Volume 1 Sleepwalking for the Male God 006-What is happiness
Thinking that this was Ouyang Mi's dream, Xi Xi understood that the colored part was the actual situation of the day, and it was also the scenery in Ouyang Mi's dream, while the black and white was the scenery in front of Xu Sheng's eyes, which was the fusion of the dreams of the two people, so there was such a magical scene.
"What the hell have I done wrong, you are going to do this to me!"
Following the prestige, they saw two figures on the forest path. This dream is different again, they are not participants, but just spectators. Knowing this, they quietly approached.
"You know you're the one I like!" She threw herself into his arms and hugged him tightly, "I don't want to lie to myself anymore!" I don't care what I am now, and I don't care what hardships you have, as long as you say that you love me, I will go with you, no matter how much it costs, I am willing! ”
Xi Xi saw Xu Sheng's trembling hand and pushed her away.
At this time, Xu Sheng's face beside her became very ugly: "It's not like this, I didn't push her away directly!" ”
"It's not necessarily true, it just means that she thinks so in her heart." Chu Tapir spoke, it has reached this point, and there is nothing to hide, as long as this Xu Sheng is not stupid, he should guess something.
Xu Sheng glanced at the talking orange cat, and sure enough, he didn't react, but was a little sad about the situation in the dream: "So that's what she thinks......"
"I'm leaving, thank you for being with me." Her eyes darkened.
Their feet seemed to be stepping on floating clouds, even if they didn't take a step, their bodies would move on their own, and they stayed near Ouyang Mi.
This time, he saw clearly, she cried, cried very sadly. On the same day, she bought a train ticket and left the county.
When she returned home and cried for three more days, it seemed that her tears had dried up, she washed her face with cold water, picked up her mobile phone and dialed a number: "What you said, I agreed." Ignoring the excitement and excitement on the other end of the phone, she added, "I just came back from a business trip, I am very tired, I need to rest, and I will come back to discuss the details with you in a few days." ”
He remembered that at the same time, he received a message from his buddy: "Brother, I'm getting married, buddy must come for a drink!" ”
It turned out that her buddy proposed to her, but she still couldn't let go of it, so under the pretext of a business trip, she went to the county seat to test his mind. What she said was true, and as long as he said yes, she would stay in the county seat with him. But he didn't, she was heartbroken, so she hurriedly married herself off.
She didn't let go, she was just running away and forgetting herself with marriage. Will such a marriage really be happy? He couldn't help but twitch in his heart, he suddenly regretted a little, did he really do the right thing by choosing such a way?
She pulled out a large storage box, which contained all the memories about him and her. He found that there was really everything in it, all the news in the school newspaper with his name on it, the notes he wrote to her during class, even the scratch paper he used to doodle, she kept it.
His memories with her were pitiful, and there were only a handful of things he had given her, and it took her a lot of effort to collect this box full of memories.
He recognized the pen, which she had said when she said that her pen was broken and asked him to borrow it, and then she had borrowed it or not, and when she asked her to ask for it, she said that she had lost it, and bought a new one and returned it to him, so he took it and didn't think about anything else. It turned out that it was the first time they exchanged tokens.
He also remembered the ring of the can, when she was talking about the ring with her tablemate, he happened to be drinking Coke, so he casually broke off the ring and threw it on her table: "What kind of ring, it's not very good!" ”
I saw her pick up the paper one by one, slowly tear it open, and tear it to powder. After tearing it up, it seemed that he was still not angry, so he took a stainless steel basin and lit the confetti, while fiddling with it until it was all burned to ashes.
Then she cut the ring of the can with scissors and threw it in the trash; The pen was also broken and also thrown into the trash.
She disposed of them one by one, each one destroyed to the fullest, to erase the traces of her memory. In the end, there are a few photos left, one is the photo they won by guessing the lantern riddle in the literary street of the Confucian Temple, and the rest is the photo she forced him to take when he was in college. There was also a graduation photo, and he was standing behind her.
She held the picture in her hand and looked at it for a long time, until a few tears fell on it, blurring the figure.
She raised her hand to wipe away her tears, picked up the scissors, and without further hesitation, cut them into the brazier, staring at them until they were reduced to ashes.
Xu Sheng was almost unsteady on his feet, if it wasn't for the dream, he must have fallen down at this moment. He never thought that he would hurt her so deeply, he never knew that her love for him was far deeper than he had imagined.
Looking at her destructive behavior, he could feel that she was digging out her heart hard, bloody, and then burning it with fire, and breaking off love from then on.
When the ashes were cool, she slowly emptied it into the trash can, and along with the discarded pen, into the large trash bin downstairs. She deleted all his contact information and cut it off again.
However, when she was packing up, she found that the floor was burned black by the brazier. She couldn't help but smile bitterly, erasing all traces, but leaving a new mark that could not be erased.
In the following days, she smiled brightly when she went out, happily engaged to his buddy, looking at the wedding dress; When I got home, I was like a walking corpse, and I didn't think about tea and dinner.
Two months later, they started writing invitations, and he said, "We should call him, right?" ”
She said, "I'll call that person myself." ”
On the way back, she passed by a wedding shop and saw invitations on display. She chose the most beautiful one, wrote it herself, and sent it by courier. He knew that it was the one he had received, and she hadn't called him.
Although all his contact information had been deleted, those Chinese, those numbers, lingered in her mind, without the slightest thought, as if written instinctively, without any mistakes.
The next day he showed her the invitation he had written, and asked her if she had missed anything.
She read the invitations one by one: "No, it's complete, I don't have any relatives and friends." ”
"That's good, you ...... Mi, what's wrong with you? ”
He tossed the invitation aside and carried her into the hospital.
"Xiaomi, are you okay, we are about to get married, you have to raise yourself healthy and be the most beautiful bride in the world."
"Gu Xuan, I'm ......" she wanted to say but stopped.
He smiled and said: "Xiaomi, if you have anything, you can say it, we are going to get married, you don't have to worry so much." ”
"We ...... Break up......" She lowered her head, not daring to look at him.
"What do you say?" Gu Xuan's face was full of incredulity, and he reached out to touch her forehead, "I don't have a fever, why are you confused?" ”
"Gu Xuan, I'm serious, I've never been so sober."
"Are you crazy, one moment we are still writing invitations, and the next moment you are saying that you are going to break up!"
She raised her head, tears shining in her eyes: "Gu Xuan, I'm sorry for you." But I can't forget him, I've tried so hard to forget, but I can't forget it! ”
Gu Xuan's eyes were red: "You only said such things to me at this time?" ”
"I thought I could make a fool of myself, I thought I could burn my memories like photos and live a good life with you, but I couldn't! It wasn't until I fainted just now that I completely figured it out, I can't forget, I can't marry you. If he doesn't love me, then I'll live a good life alone, instead of just looking for someone to marry in order to forget him. ”
"Maybe one day, I can really let go, but now I can't. I can't marry you, I'm afraid I'll be unable to resist running away with him at the wedding. ”
"Huh!" Gu Xuan laughed angrily, "I should have known that this was the case, we have been together for so long, you never let me touch, I should have known that you have always had someone else in your heart." ”
"I'm sorry, I don't want to disappoint you, but if I go on like this, I'll only hurt you more......"
"Huh, excuse me? Sorry for the use! Your love is so great, one is willing to sacrifice, the other is obsessed, then what am I! If you're together like this, why are you pulling me in? ”
"Gu Xuan, what are you talking about, what are you willing to sacrifice?"
"Nothing, I was dizzy. Very good, Ouyang Mi, I really should thank you, thank you for mentioning the breakup now, and not embarrassing me at the wedding! He gritted his teeth.
"Gu Xuan, I'm sorry for you. I owe you anything but affection. I won't embarrass you, I'll get out of here and disappear in front of you forever. "She tried to make amends.
"I don't need you to pay it back, I want you to owe me forever, and I want you to feel guilty for the rest of your life! But remember what you said, disappear in front of me forever! ”
Gu Xuan left angrily, leaving only Ouyang Mi sitting on the hospital bed crying. Xu Sheng wanted to touch her hair, wanted to comfort her, but couldn't touch it.
He also wanted to try to touch her, but saw a bright light, and several people returned to the river, the gray world.
"No wonder you can't dream of her wedding, because they weren't married at all!"
"I ...... Isn't it...... Done wrong? He began to reflect.
"Of course you're doing something wrong! You say that your happiness is her, then do you know that her happiness is you! She loves you so much, she won't mind your eyes, and she won't care if the days to come are bitter or not, only with you will she be happy! Xi Xi said excitedly, she thought of her senior, for the sake of her senior, she can also give everything.
"That'...... What am I going to do? "He really regretted it.
"Go to her and make up for what you missed before!"
"But where is she now, and how am I going to find her?" He asked anxiously.
"Don't worry, since you can dream of her this time, you can still do it tomorrow. It's almost time, I'm going back, it's still here tomorrow, you wait for me, I'll take you to find her through dreams! ”
"I want to go to her right now!" He had never had such a strong desire to see her.
"No, I have to go back and prepare first, otherwise you won't be able to dream of her!"
"Alright then, I'll wait for you."
"Well, you can go back too, see you tomorrow."
"How's it going, are you tired?" Xi Xi saw the orange cat's tired face.
"It's not that the aura is too weak now, which has greatly reduced my cultivation, if it is at my peak, I can take him to sleep immediately."
"Then you're okay, can you take him to Xiaomi at night?"
"Don't worry, I can recover after a sleep and a little food, it's just a dream, I can still do it." The orange cat yawned, jumped onto the sofa chair, and soon let out a whirring sound.
Xi Xi took a piece of cake and put it on the table, waited for it to wake up and ate it by himself, and then gently closed the door.