It was a hellish day for Su Xiaohan. sue

Shocked by the middle of the road, or ,...... Bankrupt, all the money is gone, and the little money left is simply not enough for him to squander, and it will be gone in a few clicks.

If you don't have money, you can only borrow. correct

Moreover, he didn't even have relatives who could borrow, and he couldn't find anyone to escape, so he instigated Shixia to borrow it.

Yu Shixia didn't have any opinions, and was strongly requested by Su Jingyuan, so she could only comply. from

One relative borrowed from another relative, but the little money borrowed was enough to support the pampered Su Jingyuan and squandered it.

After squandering, Su Jingyuan asked Yu Shixia to continue to borrow, beat her if she didn't borrow, and beat her if she couldn't borrow, her temper became more and more irritable, she beat her with punches, kicked with her feet, and pumped with bamboo. that

At that time, in the eyes of little Su Xiaohan, every day was a scene where the father beat the mother and the mother cried desperately. sue

Jingyuan ended the life of a rich child and turned into a grumpy father, and Yu Shixia also ended the days of a rich young grandmother who lived a comfortable life although her relationship was empty, and became a pitiful punching bag.

Every day is either beaten, scolded, and abused at night......

Su Xiaohan's ears were filled with his father's roars, cursing, his mother's begging for mercy, crying, and weak gentry moans every day.

At that time, Su Xiaohan was just a little girl, she would only hide far away in fear, hide in the corner of her room alone, hug her knees and cry in fear, or shrink in the quilt, curl up in a ball, crying like a shrimp. place

She said that she had long been accustomed to crying silently alone, and it would be fine after crying. father

The violent abuse of her mother also left a deep wound in her heart, making her afraid of contacting people, afraid of talking to people, and even more afraid of ...... Man!

In the end, all the relatives borrowed it, but they couldn't borrow it, it was useless to fight, and the mother couldn't borrow money, and then in addition to the beating and scolding that intensified every day, the father could only look for a job. cause

If you don't work anymore, you can't live, you don't have money, and you can't even afford to eat. correct

And he's not a person who can work with peace of mind. root

He is an idle rich boy, who eats, drinks and has fun with a few fox friends every day, where will he work, he basically has no job that can last for 2 months, and he can't stand the hard work of a month for three or five thousand yuan, which is just his previous day's expenses.

He couldn't find a woman anymore, so he could only vent with his mother.

or scolding, or scolding, or other ...... honest

Cheap alcohol, which is easy to buy drunk, and cheap cigarettes have become his favorites. mother

My relatives live hellish days every day, washing their faces with tears every day, while Su Xiaohan is witnessing hell every day, which is fatal to a child's heart. while

Of course, she is often scolded and beaten, as long as her father yells, she will shrink in the corner and tremble, but her mother will protect her, and her mother, who is assertive in everything, is very firm in protecting her, which is probably the only thing that Su Xiaohan is thankful for. most

Later, Su Jingyuan changed too many jobs, and no one wanted him anymore, so he could only let Yu Shixia continue to be cheeky and go to her relatives to help Su Jingyuan ask for a job, but Su Jingyuan was too lazy to do it and still couldn't change it, and he also stole and sold relatives' goods, resulting in no relative being able to stand him, and he didn't lose much. while

Shi Su Xiaohan goes through hell every day, but she has to endure the white eyes and disgust of her relatives, her world is gray, her sky has no sunshine, and she even has social phobia, afraid of contact with anyone.

The children of relatives would laugh at her father for being a waste, not only owing them money, but also a thief, stealing their things, and laughing at her mother for being useless and disgraceful, looking for someone to borrow money everywhere, and in the end, laughing at her by the way.

As a result, Su Xiaohan has always been afraid of contact with anyone and afraid to talk to anyone. she

Afraid of being disliked, abandoned, afraid of being isolated by the children of relatives, she will always be left alone without firecrackers, leaving her without noodles to eat, no sugar to eat, others will directly rob him of things, adults will despise her, and everyone's eyes hide shame.

Su Xiaohan's life is without any light.

It was in such a dark day, when the family was about to survive, that Yu Shixia was forced to support the family's life, to do handymen, to do odd jobs, and subsidize the family.

Otherwise, the family can't even afford to eat.

Only when she is forced into a desperate situation will she know that human potential is unlimited, and she will not know anything, she is forced to learn to sew, learn to assemble parts, and learn to cut clothes.

And Su Jingyuan was addicted to drinking, smoking, stealing, and then ...... Gambling, taking the living money earned by Yu Shixia, every day he said that he could turn over the book, and was taken over by a friend to gamble. but

Every time I lose my money.

It also includes Su Xiaohan's textbook money. family

It has become a state of Yu Shixia making money and Su Jingyuan being idle. also

At this time, Su Jingyuan began to be kind to Shixia, because no one paid attention to him anymore, he could only take money from Yu Shixia, so he needed Yu Shixia to work hard for him, make money for him, and squander it for him.

There are fewer quarrels at home, and there are basically quarrels, which is also to let Su Jingyuan stop gambling and live a good life. while

However, Su Jingyuan has never changed. he

Usually he will be kind to Shixia, and he will only get wild when he is drunk, but even so, this makes Yu Shixia, who is obedient, feel much better, at least Su Jingyuan usually treats her much better, will please her and care about her.

Though...... Su Xiaohan knew that it was actually all about money.

Dad doesn't love Mom, and Mom doesn't love Daddy. father

Dad is for money, mom is for life. No

！

That's not called life! that

It can only be called alive! sue

Xiaohan lives in such a hell, her father won't care about him, her mother will take care of her, but her mother is already too busy to take care of herself, tired of working every day, and working hard for Su Jingyuan as a cow and a horse.

The situation at home is slightly better, probably because Yu Shixia dominates the family's economy, so Su Jingyuan is not as presumptuous as in the past. sue

Xiaohan's family life is a little better. correct

Externally, it's still the same. sue

Xiaohan remembers most clearly that one year, when she went to her grandmother's house for Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, everyone was sitting, only their family was standing, because a child of an uncle's family quarreled and did not want to sit on someone's lap, saying that she wanted to sit on a stool, and directly squeezed out her parents, and her parents' status was not as good as a 5-year-old child, and the 5-year-old child sat in her parents' two positions alone.

Mom and Dad owe money to each other's family, so they can only smile and say that it doesn't matter if they stand down. big

The family hated their house, and no one spoke up for them. this

It is the social status of her family, and it is also her social status.

Su Xiaohan clearly felt the contempt of her family, as well as the low status of her family, and she had to pay for her smile when she was disliked.

Therefore, she wants to make money and give her parents a good life. composed

The appearance of Yu's parents, due to the dislike of relatives, because of the despisis, disdain, and abandonment of others, due to family reasons, all kinds of reasons add up, resulting in Su Xiaohan no longer being able to contact the outside world and communicate with people normally.

She was afraid, afraid of being disliked, abandoned, leaving her alone, afraid of her own abruptness, afraid that only she would not be able to share her grandmother's sugar...... again

Coupled with her mother's conscientious and honest appearance, she also infected her, causing her character to become like this.

After elementary school, when she reached junior high school, she was a little better. she

Trying to echo the masses, echo her classmates, and echo what everyone said, she didn't want to be a heretic again.

Even so, she is like a mimosa, shrinking into a ball when touched.

It's impossible to talk to girls who can barely talk, but boys are completely impossible. cause

For her father's previous figure has been firmly imprinted in her heart, transformed into a demon in her heart, lingering, her mother repeatedly told her that men are beasts, they are evil ghosts, you must beware, you can't get too close to men, you will be eaten if you are not careful.

You must study hard to get ahead, and you must not follow her old path.

Because the personalities of the two are too similar, everything is too similar, Yu Shixia is very afraid that one day, a man like Su Jingyuan will appear, so that Su Xiaohan will follow in her footsteps. she

The pressure exerted on Su Xiaohan, as well as the nightmare when he was a child, kept Su Xiaohan in his own nightmares.

It was also at this time that Xia Xin appeared. One

A strong, independent, autonomous person, a boy who doesn't care even if he is ridiculed, ridiculed, and isolated by everyone. bright

Ming is always alone, but he doesn't seem cowardly at all, although he is a little wooden, he is a very gentle boy, who will defend Su Xiaohan, will shield her from the wind and rain, and will send her home. that

The look in her eyes made her feel at ease. this

is the only boy who makes Su Xiaohan not feel afraid. she

feels that Xia Xin alone is a world, not bound by anything, just looking at Xia Xin, she feels that there will be a courage in her heart, and she is not afraid of being alone. summer

The new strength and hard work infected her, and Xia Xin's gentleness melted the hell in her heart and brought her a trace of warm sunshine.

Therefore, she also wants to be like Xia Xin, hard-working, strong, and brave!

was about to graduate from junior high school, in the situation that the two were about to separate, in the situation that she knew that early love was not allowed, and when she didn't want to be a stranger to Xia Xin, she was timid and shy, and she mustered up all the courage to write that letter, that love letter that condensed all her feelings and all her courage......

She wants to be with Xia Xin, she wants to have more contact with Xia Xin, and she wants the two of them to go to the future together. she

Willing to follow Xia Xin and walk forward...... correct

While, the matter was exposed. this

The other girls in the class found out.

Su Xiaohan was extremely scared.

The only fortunate thing is that everyone thinks it was Xia Xin who handed her a love letter. correct

Later, everyone laughed at Xia Xin's incompetence, ridiculed Xia Xin's poverty, stupidity, poor grades, toad wanting to eat swan meat, etc., etc., girls are always snarky...... sue

Xiaohan was very scared at the time, she was afraid of being abandoned, she was afraid of being isolated, she was afraid that she was like when she was a child, she was afraid that the interpersonal relationship she had just built would fall apart in an instant like a child of a relative's family. she

You can't stand out, you can't be different, and you can't be abandoned, leaving yourself alone. she

Trying to maintain the weak, vulnerable, false interpersonal relationships, and maintaining the so-called superficial friend relationship, because if the truth spreads, she will be finished, and she will definitely return to the hell of her childhood, and become nothing in high school, become the laughing stock of everyone, and become alone......

Therefore, she can only stiffly laugh with everyone and echo everyone's words, only in that way can she not look abrupt, not look different, and she can look like a normal person......

Then, it became an eternal pain in her heart...... bosom

With emotions such as guilt or admiration or liking, Xia Xin's figure lingered in her mind, and she couldn't tell what emotion it was. straight

In the summer vacation after the college entrance examination, I met Xia Xin again in that electronics museum. still

Yes, just like in junior high school, Xia Xin, who is independent, strong and hard-working!

This made Su Xiaohan's long-accumulated thoughts finally turn into courage, and he said the words of the two of them starting again.

Then, he was ruthlessly rejected by Xia Xin!

It's really a merciless refusal! she

For the first time in my life, I confessed and suffered the most cruel rejection! pass

The thing about going, coupled with that refusal, once became her nightmare.

But Xia Xin didn't accept her very gently, although she also knew that she was just a friend, but it was enough! she

Like a drowning man, he grabbed the straw and swam to the shore with all his might. she

wants to be an anchor, wants to face everyone, and wants to make herself braver, Xia Xin also supported her.

This made her gradually come out, and she put in all the hard work and worked hard to get to where she is today...... correct

Later, he was stopped by his parents again......