Now that Yan Rin had already made his words clear, how could he continue to bother him? When Yan Rin really refused, Lu Jiuyang thought that he should give up.

But how could he completely retreat to his sister's position? How can we take back the heart that has been given? She can hide her feelings, but if she wants to hide her feelings all the time and then face Yan Rin, she can't do it.

She thought that Yan Rin would be as good to her as ever, but all this was in the name of her sister. In this life, she has never had the opportunity to stand by Yan Rin's side in any other capacity.

Yes, Lu Jiuyang is unwilling. She couldn't imagine the days she would spend with Yan Rin in the future. So Lu Jiuyang's willfulness is online again.

She deleted all of Yan Rin's contact information. If you can't quit your feelings for Yan Rin, start by living away from Yan Rin.

Lu Jiuyang's personality is still very strange, sensibility and rationality are two extremes. She hates the relationship of dragging mud and water the most, so in the face of unrequited love that is destined to have no result, it is better to cut through the mess quickly.

Lu Jiuyang stood on the balcony for a long time, so long that she began to think that her acquaintance with Yan Rin was like a world away.

Yan Rin is really good, but his gentleness is a chronic poison that kills people without seeing blood, she has been poisoned deeply, and the dignity left to herself is like a grand exit before the poison.

Will she regret deleting Yan Rin? Yes, at any time in the future when you want to share, every time you think about him in the future.

Lu Jiuyang felt that she was a little unreasonable, and she began to feel sad after the thirteenth minute of deleting Yan Rin. All messages were cleared, all photos were sealed, and the phone was nothing more than scrap metal to her.

She remembered all the contact she had with him, and it turned out that they were just strangers without their phones. Probably shrouded in a sad aura, Lu Jiuyang didn't notice that Liang Shuang walked behind her.

"Little wife, if you drink too much, you still come out to blow the wind, be careful of headaches. It's up to me at the critical moment. ”

Liang Shuang took a coat and draped it on Jiuyang's body, in fact, she had been awake for a long time. She watched Jiuyang staring at her phone stupidly, and the answer she was looking for was self-evident.

She didn't know how to comfort Lu Jiuyang, so she could only stay by her side quietly, so quiet that she thought the wind was about to blow away the story between them.

"Liang Shuang, do you know? In fact, it is also a good thing that Yan Rin rejected me. Lu Jiuyang's voice sounded calmly on the side, and now she needed to pour out her feelings.

"I'm young and indefinite, and Yan Rin has to face too much gossip with me. I am paranoid and extreme, a pessimist by nature; My mother has always opposed my contact with Yan Rin, and we have even quarreled many times because of Yan Rin. ”

Lu Jiuyang gathered his coat and wrapped himself tightly in his warm arms. It turns out that so many reasons are hindering herself, so is it providence that she is not with Yan Rin?

"And the point is that he doesn't like me and just treats me like a sister. So you see, Yan Rin's refusal of me probably also went through a lot of deliberation. It seems that we really don't have the fate to go on. ”

Lu Jiuyang calmly analyzed the possibilities between her and Yan Rin, and the fact that they were one by one once again showed that the possibility between them was zero.

Liang Shuang listened to Lu Jiuyang's words silently, and at that moment she suddenly didn't know how to comfort Lu Jiuyang. She felt that Lu Jiuyang was different, but she couldn't tell what was different.

She pondered in her heart for a long time, trying her best to understand Lu Jiuyang's feelings. But there is no such thing as empathy in the world, let alone everyone's emotional problems.

"Little wife, I'm ...... Actually, I don't know how to comfort you. I haven't experienced the same relationship as you and Yan Rin, and I don't even know anything about feelings. Because in my mind, teenagers don't have violent feelings at all, because they don't understand. ”

"But when I heard the story of you and Yan Rin, I realized that the original relationship is no matter age, and love will favor everyone who needs love."

Liang Shuang stood beside Lu Jiuyang and felt the cool breath of the balcony together. In fact, it is very simple to deal with feelings when you are a teenager, such as Lu Jiuyang's goodbye with a quick knife, such as the afternoon when Liang Shuang supported Wu Youfan.

The love of young people will not be mixed with any impurities, for example, what I like at the moment will definitely spare no effort to share with you, and my sincerity will work hard to run to you even if it is not far away.

"A lot of times not all relationships will have a result, maybe no result is the best outcome. Joyoung, look ahead. None of us are him, we don't know what he thinks. But you should know your choice. ”

Emotional matters have always been the best proof of bystanders, and she is indeed not Yan Rin. Even if she thinks about it now, she won't understand Yan Rin's thoughts. Only your own choice is the most important thing.

The two people in the room were still asleep, and they stood on the balcony holding hands. The breeze carried the unique fragrance of the girls' dormitory, blowing away Lu Jiuyang's melancholy. As for the things that like Yan Rin, let the wind take it away.

Since that day, Lu Jiuyang has never mentioned Yan Rin again, she still eats, goes to class, and lives normally, but only familiar people can feel that some parts of Lu Jiuyang have become different.

Liang Shuang and the others thought that everything would pass over time, but only Lu Jiuyang understood that the light that Yan Rin had left behind was more and more illuminating every corner of her life.

After that day, Yan Rin looked for Lu Jiuyang, he wanted to have a good chat with the little girl, but Lu Jiuyang refused.

Three times, Yan Rin sent her different words.

The first time, Yan Rin was angry, he didn't expect the little girl to delete him. It turned out that her feelings for him were nothing more than that, and a year of getting along with her in exchange for her ruthless goodbye.

But Yan Rin still lowered his head to keep her, there was no way, who would let him love her. Yan Rin's love can't be appealed to, he can only silently do his best to care for her and love her.

"Little girl, you're too ruthless. Let's talk about it, a lot of things are not as simple as you think. ”

Yan Rin sent a friend application to Lu Jiuyang, but Lu Jiuyang refused. She knew that she couldn't take back her feelings for Yan Rin, and adding him back would only make her sink deeper and deeper into the quagmire.

The second time, Yan Rin asked the little girl about her studies and life like a daily conversation, and Lu Jiuyang saw the words he sent, and hid in the bathroom and didn't control his emotions.

It turned out that the habit of Yan Rin had long been ingrained in her bones, and she listened to his words of daily greetings as if nothing had happened between them.

But she gave up on him first, she gave herself and Yan Rin a chance, and her courage had already been used up that day. Whether Lu Jiuyang admits it or not, they just missed it.

After that day, the scar named Yan Rin on Lu Jiuyang's heart was uncovered again, and she began to habitually go to the balcony every night to stand for a while, and Yan Rin always appeared in her sleep with Yan Rin's back gradually drifting away.

When she woke up the next day, the pillowcase was always wet, but Lu Jiuyang was still living a good life like a normal person every day, and she knew that there was no point in feeling sorry for herself.

Lu Jiuyang's roommates all saw it, and they regretted that they had instigated her to confess at that time, and tried their best to make Lu Jiuyang happy. She knows the good intentions of her roommates, so she actively works hard to cooperate, hoping that they can feel at ease.

Only at night on the balcony is she truly empty, and she unscrupulously tells her friendship for Yan Rin in the silence of the night.

It is indeed possible to grow up overnight, in fact, after experiencing his mother's sudden illness, Lu Jiuyang began to understand the truth of growing up. No matter what she has been through before, at the end of the day, she is still a little rose who is protected by her family.

When she truly realized that she would lose her loved ones, Lu Jiuyang began to reflect on the willfulness of the past ten years. She even began to learn how to love her loved ones and how to face the provocation of death.

So my attitude towards my mother has changed from my heart to the outside, and I am slowly clarifying what I really love. So Yan Rin, you see, I'm growing up slowly without you.

It's just not as happy as I was with you before.

Lu Jiuyang began to write his thoughts into his diary, all of which were Yan Rin, but his name was not mentioned.

Yan Rin hadn't sent her a message for a long time after that time, until Lu Jiuyang was about to go on summer vacation.

"Little girl, a few months have passed, and the fire department has been very busy recently, so I don't have time to contact you. How have you been doing? In summer, if you are afraid of heat, you should drink less ice cola, eat more vegetables to ensure nutritional value, and you will not take the initiative to ask about your homework, students should be familiar with it, don't be afraid that others will not like you, you are the cutest when you open your heart. How is the relationship with my aunt? I think it's all taken care of. Well, it seems a bit verbose. ”

"Nothing else, just miss you so much. Last year, we ate hot pot and barbecue together, and this year you go to school and I go to the police, and we seem to have been together for a shorter time. Well, I'd love to know how you're doing, but I'm sure everything is fine. ”

"The old comrade is just a little verbose, and I don't force you to add me back. Maybe our fate is really only for one year. Little girl, I am very grateful to God for letting us meet last year, you are not me, and I will not understand what you mean to me. ”

Lu Jiuyang looked at Yan Rin's long words, this was the third time he was looking for himself. His concern, his helplessness, and his tolerance all made Lu Jiuyang have nowhere to escape.

You are not me, and you will not understand what you mean to me is Lu Jiuyang's diary written yesterday. It turns out that there are really hearts and souls in the world, and their meanings to each other are deeper than imagined.

Facing Yan Rin after a few months, Lu Jiuyang was reluctant to continue to keep his distance from him. Forget it, probably Yan Rin is really her destined catastrophe, and no one can cross it.

"Yan Rin, I've been doing well lately. I'm sorry, please forgive me for being willful. I can't accept that it's not fair to you to be with you even if I'm honest with you. In recent months, I've been getting along well with my mom and I've found something I'm interested in. When I left my mom and your shelter, I began to truly explore what the future would mean. I must be unreservedly honest with you. Yan Rin, I haven't let you go yet. So forgive me for not being able to add you back and let everything go back to square one. ”

"Maybe we'll meet again one day, and after that day I'll be sure to treat you like the best brother I can be. Pay attention to safety when dispatching the police. ”

Lu Jiuyang's tears were dripping down the screen, it turned out that he was still the one who could affect his emotions the most. It turns out that some feelings will only get deeper and deeper in the precipitation of the years.