"Half-dead?"

In this oppressive atmosphere, I carried the corpse on my back and made an insincere joke in an attempt to ease the bitterness between the two.

"You're not like me."

Anan's hair was messy by the wind, and he didn't go to the wind, and he was half a step ahead of me to lead the way.

"What's different, wouldn't it be nice to be alive?"

I looked at Anan's back, thought about it carefully, and added the truth: "I used to want to die, really, really wanted to die." also took a lot of actions, such as cutting wrists, jumping off buildings, drinking medicine, but unfortunately they didn't die. I even bought myself dozens of accidental death insurance, and then poured myself too much wine, and then I went up and down the road with a lot of cars, praying every day that a car would rattle and kill me. When I died, I should have fallen asleep, but then I ......"

"What happened next?"

Anan struggled to endure hunger, sleepiness, despair, and other pains to communicate with me, and seemed to be more interested in my story.

"Later, when I was about to be hit by a car, I had someone save me. In the days that followed, I recognized that man as my godfather. He and his daughter-in-law, his daughter-in-law is also my godmother. The two of them have been instructing me to be hopeful about life, there is no threshold that cannot be passed, everything will be fine, and it is good to be alive. ”

My mind flashed back to the happy times with Lao Zhou before, when the kind godmother did not die, and Lao Zhou did not become a world-weary maniac who never left his mouth and smoked.

"It's not good for me to fight my life, to use the saying, it's the kind that can kill people, the kind that can kill people to death. I first killed my biological parents, then killed my adoptive father and adoptive mother, and then killed my godmother, and even my godfather was choked by me, so my godfather doesn't have much hope for life now. But after the enlightenment of my godfather, my spirit improved a lot, I tried to live hard, and promised to give my beloved girl a good life and a future to look forward to. ”

I rarely found someone to talk to, so I began to tell all kinds of past events as I wanted: "It's also a fucking good, I can use what my parents left me." So I began to rely on these skills to become a charlatan, specializing in deceiving those who have ghosts in their hearts, what money is dirty, what money I earn. ”

"What's next?"

Anan was a good observer, and when he saw that I meant to tell a story to vent his emotions, he let me continue to talk about it.

"Actually, I'm not a human being, I blinded a child's eyes, disabled an old man, and wasted a passionate young man full of ambition."

I looked around, as if I was afraid that my old karma would come back to me: "Then I was arrested and sent to prison, my godfather gave up his old face to find a relationship, and spent money to compensate the families of the victims, and in the end I was imprisoned for two years." After I came out, I knew that I belonged to the kind of person whose heart is higher than the sky and whose life is thinner than paper. So I gave up on myself even more, frantically making money from the wrong side, and became more arrogant. The Taoist practices I cultivated when I was a child decayed step by step as my heart changed. Later, when I went out to cheat again, I ran into a terrible ghost who was really awesome in Taoist cultivation, so I let the ghost be thrown down from the sixth floor and fell to death. ”

"Then you didn't die, you became a yin?"

Anan seems to have guessed the development of the subsequent plot.

I couldn't tell the existence of the system mother, so I lied and said, "Yes, I came back to life and became this bird." Although the amount of food and sleep gradually decreased, I did not lose my seven emotions and six desires, and everything was no different from a normal person. After experiencing this catastrophe of life and death, my mind has undergone an indescribable change, and I inexplicably desire to live, but I don't know what the purpose of living is, so I am so confused and lose myself. ”

"Then do you have any reluctance?"

Anan appropriately asked me to find my own answers.

"Yes, I don't give up the person I love, and I haven't given her a home yet."

I kept walking forward, but my eyes were chattering: "I still have two friends, one who is not online every day, and now he knows that he is stable, and he is still looking for his daughter-in-law." What he wants most is face, and he is still my best brother, so I have to pay for him to dress up a gorgeous wedding that I don't see the ancients before and the people who don't come after. ”

"Another friend I just met in the past few days, he said that he wanted to become an immortal, and I didn't take what he said as a joke. If...... I said that if I had the ability, I would help him become an immortal. Even if it doesn't work, I will find a way to make him a yin like me, after all, no matter how small the official position is, it is meat. ”

"That's right! I also have a godfather who is my savior. I have to provide for him to die, and I have to have a child in the future with his surname, he said that what he is most afraid of is that there is no successor, and he said that what my godmother wants most is a child. ”

"I still have ......"

I wanted to go on and on, and in the end I found that there seemed to be nothing else worth accomplishing, and the abrupt awkwardness of this abrupt end pierced my heart and tormented my nerves.

But my mind suddenly flashed the appearance of Gou Chang, so I gritted my teeth and paused for a moment before speaking: "I still know an old man, he is dead, he is dead in my hands." Before I died, I asked him to return his spiritual throne to the underworld, and I promised him, so I tried to do it by all means. ”

"Look...... That's not a lot of burden. ”

Anan didn't even reply to all my words.

"Hmm...... It's a lot when you think about it. ”

I shook my head helplessly and smiled from the bottom of my heart

The mind is full of the appearance of the old sister, Fang Fatzi, Yu Xiang Roushi, Lao Zhou and other four people, at this moment they seem to be glowing, that is the light that belongs to hope.

I seem to understand what I'm going to live for.

This grudge has been held for so long, and it is finally released.

As soon as I finished speaking, I fell silent, not talking to her, looking down at the road, and thoughtfully following her heels.

I waited for nearly an hour.

The two of us walked to the Qilingshan Cemetery, which is located on the edge of Lubei District.

Qilingshan Cemetery was popular for burial in the early years, and in the later period of the national land reform, burial was not allowed, and cremation was carried out, but there were still people secretly selling and supplying corpses to the cemetery in this Qilingshan Cemetery.

Obviously, Anan chose a good tomb for Xiao Chen in this feng shui treasure land, at least away from the hustle and bustle, and it is very quiet with mountains and rivers.

Anan, who was familiar with the road, led me down a remote path that avoided the guards and gates, and walked up the path for about five minutes, stopping at a grave.

The lid of the coffin in the tomb had been lifted, and the inside of the lid was scratched by countless human fingernail clasps, leaving dry blood stains in the scratches.

The soil that should have been filled in was also dug up from the middle, as if the corpse lying in the coffin had cheated the corpse in the middle of the night, and in search of fresh blood, it crawled out of the coffin on its own.

"Put him back, he'll be buried here when he's dead."

Anan half-squatted on the edge of the grave pit, scooping up a handful of loess with hands as pale as snow and swollen blood vessels: "This cemetery was chosen by me and him, but I didn't expect him to run out of here later and return home." Fortunately, his mother had a heart attack because of her son's suicide, and his father was in the hospital, and there was no one at home, otherwise more than one person might have died. ”

"Alas! The world is impermanent! ”

I sent Xiao Chen's body into the coffin, put his posture straight, clasped his hands in the anger, and then turned on the yin qi, and used the "tiger might" to pretend to be forced, scaring and scaring the living grave ghosts in this cemetery: "This person's soul is gone, if any of you dare to stab and be interesting to this corpse, then don't blame my subordinates for being ruthless, you all know what my identity is, right?!"

However, no ghost answered me.

"You don't have to do this set, few of the grave ghosts you can bring to the cemetery are bad ghosts, and Xiao Chen's corpse still has the aura of means left behind when you attacked him just now, so these grave ghosts don't dare to act rashly."

Anan and I worked together to close the lid of the coffin as he spoke, erasing the last trace of Xiao Chen's imprint in the yang world.