But what people are most afraid of is not to see themselves clearly, and when they see themselves clearly, they know that they are so incompetent and insignificant. It was as if he had been thrown into a dark cul-de-sac, and he was rampage through it, not knowing that there was nothing but a dead end ahead.

And, just when he still had the last glimmer of hope, someone suddenly kindly told him not to struggle, there was a dead end ahead.

All at once he was quiet, depressed, and gone.

All the motivation and hope that had supported him to stand up in the face of difficulties and hardships again and again for so many years and to rejoin the battle was suddenly gone, and he felt at a loss that he had never felt before, and he didn't know what he was working so hard for every day.

One of the things he looked forward to the most every day was to get off work and return to his own world, to be able to see butterflies, to see her smiling at him, to hear her tell him about the events of the day, to walk the streets arm in arm with her......

Although everything seems insignificant, he is so content, it is really all he has. But now it all disappeared out of thin air, so quickly, so quickly, so suddenly, so suddenly, he was not prepared at all.

The point is, he didn't know the reason at all. He wasn't afraid of failure, he was just afraid that it would be meaningless and wouldn't even give him a chance to struggle.

For the first time, he drunk himself that night and drank until dawn, feeling that his liver and intestines were broken.

The butterfly did move away, and she also experienced a painful entanglement and reflection during this process.

The first thing she thought about was the child.

After the phone call that day, she decided to get rid of the child, obviously it was an unwelcome gift, and since it was not welcome, then it should be removed as soon as possible.

Once you have made up your mind, it is much easier and easier, and it seems that all your previous doubts and difficulties have been solved.

Isn't it the last time I went to the operating table, and it took less than an hour to get rid of this annoying trouble? And then she came back, still herself, still the butterfly, there is nothing in this world that cannot be solved.

Suddenly, she seemed to have unloaded all her mental baggage.

Determined, from now on to leave the diving bird, life from now on in two, no more related, yes, after this child is gone, the world of the two of them will be separated from now on.

She knew that sooner or later the diving birds would come to her house to look for her, so she decided to move away. The first thing she thought of was Gao Ruohan.

Since she married Bi Yuchen, the house she lived in was empty.

Butterfly thought that she would move to her first, and then replace the house here and find another place to live. Since it is to be finished, it should be done simply and thoroughly, and it should never be dragged into the mud.

She thought indignantly, doesn't your mother dislike me, it's okay, I can live alone, you just follow your mother's wishes, I don't stand in your way, we are destined to be fate in this life.

Thinking of this, he looked up to the sky with great compassion and sighed a few times, wiping the hot tears that fell from the corners of his eyes.

The next day, she came out of the unit and went straight to the hospital.

I registered, and then entered the outpatient clinic of the obstetrics and gynecology department. But the strange thing is that before her, she may have come to see a patient with infertility, and the doctor who saw the patient was obviously full of compassion and pity, and he did not like to see a patient like Butterfly who was about to have a cruel abortion.

Before entering the routine diagnosis process, Wu Zi said a lot of nonsensical things to the butterfly there, saying that a good child, why not? So many people in order to have a child, hard work, hardship, do not hesitate to spend financial resources and manpower just want a child, what kind of world is this now? So easily decided not to have children? It is also a life, and I don't want to think about how hard life is, at that moment, he is alive, how can he make such a decision so miserably......

Hearing this, the butterfly was surprised and surprised, and I was stunned for a long time, not knowing what to say.

The doctor's eyes were full of sorrow, as if he were looking at a living executioner. And Butterfly, the beautiful but cruel executioner, was murderously carrying a cold butcher's knife, ready to slash at an innocent life—

No matter how much helplessness and tears are hidden behind this decision and act, the act itself seems to be condemnable.

There she alone condemns the world, this unforgiving human society. Since the miscarriage, how many children are killed every day in this city? Has anyone counted it? The numbers must have been terrifying, probably greater than the number of murders in the concentration camps of the world wars. And it's still going on.

Sometimes reason itself is a cruel pattern of behavior.

The butterfly's weak body shook in the outpatient room. She propped up the corner of the table with her hand, lest she would fall down against the tide of public opinion.

Then the doctor with broad feelings actually said something that made the butterfly even more jaw-dropping: If you want to have an abortion, you are not in a hurry today, go back and discuss it with your husband again, you see that you are not young anymore, it is not easy to have a child after all, some people do this child, they may not have children for the rest of their lives, be cautious!

The butterfly inexplicably walked out of the outpatient room, as if it had been hit by an evil spirit, wandering in the hospital corridor for a long time in a trance, and saw many pregnant women on the side, waiting with sweet smiles under the care of their families.

The butterfly suddenly seemed to understand a little, cleared up, and saw a small way out in the midst of many obstacles.

Thought: What are you doing here? Why do you have to get rid of this child? He is not only a diving bird, but also his own, a part of himself......

Even if there is no diving bird in this life, if he is still by his side and raised him, maybe this is another meaning of life.

When I think about it carefully, I feel that I am actually full of some indescribable feelings for this life I have not yet met, so soft, but so strong......

In this week, Butterfly made three strange decisions in her life: the flow of people, changing houses, and raising this child.

What wonderful animals man is!

Life is also so strange, if you don't meet that strange doctor, maybe Butterfly is at ease at this time. But once she decided to give birth to this child, Butterfly suddenly felt that she had never been so important in her life.

Once she decided that she wanted to give birth to this child, she suddenly became very affectionate, and it seemed that she could already feel that the living form in her belly was already beginning to talk to her.