Lu Zhan was speechless.

"When we got married, was it me Song Xiang who was greedy for wealth and took the initiative to marry you?"

Lu Zhan lowered his head: "No." ”

"That's because I love the son, do I have to marry you?"

Lu Zhan was ashamed: "It's not." He knew she didn't like him, and he knew she was forced.

"Since it's not, what is the reason why the son of the world complained to me who saved you at the same time as the holy decree?"

Lu Zhan has no reason to talk about. "It's my youth and ignorance......"

Song Xiang snorted slightly and looked out the window: "I didn't think about anything else when I saved you, I just grabbed you." In the past, I saw injured cats and dogs also rescue, you are a big living person, how can I not care?

"But because I saved you easily, I got involved in such a marriage. That's fine, I thought that after marriage, everyone was polite and discussed, so that they could live a bad life for the better.

"But how did you react when the marriage was decided?

"You don't accept it. You are angry that your father and your grandfather have promised me such an uneducated wife, deprived you of the right to pursue the person you like, you have quarreled with your father and grandfather several times, although I did not live in Jingshi, but the rumors about me still reached my ears.

"Otherwise, your grandfather will send you to the barracks immediately on the night you get married because of this misunderstanding that you are dissatisfied with the marriage?"

Lu Zhan's face was red, and he didn't know how to respond.

"Thanks to you, I knew before I got married that I was going to be an unpopular princess. What am I doing wrong? Is it because I shouldn't have saved you, or do I blame a father who has a good reputation for learning, and is unlucky for your family to take a fancy to you?

"I didn't make trouble, but you made me weak? I'm married, and you're going to be out of temper for me?

"You went to the barracks after passing through the door, and what about me? I began to be pointed at, saying that there were many people who admired vanity and clinging to the powerful, and that I was not worthy of being a princess and a princess, and some people suspected that I had saved you with a heart, and then won the favor of the prince. And say that I am a broom star, and there are also those who have brought you down.

"I became a person with personal motives in the eyes of many people. What did you do when I was faced with this?

"Even though you've been in the camp for half a year, the rumors outside haven't subsided when you come back. You've never heard of anyone bullying me?

"If you treat me as a wife, then don't say that you have always treated me as a weak woman, even if I am a female general, as a husband, you have to stand up for me, don't you? Shizi, you are well aware of righteousness, don't you understand that defending me outside is safeguarding your own dignity? ”

"Then you don't accept me, and you don't have me in your eyes, dare to ask where I want to give birth to this trust in you? If you ignore me, do I have to firmly believe that you are definitely not deliberately abandoning us? ”

Lu Zhan lowered his head, as if he was pressed by the boulder and couldn't raise his head.

Song Xiang looked at the sparrow outside the window, and continued: "That night, when you saw that the masked man was me, you were so shocked that you couldn't even say anything, but obviously before we got married, our Song family wrote all the in-laws of our previous three generations to your family. But you never thought that I would be able to do martial arts, and you never thought that I still needed to be attached to you.

"But I don't understand, since I am a weak woman in your mind, didn't you think that I, a weak woman, also need to be taken care of when you left Beijing?

"You are so relieved that I, a weak woman, will stay in Tanzhou with two children? Tell me, what is the truth of this? ”

Lu Zhan clenched his teeth, and his palms were already clenched.

"I really don't understand your logic. Of course, now that things are said and done, you are in a hurry to go back to Beijing so you don't have time to go home and tell me, I can understand.

"But when you enter Beijing, let alone ten days and half a month away, are you really in a hurry for a while? In the end, it's just because you haven't given up any of your energy to me.

"You have your own set of self-deceptive logic, you always think I'm weak on weekdays, but at the critical moment, you think I'm capable of dealing with the crisis!"

Lu Zhan sat there, and could only listen to her.

Song Xiang poured herself a cup of tea, handed it to her lips and drank half of it, and when the teacup was put down, she looked at him: "Your mother didn't approve of me at first, but she was willing to take me out later, and everyone respected me."

"When your father was chatting with his children over tea, I was invited several times, and I praised my father to his face for his talent.

"Your third sister also likes me, because of Lu Yun's affairs, I try to keep the side concubines with the two side concubines, and I don't get too close to her, so she often holds her cat to please me.

"You ask yourself, are these things on the surface? Or did I do it on the sly? ”

Lu Zhan looked at the ground, stunned and speechless.

"Even if I am talked about, I still try to straighten my waist, since I can't change the world's perception that I am a scheming woman, then I will be a capable 'scheming girl', and I will try to make the people around me recognize me.

"And you? What else have you done other than to disapprove of me until the end?

"You complained, but you didn't even think about changing the status quo. Have you made any effort to make me feel that you deserve to be trusted unconditionally?

"The only confidence I have in your character is that you have summed up everything else you have in other things. But when I observe your character, do you summarize me?

"Have you ever wondered what kind of person I am? Do I pay attention to what I've done and how I've behaved? Not at all. So you know why I ripped off my scarf in the ruined temple?

"As a husband, you were so surprised to see me appear in court, but didn't you blush because you never knew me?

"In Tanzhou, I always go to bed last every night, do you know what I do? You didn't even see that I was on patrol to guard against you, and it had been seven years since I was married! Why are you embarrassed to trust me?

"You can't even come back and say two more words, why do I still believe that you won't abandon your wife and children?

"Anyway, there's never a time when you've stood by my side when I need to. When the person who was left behind was me, you blame me for not trusting you!

"I don't expect to have any relationship with you, but if you can give me a little hope, let me feel that there is still hope for this day, and it will not be like this in my previous life."

The words were so long that her voice was a little hoarse.

She drank the rest of the tea and let out a long breath. "Everyone has their own position, and you may feel that you have nothing to do. But you shouldn't ask me that. Since I asked, then this is my answer, are you satisfied? ”