I closed my eyes, as if I had returned to the past, my mother died after giving birth to me, and my father was afraid that he would not be able to support me, so he found me a stepmother.

Although she is a stepmother, she is very good to me and will always give me more doting when I am younger.

But my stepmother has some trouble with her hands and feet, so it is my dad's turn to cook, and I grew up eating my dad's cooking.

I thought about a lot of past events, from the rice piles of my childhood to the crickets and frogs by the streams, and before I knew it, I had walked through the city again and again, and I had also been inspired to live a rich life, but the reality crushed me.

It's all an unattainable drunken dream, and I'm just trying to be safe now.

But such an ordinary one can no longer be ordinary, and now it has become a luxury for me.

What a downfall!

What a mess!

And how ridiculous!

"Asleep? Dine. ”

My dad's voice pulled me from my memories to reality, and I opened my eyes and glanced at the table, in addition to braised pork and roast chicken thighs, which were my favorite dishes from my youth.

My dad didn't seem to want to talk to me, he usually drank three taels of white wine for dinner, but today he was eating with a bowl full of white rice.

I paused, my head down and picking up the rice in my bowl.

After a few bites, my dad suddenly looked up at me and said, "How are you and that girl?" ”

I was a little stunned and let out an 'ah' sound.

Shu Yang is my ex-wife, but my dad also knows that I lived with another woman before, and I don't know who my dad is talking about.

My dad suddenly frowned and said, "It's Shu Yang!" ”

"Dad, I've already divorced her, and you don't know." I explained.

My dad was stunned and looked at me in a complicated way, and it took a while for him to nod and say 'um'.

After eating, I cleaned up the bowl, turned on the kitchen faucet, rinsed it over and over again, and I took the rag and repeatedly wiped the stains in the bowl, and the intensity became stronger and stronger, as if I was doing it here, and the uneasiness in my heart could be wiped away.

After washing the dishes, I wiped the water stains on my hands, looked at my dad and asked, "Dad, is your stepmom okay?" ”

My dad glared at me and frowned, "That's your mom!" ”

Then, his tone softened a lot, "She's not good, since you divorced that girl, your mother has been worrying about it every day, I just want to ask today, what are you thinking about now, if you still want to live with that girl, I'll go to her now, she usually listens to me." ”

I was stunned and hurriedly said, "Dad, don't look for her, don't look for her in the future!" ”

My dad was even angrier and reprimanded, "But how can I live! Tell people to see the joke! Didn't a girl live with you before? She was the first person to dare to preach me. ”

"Dad, I've already driven that girl away, and I don't plan to get married again."

My dad seemed to be annoyed by me, he stared at me with round eyes, and reached out to slap me.

I didn't hide, I just stared at my dad without even blinking an eyelid.

My dad's slap hung in the air, and it never fell.

He exhaled heavily and took his hand back, "The man should get married, and the woman should get married!" It's not something you want to do! ”

I know my dad's temper too well, as long as it is something he recognizes, he will never change, otherwise how can I say that the times are moving too fast?

Although my dad and I are in the same city, and although the city center and the county town are more than 20 kilometers apart, our living standards are completely different.

Not only the town, but also the city center is like two worlds, with a promenade that is crowded with people 24 hours a day, and there are streets where no one can be seen after 9 p.m.

I don't know if it's a so-called generation gap, or if my dad's age and thinking can't keep up with the times.

I suddenly felt that I was so useless, my dad was about to retire, and he had to worry about my affairs every day, and I wanted to slap myself a few times now, just to make my heart feel better.

I didn't continue to talk to my dad on this topic, so I sat like this until Yin Lanlan was about to get out of school.

I glanced at the ancient clock hanging on the wall, stood up and said, "Dad, you wait for me at home for a while, and I'll pick up Yin Lanlan at school." ”

My dad smoked a cigarette and didn't speak, he glanced at me, and I didn't know if I heard what I said.

When I arrived at school, I happened to see Yin Lanlan walking out of the school gate with her schoolbag on her back, and after seeing me, Yin Lanlan directly trotted all the way over and threw herself into my arms and said, "Dad, you're here!" ”

I lifted Yin Lanlan so high and said, "Grandpa came to you today, are you happy?" ”

"Really? Daddy is so good! ”

I took Yin Lanlan home, and she also saw my dad sitting on the sofa, and threw herself into my dad's arms and shouted grandpa.

"Okay Lanlan, it's time to do your homework, and then play with grandpa after dinner, okay?" I walked towards Yin Lanlan and said.

Yin Lanlan turned her head and answered, opened her schoolbag and lay on the dining table writing homework.

I noticed that my father's expression was a little solemn, he smoked more and more frequently, and even his brows were twisted, and it took a long time for him to look at me and say, "Stinky boy, you come, I have something to ask you." ”

I know what my dad wants to ask, nine times out of ten it's about Yin Lanlan, and when I decided to raise Yin Lanlan, I didn't tell my dad either.

I nodded, pushed open the door of the room, looked at my dad and said, "Well, come into the house and say." ”

My dad coughed, spat into the trash can, got up and walked into my room.

When I entered the room, he was still sitting on the edge of the bed smoking a dry cigarette, and I waited a long time for him to speak.

"Dad, do you want to ask me if I divorced Shu Yang, why did I bring Yin Lanlan back?" I asked.

My dad glanced up at me, then withdrew his gaze, smoked a dry cigarette and said, "That's not it." ”

I couldn't help frowning slightly and asked, "What's that?" ”

"I definitely agree with you raising Yin Lanlan, people always have to pass on the ancestry, I'm afraid that the women you meet in the future will not be like your mother."

"My stepmother? What's wrong with her? ”

"You also saw it when your mother raised you, she has no second heart for you, she has never beaten you, if you find another woman in the future, aren't you afraid that she will treat Yin Lanlan badly?"

My heart chuckled, and without thinking, I responded, "No." ”

I don't know why, when I said these three words, what came to mind was Zhou Yao's appearance.

This kind of thinking is very subtle, maybe Zhou Yao once took care of Yin Lanlan, so in my subconscious, I have already used her as a benchmark to measure.