Entering the second year of high school, for Lin Xiangwei, it is undoubtedly into the abyss of pain, at first she thought that there was no difference between liberal arts and science, anyway, her grades in the two subjects were about the same, but when she entered the science class, she found out: entering the science class is the moment to say goodbye to the liberal arts class, the atmosphere is completely different from before, everyone no longer talks about Lu Xun, Ba Jin, and no longer cares about the slave society, what the feudal society is, and will not pay attention to what literary club Lin Xiangwei has participated in, and what journal has published articles, After class, everyone only cares about molecules, atoms, and then microorganisms.

It seems that all of a sudden her life has completely changed, in the face of everything unfamiliar, she really doesn't know what to do, a week after the start of the class, Lin Hui, who was originally studying literature, was unexpectedly transferred to the second "6" class, and then Mr. Lin also became the Chinese teacher of the second "6" class, for the arrival of Mr. Lin, Lin Xiangwei was a lot happier, and there must be someone who will notice her. But Bai Duoer was angry, and really complained about the inaccuracy of the news, which made her enter the liberal arts class by mistake, but it is not an easy task to change classes, and Bai Duoer was helpless in the face of such an arrangement, and finally chose to face the reality, but still did not forget to pray that next year's homeroom teacher must be Teacher Lin.

Facing Teacher Lin, in fact, Lin Xiangwei felt even more embarrassed, when Teacher Lin walked into the classroom of Class 2 "6" for the first time, she was indeed excited, but she couldn't be happy anymore when she thought of last year's Mr. Zero, after all, there must be a long period of unhappiness between her and Teacher Lin!

When Mr. Lin entered the classroom, the first thing he saw may be Lin Xiangwei, because when he walked into this classroom last year, he used to look at the middle of the first row, and unconsciously this became an unchangeable habit, but when he looked over there this time, he saw Lin Xiangwei again, and suddenly he became unnatural, he thought that Lin Xiangwei went to the liberal arts class, but he didn't expect to see her in the science class, how could she be in the science class? Hasn't she always loved literature? Suddenly, she found that she was alienated from her in the first semester of high school because of a trivial matter that was not her business, maybe the third year of high school was too busy, so that he almost ignored the existence of the quiet her in the days to come, thinking of this, she couldn't help but blame herself deeply, she thought that she would become another qualified father for her, but she didn't expect to neglect the people who should care the most in order to protect some people who are not worthy of protection.

At night, Lin Xiangwei walked alone on the school garden avenue, looking at the stars and moon, and suddenly burst into tears, everyone has her own freedom, but she doesn't, she is a person who puts her hobbies first, so how to spend the long years in the future?

Since suffering too much indifference in the science class, Lin Xiangwei quarreled with her father for the first time, and their relationship was also estranged, in order to stop the situation from being bad, and because Teacher Xie could no longer bear to stop her daughter, Teacher Xie resolutely decided to send Lin Xiangwei back to her parents, and Lin Xiangwei really entered the gate of hell.

The day before going home, Lin Xiangwei stayed by the river all day, and watched the toad for a day and never left. She sat on the bridge in a daze, as if she had thought a lot, but as if she hadn't thought about anything...... "Yuyuan River, I asked you, whether you are the source of the river or the abyss of the river, but you never answered me, you tell me today, okay?" Because tomorrow I'm going back to my parents, you know I really don't want to go back there, I don't like them, I can even say I hate them, but my father asked me to go back, and my father worked hard and was so kind to me, I really didn't dare to make him angry. But do you know how sad I feel in my heart? Father! Mom! These two words are so foreign to me, they are simply my sorrow, my hell in my eyes. They used to be completely fake for being nice to me, they just wanted me to go home. Do you say that's my home? If yes, I have never lived in that home for fifteen years; If not, but there are parents in that family who gave birth to me. It's really contradictory, it's really hard to understand. My father cried and drove me back that day, so sad and sad, I knew he couldn't bear it, but he was so resolute that I didn't dare to say 'no'. In fact, I also know that my father must have seen me so uncomfortable in the science class, and he couldn't bear to force me to do that anymore, my father will always be my good father, and only my biological parents will be so selfish and will not hesitate to make others sad for themselves. But why didn't Dad save me? If only he could convince my parents to let me go to a liberal arts class, it is certainly unlikely, otherwise my father would have done it a long time ago.

Yuyuanhe, I always thought that you were ordinary, but you have an extraordinary story, why is this? I'd love to know and know your story. You are extraordinary, how many successful sons have you raised, and how much comfort has you brought to everyone? You are so ordinary, so ordinary that it is just a quiet river, stretching out into the distance in a zigzag. Once you were everyone's savior, you saved a village of people during a drought; But it's a disaster for everyone, you have flooded when it rains a lot in summer. But no matter what, you have raised thousands of children and grandchildren with those simple hands, and you are the pride of the whole village, do you say?

My grandmother once told me that you have times when you are happy and sometimes when you are sad, and the waves are a sign of your mood and anger. Always so gentle to your children, grandma is grateful to you, worships you, respects you, and can't lose you, you are so sacred and inviolable in everyone's hearts, you are like everyone's patron saint, and the whole village is under your protection. Why don't you protect me? Today, in my sad day, can you comfort me? I'm really going crazy, I have no friends, I can't find someone to talk to, so I have to say to you, don't you ignore me? Nobody cares about my feelings, are you too?

Soon Lin Xiangwei returned to his parents' house, and the situation was very bad. Maybe she hasn't lived with her parents since she was a child, or maybe she is not good at talking, so she has always been a stranger to her parents, and her parents are desperately trying to please her. But it is undeniable that her parents have always been very good to her, but Lin Xiangwei doesn't pay much attention to them, but her parents are still happy, and their daughter is happier than anything when she comes home!

For a long time, they were careful to curry favor with Lin Xiangwei. In school, Lin Xiangwei also desperately endured pain and neglect, and on the surface he was still safe.