Got a baby in your belly? With the same bloodline as her, maybe in the future will be like her, maybe like that man, will slowly grow up by her side, will slowly learn to turn over, will slowly learn to stand, will slowly learn to walk, can talk, will gradually become an indispensable part of each other's lives, how beautiful it is. If only she could have a home?

Li Junsheng didn't dare to agree, his gentle voice sounded crisp and beautiful, but it couldn't warm Yao Mujian's cold heart.

"I can't give him happy times." Yao Mujian is not in the bright eyes are unusually deep.

"You can now." Li Junsheng spoke resolutely, resolutely to the point of indisputability.

"I can't even give him a home." Yao retorted.

"He thinks where you are, home is."

Hearing this, Yao Mujian's heart trembled.

The empty eyes widened a little, and he looked at Li Junsheng blankly, as if he was a newborn.

She stared at Li Junsheng in front of her wordlessly, as if she wanted to distinguish the truth from the falsehood of her words, and her hesitation was like a lamb walking on the road in a foreign land.

In his opinion, where you live is home, Yao Mujian, do you want to try? It doesn't matter who this child belongs to, and it doesn't matter what happens in the future.

But if she stays, it is a sign that the man appears in her life, and every day after that, when she sees this child, she thinks of that man, is she going to torture herself like this? According to her current depressed mental state, how can she believe that she can give a life of happiness and a life to rely on, she is afraid that what awaits her is endless torture for the other party.

In that case, we should say goodbye to the past once and for all, and this child cannot stay.

Now she didn't even know where she was going, how could she be in such a hurry to let a child who was not at the hour come to this complicated world.

Yao Mujin was preoccupied, she didn't believe in herself, because the house was not complete, Yao Mujin said lifelessly, "Brother, I can't let him suffer with me." ”

Maybe even Yao Muhibiscus didn't realize it, when she said this, her eyes flashed with tears, and she thought that the love of the family was complete.

Li Junsheng said that every word is bitten very hard, like every sentence has a deep meaning, "A family has no love, even if there is a father, mother, grandfather, and grandmother, this family is just a house." ”

In the end, Yao Mujin and Li Junsheng also failed to reach an agreement, Yao Muhibiscus failed to have an abortion as he wished, and Li Junsheng failed to persuade Yao Mujian to keep the child, they were persuaded by the doctor, "Let's go back and think about it, how can a child be so childish." ”

Years later, Yao Mujin still remembers that when he left the hospital, Li Junsheng looked into his eyes and said, "That child will grow up in your love, and that's enough." ”

"Little Hibiscus, leave this kid behind, we'll all be happy when we go to England and start over."

After Yao Mujin and Li Junsheng left the hospital, they quarreled many times about the child's problem, and each time they ended in failure.

Yao Mujian's decision this time was extremely resolute, and no matter what Li Junsheng said, Yao Mujian did not intend to back down.

Sometimes Yao Mujin doesn't know what he is insisting on, and some things become obsessions if they stick to them, and obsessions will become paranoid after a long time.

Yao Mujin may not understand this, because she can't figure it out, she feels that she is in a trance every day, it seems that every day is very slow, and at the end of the day, she doesn't know what she is doing, whether she is busy or idle.

Yao Mujin's insomnia problem is getting worse.

Everyone said that she gave up on herself, not because she didn't want to rest, but because she had no way to rest at all.

Just lying in bed, an unbearable dull pain wells up in her heart, making it impossible for her tired body and mind to sleep, and even after taking sleeping pills, she will be awakened by an endless cycle of nightmares, and the back of the man leaving in the dream haunts her like a nightmare.

She was out of breath like a vine, and it looked like a strange circle that she couldn't escape.

It's just that now there is something more in this circle.

A young child's voice asked her, "Mom, why don't you want me anymore?" "The soft and glutinous voice hits people's hearts.

Mom, why don't you want me anymore? That kind of helplessness made her heart ache.

"Mom didn't want you, Mom just ...... It's just—" she replied in the dream, only then there was no follow-up.

Have you ever been unable to sleep for a day, waking up before dawn, or bursting into tears countless times from your dreams? In the dream, your father and mother turn to dust, your lover turns into ghosts, and your friends turn into blue-faced beasts.

When you wake up, you can't fall asleep anymore, you are weeping and weeping.

In the dark space, it seems that even oneself does not exist.

Sometimes I feel that my body is struggling in the world, while my soul stands on a high place and looks coldly.

Yao Mujin felt like she was on one foot, she really couldn't bear it, Yao Mujian, who was lying on the bed, thought, let's go.

"I won't keep this child, I go to see people on weekends, it's up to you whether you go or not." That was the last thing Yao Mujin said to Li Junsheng during the day.

The gentle Li Junsheng no longer stubbornly persuaded him, he just nodded his head to indicate that he knew after being silent for a long time, and then turned away with some helplessness.

The back is emaciated and looks a little lonely.

Yao Mujin thought that Li Junsheng should not care about her anymore when she got into trouble, so seeing Li Junsheng at the door of the company was something that Yao Muhito did not expect.

"Brother Junsheng? What are you doing here? “

Looking at Yao Muhibiscus's footsteps that stopped due to surprise, Li Junsheng's dissatisfaction with Yao Muhibiscus's ruthless decision-making in the past few days suddenly disappeared, and he suddenly realized how fragile Yao Muhibiscus was in his heart now.

Suddenly, Yao Mujian's heart has already reached saturation, and she doesn't know when she will suddenly explode and destroy herself, she doesn't believe that she will be taken care of, she doesn't believe that she will be loved, and she doesn't believe that she can live like a normal person again.

Now, like a bird with folded wings, she fears everything around her, and it is difficult to soar into the sky.

Yao Mujin took two steps towards Li Junsheng, as if he was testing the cub of the unknown.

"Of course you must come, although I don't approve of your decision, I will not leave you no matter what."

Li Junsheng smiled gently at Yao Mujian, and opened his arms to hug the skinny Yao Mujian.

Yao Mujin leaned softly against Li Junsheng and smiled faintly.

The two didn't talk again on the way to the hospital, and the car rushing to the front made Yao Mujin unconsciously purse his lips.

"Don't take anesthetics." That's what she told the doctors.

Does it hurt? Pain, Yao Mujin wanted to let her stay for the rest of her life.

"Nope." Liu Junsheng immediately objected.

The doctors also objected, saying, "It is very dangerous to have an abortion in your current physical condition, and you can't survive without anesthetics." ”

This time, Yao Mujin didn't hold on, because she knew that her insistence was meaningless, she compromised, and her soft voice seemed to dissipate as soon as the wind blew, "Then, local anesthesia." ”

Watching the child walk away from her was also a punishment for herself.

Lying on the operating table, Yao Mujin felt the cold needle tips pierce her skin, she couldn't say what she felt inside, strong fear and uneasiness? Unwilling to give up if you don't try? She couldn't say it herself, but as she looked at the flickering lights above, a streak of water suddenly appeared in her empty eyes, passing through her temples and into her ears.

"Where he thinks you are, be there."

"That child will grow in your love, and that's enough."