Wednesday, April 28 was fine

My heart is in turmoil again!

Today, Senior Brother Zhang is here again, and he has been with me all day. Accompany me to the history of music and eat together at noon. In the evening, after having dinner with me, they sent me back to the dormitory!

Oh my God, because Senior Brother Zhang disappeared for so many days and suddenly appeared, I was a little happy!

Do I like him?

Probably not, maybe...... Maybe it's like the Korean drama Lulu watched, I'm used to his presence now, right?

However, it is dangerous to hear Lulu say that it is dangerous to get used to the existence of the opposite sex, because habit is usually a prelude to the fall!

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Thursday, April 29 was fine

I finally knew what Brother Zhang had been doing in the past few days, it turned out that he had enrolled in a crash course in piano outside the school and learned piano.

Actually, I know that he doesn't like the piano so much, and I also know that he just wants to pursue me and have something to say to me.

But even though I knew that he had such a purpose in learning piano, the strange thing was that I couldn't get angry, and I was even a little moved!

Even now that I have returned to the dormitory and are lying on my own bed, I can clearly recall the way my brother played the piano just now.

He played to me "Dream of Love", which he had learned these days, and his fingers were as stupid as mung bean frogs. I remember that the mung bean frog only had three fingers on one hand, it seems, right?

But although it was hard to play, I knew how hard it was to learn such a piece in such a short period of time for a guy who had never touched a piano before.

I still remember when I was five or six years old when I first learned piano, I don't know how many times I cried just for an etude that was much simpler than "Dream of Love"!

Seeing him play so devotedly, and the movements of his hands are so clumsy, he has always been arrogant and even more nervous when playing the piano, I don't know weishenme, I feel a little uncomfortable, I want to cry!

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Friday, June 18, was cloudy

Today, Senior Brother Zhang has something to do at home, and he will meet home by plane in the morning.

I go to class, I eat. Practice in the piano room in the evening. Although all day with the sisters in the dormitory. It's hilarious. However, without Brother Zhang to make me happy, without Brother Zhang to help me cook, and without Brother Zhang's ear-inducing "Dream of Love" in the practice room, I felt as if a part of my life was suddenly missing.

In the evening, because the sisters either have a date, or go back to the dormitory early to chat online. So when I came back to the dormitory from the practice room, I was the only one. Although the lights on the road were bright, and there were always students passing by, I was a little scared.

I always feel that there is some danger hidden in those bright and dark places that cannot be seen clearly! Bad guys, big dogs, ghosts......

I ran all the way back, and I never realized that the distance between the piano room and the dormitory was so far. Back in the dorm room, I was almost out of breath.

It's really scary to walk alone at night, but it's better to have Senior Brother Zhang with you. He told me stories, made me laugh, and wasn't scared at all! Moreover, the distance from the piano room to the dormitory seems to be very close, just listen to him tell a story or two jokes.

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Showers on Wednesday, June 23

Today is the same as yesterday, the same classes, meals, and piano practice.

The senior brother still hasn't come back. Listen to Senior Brother Shen Zhe, a classmate in the same dormitory. Senior Brother Zhang's maternal grandfather has passed away, and I am afraid it will be a few days before he returns.

I was a little disappointed. I miss him!

Well, not the kind of boyfriend and girlfriend missing. Just the kind of ordinary friends! That's right, it's just ordinary friends!

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Monday, July 19 foggy

It's been almost ten days since I returned home from summer vacation, and I get together with my high school classmates every day, practice the piano every day, and eat my mother's private food, which is as comfortable as when I was on high school vacation.

However, I felt a little empty, as if something was missing in my life.

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Light rain turned to moderate rain on Thursday, July 22

After playing the piano today, I finally remembered why I lost my soul these days. Because every time I have a break in practice, there is a missing note. It was a rough piece of music, far from beautiful, it was the pianist Liszt's "Dream of Love", and it was "The Dream of Love" played by Senior Brother Zhang!

Although I always felt that Senior Brother Zhang's play was not good, I really thought about it if I didn't listen to it for a long time!

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Monday, 9 August, was cloudy and cloudy

Maybe it's because of Senior Brother Zhang's phone call yesterday, I actually dreamed of him last night. In the No. 4 piano room in our department building, he played "Dream of Love" to me. I don't know what the reason is, but the sound of the piano, which I always felt was far from beautiful, was a little pleasant. Let me dream sweetly.

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Tuesday, August 10, fine

Last night, I dreamed of Senior Brother Zhang again. In our school's eighth cafeteria, he helped me with the meals. I remember very clearly, stir-fried pork, slices of bean curd pork, stir-fried choy sum, and a bowl of cool and sweet fairy grass honey. All favorites.

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Thursday, August 26, fine

Last night, I dreamed of Senior Brother Zhang again. This is the first time I've dreamed of him in a while, and I can't remember exactly. The two of us were riding our bikes on the roundabout, watching the sea and listening to him tell me jokes.

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Saturday, August 28, fine

I'm going back to school tomorrow, and I don't feel the same as the last time I left home and went back to school. Although I am also a little reluctant to leave home, reluctant to leave the familiar Xiangdu, reluctant to leave my parents, and reluctant to leave my mother's private dishes. But there was a little more excitement and eagerness in my heart.

Faintly, it seems that I feel more hope for going back to school than for home.

I miss my good sisters Nana and Lulu, I miss the beautiful seaside next to the school, I want to ......

I think a little bit, just a little bit about Senior Brother Zhang. It's really just a little bit......

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Heavy rain on Wednesday, September 1

Today, Senior Brother Zhang returned to school and called me to ask me to come out for dinner. But at that time, I didn't know why, suddenly a little panicked, suddenly a little afraid to see him. So, I lied to him and told him that I was going to get together with my sisters in the dormitory and that I didn't have time all day today.

But I kind of regretted it as soon as the phone was put down, even though we were just regular friends, huh...... It's a good friend, but I really miss it when I haven't seen him for a holiday.

So, in the evening, I still took Lulu and the others to the True Fragrance Garden in the food street. Senior Brother Zhang said that it was his stronghold, and he would go there basically every time he ate and drank outside.

Sure enough, there I met him, and he was drinking with a group of his friends.

Although it was raining heavily outside and the temperature was a little cold, the moment I saw him in the cafeteria, I felt hot and sad all over. My heart is about to jump out.

It's a pity he seems to have drunk a little too much and didn't see me.

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Thursday, September 2, was cloudy

Senior Brother Zhang asked me out to eat again, but because of the feeling that my heart was about to suffocate when I saw him yesterday, I panicked and didn't dare to meet him at all. So I lied again......

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Sunday, September 5th, fine

I'm in a bad mood and a little sad!

Today, I went to the beach with Lulu and the others, and I saw Senior Brother Zhang. He was walking with a girl, and the girl was still holding his arm, talking and laughing with him!

I also saw that from time to time, it seemed that Senior Brother Zhang was making that girl angry, and then chasing after Senior Brother Zhang with yelling. Senior Brother Zhang wasn't angry, he just dodged around with a smile.

They are really close!

Is it because I refuse to meet him in the past few days, so Senior Brother Zhang thinks that I hate him, so he has given up on me? That's his new girlfriend, right?

Supposedly, my brother and I are just good friends, and I should be happy if he finds a girlfriend. He finally gave up pestering me, and I should be happy. But I couldn't be happier.

Now I think back to the scene when my senior brother and that senior sister were fighting, and my heart is still sullen.

What's wrong with me?

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Monday, September 6, fine

My first love was over before it even started!

Last night I dreamed about the wedding of Senior Brother Zhang and that senior sister yesterday. Senior Brother Zhang is very handsome in a black dress, although I can't remember my appearance clearly after waking up, but I remember that the wedding dress that mops the floor is very beautiful, pure white like snowflakes. They were holding hands and smiling happily and happily!

Suddenly I felt a terrible heartache! I woke up all of a sudden, only to find that it was still dark outside the window, my heart was painful, my forehead was full of sweat, and tears were flowing down my face.

I finally understood that I would always dream of him and miss him during the holidays, I finally understood that I would be flustered when I saw him since the beginning of school, and I finally understood that it would hurt to see him and his sister together!

It turned out that before I knew it, I actually began to like Senior Brother Zhang, or I fell in love with him a little!

But...... But...... He's already got together with that senior sister, what can I do?

It's all my fault, it's all my fault that I'm too stupid, why didn't I find out earlier?

It turned out to be really painful to fall out of love, and it hurt very much in the heart!

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Tuesday, September 7, fine

I'm in a much better mood now.

My heart was sad today, and I have cried more than a dozen times today with Lulu and them on my back. But the strange thing is that the appetite is surprisingly good, and it seems that no matter how much you eat, your stomach is very empty.

I usually only eat five yuan for Malatang at noon, but today I ate a full fifteen yuan. In the evening, stinky tofu, spicy crayfish, kebabs, and grilled squid were eaten again.

And today, for the first time in my life, I drank alcohol, liquor!

The taste is spicy and not delicious, but when I drink more and my head is dizzy, I feel that a breath held in my heart has dispersed a lot.

Lovelorn? What is a broken love, getting drunk a few more times will always be haode!

No, I can't write today, I'm dizzy, I'm going to sleep. (To be continued.) )