When I got home, I took off my coat and threw it on the hanger.

Then I sat down on the couch, lit a cigarette and smoked sullenly.

Yin Lanlan seemed to know that she had made a mistake, she didn't dare to go back to the room, and she didn't dare to speak, so she stood in front of me like this, her head down.

Several times, I wanted to be angry and scold Yin Lanlan fiercely, but a thousand words had already piled up in my chest, but I couldn't say a word of reproach.

After a long time, I sighed heavily, got up and hugged Yin Lanlan tightly in my arms, and said softly: "Lanlan, you have to remember, I can be your father, but that woman will never be your mother." Don't go to Aunt Shen again in the future. ”

I don't know if Yin Lanlan can understand what I said, and I don't understand what she is thinking in her heart.

The only thing I could do was to hold Yin Lanlan to my chest and let her listen to my heartbeat.

After a long time, I let go of Yin Lanlan, she blinked and looked at me for a while, and nodded as if she didn't understand.

I smiled with relief, took Yin Lanlan's hand and walked into the room, "It's late now, go to sleep, Dad will send you to school in the future." ”

I know very well in my heart that what Yin Lanlan needs is maternal love.

Although I have fulfilled the duties of a father, I have never been able to give Yin Lanlan meticulous love like a woman.

During the time when Shu Yang deliberately avoided Yin Lanlan, Shen Mumu suddenly appeared and took good care of her, so Yin Lanlan transferred all her feelings to Shen Mumu by mistake.

I thought about it all night, but I didn't understand what Shen Mumu wanted to do. Maybe it's because she's unwilling, or maybe it's because she has other goals.

However, no matter what she wants to do, I will not hand over Yin Lanlan.

Losing and regaining it often makes me cherish it even more.

When I woke up the next day, I was busy with breakfast as usual, and after dropping Yin Lanlan off at school, I suddenly received a phone call.

The caller ID was a string of unfamiliar numbers, I thought it was a sales call, and I crossed it out.

But after a while, the number was dialed again, and this time I slid the answer button and put the phone to my ear, "Hey? Who are you? ”

"Stinky boy, you dare to hang up my phone! I haven't seen you call me for so long, your mother brought me something, I'll come to you later, you should be at home, right? ”

"Dad? How did you change your number? I asked.

"Alas, don't mention it, a few days ago there was a person in our town, saying that the old phone was replaced with a new one, and your mother took my phone out directly, but when it was her turn to change, the phone could not be found, there were many people at that time, and no one knew how to lose it. Later, I watched the news and realized that this is all a lie, what kind of culture do the people in the town have, it is remote and far away, how can it be compared with your city center. Your mother heard that you can make money by singing, and when she sees people, she praises you for your talent. Okay, I'm going to hang. ”

Before I could speak, my dad hung up.

Listening to the beep on the other end of the phone, my heart has an indescribable complexity.

I suddenly noticed that my dad was talking a lot, he had never said so much to me in one breath before.

When you think about it, it looks like I haven't called my family in months.

I sighed, took out a cigarette and lit it, tasted the scent, and hurried away in the direction of home.

When I got home, I sat on the couch and waited.

It was surprisingly quiet, and I could even hear my heartbeat rising and falling in my chest, except for the sound of my breathing.

I was suddenly a little scared, and I didn't know what emotions to use to face my dad.

I had promised him that I would keep going with my guitar until I was a man.

But after all this time, I was still standing still, and my previous success was only a faint flash of fire in the night, and in the blink of an eye it disappeared into the dust that no one knew.

As the minutes ticked by, I sat on the couch and smoked a cigarette in a dull state.

In a trance, I heard slow footsteps in the staircase, and my nerves tensed.

After a while, the footsteps stopped in front of my house, followed by my father's old voice, "Stinky boy, open the door!" ”

I paused and opened the door.

When he saw me, my dad suddenly laughed, and he lifted the plastic bag of his phone, "Look, the bud cobs have just grown." ”

I looked at him, and I didn't know what to do at all except for a stiff smile.

It was like there was nowhere to put it, I didn't even know where to put my hand, and after hesitating for a while, I ran to my dad and took the plastic bag.

My dad sat on the couch, looked around the living room, didn't speak, just sat like that.

I don't know what's going on, but I remember when I was in school, I used to go home once every six months, and even then I never felt alienated from my dad.

As if heavy, as if restless, I frowned tightly and stood aside.

It was surprisingly quiet, and I looked at my dad nervously and listened to his rhythmic breathing.

It's like an embarrassing ordeal.

After a long time, my dad stood up and said heavily, "Okay! Keep busy, I've delivered the things, I'll go back to the town first. ”

My heart chuckled, and I looked at my dad's back and hurriedly said, "Dad, let's leave at night, Yin Lanlan will be out of school at night." ”

My dad froze slightly, and then he turned to look at me and said in surprise, "My granddaughter? ”

I squirmed my throat and spat out a word, "Hmm." ”

My dad seemed to want to ask something, but he never said it, and I obviously noticed that his expression was a little tangled, and after a long time, he nodded heavily and said, "Okay! ”

My heart was relieved at once, even I didn't know why this was happening, and for a long time afterward, I sat on the sofa with my dad and chatted about family life, about the past, about this era of rapid development.

My dad gave a lot, and I remember that from the time I was sensible, he used to nag in my ear and tell me to go to the big city and see the bigger world.

But I failed my father, I have no chance of being in a big city all my life, so I can only stay in the center of this city, with the heart in my chest that has not yet cooled, silently feeling the world.

It may be pale, or weak, or it may be a solace in my heart.

At noon, I went to the kitchen to prepare lunch, and my dad pushed me away directly, and walked into the kitchen with an apron on. You sit, I'll do it! ”

I knew my dad's temper, and I paused, sat down on the couch without saying a word, listening to the sound of ping-pong in the kitchen......