughed non-stop, and the fever temperature was high again, I was really afraid that she wouldn't be able to hold on. The doctor also said that the situation was not optimistic, and my mood was almost broken. I want to vent something, but I can't cry anymore! Xiao Lin, I empathize with your pain! You've got to stick with it. ”

"On March 7, 2008, today Xiao Lin entered a coma under a persistent high fever and was directly sent to the ICU ward for observation, I am really afraid that he will not survive tonight. The child is still so young, I don't even know how to deal with it! ”

"On March 10, 2008, at 11:45 a.m. yesterday, Xiao Lin still didn't hold on and left! My heart was in turmoil, I wanted to cry all day without tears, I was discouraged, I was grief-stricken, I didn't think about tea and dinner, I came back from the hospital at night, and I stayed in bed all the time, and until now I can try to hold the pen and record all this. But for the sake of Xiaoxin, I have to be strong. Xiao Lin, I will definitely grow up Xiao Xin healthily, I swear to you. You are in the spirit of heaven, you must bless Xin'er~! ”

"On March 13, 2008, the day before yesterday, Xiao Xin and I hugged each other and cried all night, until 5 o'clock in the morning, when he was tired and fell asleep. The child is so sinful and so sensible. I haven't closed my eyes for three days and three nights, and yesterday during the day, the members of the team, Urawie and the disciples of the Shark Club also came to see me and comfort me. It wasn't until today that my mood improved a little, and I always looked like you in front of me, Xiao Lin. I'm here, you're there, the long parting separates us, but I can't separate my thoughts about you, I can only endure the pain of yin and yang in this way. I am unfortunate to lose you; But I am lucky to have met you in this life and fall in love with you deeply. I want to shake your hand again and help you keep warm; I want to kiss your face again, there is always a special fragrance on your body; I would like to pour you a basin of foot-washing water and help you rub your tired legs; I want to make you some delicious food, steamed crab meat powder, braised spring bamboo shoots in oil, Dongpo meat; I want to take your hand again and go out for a walk to see the great rivers and mountains of the motherland; I want to accompany you to the supermarket and buy things; I would love to go to the movies and plays with you again; Do you remember when we first met, you came to the team to see me, and waited for me until the end of training, often after eight o'clock, and then I pushed the bicycle, you sat in the back and rode you back, and we walked and rode all the way, talking and laughing, so unhappy. My jersey is torn, my socks are torn, and you are the ones who help me fix it. No matter where you are, in fact, I know that you will always be in my heart, I will never leave early, and I will never be late, I just want to have you in my heart, and still love you as before, and the term of office is a lifetime! ”

After reading this, Li Xin was apprehensive, and tears flowed down his cheeks unconsciously. For the first time, he felt that his father loved his mother so much, and he tried to balance his career and family, and he worked hard for his mother's illness and his own growth, and he had been wrong for all the years.

Li Xin was still immersed in the apprehensive emotions brought by his father's diary, and the sound of the door opening came from the door. Li Xin immediately put away the diary, put it on the small bookshelf, and hurriedly came out of his father's bedroom, but was still bumped into by his father.

"Li Xin, why are you in my room?" Father asked.

"No, it's nothing, I saw that the door wasn't closed, so I went in to see that there was some mess inside, so I tidied up a little." Li Xin lowered his head, not daring to look at his father, he didn't want him to see his ruddy eyes.

"Xin, why are your eyes so red, are you crying?" But his father still keenly noticed Li Xin's strangeness.

"No, no! Don't talk nonsense, how can I cry as a man. I just didn't sleep well last night! ”

"No, no, don't lie to Dad, Dad has eaten more salt than you have ever eaten, can you hide this from me? What the hell is going on, tell Dad. ”

Li Xin paused for a moment, thinking that since his father knew about it, his conscience was also condemned a little, and he felt guilty for not understanding his father's behavior before. I just opened up with my father and talked about it from the bottom of my heart.

"Dad! I'm sorry, I went to your room and saw your diary on the shelf, so I opened it and looked at it...."

"You~!" The father seemed to be angry, but finally said with relief: "Well, since you know all about it, and you are also an adult, there are some things that you should know." ”

"Dad! For so many years, it has been so difficult for you, and you have been a father and a mother to pull me up, but I don't understand you so much, lose my temper with you, and ignore you! You don't blame me, I really shouldn't have it. ”

"Silly boy, don't say that, what father would blame his own child?"

"Dad! I know everything about my mom's illness! It's not easy for you~! ”

Li Xin said and stepped forward and hugged his father, hugging each other tightly, in the past 8 years, his father has been a father and a mother to pull him up, saying nothing is enough to express his feelings, only answer with a tight hug.

The father gently stroked Li Xin's head, tears came out of his eyes, and he whispered: "Xin, you have grown up, you have really grown up!" You've also become an amazing basketball player, you've entered a nationally renowned university, and your mother's heavenly spirit can rest in peace! She'll be happy to see you like this. It's sure to be a charming smile, do you remember your mother's smile? ”

Li Xin choked and nodded: "Remember, of course I remember." Mom, she is very beautiful, down-to-earth and generous, and her smile is particularly moving. ”

"yes, she's beautiful, beautiful!" Li Xiaolong stroked Li Xin's head, and at the same time remembered his wife's voice and smile.

Two days later, it was the Qingming Festival, and Li Xiaolong took Li Xin to Zou Lin's tomb. Li Xin held a large bouquet of flowers and placed it in front of his mother's tombstone, and burned a large handful of paper money, chanting while burning: "Mom! I'm good now, I've played the main team in the team, and by the way, I'm a freshman at SJTU now. However, this year's CUBA national tournament did not play well, and our team was eliminated in the round of 16, and the college league is really different from the high school league, and I am still a newcomer in college. They have a lot of experience in the team, and I still have a lot to learn, so I will definitely work hard. Next year, we will challenge for the CUBA championship. ”

Li Xiaolong said to Li Xin: "Li Xin, I'll get out of the car and get some food, you can talk to your mother here." ”

Li Xin turned his head and said, "Okay, Dad, you go!" I'll talk to my mom alone for a while. ”

Li Xiaolong turned around and walked towards the car, Li Xin turned around and continued: "Mom! I like a girl now, her name is Xiaoxue. She's pretty good-looking, but she's not very pretty. But it's just very comfortable to watch, like the feeling of looking at you when you were a kid. I felt natural and comfortable with her. But she looks good when she smiles, and I often think of you when I look at her smile. Her voice was beautiful, gently and softly like the voice of a hostess named Yiwen who I liked on the radio.

Mom, do you know how it feels? You used to take care of me, but now that I'm older, I feel like I can take care of her. I think she likes me a lot, too, but neither of us ever said that we used to be tight in high school and tight in competition. I'm not allowed to fall in love, and now that I'm in college, I want to confess to her. How do you say it's better to express it? Wouldn't it be too old-fashioned to send flowers, I don't know who to ask about this. You know what? ”

Li Xiaolong came back, took some food, and bowed deeply to the tombstone three times. said: "Xiao Lin, this is the vinegar fish of West Lake that you like to eat, as well as Dongpo meat, as well as braised spring bamboo shoots and fish soup." There must be nothing to eat there, you have a good meal today, and you will tell me what you want to eat in the future. I'm empty now, my son is in college, and he's working. The family is not short of money, the economic conditions have improved a lot, and a house has been selected, which will be handed over next year for the son's future wedding house. And the car has also been changed, and I have time to make you something to eat! You'll be able to rest assured."

After finishing the dishes, Li Xiaolong pulled up Li Xin, and the father and son bowed deeply three times, put their hands on their son's shoulders and said, "Your mother must be very happy today, she has eaten and drunk well, and her son is still so promising." Let's go back! ”

Li Xin nodded, knelt in front of the tombstone before leaving, and kowtowed deeply. Said earnestly: "Mom, don't worry, I'm an adult, I'm no longer the shy boy I used to be, I'm a man in charge now!" ”

After saying that, he got up and turned around with his father and walked towards the car.

That night, Li Xin had a dream in which his mother, Zou Lin, walked towards him with a little girl in her hands. Walked up to him and said to him: Li Xin, this girl, you have to take good care of her like your own eyes. That way mom will be happy. After speaking, he turned around and left, Li Xin was about to chase after him, although he ran hard, but he couldn't catch up with his mother's figure moving slowly, and could only watch his mother's figure get farther and farther away, until he couldn't see it at all. When she came back, she saw that the girl was holding a white dove in her hand, Li Xin came to her, she squinted and laughed, and put the white dove in her hand, and the white dove flew in the direction of her mother, and disappeared after a while. Then the girl said, "Let's go!" Stretching out his hand, Li Xin took her hand and walked back together......