86_86638 Li Ze, who is usually speaking, always talks endlessly. His talkative Gao Shunyao knew deeply that every time the two of them chatted, it was Li Ze who was talking like a river, and Gao Shunyao listened quietly. But this time is different from the previous one. Li Ze didn't want to mention his past at all, and his words were much less than usual.

Gao Shunyao is not a person who is good at talking, he saw Li Ze's silence, but he didn't know how to persuade him, so he could only accompany him silently, the two of them were silent speechlessly, and the room was quiet for a while.

Fortunately, Li Ze quickly realized the embarrassment of this silence, he smiled, wanting to liven up the atmosphere and break the dull atmosphere he had just created, but he really couldn't find any jokes to say, and after laughing twice, he still opened his mouth again.

"Lao Gao, listen to my advice. To put it mildly, you're really not material to play football. Football is not such an easy thing to play, and at the age of 18, no matter how good your foundation is, it is almost impossible to learn football from scratch. Say you want to play, you're crazy. How many people who think of football as a dream can't play it? Why did you kick it out? ”

As Li Ze spoke, he saw that Gao Shunyao wanted to speak, and raised his hand at him, "Don't argue, I know what examples you want to say, but after all, those examples are all minority, and you just see that their examples are glamorous, and there are a lot of hardships behind them." Can you bear this bitterness? Taking a step back, is it really worth it if you can afford to endure this hardship? On your terms, are you still afraid that you won't be able to find a woman? You have money, you have a son, you don't look ugly, what woman are you looking for and you can't find it? Why waste this effort? After all, it's just a. ”

Li Ze's words were unprecedentedly vulgar, which also made Gao Shunyao silent. Very rarely, his head drooped slightly, and he seemed to be speechless. After a long while, Gao Shunyao spoke again, and this time, his tone was lower than ever. This tone is completely different from Gao Shunyao's usual impatient temper.

"I know, too, it's just a." Gao Shunyao's voice was quite calm, but in this calmness, there was something strange about it, "But, I just like that girl." Other girls may be a hundred times more beautiful than her, much better than her, and even whether it is good for a fairy to descend to earth, but I just like this girl. ”

Gao Shunyao raised his head, the strange thing was that he was talking about love, but Li Ze didn't see any happy look on his face, but he was unprecedentedly serious.

"Lao Li, you said that I am not the material for playing football, I know you are right. I'm not a footballer, I know it myself - and not only that, I know that I'm not a study, it's not a businessman, it's not a mixed society - to put it bluntly, I'm not any material, I'm just a fucking waste. You don't need to sue me about this, I already knew. My parents, my teachers, my classmates, they all told me many times. What's so bad about that? None of them thought it was unpleasant, they said it too much, pointed at my nose and scolded, stabbed me with a smile, coaxed me in front of the whole class, I was used to being called that, what's so ugly? ”

"That's what everybody says about me, I'm used to it. In the eyes of everyone, I am a waste, I am not a good learner by nature, I must be the one who speaks in class, I must be the one who damages public property, I must have my share in fights, and if someone cheats in exams, the teacher has to ask me what is going on first--I have been like this since I was a child, and I have long been used to being looked down upon. ”

"Lao Gao, I didn't mean that......"

Li Ze didn't expect that his words would hook up so many thoughts of Gao Shunyao. He didn't know that Gao Shunyao had suffered so many grievances. He always thought that Gao Shunyao was just a guy who was used to messing around, but he never thought that his heart was so heavy.

"You don't have to tell me that, and I don't blame anyone. I can't make it myself, who am I to blame? Since I'm not a thing, don't blame others, I already knew this - but I don't like to be scolded, I'm not a cheap bone. Why do I say Chen Sirou is different? Do you remember what she did to me after the loss? She's different. ”

Li Ze was silent, Chen Sirou did not accuse Gao Shunyao that day, but praised him a few words, he didn't expect it to have such a big impact on him.

"Lao Li, it's been a long time since I became a weapon, I never thought about what I was going to do before, I have always gone with the flow, wherever I go. But this time it was different, I was lying there in the middle of the night, thinking to myself what the future would be like, and I thought that I had finally met a girl who was kind to me, but it was difficult for me to catch up with her, and I suddenly wanted to cry. What does the future look like? Will she marry someone else, and then I find a wife who will blame me for everything? If that's what the future looks like, I really can't accept it. ”

"I've let too many people down in my life. My parents were disappointed in me, my teachers were disappointed in me, my friends were disappointed in me, and even myself was disappointed in myself. I've tried many times to disappoint people but failed, but this time I still wanted to try and didn't want her to disappoint me. I don't want her to think of Gao Shunyao in the future, and when I was very bored and inquired, I got the news that Gao Shunyao had achieved nothing, and asked her to treat my name as a joke. I hope that when she hears my name again, she will be happy at what I have accomplished, happy at knowing me - and that will be enough for me. ”

"You say I want to play football in a dream, don't I know it? It's hard for an 18-year-old to want to play football, how could I not know? The problem is that I'm 18 years old, what am I going to do without difficulty? Is it easy for me to start studying now? Is it easier to start a business from scratch now? Is it hard to be different? At least I like football more than those, and I believe this path is more suitable for me than those. As for enduring hardship, I don't care, my dad used to tell me that if you have to endure hardship, you will become a superior person, and I have already thought about bearing it. ”

"It's certain that I want to live a personal life to endure hardships and suffering, I have this psychological preparation, even if it is hardship and fatigue this time, even if it is tortured, I admit it."

"Lao Li, I don't think it's easy to play football, I know all the hardships involved, but I still have to do it. You say that people can't achieve their wishes if they take it as a dream, but I don't want to talk about any dreams, the word dream is too noble for me, I don't deserve it. Only when I look at people in the sky can I see dreams, and I can only see how beautiful it is, but my eyes can only look at the soles of my feet, and I have long seen how difficult the road under my feet is. No matter how hard it is, I will never give up this time. Playing football is my own life, and no matter how difficult it is, I will continue to do it step by step. ”

Li Ze looked at Gao Shunyao blankly, he had known Gao Shunyao for a long time, but he never remembered when Gao Shunyao had said so many things to him in one breath. This person has always been very straightforward, and he likes to speak concisely and to the point, Li Ze never knew that he had so many things in his heart.

He, like himself, is not a person who likes to put all his misery on the table. I always thought that he always looked impatient, but he was young and frivolous and didn't understand the world, but in fact, maybe Gao Shunyao also had a lot of things on his mind.

He was as depressed as himself, and no matter how broken his life was, no one ever blamed him. Gao Shunyao is different, he has indeed not suffered a heavy blow, but it does not mean that he is smooth sailing. He was even worse than himself, he had at least had a dream, but he didn't even have a dream.

But even so, he didn't give up. Even if he didn't have a dream in the sky, he still insisted on walking the road under his feet.

Compared to him, he seems too weak. It's been so long, and I still don't have the courage to break my dream and look down at my feet.

"It's not so easy to learn to play football, your body and brain may not be a problem, but your learning ability, I really don't think about it."

After a long time, Li Ze opened his mouth again, he was still not very optimistic about Gao Shunyao's choice of football, but this time his tone no longer had the pride and ridicule just now, but became calm and serene.

"As long as you learn by heart, even if you learn slowly, you can always learn. I'm not good at learning, I'm slow at learning, but I'm not stupid, I can always learn something. ”

"You're not a fool, but you don't understand anything, you just think you can train as a football player, you say it's two hundred and five at best, and it's two when it's small, and it's not better than a fool."

Hearing Li Ze speak sarcastically again, Gao Shunyao just raised his finger and gave him a middle finger. But as he did this, he also had a satisfied smile on his face.

And happy that he knew this kind of thing - Li Ze and Gao Shunyao had been in class together for a long time, and he had never seen Gao Shunyao have such a desire for knowledge.

"Do you really want to go to college and play football that much?" Li Ze couldn't help but open his mouth again.

"Of course," Gao Shunyao's expression was extremely determined, and when he said this, he was also cheering himself up in his heart, "Lao Li, tell me the truth, how big do you think the gap between me and Japanese college football is?" How hard was it for me to get into a Japanese university to play football? ”

Looking at Gao Shunyao's serious expression, Li Ze suddenly laughed, "How much worse...... Let's talk about a common-sense question: Did you know that there is no so-called team selection in Japanese university football, as long as you are willing to play, anyone can train with the team? ”

What the?

Li Ze's words made Gao Shunyao's face freeze. If you don't have an exam and you want to go? If so, what is your determination and fighting spirit, your own pursuit and goals? It's hard to get serious once, and what is the result?

Li Ze, this guy, isn't he joking with himself? .