I don't want to see Yan Rin anymore
That night, Yan Rin led Lu Jiuyang to eat skewers, and after the double friendship test of friends and netizens during this time, the relationship between the two has made a qualitative leap. She always makes fun of him for being a single and boring old man, and he often replies her for not knowing a word of.
The cool breeze of summer nights fills the air with the cool smell of chilled watermelon. The two people sitting at the roadside stall were very comfortable. The skewers in the grill were so fragrant that even the dripping specks of oil were calling them to eat it.
Lu Jiuyang's "10,000-year-old partner" is still Ice Coke, and she is holding the skewer skewer while sending it to Yan Rin's mouth. "Eat it quickly, Yan Rin, it's the most fragrant freshly baked. This string of filial piety is given to you, and I see how well I treat you. ”
Yan Rin took the sign and refused to feed her with her own hands. "Yes, yes, you are my ancestor. I can't eat it. "The skewers are really good, but he really doesn't eat dinner, especially fried and fried food.
However, he didn't dare to refuse the little ancestor's feeding, and once he refused, he would start the pitiful coquettish mode. Take out a posture that I'm not a white food party, and if you don't eat it, I won't eat it. From the first symbolic bite to the later cleaning up the mess, Yan Rin's exercise every night is gradually increasing.
"You don't come home for dinner every night, aren't your family worried?" Yan Rin asked her as if unintentionally.
"They guess they're so happy that they don't have to see me dead all day. Except for the care of Dr. Chen's treatment progress, he doesn't care about the rest. Yan Rin, do you annoy me? Lu Jiuyang's mouth was still stained with food residues, and she was like a squirrel stockpiling goods for the winter.
"I don't, little ancestor. I just wanted to ask you how you get along with your family. Yan Rin handed her a tissue and motioned for her to wipe her mouth.
Through this period of contact, Yan Rin found that Lu Jiuyang was a simple-minded and simple little girl. He hoped that she could untie the knot and slowly return to the life that belonged to her age. After all, he can't stay with her all the time, no one, she has to come out on her own.
"Have you ever wanted to have a good conversation with your family? Because you haven't communicated well with each other, maybe they don't know what you really feel. I think if your family can be with you, you will be happier than you are now. ”
She thought that Yan Rin's greatest concern would stop at her studies, but she didn't expect to be interested in her family. Lu Jiuyang's mood gradually deteriorated during this inquiry, and she began to wonder why Yan Rin wanted to destroy the sense of proportion between them, why did she want to explore her past? Obviously she is already very honest, why do you want to tear her scars?
At this time, her emotions had completely cooled down, and her eyes looking at Yan Rin were also full of defense.
"Why do you want to talk about it, they never thought to understand me, or even be able to do those dirty things in front of me. Why should I let them see my vulnerability, they never really thought about me! ”
Yan Rin looked at Lu Jiuyang's appearance and knew that he had lost his words, he thought he was already her friend. I didn't expect this question to make Lu Jiuyang so excited, he couldn't give up the small opening that he had so hard to prie open, even if it would make her uncomfortable.
"I don't mean anything else, but from the perspective of an older friend, I suggest that you go home and talk to your family, even if they have done a lot of hurt. But family is family after all, and they are the people who love you the most in the world. People make mistakes all their lives, so why can't you let them go and let yourself go? ”
Lu Jiuyang understood that Yan Rin's purpose today was to let her face the problems she didn't dare to face in the past. It turned out that he knew her better than she thought.
Yes, she has been running away from her family problems. The betrayal of her friends is just a booster, and everything is inseparable from the pain brought to her by her original family. She has never wanted to admit it, and she has been reassuring herself since she was a child.
She didn't dare to face her life, and she didn't dare to admit the fact that her father was a criminal and her mother remarried. She hid in her own little shell, ignoring the lack of love, ignoring the pain of her family, and healing herself. She gradually became a sensible child in the eyes of adults, no longer expressing her desires truly, and no longer revealing her emotions easily.
Behind every sealed time, there is a road Jiuyang that does not grow long. No one else can save her, and she can't save herself. The pain of the original family will probably take a lifetime to heal.
These are all questions that Yan Rin doesn't understand, he must have grown up in a loving environment, so he is sincere, kind, and can share his love with others. But the real Lu Jiuyang is unbearable, selfish, and barren about love.
Is it communicating with your family? Authentic communication only makes their relationship more awkward and detached; Or do you have a quiet chat? But her mother would only tell her to come out on her own and put her mind at ease. So how she wants to talk to Yan Rin, no matter what she says, he won't understand. Forget it, she's tired.
"Yan Rin, I've thought about everything you said, but some things can't be solved so simply. I'm full, let's go. "She just wants to go back to her little bed now, where she will always be silently accepted for all she has.
Seeing her mood change, she habitually wiped her fingers repeatedly. Yan Rin regretted that she cared about her and ignored the fact that she was a patient. After all, he couldn't take back what he said, so he could only send her home silently.
The child is so sensible that it makes people feel distressed, and they are obviously unhappy and pretend to say goodbye to him as if nothing happened. Yan Rin didn't control herself, touched her head with her hand, and said sorry to her with her actions.
Tonight is destined to be a sleepless night, whether it is Lu Jiuyang or Yan Rin.
Lu Jiuyang opened the door of his house and touched his head in the dark hallway, and there was still the residual warmth of Yan Rin's palm on his head. It's really hateful, why should he help himself face reality? Why did you touch her head as a sign of comfort after saying that?
She squatted in the hallway and cried for a long time, constantly thinking back to Yan Rin's question. She also wants to have the love of her family, but no one wants to give Lu Jiuyang the love she needs.
Lu Jiuyang really hates people who can affect her emotions, and she doesn't want to experience this feeling of gain and loss anymore.
So she decided to give up contact with Yan Rin and cut off her dependence on him. Poor Yan Rin was still immersed in remorse, and he didn't know anything about Lu Jiuyang's decision.
Early the next morning, Lu Jiuyang's mobile phone began to vibrate. She rubbed her crying and swollen almond eyes, opened her phone, and saw the message from Yan Rin.
"I'm sorry kids, I shouldn't be involved in your chores. As an apology, I invited you to your favorite hot pot after work today. I swear I won't ask again. "It's been a long time since I've heard Yan Rin call her child, and there is a cute little expression behind the news.
It's a pity that Lu Jiuyang doesn't want to see Yan Rin anymore, at least not in the short term. After a few days of calming, she decided to settle something more important.