Most people avoid loneliness, so they use loneliness as an excuse to choose love, choose marriage, imagine that if there is no such person, they will be lonely, and only when that person appears, can they get rid of it. So people search and seek, and all their lives, as if the meaning of life is to find that person, and everything is prepared for the arrival of that person, and then that guy comes, so that the soul is satisfied.

Finally, finally, finally, that person appeared, hehe, the person who is a stranger to anyone, it takes a long time, a process, a painful pull, a temptation to come and go, and finally you can understand that he or she is the one who ends loneliness. Maybe you have been proud of this process, but looking back is ridiculous, maybe one day, you will suddenly find that even if the whole world is by your side, as long as there is no him, there is no person, in fact, your world is as lonely, at this time, I am afraid that I have really touched love.

Then people start to be more lonely, because without this person, no matter how noisy the world is, your heart still desires. Then people will find that the disgust and indifference of that person gradually creep all over his face, and from then on, even if he is by his side, his heart is the same loneliness.

Finally the pain begins, people struggle, the painful people begin to yearn for the absence of this person, for a simple person, that is such freedom, and they believe that the loneliness of the mind without distractions is a symbol of enjoying freedom, so people want to go back, but unfortunately they can never go back.

Because love is a drug, once it is contaminated, it can no longer be done to love only yourself.

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The day after Bei Bei threw away his mobile phone, he was discovered by Shao Baige.

He called Bei Bei to the office early in the morning, originally wanting her to accompany Sun Ning to the show, but as soon as she entered the door, Shao Baige noticed something different. Babe didn't have the strength to hide anything anymore, and she leaned down in front of the big desk and ripped off the tissue box on his desk. Then Shao Baige took the beer from the refrigerator, and the two of them drank it together.

"This guy is a brute. Bei Bei scolded, the beer squirted out of the spray, her face was heroic, she was really different from the first time, she did not scream hysterically, but was indignant and shouting, like a warrior.

Shao Baige didn't comfort her, he didn't think Bei Bei needed to be comforted, she poured wine like a man, and she couldn't drink it, in short, in Shao Baige's heart, he hoped that Peng Cheng's injury would be more painful, maybe then she could really escape from him and no longer be nostalgic.

"What are you going to do?"

"Don't do it, it'll be fine after a long time. Bei Bei looked out the window at the wilderness that was still full of wind and sand, and her heart hurt. She hadn't forgotten all of this, and he had a new trick, and although she no longer lost her mind, it didn't make her feel even a little better, and the pain that should have come was the same, but her ability to bear it seemed to have become stronger, because she was already a person who had seen the world.

"The last can is good? Shao Baige's gray suit was as clean as new, he took out two more cans of beer and handed them to Bei Bei's eyes: "What about your mobile phone? You don't have a phone and my dad is looking for you, what should you do? I'm fine, he will definitely lose his temper." ”

"Hey, aren't you a little clean, who washed your clothes?" Bei Bei didn't answer him, she reached for his collar.

"I'll buy you a phone tomorrow!" Shao Baige didn't dodge or get angry, he knew that she was just embarrassed, she threw away the phone, which made her feel ashamed, and everything between Peng Cheng made her feel ashamed, she had a strong self-esteem that is rare for girls, Shao Baige looked at Bei Bei who was about to divert the topic, she was still a little clumsy performing, obviously she was more timid in her heart.

"No, I don't want to use the phone. Bei Bei withdrew her hand, his evasion made her feel even more*, Shao Baige seemed to see her heart, he was peaceful and wise, so that her powerful appearance also collapsed.

"It's an escape. ”

"Love thinks about it. ”

Bei Bei said that Zhou had dried the rest of the beer, she turned and walked towards the door, perhaps thinking of something She stopped at the door, and both of them fell into waiting, but nothing came of it, she pushed the door and walked out of his office.

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Every day after that, Shao Baige would remind the absent-minded Bei Bei to cheer up. She was either staring at the computer in a daze or hiding in the bathroom. Sun Ning came to her twice and took her to a nearby city to play, but it couldn't stop this woman from becoming more and more withdrawn and shriveled. So finally one day, Shao Baige asked her, since she had determined the direction, why did she still become like this, was she sure that she didn't agree?

"Because I still like him?"

Bei Bei replied a little helplessly, she was too honest, she pursed her lips, she didn't even want to tell herself about this sentence, but it didn't change anything, just like the sun, it was the sun, hanging high, you don't want to admit it, it's still the sun.

She slumped her shoulders helplessly, and sat on the stool as if her whole body had collapsed on it. She stared unfocused at an unknown spot, then gently bit her lower lip to calm down, she swallowed: "This is terrible, isn't it?" She raised her eyes especially calmly, as if it didn't matter, she was strong enough to resist desire.

"Is there any way to change it?" Shao Baige was a little weak, he leaned back in his chair for the first time, unable to do anything This felt terrible, he only felt a stuffy breath in his chest, and he couldn't feel comfortable. Bei Bei said so many things, he almost remembered that she could always say things that others couldn't think of, those words were so to the point, so appropriate and wise, they could get him out of trouble, why was Peng Cheng alone, she just couldn't step on him?

"Not right now. "There are so many things that time can change, why can't it just change her? Everything that Bei Bei thought could pass, everything that had passed, is still so clear and translucent in retrospect, and the pain is intense, just like yesterday, is it the new pain that is too similar to the previous one? Is it that it awakens the bad memories that have been sealed for a long time?

"Is this man worthy of liking? Can you explain to me why no one else can see what is good about him?" Shao Baige was very strange, he rarely tilted his head and put his whole face in front of the other party's eyes, which was very impolite.

"You know that, Bebe, I think he's a scoundrel, a scoundrel. ”