28, The Story of Reluctance (10)

The sun had already illuminated the curtains, and Fang Lingzi woke up early.

In order to let her husband, who came from afar, rest for a while, Fang Lingzi got out of bed gently, put on her clothes, pushed open the door, and walked out of the motel.

In the east, a round of red sun is rising, the horizon is sprinkled with bright sunshine, the colorful glow in the sky is like a soft joke fluttering in the air, the distant skyline, big trees and tall buildings outline different curves, fresh air, beautiful weather, endless plains, Fang Lingzi let out a long breath.

After two years of longing was relieved, a heavy decision has been pressing on her heart, facing this foreign land, how to tell her husband about her decision? How can you convince him? These two questions have been haunting his heart, like a big rock weighing her breathlessly.

Two years have changed so fast, and so have changed.

When she came to the United States from China, Fang Lingzi did not have so much joy in her heart, because of her attachment to her children, her husband, and her family, from the far east, to the land of the United States, she was extremely reluctant, for a long time, whether she had her eyes open or closed, the cute baby little face had been lingering in her mind, this is the power of maternal love, this is the nature of mother and daughter, cutting the bloodline and family affection. It was not easy to get through this difficult period.

The next step was intense study and intense thesis defense, and the master's thesis defense was successfully passed. After arriving in the United States, it is more convenient to search for English papers, absorb the latest views, enrich the thesis, and add a lot of references, Fang Lingzi's master's thesis is very level, even in a high-end academic institution such as the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, this master's thesis is also very level, and the experts who participated in the defense have given high praise, and finally passed the defense of the master's thesis with excellent results and got a master's degree.

Next is heavy scientific research, Carmen is a doctoral supervisor with a high academic status in the American academic community, led a low-temperature supercritical materials project team, is an efficient and extremely high academic level team, as an exchange scholar to participate in this team, Fang Lingzi is the only person in this regard, but also one of the few Chinese at that time, originally in the country has made a lot of preparations, but after putting into work, only she knows how big the gap with others is, can only use the current efforts to shorten these gaps.

Hungry for learning has become her norm, every day to go to the Massachusetts Institute of Technology to listen to the relevant courses about the project topic, and then go to the library to check a series of related materials, although there is no problem with the English level, but the professional vocabulary still needs a lot of accumulation, the world is racing related topics, Professor Carmen led this research group is the leader, not only has a considerable gap with other countries' research groups, but also in depth and breadth is also incomparable with other countries' research groups. This requires participants to have a higher academic level, a wider field of knowledge, and a more sensitive ability to innovate.

As a female scholar from China, Fang Lingzi doesn't want anyone to look down on herself and her country, so she has to use unimaginable efforts and extraordinary perseverance to complete the gap in her knowledge level and academic level.

Query scientific and technological information and read scientific and technological papers, and the general reading and understanding is essentially different, these frontier areas of scientific research results, not only to make excerpts, to be familiar, but also to become their own things in their minds, the knowledge and innovative ideas, digest, and form their own innovation ability, everyone in the team is responsible for a field, not only to cooperate with each other, but also to have an innovative fit, so that in the innovation of the scientific research team can achieve results, different ideas, different ways, Different technologies, the results achieved are not the same, people who do scientific research take innovation as the direction of their own efforts, and this innovation must conform to the laws of science, it is very easy to master knowledge, technology, and methods, but to master the laws of science and technology, it is a difficult subject.

Her love for science and her study of topics have become the only thing in her life. Only by filling all her schedule with work and scientific research, and only by filling all her thoughts with study and work, can she forget her motherland, her relatives, and the baby who is still in her infancy.

With the gradual advancement of scientific research, the level of knowledge and technology has been greatly improved, and a great deal of innovation has been carried out in the technical route, this young female scientist from China, bold views, bold attempts, so that all people are impressed, scientific research is an unknown world, new ideas, new routes, new methods, has achieved a series of major results, the formation of scientific research reports by Professor Carmen attention.

This scientific research team because of a young Chinese female scientist joined, accelerated the process of scientific research, changed the route of scientific research, formed a series of scientific research results, a number of weighty papers published in international journals, Professor Carmen led the scientific research group has become a star team of MIT, Fang Lingzi devoted herself wholeheartedly, but also won the respect of colleagues, scientific research is magical, once invested can not extricate yourself, as a scientist, the investment in scientific research projects, It has the potential to be fascinating.

It is these two years, the work of forgetting to sleep and food, from the very reluctance, to the paralysis of your work, now it is a conscious and voluntary investment, now the scientific research project is at a critical stage, seeing that the time of exchange is about to expire, at this time, if the scientific research process is interrupted, all the previous efforts are in vain, in the face of his own more than two years of hard work, Fang Lingzi made a decision in his heart that surprised him, it wants to complete this scientific research project, to stay in the United States, and achieve the final scientific research results.

What does this mean? Although two years of living in the United States have obtained a green card, the immigration policy of the United States is open to scientists, especially scientists like themselves, the scientific community in the United States is also rare, and a series of scientific research achievements have established their academic status in the American scientific community, losing these, then the two years of hard work will be in vain, this is a responsible scientist, can not be allowed.

As an exchange scholar sent by the school, it is expected that if you do not return, it is equivalent to becoming the opposite of your own school, and your own growing child, who has not seen each other for two years, if you still want to persevere, you don't know when the time will be the end, which means that you have cut off the family relationship, you will completely lose the time to accompany your daughter's growth, there is no experience of living together, and there is no footprint of your own mother at every node of his growth, can the child accept it?

The most unspeakable thing for her is her husband, thinking that her husband sacrificed his quota in exchange for his own study abroad, and now he doesn't go back, he still lives in that school, and he has to continue his life in that working environment, what will others think of him? According to what he knows about his husband, he is a man who loves his country more than everything, can he accept his choice?

The sun had completely risen, and the sun was shining on the earth, but Fang Lingzi's heart was still gloomy, and he silently returned to the motel room.

Dong Jianjun had already gotten up, saw his wife coming back from outside, greeted him warmly, opened his arms, and hugged his wife who he had missed for two years.

After lingering for a while, the two walked out of the room holding hands and had breakfast in the motel's restaurant.

After eating, the two of them packed their luggage, and Fang Linzi drove the second-hand Lincoln car and left the motel.

The car was running on the field, Fang Lingzi glanced at Dong Jianjun affectionately, and said kindly, "I see that you slept very well last night, and now it's a bit past the jet lag." ”

Dong Jianjun smiled honestly, "It's really comfortable to rest for a night, with you by my side, the recovery will be faster." ”

When Fang Lingzi heard him say this, she giggled, "You are so funny, you are about to call me a living immortal, where do I have that function?" ”

Dong Jianjun also smiled, "But I haven't seen you for two years, you are really dashing now, completely become a Westerner, there is no Chinese reserve, time is really tempering." ”

Fang Lingzi looked at her husband carefully with those beautiful eyes, and said easily, "Jianjun, I have a very important matter I want to discuss with you, what do you think?" ”

When Dong Jianjun heard her say this, he stopped laughing, "What's the matter?" ”

In order to ease the atmosphere, Fang Lingzi said softly, "The project I am working on now is in a critical stage, I want to work in the United States for a while longer, and then go back after the completion of this scientific research project, do you think it's okay?" ”

Dong Jianjun's eyes widened suddenly, "This matter is not discussed between the two of us, this is not a family matter, your exchange time is two years, there is an agreement between schools, what does it mean if you don't go back on time?" That means that you did not return to your home country on time, violating organizational discipline, and the school will not allow it. ”

Fang Lingzi knew the seriousness of the matter, and since she had talked about it, she could only bite the bullet and continue, "Can you submit another application to the school?" How about prolonging the conversation? ”

Dong Jianjun thought for a moment, and then asked, "Then how much time do you think it will take to complete this project in the United States?" There should always be a time limit so that you can apply to the organization. ”

Fang Lingzi said in a steady tone, "This time is really difficult to determine, you know, scientific research work is not as simple as we imagined, there is a lot of uncertainty, I don't know how long it will be extended, I don't know, in short, I just want to finish this one, otherwise, the huge efforts in the early stage are completely wasted, and this result is unacceptable." ”

Dong Jianjun's mind was highly operational, he knew that before Fang Lingzi opened his mouth to tell him about this matter, he might have made a decision in his heart, and now it seems that he does not want to discuss with himself, but to inform himself, "What if the organization does not approve it?" Your indefinite extension will certainly not be approved organizationally, do you want to renounce your citizenship? Are you going to quit your job from college? Not to mention the economic burden, even the political pressure is impossible to bear. ”

Fang Lingzi still said in a calm tone, "If the organization does not agree, I have to take the method of resignation, there is no financial problem, Professor Carmen promised to compensate the school for the loss, and return the two years of salary I received at the school, the key is to be able to reach an understanding, because scientific research is inseparable from me, and I can't do without this project now." ”

Although Fang Lingzi's tone was very calm, her tone was very firm, and Dong Jianjun was taken aback, "It seems that you are not discussing with me?" You've made up your mind, why didn't you talk to me before I came? Why did you bring this out when I first arrived in the United States? Have you already thought about it? ”

Fang Lingzi faced her husband's series of questions, but she still said unhurriedly, "How do you say these things on the phone?" With your temper, you may be in a hurry if you don't say three words, you see I just made a start, you are now with this attitude, how can we continue to talk? You dissipate your anger first, and let's talk slowly. ”

Dong Jianjun originally wanted to have a seizure, but when he saw Fang Lingzi's attitude, he held back his anger and said, "Then you can tell me all about your own thoughts, and the two of us can talk calmly, anyway, there are only two of us in this car, you can tell me what you think, and I will talk about my attitude after I finish listening." ”

Fang Lingzi thought that her husband had compromised with her, and said boldly with confidence, "MIT is willing to keep me, as a visiting professor, you can have a fixed income every year, scientific research work is paid separately, the conditions here are better, and the treatment is also very generous, mainly because of the scientific research team here, we have been running in for two years, and we have a very tacit understanding, at present, we are leading in the world in this project, and now we are making breakthroughs every day, making progress every day, you know this kind of project, the same scientists, You know what it means, so I've decided to finish it here, it could be a long time, and I hope you'll be patient and wait for me to return home when I'm done. ”

Dong Jianjun solemnly repeated, "Is this your last thought and final decision?" ”

Fang Lingzi nodded firmly, and said clearly, "Regarding the follow-up aftermath work, I have already negotiated with MIT, whether it is economic or otherwise, there is no problem, if you and your children are willing to come here, I will also dredge the relationship for you, with your ability and your knowledge, there will be a good arrangement, and the education of children here is also the best education, if our family of three lives here, it is a good middle-class family, and we can live a better life than in China, It can also give you a better job and a better education for your children. ”

Dong Jianjun couldn't hold back his temperament anymore, "Do you know the consequences of your doing this? ”

Fang Lingzi looked at her husband affectionately and muttered, "As long as you figure it out, I don't care about the other consequences." ”

Dong Jianjun said excitedly, "You call this betrayal, do you know? First of all, you betrayed the motherland that gave birth to me and raised me, then you betrayed the school, it was the school that sent you here for exchange, and then you betrayed the family, it is impossible for me and my children to live in the United States, I have such a good job in China, I have a house, I have a family and relatives, why should I leave my hometown and come to this foreign land? Think about it, which of our older generation of scientists didn't give up their good job pay? Which one has not given up on a good living environment, and what are they all for? In order to repay the motherland, it is to reach the land where I was born and raised. ”

Fang Lingzi heard Dong Jianjun's sonorous answer, but still didn't give up, "Don't you think about it anymore?" ”

Dong Jianjun said categorically, "There is nothing to consider about this, and it will never be considered." Because I love my motherland, I love my people, and I love the land that gave birth to me and raised me, and I will not betray, never! ”