86_86638When Gao Shunyao asked Li Ze a question, Li Ze noticed that between the words, the two of them had already walked back to their residence.

The rooms in Tokyo are always very small, and after Gao Shunyao's question blurted out, Li Ze found that he didn't even have a place to avoid.

There were only two people in the room, and the question came straight to the fore.

"Lao Li, tell me the truth, have you ever played football before? You don't always summarize these things yourself, do you? ”

Gao Shunyao's question didn't seem to be anything rare, but this time, it was Li Ze's turn. Unlike the embarrassed and helpless look on Gao Shunyao's face after being asked just now, as soon as Gao Shunyao's question came out, Li Ze's face became heavy.

The change in his face was so obvious, even a sluggish person like Gao Shunyao could see his unhappiness at a glance. He didn't know what he said wrong, but he didn't scold him, he just changed his face like this, he should have uncovered the other party's scars.

"Lao Li, if I say the wrong thing, don't worry about it......"

Although Gao Shunyao is not smart, he also knows that he has to be careful when talking to friends, and when he saw that Li Ze's face was wrong, he also hurriedly opened his mouth to remedy it.

"Nothing, I've played before." As if suddenly waking up, Li Ze didn't let him continue, he admitted Gao Shunyao's guess with a forced smile. He didn't want Gao Shunyao to apologize to him, it was obviously himself who spoke even less today.

It's just that Gao Shunyao brought back his memories: indeed, he used to play football, although that was in the past.

For Li Ze, the word football is so far away and so clear, every time he mentions it, it makes him a little uncomfortable. But after all, it is far away from itself, so why care about him anymore?

Li Ze used to play football when he was very young, and he had such an experience, which was somewhat related to his parents. His father was a high school physical education teacher, and he often played football with the school team when he was not happy, and his father's work can be said to be his football initiation class, which had a profound impact on him.

When he was a child, his family lived across the wall from the school playground, and when he was in elementary school, he used to sit on the side of his father's school court after school and watch his father play football with his group of high school students. Sometimes, they are not in the official game, but just playing and playing, at this time they will also call Li Ze to play with them, for him who is still a child, it is a very face-saving thing to be able to play with those big children, and from that time on, he doesn't like to play with the little kids around him, but likes to play with the big kids.

And because he liked to play with those people, his father thought he had a talent for football. He specially found his friends who taught at the football school, and did not hesitate to invite them to dinner, so that they could see if his son had enough potential to play football, and under the praise of those people, he entered the football school in a daze and began his football career.

From that time until high school, he never stopped his football career.

Looking back now, my father's classmates at that time were somewhat exaggerated, perhaps because they exalted themselves for the sake of eating and drinking. After going to football school, although my playing skills are not bad and I have a lot of brains when I play, my body has always been relatively poor in the team. His football school is not one of the best schools in the country, but he is only barely playing a main force there. The doors of the national junior team and the national youth team were never opened to him, and it was a very distant thing for him - but he was young and frivolous at the time, and he didn't pay attention to any of them. He believed that if he grew up, he would be taller and stronger, that he would have a good body, that he would have an epiphany in football thinking, and that he would become a top player and gallop on the pitch - the Chinese Super League, the national team, and even European football, all of which had appeared in his dreams.

Unfortunately, he didn't wait for that, but instead waited for that nightmare to come.

"Then why don't you kick now?"

Gao Shunyao asked the question again. He thought it was a bit incredible. Li Ze is not tall, and he does not have a good body with long movements. He doesn't even look like an athlete, he looks a little fat but is a very quiet student, Gao Shunyao never thought that he would be a professional player, which is really unseemly.

Li Ze glanced at him, shook his head but didn't say anything. He lifted his clothes and exposed his chest in front of Gao Shunyao. On his chest, a huge scar lay there, making Gao Shunyao gasp.

"How did you get this scar?"

Although Gao Shunyao said that he had seen a lot of scenes, it was the first time he had seen such a shocking scar. This centipede-like scar, surrounded by a circle of flesh of different colors, stretched from Li Ze's chest to the armpit, bypassing the armpit, leading to his back, making it impossible to see how long this scar was. This scar made Li Ze's body look like it had been torn in half and spliced together, even if Gao Shunyao was bold and reckless, he felt a little chilled.

He has a good relationship with Li Ze, but he has never seen this scar. The school's bathhouse is coin-operated and costs 100 yen for 15 minutes. Many boys take a shower quickly, they all go together with each other, and then divide the 15 minutes equally, but Li Ze has never taken a bath with anyone, and he doesn't know that Li Ze has such a wound on his chest.

"When I was in high school, I had an operation, a heart attack, and I was incised." Li Ze concisely said the origin of his scar, he is a very talkative person, but he doesn't want to say much about this matter, "Before the operation, I only weighed 130 pounds, and after the surgery, my weight rose to 190 pounds after a drug came down." When I came out of the hospital again, there were few people who knew me except my parents. With this disease, what kind of ball do you still play? Just go home and rest. ”

Li Ze's bland words couldn't hear the joy and anger. But Gao Shunyao, who has known him for a long time, still sensed his unwillingness. Gao Shunyao didn't know what his level was when he played, but according to him, no matter how good a person was playing, the result of giving up in the end was not because of ability, but because of a sudden illness, no matter how he said it, he would be unwilling.

He didn't dare to speak anymore, he knew that his friend's scar could not be touched, this painful experience, he said the wrong thing, that is, he poured salt on the wound.

This memory is too sour for Li Ze.

Li Ze's experience of playing football continued into high school, and until he reached high school, he was still the main player of the team. It is said that at that time, there were already professional teams that began to examine him. His coach also hinted to him that if he cleared up, he could go to professional football and it wouldn't be long before he could become a professional footballer with a good income. But just when everything was a sign that he was going to succeed, a sudden illness knocked him down.

Heart disease, open heart surgery, a year in bed - these things that were once another world for him now befell him like a nightmare.

Until now, Li Ze also thinks that it was the biggest disaster he has encountered in his life, and he clearly remembers his feelings after the operation and knowing that he can no longer play football. For him, he encountered not only physical trauma during that time, but also psychological trauma.

His football dreams were shattered at that moment. The bright future has all come to naught. The injury was delayed for a year, and what was even more terrible was that after he recovered from the injury, the doctor also told him clearly: he should never exercise vigorously for more than 30 minutes, otherwise his life would be in danger.

This sentence is equivalent to shooting his football career in infancy. And that sentence almost drove him crazy.

He used to cry, he once went on a hunger strike, he used to abuse, he once begged his parents to take him to see a doctor abroad, he once blamed the irresponsibility of the coaches for his illness, he once complained that the doctors did not see the disease, and he once expected the gods who did not exist to treat his injuries. At that time, he was like an angry beast, wanting to tear everything in front of him to pieces, trying to find a way to vent his dissatisfaction.

He took out all the team uniforms he had treasured for many years and burned them all - Ajax in '95, Inter Milan in '97, Brazil and Croatia in '98, and then Real Madrid, Manchester United, Italy and, of course, his own football school uniform.

A large bag of clothes was taken out by him and lit a fire, and all of them were burned clean. After experiencing his serious illness, his family was not wealthy, but his parents didn't say anything about him burning his clothes like this.

Perhaps, parents are more distressed than themselves.

No matter how angry the beast is, there will be a time when he will regain his peace, and when he recovers his calm, he is finally willing to face the reality: his body is not saved, and what is also not saved, as well as his unbearable youth and his fragmented life.

It was probably after that incident that I began to think about my own way out. After playing football for many years, his cultural class grades have long been a mess, and when he took the college entrance examination, he scored a total score of 380 points, so that he couldn't even go to three books. At that time, he himself felt that he was useless, he had no culture at all, he couldn't do physical work, and there was no hope in this life. It was his parents who thought of sending him to study abroad at that time.

He knows what his parents think, after studying abroad for a few years, even if he can't learn anything, it's good to broaden his horizons and know how to make a living. This is how his life is, no matter how high things are, his parents dare not think about them, and he himself does not dare to think about them.

He originally thought that his fate with football had come to an end. But now football has once again broken into his life.

And this time, the way it came was so unacceptable: Gao Shunyao swore in front of him that he was going to play an official game.

How ridiculous, he, a person who has received formal training and has taken it as his dream for many years, is getting farther and farther away from football, while a guy like Gao Shunyao, who has a whim for women, can run to play football.

Destiny is such a fun thing that people sometimes can't help but want to laugh out loud when they look at it. What you think is your dream is so cheap in the eyes of others.

How can he keep a normal heart with such a thing? Only this thing is different for him