Volume 3, The Starting Line of Love

1. The feeling of first love

I looked at the words on my computer and learned about his past.

The more I look at his experience, the more I feel a little thrilling, life is too cruel for him, he left his parents without memory, when he sees his parents again, this memory has been broken for more than ten years, for the pursuit of a better life, his own parents, leaving the mountains, leaving the son who cares, not far away to work in a big city like Guangzhou, the young breeze, followed the elderly grandparents, living in the deserted mountains, that loneliness, that loneliness, so that his childhood lost how much color.

If I didn't read these words, as a person who grew up in a privileged family in Suzhou, I really couldn't imagine how difficult and difficult he was, and his experiences made me ashamed.

Reflecting on myself, I have such superior family conditions, my parents who have always cared for me, and the doting of a family, grandparents, grandparents, grandparents, growing up in such a family that does not lack love, let me develop some squeamishness, just like a seedling growing in a greenhouse, I can't stand the wind, can't stand the rain, and I can't stand the wind, frost, snow and rain. It's too monotonous and too weak compared to him.

A left-behind child like him in the mountains has met so many kind-hearted people, especially Uncle Feng who enlightened him, although it is a kind of silent companionship, although it is a simple education, in his young heart, he has sown more seeds of Chinese learning, laid a solid foundation for him in ancient Chinese, and has achieved the most fruitful results with the simplest education method such as memorization, and then he has carried forward this achievement, in addition to being good at applying it in his own learning process. He also copied this simple and effective method to the three young people and let them blossom and bear fruit.

I really can't imagine what it would be like for a person who has no concept of parents in his heart to see his parents more than ten years later? What kind of mood will you have? I didn't complain at all, but was full of gratitude, full of dependence, repeatedly watching the scene of him getting along with his parents, my heart began to beat, excited for him, shouted for him, what a man with a heart, with its broad arms, embracing his past, embracing the cruel reality, and embracing a bright future.

I finally know what it means to understand, I got along with him a few times, under his burly figure, in his calm face, there is such an extraordinary experience, there is such a sad past, which arouses the pity in my heart even more, not sympathy but love, this love hits my girl's heart, preliminary understanding, reached a preliminary understanding, but with my personal experience, I can't fully understand him. Understand how important it is in the initial stages of two people falling in love.

There are so many different life experiences that I don't understand.

At first, I didn't understand why he wanted to become a left-behind child, looking at his narration, looking at the language of his heart, I slowly understood that the experience of left-behind children was not what he was willing to have, it was imposed on him by life, because everyone was full of yearning for a better life, his parents, like all young people at that time, resolutely walked out of the mountains, endured the emotional view of the separation of parents and children, and came to the big city thousands of miles away, and worked for more than ten years, in order to reduce some of the tribulations in life. For the sake of their elderly parents, for their young sons, and for poor families, their sacrifice is not just a left-behind child, but the essence of life and the beauty of youth. If the experience of left-behind children is a kind of suffering, then more serious than this suffering is his parents, who have a difficult life in a foreign land.

Later, I didn't understand that such a young heart, in the wonderful world to grasp a life-saving straw, not humorous Uncle Feng, became his mentor at the beginning of life, there are no beautiful ballads, no wonderful fairy tales, no amiable hugs, but those cold ancient enlightenment books, boring recitation, repetitive boredom, how can you capture the heart of a young child? Let him bear it silently, grow up in this bearing, get great spiritual strength in this bearing, the ancient Confucian language, the traditional literary cultivation, become the soil of his cultural learning, grow a strong seedling of Chinese culture, become the starting point of his life, and raise the sail of his life.

The most incomprehensible thing for a young lady like me, who grew up in a honey pot, is that under such difficult conditions, in such a boring environment, in such a closed society, how can she endure this environment? Life is so hard, the environment is so bad, he was able to do his study so well, even English has become a sign of his good learning. Although I also have the talent to learn, I have always been a primary school bully, because of the superior family conditions, the edification of the family environment, and the practice of life sentiments, let me wander in the ocean of poetry, full of fantasy about literature, which is natural and logical. But how could he, in such an environment, on that path in life, write a more brilliant learning experience than me? Look at him, the living conditions are so difficult, the living conditions are so bad, how can he grow against the trend?

For a lady like me who comes to stretch out his hand for food and open his mouth, what I don't understand is that someone sponsors him, but it motivates him to be self-reliant, work-study, I don't think I have ever thought about it, and he is a teenager, he has brushed all the toilets, cleaned all the corridors, and is full of pride between the lines, who gave him this self-confidence? It is his strong and unyielding character that gives him the courage to face difficulties, gives him the call to create life with his hands, and inserts ideal wings into his bitter life, and in the process of self-realization, he lives so steadfastly, so confidently, and so strongly.

A child who came out of the mountains, dared to face the challenges of life with his bare hands, dared to go to the world single-handedly, in the early morning light of every day, he has embarked on the way to work, in the busy figure of the fast food restaurant, and saw his self-confidence, his strength, his wisdom is not only reflected in learning, but also reflected in the experience of life, he can seize every opportunity to develop himself, strengthen himself, and finally achieve the goal of improving himself. If so, can I? The answer couldn't be clearer, I don't have that adaptability. So his charm is even more magnified in my heart, why is he so optimistic about facing reality and life? Because the origin of his life is much more difficult than this, a little sunshine can shine, and a little hope is full of hard work.

What was originally a beloved heart, coupled with reflection on these issues, reached the communication of our hearts. What kind of life is this? Although the pain has always been with him, he ignored these, left all this behind, used his innocent memories, threw himself into the ocean of Chinese studies, and used his youthful vitality to depict a fairy tale world, no matter how difficult the environment is, he has come up with the most beautiful picture of life, isn't such a person worthy of loving him more? Our hearts are closer, and we should use our love to warm his world and his life, which is a strong desire that echoes in my mind.

I couldn't hold it anymore, with the warmth of this love, with the tenderness of this care, and with the impact of strong love, I dialed his phone number.

I said softly into the phone, "Hey, I'm Jiang Wan, I just finished reading your autobiographical novel, senior brother, I really worship you, your life experience is like a rich book, better than what you wrote yourself, I saw your innocence between the lines, I saw your life in your development experience, I want to tell you, the strongest voice from the bottom of my heart, Li Yufeng, I love you!" ”

Without waiting for his answer, I hung up the phone shyly, my heart about to pop out of my throat.

This feeling of first love, this strong heartbeat, this shy lingering, came so suddenly, so naturally, the understanding of him hit my heart, and I want me to remember this moment forever. So I picked up the pen and wrote the poem of love, "First Love"

first love

Love is like soft satin

Woven into a graceful dress

Love is like the waves of a clear stream

Flowing on the banks of the river of years

Look at the blue star

The inverted ocean is shining

The other side of the pursuit of perfection

The sails of love are fluttering

Autumn rain is full of flowers

Don't forget the music playing

Autumn love song romance

The Psalms of Love are sung year after year

The most beautiful verse is first love

The girl's heart is surging

The autumn wind blows through the cold

Freehand beauty of the world

Magnificent glow illuminates the world

Time and you are deeply in love

I sculpt the picture scroll with the breeze

No matter how risky the road ahead is

Work together to overcome difficulties

Accompanied by bitter and sweet

You are the richest in your life

Even if he is rotten, the sea is dry and the rocks are rotten

The lingering love song is heartfelt

Live up to your youth and live up to your fate

(b)

Life is short but love is long

The girl's first love is ignorant

Love is like a rainbow in the sky

Only after the rain is it dazzling

Look at the stormy sky

Often gray and cloudy

Is it hazy or hazy

Only when the wind and rain are good can it be verdant

The years are quiet and good, and life is content

Don't let down the blessings of time

My heart is a flower on a rainbow

The bloom of love is dazzling

Full of mystery of the first love, let my creative inspiration rush out like an open floodgate, the joy of the first love, the yearning for love, that feeling is really inexhaustible, inexhaustible, with no wonderful words can not be expressed, the more I want to write him beautiful and spectacular, but more lingering. Although the poems written do not fully express the meaning of love, I always want to scrutinize every word, but after scrutinizing for a long time, I still feel a little unsatisfactory, so let's do it first. She comforted herself.