19, the story of reluctance

When I returned to my room, I still had the scene of the three beauties fighting in my mind, a picture of a beautiful woman, a romantic picture, lingering in my mind.

I slowly calmed my emotions, took out the phone, and dialed Senior Brother Qingfeng.

Soon Senior Brother Qingfeng's voice came from the phone, "Bang Bang, have you finished dinner?" ”

I replied softly, "It's so late, of course I'm done eating." How about you have a drink with Uncle Feng, right? ”

Senior Brother Qingfeng smiled, "I haven't seen you for such a long time, Uncle Feng and I definitely want to have a drink, so many good things have been gathered together, and we are together in our hometown, how can we not have a drink or two?" How are you? Went to class for students again, right? It is still necessary to combine work and rest, since it is a holiday, rest and rest, relax and relax, don't make yourself so tired, unfinished work, unfinished work, learn to rest at work, work after rest, Lenin said that people who will not rest will not work, you must pay attention to your body, you must do a combination of work and rest, okay? ”

A warm current flowed all over my body, and Senior Brother Qingfeng's warm words made me feel extremely happy, and the fatigue of the day was dissolved with this warm current, "Except for Jiang Feifei, several of us are eating here at Shen Xiaofu, and after eating, a few friends are doing beauty projects, so I called you during this time, and I didn't care when I was together, and I felt that I missed you very much when I was separated, and I wanted to know if you were okay now, so I called you." ”

Senior Brother Qingfeng said kindly, "Okay, just two days apart, you are really like what others say, you haven't seen you for a day like three autumns, I know that you are thinking about me every day, as soon as the matter here is over, I will go back immediately, and in two more days, won't we be together again?" You've become a clingy girlfriend now, take good care of yourself and have a good rest. ”

At the advice of Senior Brother Qingfeng, I hung up the phone and immersed myself in happiness.

The phone rang for a while, and when I pressed the answer button, Dong Chunjiao's voice came from the phone.

Dong Chunjiao spoke a little slurred, "Teacher Jiang, I'm Dong Chunjiao, do you have time now?" ”

I pulled my thoughts out of that romantic picture and said to Dong Chunjiao, "I accompanied my friend to Shen Xiaofu's company today, there is nothing else, do you have anything?" ”

Dong Chunjiao still said slowly, "I have something to do, I just want to talk to you, but I can't say it clearly on the phone, it's really very depressing." ”

This student must have something on his mind, he had a lot of fun yesterday, why is his mood a little reversed today? I put a question mark in my heart, "Actually, I don't have anything else, if you are not afraid of being late, come to me, I am alone in the standard room, after you come, the two of us can be together, what can we have a long talk all night?" ”

Dong Chunjiao was still a little hesitant, "It's too late, I'm afraid my father won't let me go out." ”

I know that this little girl must have something very important, "Then I'll call your father, and then you can take a taxi over, don't take the bus yourself, I'm not worried about you alone at such a late hour, call a taxi, I'm more relieved, two points in a straight line." ”

Dong Chunjiao didn't look happy at all, "Then please help me make a phone call with my father." ”

So I dialed Professor Dong's phone, explained the situation to him, and called Dong Chunjiao back and asked her to take a taxi.

After putting down the phone, I began to wonder in my heart, Dong Chunjiao had a good time yesterday, and her mood was reversed, why did she have such a big emotional change in just one day? Did you have an awkward fall out with his father? Or is there another reason, there must be a reason for not wanting to say it, or a major event, otherwise, he wouldn't have asked me for help so late, this is a very steady girl, according to his current performance, something must have happened that he can't bear, so I hope to sit like a familiar person, around her, I have been in contact with her the most recently, because of the same age, and this teacher-student relationship, Dong Chunjiao's choice of confiding object is me, there is nothing strange about it.

The key is what makes her so sleepy, it's so late, and she's still in a hurry to find me, and she doesn't talk as neatly as usual, but seems to squeak and whine when she speaks, and she hesitates to talk about things, this unusual performance has alerted me, but I can't think of anything that can cause him to change so much.

Among the three female students in contact, Dong Chunjiao is a bit of a boy's character, straightforward and cheerful, and is a more open person among girls of the same age, in life and learning, no difficulties can scare her, since what she wants to talk about makes her mood change so much, and it is difficult to speak, I didn't expect it to be her mother's matter that made her drill again, then it is necessary to persuade her.

At this time, Zhang Lili blushed, entered my room, and said to me with a smile, "What are you doing alone in the room?" They don't come out to talk to me. ”

I also smiled and said, "It's fun, look at your face and know that you are excited, let's have fun here, so many projects, do a few more, the opportunity is rare." Take your two partners, let them enjoy it too, my second sister Shen Xiaofu is a hospitable person, you have to save her money, she is not happy, that is a bold Sichuan girl, don't live up to her kindness, today I invite you here, just to reward you, don't appreciate it. ”

Zhang Lili said to me with a happy face, "Mary Liu and Butterfly are really crazy, my physical strength really can't keep up with the two of them, so I ran out of there in advance, and they are still fighting freely there, and they are having a lot of fun." I didn't see you after I came out, so it's so boring for you not to accompany me. ”

I put my arm around her and said, "I originally wanted to accompany you, but I have a student, Dong Chunjiao may have a problem, and now he is rushing to me, I want to see what his situation is, and then decide whether to accompany you or not." Zhang Lili, many projects in this place are very suitable for a beautiful girl like you, completely relax, have a good time for a while, if I finish early, I'll go to you, do you think it's okay? ”

Zhang Lili was a little reluctant, "I see that the projects here are not cheap, I'm really a little embarrassed, if you're not by my side, it seems like I'm just going to eat other people's tofu, it's really a little embarrassing, you want to be my shield by my side, I'm still a little more comfortable." ”

I smiled and said to her, "It's easy to take such a long vacation, let's relax and relax, I can't leave because of the students, otherwise I want to relax." You tell me that other people's children trust me so much, and they come from home to talk to me about things, how can I be irresponsible to others? Besides, I will often bring you here in the future, once raw and twice cooked, my second sister is the boss here, our sisters are chic here, who can say anything? With me here, you don't have to be embarrassed, go and enjoy it. ”

Even persuaded Zhang Lili and sent Zhang Lili away, and I waited quietly for Dong Chunjiao's arrival in the room.

About ten minutes later, Dong Chunjiao came to my room.

After Dong Chunjiao entered the room, I saw that his face was very haggard through the light, and my heart suddenly became a pimple, what happened to this girl? With such an ugly face, I hurriedly stepped forward and took her hand and said, "Chunjiao, the weather is so cold, and the time is so late, what can't I talk about tomorrow, I'm really afraid of freezing you." ”

Dong Chunjiao looked at my amiable face, didn't say a word, but threw herself into my arms, crying, I suddenly felt a little panicked, and instantly I switched back to my emotions, patted her back gently, and slowly said to her, "Chunjiao, don't get excited, sit down and talk to me slowly if you have something, I'm waiting for you here, tell me anything, let's discuss it together." ”

Dong Chunjiao did not stop her sadness and tears, gently left my arms, and then slowly sat on the bed opposite me, tears are still flowing vigorously, full of grievances seem to be a stream that rushes through the floodgates, let the tears in the eyes rampage on this beautiful face, this pear blossom with rain crying, let a girl feel so weak, usually Dong Chunjiao's domineering spirit has disappeared, like a helpless seedling, just ravaged by the storm, let my heart also sad with him.

I held back my tears, controlled my emotions, and then picked up a tissue from the bedside table, and gently helped her wipe the tears off her face, but the tissue was used one after another, and the tears flowing from those beautiful eyes flowed like a sweet spring, and there was no intention to stop, as if to clean up the grievances with the tears, I couldn't find any words to comfort her for a while, so I could only help wipe the tears, and gently patted his shoulder with my little hand, Then use my cheek to close to her cheek and use my body temperature to lift her cold face.

I know that at this time, any language is pale and powerless, so I can only accompany her silently like this, let her clear the grievances in her heart with tears, and then be able to stop the sadness.

I silently calculated in my heart, this strong little girl must have encountered a major setback, the heart is full of grievances no one to confide, an inexplicable sadness, let her be like a poor kitten, snuggled up to me, I can only give her the temperature of the body, the smile on the face, the care in the eyes, this kind of companionship is like a bosom sister, and like a sister of a sibling, this scene is really very warm, creating such an atmosphere is to hope that her grievances will end as soon as possible, Her heart warmed up as quickly as possible.

This scene lasted for a while, the light in the room was still so dazzling, only the lamp at the head of the bed felt softer through the lampshade, through this soft light, I saw that her eyes slowly shed fewer tears, and her face gradually regained its glory, although there was still a little choking, but it was no longer as melancholy as when she first entered the door.

Seeing her mournful, I lost no time in comforting her and said, "Chunjiao, this is not your usual style, didn't you come here to talk to me?" What's the use of crying like this? I can't remember what happened to you, and I don't know what you thought in your heart, so the rest can only be here to be sad with you. Can you control your emotions a little, let's have a good chat, tell me everything you want to say, can't we both find a way to deal with it together? Let's talk about what the hell is going on. ”

When Dong Chunjiao was about to open her mouth to talk to me, those beautiful eyes were moist in the corners of her eyes, and a tear slowly flowed down the corner of her eyes to her face, I gently wiped the tears with a tissue, she took the tissue, wiped her eyes, and said softly, "Teacher Jiang, I carried my father on my back, and I went to see her secretly today." ”

I was really a little shocked when I heard the news, didn't Dong Chunjiao have a strong sense of rejection from his mother? How could he go behind his father's back to secretly meet his mother? I tentatively asked, "Did you see your mother?" ”

Dong Chunjiao nodded solemnly, and then said to me gently, "Teacher Jiang, I have no impression of the right since I was a child, I was only more than a year old when she left, and the slightest impression of her does not exist in my memory, maybe I haven't started to remember at that time, I have seen her countless times in my dreams, but now she is by my side, when I go to her and see her current appearance, it is not the same as the image in my dream." ”

I was still very cautious to chat with her, "What's the difference?" ”

Dong Chunjiao said to me softly, "Because my heart is full of resentment towards her, every time I dream of her, she is dancing with her teeth and claws, and you can see her horizontal flesh and a black heart from the outside." But now in front of me was a face very similar to mine, full of kindness and concern, and although I was very fierce to her, she still whispered so softly to me, and pulled me to look at me incessantly, as if she had been born to be tormented by me, and there was neither a verbal rebuttal nor a rebellion of action, but there she was silently weeping, with joy and kindness. It's a world of difference from the fierce person in my dream, it's like heaven and earth. These two images suddenly started a fight in my mind, which one is real and which one is fake? ”

Dong Chunjiao's question is mainly from the heart, the idea of counting first has become the situation in her dream, she abandoned her mother since she was a child, it must be vicious in her impression, so she needs to do her meticulous work again, let her accept this reality, "As the saying goes, think about it day and night, those dreams you have are because of your preconceived ideas, how can there be a mother in the world who doesn't love her daughter?" In fact, your mother is the same, the environment we are in now is very different from their situation at that time, and none of us knows the specific situation, so we can't blindly blame her, but should seriously understand her, slowly understand her, and gradually accept her. Because blood is thicker than water, she is your mother, and this fact can never be changed, right? ”

Dong Chunjiao whispered, "Teacher Jiang, I understand what you said, but I can't get over it anyway, the hurdle in my heart, no matter what the reason, why was she so ruthless at that time to throw her own daughter into an infant baby, to a man who is five big and three thick, to live her own beautiful life." What kind of ruthlessness does it take to do such a shameful thing, and what kind of courage does she have to face me today? ”

I looked at the stubborn face with the demeanor of the past, Dong Chunjiao's small face was shining, but her eyes were full of doubts, "Chunjiao, you must be very entangled in this matter, I think the past will take the lead for the time being, and you should solve the immediate matter first, that is, you should try to interact with your mother, and after a period of communication and affection, gradually reveal the doubts in your heart, and see what kind of person your mother is?" I think it may be safer to do this, and it can be accepted from your mother's heart, and it can be said from your father, after the two of you mother and daughter have established a family relationship, you may not be entangled in these things when you look back at them. She is suggesting that you calm down now, communicate with her well, and never hurt people again, mutual harm has no effect on solving the problem, in fact, I know that you can go behind your father's back to meet her, in her heart is already very satisfied. If you can try to get to know her, yes, you're going to be a good start to her, you're going to be your dad, you're a good start. ”

Dong Chunjiao looked at me, as if I had seen through her thoughts, in fact, there was a trace of mood hidden in the sadness, although the mouth was tough, the heart could not but be said to be a kind of comfort, the festival in her heart was just how to face her father who gave birth to her and raised her for so long, if she accepted her mother, then how to face her father?

But the desire for mother's love and curiosity about her mother made Dong Chunjiao at a loss for a while, unable to control her legs and feet, let alone her heart that had already flown out, and could only tell the truth in the face of Teacher Jiang, "Teacher Jiang, I really want to accept her, but it has caused damage to me for nearly 20 years, and damage to my father for more than 20 years, how can such an emotional gap be filled overnight?" We can do it without hating her, but if you want us to accept her, it's hard to do. ”

Although Dong Chunjiao confessed his determination and decision in front of me, in fact, he was answering his spiritual question, finding a reason for himself, so that the long-lost family affection could come back, let the mother in the dream become a loving face, and let the hatred that had been buried in his heart for nearly 20 years be converted into family affection.

I felt Dong Chunjiao's struggles in his heart, the entanglement in his heart, and the faint love in his heart for his mother, the constant bloodline, the constant family affection, not to mention the desire for maternal love. I smiled and said to him, "Chunjiao, what did you two say together?" It makes you feel so wronged. ”

Dong Chunjiao's face turned red, and she said to me excitedly, "Can I still have kind words when I see her?" In fact, I hate her from the bottom of my heart, the two of us live in two worlds, the only connection is this blood, biologically she is my mother, but in the emotional world, it is our enemy, such a ruthless and unrighteous woman, today pretended to come to see us, do you think I can give her any good face, what good words? I asked her why she suddenly came to disturb my life and my father's life, and I complained to her, who has not heard from her for more than 20 years, and who is this fake mercy played today? ”

In front of my eyes, Dong Chunjiao's eyes were wide open to her mother Fang Lingzi, and she made a generous statement, leaving the weak middle-aged woman speechless and embarrassed, how cruel this kind of scene is to a biological daughter, although on the surface, every question is a day's blood and tears, every accusation is a blood, and every word represents a sense of anger.

I really don't want to stay in my mind for this kind of scene, the confrontation between the mother and daughter who have a deep grudge is a tear of family affection, a rebellion against blood, and a torture of a poor daughter and a poor mother, but the conversation still has to continue, "You are so fierce, what is your mother's reaction?" ”