There was no warm and sweet image of the diving bird in her mind, but a cruel and cold reality, and when she thought of it, she completely lost the courage to face him again.

And giving birth to a kite is not entirely a willful act.

In this matter, she clearly divided the kite and the diving bird, and the kite and the diving bird from her own love. A diving bird is a diving bird, and a kite is a kite. It is not because you have a kite stop that you have to live with a diving bird and live a life that you can't face.

She never thinks that the child is the crystallization of love, she only thinks that she needs the child now, besides, she calmly believes that she can give birth to a kite alone, and it doesn't matter if the father or a man is the child.

Whether she has a husband herself is another matter, and her husband is a man who can share three views with herself, not necessarily a father who wants children.

She would rather choose to continue to walk alone than compromise and let go of her body.

I am afraid that only Gao Ruohan can understand this concept. In the eyes of others, she is simply crazy.

To say that there are not a few outrageous things that butterflies have done in their lives, having a child out of wedlock is one thing, and suddenly having a hot head and getting married to Zhuang Yousheng may be another.

It's not just hot-headed, it's really crazy. But Butterfly doesn't care what others think, the key to what she does is what she thinks, she figured it out, and did it.

What's more, there is a woman beside her who has the same unusual thinking logic, Gao Ruohan, she not only did not object to these unusual series of actions of butterflies, but even stood in her queue resolutely, no matter how the butterfly tossed, she was absolutely supportive.

Isn't it just to have a child and get married, it's not a big deal. As long as you don't embarrass yourself, you can do anything!

But only the butterfly herself knew, so she agreed to his proposal, not because she softened her heart and moved mortal dust, but because she was completely in a dark world at that time, Zhuang Yousheng stretched out the hand that was willing to save her, and was able to pull her out, and for a moment she was suddenly so unstubborn. In this matter, she unconsciously showed the softness and vulnerability of a woman.

And Zhuang Yousheng just touched her most vulnerable root. Butterflies are a woman after all.

Or perhaps, there is another layer of thought hidden in this, she wants to make herself resolutely forget about the diving bird, she knows that if she marries Zhuang Yousheng, she will really abandon the diving bird psychologically.

The ghost of love that has been entangled for so many years, all these years has made her left and right, whether she holds it, and she doesn't put it down, and she is worried about her soul and dreams, and she is an impatient man.

Isn't that a relief?

Marry a man and forget about a man. Marry a man who loves you and forget the man you love dearly.

In Gao Ruohan's opinion, it seems to be a logical thing, but in fact, only Butterfly knows how ridiculous and helpless his decision is.

The person she originally wanted to marry was a diving bird, she thought about it for a long time, thought about it a lot, and even thought about how she should live with him, three meals a day and four seasons together, countless mornings and dusks, and the two of them walked hand in hand; You can also drive out to travel around the world, see the snow in the Alps, go to France to taste delicious French food, go to Italy to see the sea of love, and go to Africa to see those animals......

Just when she was thinking about the most intense and intense feelings, a future mother-in-law was killed on the way, asking her to realize that marrying her son would become her daughter-in-law, and then what followed was the handling of various mother-in-law and daughter-in-law relationships, who did the big and who served the small, and even derived from the matter of inheriting the family lineage......

What flashed in front of her eyes was Fang Yun's haggard and angry face, the murderous eyes, and all kinds of gritted teeth and resentment, everything made her suddenly understand that the love between herself and the diving bird was not so simple and absolute. Just like all love in the world, from love to marriage, from fantasy to reality, and then there are all kinds of involuntary, chaotic family life, which completely traps you in it, makes you involuntarily fall into all kinds of struggles and disputes, and the whole soul becomes filthy for no reason.

The thought of these consequences made her shudder, realizing that she and the diving bird could not live with just the two of them, and that these were not in her plans.

Then she inexplicably married Zhuang Yousheng, who had nothing to do with her, and moved into Zhuang Yousheng's big villa, living a strange two-person world.

She never imagined that she would get married like this and live such a marriage model. However, this marriage model is very suitable for the character of the butterfly from a certain level, it is very simple, even a little lonely, there is no crowded life mode, only the obscure life of the two compartments, which is completely the rhythm of a pool of stagnant water.

Zhuang Yousheng lives politely around her, you can smell his breath, hear his voice, understand his condition, but just wander outside your world.

This feeling is deeply felt by the butterfly, and it is very interesting.

They only maintain a marriage of faith. In fact, they each live their own lives, but they are two families in the same house, but the two families are not unrelated, but husband and wife, and have a child who does not belong to one party.

Butterfly still doesn't forget the night she promised Zhuang Yousheng to get married, she just gave birth to a kite, and Zhuang Yousheng was the only one left to take care of her by the bedside. He sat there in silence, like a tall wooden carving, and for a long time the butterfly felt a little depressed, and she tried not to look at him. She persuaded him to go back to sleep, but after persuading him a few times, he had no intention of leaving, and the butterfly let him go.

Everyone in the ward was very curious about such a wooden husband, who would not laugh or coax his wife, and it was strange that he would not suffocate to death in life with such a man. So many people secretly look at this very inexplicable couple with a cautious guessing look. Because that husband doesn't love his son at all, it's really not interesting at all, he doesn't even look at it, you look at that indifferent expression, it's not at all like most men who become fathers, as if the child is not his at all.

Almost everyone felt that this woman's marriage was going to end sooner or later. Because this man doesn't love her at all, doesn't love her at all. Not loving her, nor loving their children.