29, The Story of Reluctant (11)

Fang Lingzi faced the two college students, finished narrating his experience, while shedding tears, he said, "I didn't expect that Dong Jianjun was so decisive about me, he didn't even go to the Massachusetts Institute of Technology with me, he got off the bus halfway, and returned to the university he exchanged with on the East Coast. It is estimated that he has conveyed my attitude to the school, during which the school sent me several letters, and I also sent the report of the application for extension back to the school, but the school's reply was that it was resolutely not allowed, and I could only submit a resignation report. Dong Jianjun actually filed for divorce from me, and I had no choice but to find a lawyer and sign a divorce agreement with him, and a happy marriage ended in this way. ”

Zhang Lili asked, "Have you never come back since then?" ”

Fang Lingzi said softly, "In the past ten years, I have also returned to China and done several academic exchanges, I once contacted Dong Jianjun and wanted to see my daughter, but he refused." ”

Jiang Wan looked at Fang Lingzi, and then asked her, "Why did you come to the door so resolutely this time?" ”

Fang Lingzi still said softly, "I think of my daughter, I didn't think much before, I've been getting older and older in the past few years, I'm already over half a hundred years old, and now I have the desire to return to my roots, and my own daughter hasn't seen him for 18 years, how strong is the feeling of wanting to see him, in order not to let Dong Jianjun reject me, so I came to the door, yesterday the child found me, although the attitude is not good, but I finally saw her, how happy you are in my heart." ”

Zhang Lili asked bluntly, "Do you know that Dong Chunjiao is facing the college entrance examination now?" As a ten-year cold window, it is the time to study hard, won't this practice disturb his learning? Will your presence make him feel bad? ”

Hearing Zhang Lili's questioning, Fang Lingzi was already in tears, "I really didn't realize that now is the critical moment for the child, I only knew it after listening to his father, but I'm afraid I'm too late." ”

When Jiang Wan heard Fang Lingzi's last words, his sensitive nerves were immediately touched, "Auntie, what's going on?" Just the two of us today, can you tell us the actual situation? ”

Fang Lingzi's tears flowed even more, Jiang Wan hurriedly took a handful of napkins and handed them to her.

Fang Lingzi wiped her tears and said sadly, "Let me be honest with you two, I have been diagnosed with breast cancer during a recent physical examination, and the doctor urged me to have surgery as soon as possible. ”

Fang Lingzi's voice was not loud, but it was like a thunderbolt, which exploded in the minds of the two tutors, Jiang Wan suddenly understood why Fang Lingzi suddenly came to the door, because the mother who was already suffering from cancer was worried about her daughter, what a great maternal love, even if it was a wooden person, it would be touched, in order not to let her daughter know, such a big secret was hidden in her heart.

Zhang Lili, who was originally hostile, quickly softened after hearing the news, tears flowed from the corners of the eyes of the two girls, moved by this pure and beloved mother's love, Zhang Lili said softly, "I'm sorry!" Auntie, we don't know that your feelings are in this situation, and we don't know that you came to see your daughter in this mood, why don't you communicate the situation with Professor Dong Jianjun? Then your situation may be better. ”

Fang Lingzi's mother's face showed a kind of perseverance, and she still said softly, "I can't let him know, I can't let him think that I came back to win their sympathy, I don't know what the result of the treatment will be in the future, but I decided not to cause them any more trouble, I can see my own daughter, I am already satisfied, I only told you two teachers about this result, and I hope that you will keep it secret from my daughter to Professor Dong, and you will not be able to interfere with the lives of the two of them anymore, If my daughter agrees to have a good meal with me, then I will go quietly, and if I can cure this cancer in my lifetime, I will come back to see my daughter after the college entrance examination, and at that time, I will share everything I have with her, and I believe that my daughter will forgive me. ”

I watched Fang's mother like this, for her daughter, for her former lover, silently bearing everything in life, how great the power of love is, although they have separated, as a mother, I still miss my daughter, and I am still thinking about my lover, this kind of silent fraternity really moved me.

I took Fang's mother's hand and said to her gently, "Auntie, I understand your feelings, and I admire your feelings even more, at the moment when you are faced with a life-and-death decision, your daughter is still the most important thing in your heart, and you have to defend Professor Dong's thoughts, your silent love, really moved us very much, didn't you set up another family in the United States?" ”

Fang Lingzi let out a long sigh, pulled her hands tightly together with me, and said softly, "Although you two are delicate teachers, I don't think you are much older than my daughter, let me talk to you about it." Dong Jianjun used to be that kind of love, sacrificed everything for me, and still has not organized a family, it can be said that I ruined the happiness of his life and made him depend on his daughter all his life, how can I organize a family in the United States again? For the career, I am a successful person, on the road of science, I have no regrets to explore, I desperately pursue the dream of science, ruined my own family and my own happiness, disrupted the lives of the three of us, how can I find another person to organize a family? A person like Dong Jianjun, who loved me desperately, finally abandoned him because of my scientific exploration, will there be another person in the world who can tolerate me? ”

Zhang Lili asked puzzledly, "Auntie, why don't you go back to China to find them after the project is over?" ”

Fang Lingzi raised her head and looked at the two of us, she had lost her sadness, and said to us with a smile, "Two girls, it seems that you have not experienced the heart-wrenching love, when I was a girl, I was a passionate pursuit of Dong Jianjun, and it took 4 years of crush to achieve a positive result, and the time together was only a little more than a year, and most of the time we spent on scientific research, but this more than a year of married life has allowed me to enjoy the most beautiful love in the world. But there is no one who can take his place in my heart, and there is no one person in my heart who haunts me, in the best time of my youth, the two of us spent together, although he did not enjoy my brilliant scientific and technological achievements, but in my heart he is still my lover, still my only lover in the world. ”

What kind of love is this? Although two people were under the same blue sky, one in the East and the other in the United States, both climbed on the road of science, one for the great motherland, and the other for personal fame and fortune, this major difference of principle broke up a happy family, but in terms of personal feelings, no one can replace the other.

I looked at the time, the time to make an appointment with Wang Wenli was almost up, and it was also to calm the waves in my heart, and said to Fang Lingzi, "Auntie, because I made an appointment with another student, we used the morning time to make up the class for him, and now we will contact Dong Chunjiao on the way, and then we will eat together at noon, okay?" Let you and your daughter alone for half a day in the afternoon, we will keep your secret to the end, but we also want to calm Dong Chunjiao's mood, and then concentrate on the college entrance examination, I know that the early detection of breast cancer, the success rate of treatment and cure is still very high, in a country like the United States with advanced medical conditions, your disease will definitely be adjusted, and after Dong Chunjiao completes the college entrance examination, we will tell her the original thing, how she decides depends on his own? I believe that Dong Chunjiao will have the right judgment and will not disappoint you, that is an excellent person, a child who values love and righteousness. ”

The smile on Fang Lingzi's face was bitter, and he told us softly, "Don't be reluctant to Jiaojiao, otherwise he will feel very guilty about his father, since he has grown up, let him take all the ideas himself, thank you two teachers, I will go back to the United States tomorrow, if it doesn't work, this is also my farewell to the two of you, thank you again, you are worthy of being the engineer of the human soul." ”

The two of us said goodbye to Fang's mother, took a taxi at the door of the hotel, and went to Wang Wenli's house, in the taxi, I talked to Dong Chunjiao on the phone, made an appointment at 12:00 noon, came to the hotel to meet her mother, I didn't say anything else, I just told Zhang Lili to keep her mouth shut, and not to live up to Fang's mother's mind for her daughter and lover, not only to let Dong Chunjiao and her mother have a happy meal, but also to let her get along with her mother for a long time, and wait for Fang's mother to leave, Dong Chunjiao's mood calmed down, and she concentrated on letting her take the college entrance examination, and told her the actual situation as soon as she got the college entrance examination, where to go? Let her make up her own mind, this is not only Fang's mother's wish, but also a test of Dong Chunjiao's humanity, no matter how she chooses, it will be very difficult on both sides of father and mother.

The car was running in the snow, and after we got in touch with Dong Chunjiao, I said to Zhang Lili, "Teacher Zhang, I didn't expect this to be the case, after listening to the story of Professor Dong and Fang's mother, I really think that love is so beautiful that God is really good at playing tricks on people, although the two of them chose different paths, causing a family tragedy, don't you think the love between them is so singable and crying?" If we use the bottom line of our usual morality, everything Fang's mother did is unforgivable, not only betraying the motherland, but also destroying the harmony of the small family, and abandoning her husband and her own daughter who love him so much, and exploring the road of science alone and alone, what do you say he is for? ”

Zhang Lili also said puzzledly, "Jiang Bang, I think this is the reality version of separation, for different ideals, for different goals, they have contributed everything they have, in love, in family, in family affection, they are all losers, and in front of the career, Professor Dong and Fang's mother are both successful in their careers, both are pioneers on the road of scientific research, although their ideals are different, but they have taken a common road, this road is full of ups and downs for both of them, full of positive, Full of sadness, the two of us can't evaluate them here and now, there is no doubt that they are the best in scientific achievements, and they are also the biggest losers in life, but relatively speaking, Professor Dong is a loser, he originally wanted to exchange his voice for the success of his wife's career, but his sacrifice in exchange for the broken family, he lost his wife, his daughter lost her mother, they both lost a happy family, and the daughter lost her mother. Together, they lost a happy family. But the principle of their generation is greater than life, the ideal is higher than personal feelings, or the poem Pei Duofei said is the most appropriate, life is precious, love is more valuable, if it is for freedom, both can be thrown, Professor Dong is like this, there is a revolutionary idealism, there is a kind of pride and ambition for the motherland, in order to choose their own path, they abandon everything, and what is maintained is the backbone and dignity of people. ”

I smiled and agreed with her point of view, "Both of us are engaged in humanities, and we can't understand that those scientists who are engaged in nature, for their own topics, for their own projects, and for their own academic status in scientific research, can abandon everything they have, Professor Dong can also say, for the sake of the family, for the motherland, for the people, is Mother Fang completely for herself?" The progress of science has universal value, in the Western world so rich living environment, so advanced scientific research conditions, so that for her own scientific research exploration, she gave up her own happiness and the lover she has pursued for many years, cut off the flesh that fell from her body, this pain has tormented her for a lifetime, now she is old, she is sick, she struggles to move, but she is still in love with her, the lover who parted ways with her, is still thinking about her own flesh and blood, you say this is not also an ordinary woman can not do? ”

Zhang Lili also nodded, agreeing with my point of view, "If the two of them can be like-minded in the world, but there is no if, the cruel reality is in front of us, this problem, how can Dong Chunjiao solve this song in the future?" Mom and Dad each adhere to their own ideals, struggle for their own ideals, the daughter caught in the middle really has no choice, parents are so kind of love for Dong Chunjiao, the distance between the three people, of course Dong Chunjiao will be biased towards his father, and people are born to sympathize with the weak, facing a desperate life of the mother, she can't ignore it, how do you say this problem as an 18-year-old girl, how to solve it? ”

The two of us came to Wang Wenli's house in the emotion and discussion, Wang Wenli was already waiting there anxious, seeing the arrival of the two of us, he happily danced, threw himself into the arms of me and Zhang Lili, kissed this side and kissed that, the 16-year-old flower girl expressed her intimacy to the two of us, the melancholy and confusion on the car were washed away at once, and the three of us quickly entered the tutoring.

In order to set aside a little more time for Zhang Lili and help Wang Wenli review her English better, I first asked Zhang Lili to tutor her.

Today is the last day of the New Year's Day holiday, because there are still snowflakes in the sky outside, the family is sitting around making dumplings at home, Wang Wenli's parents are grassroots civil servants, it is usually rare to have a meal together, in addition to work is entertainment, it is easy to snow today, the two of them are at home with Wang Wenli, what a happy family of three, and Professor Dong Chunjiao's broken home is in stark contrast.

I was talking to Wang Wenli's parents, but my mind kept thinking about it.

In terms of status, Professor Dong is a doctoral supervisor of a key university in Beijing, and has his own place in the scientific community, not only in the same field in China, but also in the international academic community. Professor Dong Jianjun, who has worked hard in the field of emerging materials for nearly 30 years, has achieved a lot of results when he was a student, catching up with the country's strength, undertaking major scientific research projects in the ministry and the city every year, and has won several national awards and several international awards.

Wang Wenli's father is an ordinary civil servant, in his thirties is still the chief clerk, silent work, silent dedication, due to the different nature of work in the agency, overtime has become the norm, now the situation is more rigorous, all things need to leave traces, all the work in the organ must be recorded in writing, and the relevant departments must often check the effectiveness and progress of their work, as the saying goes, there are thousands of lines above, a needle below, all the guidelines and policies need to be implemented by these grassroots civil servants, Turn those dead stripes into a warm policy, let the sunshine of the government shine on every citizen, dedication has become synonymous with them, because in the grassroots work, if you don't change places, there is no chance of promotion, in this department in addition to the classroom several people have all been promoted to the chief clerk, as an ordinary public servant, the position has come to an end, but the work is still increasing the huge workload, state organs, state institutions to streamline, the government's functions are increasing, The requirements of the higher authorities are getting more and more detailed, and the pressure of grassroots civil servants has made Wang Wenli's father gray hair prematurely, but he is still so conscientious as an old scalper, and he does not dare to implement every policy and every policy out of shape, not only to win the understanding of the citizens, but also to achieve the satisfaction of the leaders, and the grassroots civil servants are really the most tired.

The two people are equally glorious, but Professor Dong Jianjun broke his family with his own hands because of different ideals and different aspirations, and depended on his daughter for his life.

Soon it was my turn to give Wang Wenli a lesson, and before the class, I told Zhang Lili to go back to the hotel in advance, wait for Dong Chunjiao, and accompany her to meet her mother.