I don't know what to do (He Lu)

How long does it take to forget a person.

One year, ten years, one lifetime.

Someone you will never forget, your enemy or your lover?

She's my enemy, and she's the one I've loved, and I've not forgotten her for ten years.

I remember the first time I saw her, she was 'sticking' into my throat with a golden hairpin, and I instinctively grabbed her, because at that moment, I seemed to see A-Niang, A-Niang, and she also ended her 'sex' life with a golden hairpin.

Ah Niang is a Han 'female'.I am a little bastard in all the mouths..

Growing up, when I was bullied by my brothers and sisters, I could only endure it silently, and if I resisted, I would be treated more viciously.

Why. Why am I the son of a Han woman?

I don't let my mother get close to me, because I know that as soon as she approaches me, what awaits her will be endless torture from Father Khan.

I saw my father Khan whipping her and cursing her. You are not allowed to come near my son.

Like me, A-Niang can only endure silently.

I secretly found a healing 'medicine' ointment for Ah Niang, and helped her apply the 'medicine', but my father Khan saw it, and Ah Niang was bullied again...... Father Khan bullied her in front of me.Venting like a beast**.A-Niang turned her head in pain.Crying.. Get out, get out, don't look...... Don't look.......

I listened to A-Niang's almost mournful shouting, and walked out of the big tent in a daze.

The sky here is always blue, the clouds are always low, sometimes the meadows are green, sometimes the sand is yellow.

I sat on the mound and looked at the sky and the land, and somehow tears soaked my clothes.

I would cry.

When my ribs were broken, when my blood vessels were cut, I didn't shed a single tear.

Shedding tears is a sign of cowardice on the part of a.

I stood up and swung my fist at the sky.

Immortality is above.Sooner or later, such days will end.I must.I must become the master of this land.Let me and my mother no longer be bullied.

However, Ah Niang finally left me, and ended the second half of her miserable life here with the only Han headdress she kept.

Looking at A-Niang in a pool of blood, her eyes were still wide open.

I'm not crying, and from now on, there's no one and nothing that can make me miserable.

I'm going to kill everyone, all the people who have bullied me, all the people who have bullied my mother.

I'm going to invade Xijing, and I'm going to make the Han people submit to me.

In the shadow of the sword and sword, I saw her who was about to end her life. Instinctively, I saved her, not because of her beauty, not because of her identity, just because of me. At that moment, I really saw Ah Niang.

Later, I found out that she was the empress dowager of the Han people.

Such a young Empress Dowager.

At first, I just wanted to make her my 'girl' slave and make the Han emperor ashamed.

But her stubborn expression, the warmth that she showed to me from time to time, made me want to hurt her for no reason, but I also knew that she was a Han woman. maybe, she just used her warmth to 'confuse' me. I tried it, but she didn't do anything to me, I decided to keep her.

She was obviously very weak, but she was so stubborn, she was obviously scared, but she still showed a fearless appearance, even in the face of Buzhen's whipping, she gritted her teeth and endured...... A-Niang, did you send her to comfort me, why are you with her, I am at ease, I can even sleep peacefully, I don't have nightmares, I don't go back to my childhood in my dreams.

I never thought I'd fall in love with a Chinese 'girl', but.

She hides a resolute heart under the cowardly exterior.I don't know when I was attracted to her.I don't want to hurt her.I want her to stay forever.。

I even ...... Took her to the Holy Lake, and even more amazingly, she said she saw our reflection in the Holy Lake.

The old man once said that everyone will have a calamity in their life, and she is my calamity.

But she always wanted to run away.

After an unsuccessful escape, I stepped up my guard against her.

Her body was as white as jade, whiter than a goat's milk, and it was a beautiful sight I had never seen before.

But she would only back away in horror and claim that I couldn't force her.

It's really impossible.

I really won't force her.I just hope she can forget the past.She really likes me.She is willing to give me her body.I don't want her to be like A-Niang.I hate my father Khan so much.I hate her father Khan so much.

I thought she liked me a little bit, otherwise, why was she looking at me so softly?

But that's just wishful thinking on my part.

I went to a thousand springs, and I realized how stupid I was.

She said that Min Min was a male pet.

That's clearly the regent of the Han people.

I deliberately followed her words and pretended to believe her, taking the opportunity to humiliate the little white face.

But I didn't want to fall into the trap of the little white face, and I lost a lot of cavalry, and even took her with me.

If it weren't for the exchange, she wouldn't have come back.

I don't know how I could have sent the regent back for her.

If the Han people don't have a regent, the court will definitely be like a plate of scattered sand, and when the time comes, it will be really easy for me to capture Xijing, but for the sake of a 'woman' who doesn't have me in my heart, I just give up.

What made me even angrier was that she looked at me twice, simply because I looked exactly like her dead husband.

Hateful 'female' people.

I'm going to torture you to death.

But I still can't bear it, as soon as she begs me, I will relent, save her from the soldiers, and take possession of her without saying anything.

If I hadn't been so self-conscious, I would have possessed her a long time ago.

I was expecting her heart, but her heart had already been taken away by the little white face.

She's beside me, she's become the walking dead, she has no soul.

Until the little white-faced emperor became the emperor, I took the opportunity to tell her that he already had a queen by his side, that there were many 'women', that he had forgotten her, and let her die before it was too late.

She wants to die in despair, but how can I allow her to die without my consent.

I saved her, and I had to possess her when she was at her most vulnerable, and I made her understand that she would not be back to anyone but me in this life.

Those two years were really the two most alive in my life.

It's just two years.

That little white face went out of his way to take her back, and even gave up killing me for her.

A man as stupid as I am.

She's gone, but I'm not willing to lose to that little white face for the rest of my life.

I married Bu Zhen, had several children, and hid for ten years, just to reclaim everything that belonged to the Turks in the prime of life.

This time the Turks went to war with the imperial court, and the person who came was the crown prince of the Han people.

When I saw that face, I laughed out loud and pointed to the young man and said. If it weren't for the fact that there was something wrong with the age, I would have suspected that you were my seed and hers...

The young prince's eyebrows and eyes are so much like her, but his jaws are very much like mine.

But the young prince's scheming was exactly the same as that of the little white face, and I lost it several times in his hands, and I almost suffered a great loss.

The battle lasted for more than a year, and in the end, I was defeated at the hands of the young prince.

He besieged me in the middle and said to me. I have heard my mother say about you, that you will not be soft on your enemies, that my father has allowed you to live ten more years, and that it is time for you to pay your debts.

I pursed my lips and said nothing, my eyes fixed on his eyebrows, as if I could see the woman.

He frowned slightly, and waved his hand to tie up my 'girl' and the children.

Just like I did to the rebels, this young man must have heard of it....... I pulled out the red headscarf she had worn from my bosom and smiled wryly.

The young prince dismounted, walked up to me, and handed me a whip.

I was stunned. This horsewhip ...... I remember, I remember, I gave it to her.

The young prince whispered. My father wants me to kill you, but the queen mother ...... If you will surrender, I will spare your life.

I looked at him and laughed.

Through the red 'colored' scarf, the young prince's eyebrows and eyes also softened...... I suddenly raised my hand, but he took a step back, I smiled, stared at his eyebrows, and said. You look so much like your mother...

He frowned, I glanced at my wife and children who were bound, and then at the boundless desert. One day, if your mother dies, remember, don't bury her in any mausoleum, transport her bones to the desert, and bury her here.......

The young prince frowned deeply and said coldly. If my mother goes, she will naturally be buried in the imperial tomb with my father.

.No.. I interrupted him firmly. This is where your mother would most like to be buried....... Buried here, unchanged through the ages.......

The young prince probably thinks I'm talking crazy.I won't fulfill that little white face when I'm dead.I just don't want to fulfill what.Occupy her when I'm alive.Won't I end my wish for her when I'm dead??

He turned around and said a word. Kill..

I felt as if someone had 'drained' all my strength, and I fell on the yellow sand, and the wind-blown red bandana covered my head, and I saw Ayujin and the children all lying in a pool of blood.

The red sunset fell on the end of the yellow sand, the wind in my ears was blowing, the goshawk in the sky was still hovering, I held the whip tightly in my hand, the Han army slowly retreated, my eyes refused to close.

The young prince did not look back again, his methods were as ruthless as mine, and he washed his path to the emperor with my blood.

There are no more Turks in this world.

If I didn't save you that year......