Su Ran looked at Song Hao with a smile and took a sip of tea. Then said: Do you understand, you have persisted for so long, not because you love me so much, you just can't accept that you are rejected, this is just a desire to conquer, you can't overcome just the hurdle in your heart. If I'm really with you, it's not a sweet ending for the prince and princess in a fairy tale, and in the end it's just hatred and killing. Because I'll never be who you want me to be, I'm withdrawn, I'm lost in my own world, I can't love you. We don't get along, I can imagine because I didn't live up to your expectations, your hateful face. You're going to be miserable and you're going to hate me. You will feel like all the passion and love you have put into the air has been burned. So, we're still friends, and that's good for us. Song Hao asked: Can I smoke? Su Ran said: Yes. Song Hao lit a cigarette and smoked it slowly, and the smoke dissipated little by little in the air. After smoking, he pondered for a while and asked, "What kind of life do you want to live?" Su Ran said: "I was born in a small town, I have never left for more than 20 years, the outside world is colorful, maybe now I leave the town and start a new life, it is the best for me." Song Hao nodded and said: "You are twenty-six years old, you have reached the age of starting a family, even if you don't want to be with me, you will enter into marriage with another person, you have parents, that is your responsibility and obligation, can you bear to let them down?" Su Ran smiled lightly and said: "Life is more than just a reluctance, I am an adult, I can live according to my own lifestyle, I am an individual, not a copy and paste version of anyone." I'm sure my parents will figure it out. ”

On the train back from Suzhou, Song Hao also figured out a lot of questions, and he thought that love was the greatest sorrow. He wondered if Su Ran hadn't been such an alternative woman and had accepted her from the beginning, would he have been tired of it. There is no mystery to him anymore, there have been many women around him over the years, he can't let go of Su Ran, is it precisely because what he can't get is always the best, he is just unwilling and doesn't admit defeat. He looked up at Su Ran opposite and gave her a relieved smile.

After returning from Suzhou, Su Ran went to his parents' house and talked with his parents for a long time. Mother sighed and said: "Mom hopes that you can marry a wife like other girls when you reach the age, husband and children, and live the second half of your life peacefully." As for you, you just don't live the way we expect it to be. It's okay, children have their own lives, you can live by yourself what you want, Mom doesn't interfere with you. Her father patted her on the shoulder and said, "Girl, when you are alone outside and your life is not good, tell your father, and your father will send it to you if you are short of money." Come back whenever you want, the door to the house is always for you. Su Ran felt that his eyes were a little sour, and he held back.

Su Ran bought a train ticket to Shanghai, where a high school classmate of hers worked as a salesperson. After packing the luggage and saying goodbye to Song Hao, he left everything at his parents' place. I took a small suitcase and walked to my former residence next to the train station, which had been demolished, and there were broken bricks and tiles everywhere. A fragment of Zhang Ailing's love in the city came to her mind: under a gray wall, Yanagihara looked at the tassel and said, "This wall, I don't know why it reminds me of words like the earth." ...... One day, our civilization will be completely destroyed, everything will be finished - burned, blown up, collapsed, and maybe this wall will remain. Tassel, maybe you'll have a little bit of sincerity for me, maybe I'll have a little bit of sincerity for you. She thought to herself, if Shao Yajun stood next to the small building where they lived and saw the broken bricks and tiles everywhere, how would she feel in her heart. She had mixed feelings, and although it was a warm spring, she subconsciously wrapped her knitted jacket tighter.

Song Hao didn't send her, probably because he was afraid that he would be sad. The pull in the past few years has not given me a satisfactory answer. In the end, I had to let go. The roar of the train took away all Su Ran's feelings for this kind of small town. She closes her eyes, hoping that the next stop will be a fresh start.

Su Ran has arrived in a new world, a big city with modern development, with cars and roads, and a surging flow of people. People are in a hurry, and the pace of life is amazing. After Su Ran got out of the car, he called his high school classmate Li Li, and after the phone was connected, he said, "Li Li, I'm here." Li Li on the other end of the phone said: Su Ran, I'm still busy, I'll send you a message, there is an address on it, you can take the subway directly.

Su Ran hung up the phone, reversed the subway three times, and finally arrived at Li Li's residence. It was the door of a mid-to-high-end community, and she waited at the door for an hour with her suitcase before Li Li came back. Li Li is a classmate of Su Ran in high school, and his family is very close to Su Ran, and he has known each other since childhood. A student's head with full ears, single eyelids, thick lips, a high nose bridge, a small, very attractive girl. A few years ago, I talked about a boyfriend and came to Shanghai with my boyfriend. After Li Li met, he looked at Su Ran for a long time: "Yo, Su Ran, I don't dare to recognize you, you were a tomboy when you were in school, and now you have transformed." Su Ran smiled and said, "It's been almost ten years, can it stay the same?" Li Li smiled apologetically and said: "I'm sorry, I didn't pick you up and made you wait so long, I went to a hospital to meet a customer, and I came back and sat in the car for a long time, I'm really sorry!" Su Ran smiled and said, "It's okay, I didn't wait too long." Li Li continued: "Why do you suddenly want to come to Shanghai, it's not very good in our small city." As he spoke, he helped Su Ran pull the box and walked inside, and came to the residence in a circle. Li Li said: Go downstairs, Su Ran, I rent a basement, the house in Shanghai is too expensive, I can't afford to rent it, even if the cost of living is too high. Su Ran nodded, and walked to the third basement floor together, the room was more than a dozen square meters, the house was very clean, a big bed, a cloth wardrobe in the room, a delicate dresser, and two very cute single sofas, and the whole person could nest in it. Li Li is engaged in drug sales in a pharmaceutical factory, and his income is more than 10,000 yuan a month when it is good, and 4,000 or 5,000 yuan when it is bad. Su Ran asked: What about your boyfriend? Li Li pouted and said: Don't mention it, it's been a year here, he got along with a girl in his company, is he handsome, didn't I also fancy him handsome, so it's normal to be remembered. Later, I moved out of him, and I wanted to go back to the town and then gave up, so let's break through here, I can't be abandoned by my boyfriend and don't live, and the days don't have to go on, so I found the basement here and rented it, and then my boyfriend called me and begged me to go back, I refused, and I was always with him to prevent her from being snatched away by others, a word, tired. It's good now, I've been selling drugs for a few years and I've built a house in our small town, and now I still have a monthly payment of about 2,000 a month, so I can only rent a basement to save money. After speaking, he smiled cheerfully, as if he was talking about other people's business. Su Ran smiled and said: You are becoming more and more cheerful, and you can think of everything. There are bathrooms and bathrooms here, right? Li Li said: The bathroom is public, and you can buy a water card when you take a bath. You are not allowed to use an open flame for cooking, but if you have to do it, you can only use a rice cooker to make soup, boil porridge, cook noodles, etc. Now the houses in Shanghai are too expensive, and we people are out of reach. What about you, also single? Su Ran downplayed the experience of the past few years. She said: "I worked in the insurance company for several years, during which time I lived with a girlfriend, and during that time, there were one or two men who had that meaning, and I felt that it was not suitable for me. Li Li nodded and said, "It's okay, in Shanghai, we are still twenty-five or sixteen, and the older unmarried women have grabbed a lot of them, and we have both become old girls in our small city." "Haha, I'm happy. Li Li continued: "Let's go, let's eat, just chat, you've been hungry after taking the train for so long." Su Ran smiled and nodded and found a restaurant near the community with her, Li Li asked: Do you drink, Su Ran, let's have a drink and celebrate your coming to Shanghai to fight. Su Ran said: No problem, drink some to help the fun. Li Li said: The pace of life in Shanghai is very fast, everyone is busy, life here is under pressure, survival of the fittest in the workplace, what job are you going to find in the future, do you plan to do insurance? Or do what? Su Ran took a big sip of beer and said: The education is not qualified, so many jobs are out of reach, and you can only choose what you are good at, the house here is so expensive, how about I sell the house? Li Li said: You think it's easy to sell a house, and now those chain stores that sell houses are recruiting college graduates, but you have the experience and ability to make up for the weakness of your education, education is your shortcoming, but your work ability and the work experience of the original insurance company is your advantage, I support you, go and try it! Su Ran nodded and clinked glasses with Li Li. Li Li said: You just came to Shanghai, don't be in a hurry to find a job, first take the bus around to get acquainted with it, get to know this rapidly developed city, tomorrow you go to apply for a bus card, you can use it in the future, travel is necessary. Su Ran smiled and said: You are really thoughtful. After eating, the two went back to rest, and because of their exhaustion, they lay down for a while and fell asleep.

Shao Yajun's pregnant belly became more and more obvious, and morning sickness made her tortured face haggard, without the brilliance of the past. Chen Lang sent back a lot of nutritional products from there. One day, she was lying in her bedroom reading a book when she saw a call from an unfamiliar number, and she answered the phone, and it was a man's voice on the other end of the phone. She asked, "Hello, who are you?" The other end of the phone said, "I'm Song Hao." She was a little surprised to hear the name. Song Hao said: "Su Ran left and went to Shanghai, and the old building where you used to live was demolished." Shao Yajun restrained his emotions and asked: When did Su Ran leave? Aren't you guys together? Song Hao sighed and said: "The matter of feelings is inexplicable, I also thought that we could be together after you left, but now that I have let go, it will take a little time to let go slowly." He told her everything that happened to Su Ran after she left on the phone, he just wanted her to understand that there was once such a person who had paid so much for her, was like a withered tree for her, and gave up a city for her. After hanging up the phone, she burst into tears and couldn't cry. She lowered her voice, afraid that her mother-in-law would come in and ask questions. She finally lost her strength to cry, she calmed down her emotions and dialed Su Ran's phone.